I give in.

Pose : FOXCITY. Breezy-7m (edited with Animare)

Background : anxiety %local v1

I often forget about the Lelutka heads, but then I put one on and suddenly, it brings back how much I abso-freaking-lutley adore them. Every single head I've purchased from them (and I now have at least five) has bought something new.. no matter how small, and each time they up their game I'm at a loss for words. Needless to say when I saw the new Go&See skin specifically for the new brand of Lelutka heads, I made big ol' grabby hands for it!
I also decided to do the Slink body with the petite add-on for mah bewbies. I LOVE playing with (myself? LOL) my avatar, creating shapes that I believe to be fairly realistic.. and the petite add-on for the Slink helps me achieve that as I was never keen on the way the hourglass body breasts protruded.. but I am a huge fan of this shape. It's fair to say this was inspired not only by the new Go&See skin, but also Muggleborn, who go above and beyond to rig for bodies and augments that not every creator manages to include.
I probably don't say this enough, but I am SO amazingly grateful for all the beautiful brands that trust me with their creations, without their items, I'm almost certain my creativity would have been stunted as often I need a little push!
xoxo

Oh look! TONES! \o/
Starting at the top left, there's Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy
Bottom left, Tan, Tropic, Choco, Cola and I think a new tone (?) Dusky

All of the things :

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  & Petite chest augment
Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3
Skin : Go&See * Gwen * Lelutka ~ Powder Pack [2.19]
Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)
Hair :tram I0210 hair @ Uber
Necklace & Armbands : Avada~ Theodora Necklace & Cassia Armband @ The Secret Affair
Feathers : .aisling. Velasco
Nipple piercings : - Fika - Imprison Piercing
Dress : +MB+ Rosalee Dress  @ Whore Couture (Opens March 1st LM to follow, demo in mainstore)
Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 01

Did you forget?

Pose : FOXCITY. Highlights-3 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background items : 

Refuge - Selene Ottoman Cream/G 

[DDD] Twinkle Patches - Giant Patch

{anc} mist cloud [sungold] 

Skye Studio Enchanted Forest

::Static:: Grandfather Clock - Walnut @ Enchantment

Today I'm showcasing some more items from Enchantment. It might seem a little bizarre to be a nudey-pants while depicting an event aimed at fairytales, but the Grimm fairytales were never aimed at children and were in fact converted over time to appeal to kids.

Anywho, the idea behind the picture is to try and show how I feel a lot of the time as an adult. The clock represents the ticking of time, as I become older, I'm reminded that our time here is short. I don't mean that in a morbid way at all, but rather that we often spend our time focusing on the wrong things, worrying about how others are living their lives and not concentrating on doing the best for us. It's supposed represent a bit of a dream-like state, the position Pickle is in (which is almost a fetal position) signifies the fact that often, I really don't feel like I'm adulting to a respectable level. Most days, it's actually hard to even drag myself out of bed, and so I tend to celebrate the fact I managed to do just that by patting myself on the back and neglecting other things I just know I -should- do. 

Of course, there's the undertones of storybooks and fairytales, most of which I will make grabby hands at to cling to because although my body is constantly in flux and the wrinkles are getting deeper, my mind is still fixed in my twenties or even below, with some minor adjustments and understandings I wish I'd had back then.

Once more, I'm not entirely sure this description makes any sense. I just know that there are times we need to just stop and attempt to make things work, our way. 

I think that's what we all try to do daily. Be kind to each other, please. There really isn't enough love showcased in the world, and if you can't see it - be it. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Head & Eyebrows : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : {Letituier} Valen Hair @ Enchantment

Tattoo : *Queen oF Ink - Real Story Tattoo @ Enchantment

Cyber arm : [omnis] BlackWidow

Come for me.

Pose : IMMODEST:: *DAUNTLESS V2 @ The Dark Style Fair.

Background & Props : {ID} Bloodbath Backdrop 1.1 @ The Secret Affair 

"Moon_Sha" Prisoner Skeletons @ The Secret Affair 

The Secret Affair opens it's doors for the "Pennhurst Asylum" edition today at noon SL, yay! 

I'm lucky enough to be a blogger for this fabulous event, and if you haven't been to any previous - you're definitely going to want to head to this one!

With each round, the event creators design a brand new set-up around the theme of the event so this time you can guarantee it's going to be a super spooky experience!

In this picture, Pickle has been the subject of many experiments, which lead her to having an unknown head attached to her neck. Luckily, her and the head (We'll call him Bob) have become fairly good friends and have meticulously planned their escape. The skeletons around the room are the experimental failures, and I like to think that the stance she's in indicates that the doctor who made her this way is in for a rough time when he opens the door next. because she's not gonna go down without a fight!

