Figure it out.

Pose & Joint : PM . Ayana 5

This is a bit of a different look, even by my standards. I've always looked at the cute pastel goth girls within SL and adored the style, but I've never been fully able to grasp how to pull it off.

Today, I feel like I might have actually done it. 

Some of the people I know are completely amazing, and I feel like as I continue my journey of self-enlightenment (lol?), I'm encountering aspects of these people that may never have unfolded before.

The last couple of days my spoons have been plentiful. I have been throwing them around willy nilly (I LOVE THAT SAYING!) and have had actual in-depth conversations with people that I love, which totally fill my heart with all the happy feels and things.

Anwaaay. One of these people (and he's "awesome" so he'll know who he is), have set me a challenge. I'm pretty well known for having the mouth of a sailor. No, it's not salty or always doused in rum, but I do have a tendency to swear. I curse when I'm sad. I curse when I'm happy. I curse when I'm excited. There is no situation where my cursing is left by the wayside... I am uncouth. Knowing what I'm going through in great detail, Adam (DAMNIT! Now he's gonna think I care about him or something!) suggested I attempt to change my language in a effort to think more positively.

So that's what I'm gonna do. Even IF I fail miserably and end up effing and blinding, I think that the potential for change is HUGE! Not only will it improve my language, but losing the negative context of those curse words might help to bring on a more positive mindset.

Whether you agree with the nonsense I've just written or not, I want you to bear in mind that it's an experiment for personal betterment, and regardless of the results, that in itself is something I think I deserve to be proud of.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Insol: 'Just Alice' gacha // 2. Lost brows - ST Milk (B2) @ Epiphany

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes

Eye Appliers : Go&See * Equa* Catwa Eyes

Eyebrows : Found in the Catwa hud, tinted.

Eyeshadow : -SU!- Oksana Eyeshadow 

Moles & Freckles : Bossie.  freckles & beauty marks [catwa]

Lipstick : Bossie. plush matte lipsticks [catwa] 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Rox Ears 

Earrings : Kibitz - Hailey's pearl heart hoops @ Kustom9

Hair : Exile:: Alibi

Tattoo : DAPPA - Venus Tattoo @ Mermaid Cove

Jacket : +MB+ Unicorn Jacket - Item only available on MP >Here<

Rings : (Yummy)  Serena Rings 

Shorts : Ricielli - Lary Shorts @ Cosmopolitan

Boots : EQUAL - Zara Boots

Surface level.

Pose, Coffee & Phone prop : *!R.O!* Routine BENTO Pose 

Location : Orchard Heights (Family Community please dress accordingly!)

I've never been particularly attached to my phone, but I AM exceedingly attached to my PC, so I kind of understand how easy it is to get distracted by something shiny and all of a sudden you've beavered into your best friends neighbours boyfriends fathers business-partners facebook profile, and you're wondering how you got there, slightly bemused with cheerios dripping down your chin.

I've also never really been one to share much on social media. I guess to me that equates to telling people about my life, and honestly, if you're not involved in my life, why do you care? What good is telling my third cousin that I just ate a bowl of porridge and quite fancy a nap now?

I don't do anything particularly exciting, RL or SL, and I guess the closest I get to over-sharing is probably to do with Consent, which'll happen at the moment once or twice a week.

However, I do often wonder what the world is coming to.

I believe we've all become somehow desensitized to 'real life'. We see something violent online, and it can become amusing rather than disturbing. We are no longer rooting for people to make it, but celebrating their losses. We don't interact as humans, but as robots, liking and hearting all of the posts instead of commenting to the person themselves.

Introversion is becoming far more prominent, mental health is in decline.

Is this because of technology & social media, or is this just what the world is morphing into?

The above picture pretty much describes how I see it. We're trapped in a little bubble of our own colourful world, and the outskirts of it are grey and bleak. We might be scared to put down that phone, or step away from the computer for fear of missing out - but the reality is there's probably far more going on in the grey that we're missing, and it's right in front of us.

Maudlin? Not necessarily. I do think a healthy balance of RL & Social Media can be beneficial, and I'm really the last person to be preaching about spending less time attached to that little screen waiting for Veronica to post her latest snapchat photo of her having "Such a good time with the girls in the club"... ultimately, whatever you're doing, however you're using your time online, remember, hiding in the grey, is life. Grab it.

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Lara Hurley-Rie Milky 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/(Gacha)

Hair & Hat : Beusy: "Delete" Hairstyle [Game Over Gacha / Item] RARE @ The Epiphany

Choker : Eclat - Velvet Choker

Playsuit : _CandyDoll_ Corina Jumper (Mainstore release)

Bag : Intrigue Co. - Fanny Pack

Boots : EQUAL - Drew Boots @ FaMESHed