Have a great friday and be sure to stay safe, so you don't end up like Pickle!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Body Skin : Go&See 

Head(s) : Hotdog - NH . Siamese unrelated heads . RARE .@ Lootbox

Hair : tram H0414 hair

Collar : Kibitz - Sub thick choker - weirdo @ Lootbox

Tattoo : [NYNE] Full Bloody Body @ The Secret Affair 

Outfit : 5. bh. uniform pm (Gacha) @ The Secret Affair 

Nails : .:Avanti:. Hetra Claws @ The Dark Style Fair

Shoes : [ae] Straight Jacket Shoes Slink White - Blood @ The Secret Affair

Chew you up.

Pose : FOXCITY. Spotlight-6 (alternate)

Background : WR - sort of sci-fi (Animated with animare)

I almost forgot to write here today!
I've been watching the Shane Dawson youtube series on Jake Paul, and part of me wants to associate everything he's saying to 90% of SL (Sometimes, myself included!)
It's proving to be something I'm on the edge of my seat for, and I never really paid attention to the Paul Family or even "influencers" on youtube before quite recently.
Anywho. I have a long day ahead of me (I think) and I didn't sleep well last night - so check out the pretties I've found for this look below, and have an awesome day!
xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : Insol: Seo applier, tone 'Tanned' 

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : Hayaru - Jung mesh eyes

CURELESS [+] Yuurei Eyes / HELL (unable to retrieve LM, region down)

Lipstick : in Catwa hud

Face Tattoo : DAPPA - Satan Spawn. @ The Dark Style Fair

Hair : DOUX - Bambi hairstyle 

Hair & Horns add on : DOUX - Demon hairstyle

Choker : #SHOOK - Identity Choker {SAVAGE] @ The Level Event

Scarification : + Demon Spit // Knife Play / Devil Child / Fresh @ Salem

Pauldron : ieQED scale.pauldron.titanium (No longer available)

Nipples : !~SV~! Nipples 

Nipple Piercings : [CX] Kinky Cobra 

Corset :  [CX] Taut Amour Corset (Gacha)

Arm : [omnis] BlackWidow

Claws & Tattoo (human hand) : [ Conviction ] The Claws - Possesion @ Salem

Shorts :  [CX]  26 Luceat Arachne Shorts and Socks (Gacha)

Raise your spirits.

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL1-2m (Alternate hand position)

Props : Refuge - Fairytale Mirror 

*HEXtraordinary* Hanging Lantern Branches (Fifty Linden Friday!)

Mutresse-Exhausted-Shortie Cats (Gacha)

+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter - Stripe - Floor Bra

tarte. enchanted slumber 

I think I need a cat.

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : { Clair de Lune } Aurora (No longer available)

Head : CATWA Lona

Glasses : .tsg. Shy Megane 

Hair : *booN Lab.005 hair 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Melody Tattoo. @ Kinky Event

Let's get lost.

Pose : <K&S> Love Scars. couple 2 (Gacha)

Props : Culprit Sonata Macabre @ Salem (Opens Sept 29th)

*Funky*Junk* Halloween Decor Set 2 

Apple Fall Pug Ceramic Decor

I like to imagine that Pickle and Durex have crept into an old, abandoned house in this photograph.

I'm not entirely sure where they've strewn their clothing, or what possessed them to run around such a creepy place with their pants down, but we all do crazy things sometimes, and maybe this is one of those times!

Culprit has once again stunned me with their magical bento Piano.

Don't get me wrong, it's not going to perform card tricks, or pull a rabbit from a top hat, but that doesn't make it any less spectacular! I'm adding another little gif whatsit below so that you can get a glimpse of the wonderful animations included - but please do demo the item for yourself so that you get the full effect!

I'm struggling to keep up with the awesome that Dappa is producing lately! It continues to warm my heart that brands I love who are still supporting me after a long time, manage to push their way into mainstream events one by one. There's no doubt in my mind that Dappa is entirely deserving of his current status, and he is always among the first tattoo brand that I will recommend to anyone looking for new art, not just because he's kind enough to allow me to review his items, but because the quality is always absolutely spot on.
xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair : Vango. Alex

Tattoo : DAPPA - Tengu Tattoo. @ Neo Japan

Undies : STRAY DOG - signature - boxer (free with body skin purchase)

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : AMITOMO Eye Collection

Eyeliner : YKON - The 4 Girlies Types - Catwa/OMEGA

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Theory @ Uber

Tattoo : DAPPA - Vesper Tattoo. @ Man Cave

Shirt : :::insanya::: RaverTop - Lust

Fishnets/panties : [Cynful] Cliqueish Fishnet Set 

Shoes : [MODA] PAMELA PLATFORM

Every second.

Pose & Lounger/Swing : FOXCITY. Cozy-7 @ Uber

Props : junk. wannabe boho. rug. three. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. wall hanging. navy. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. petal mirror. metal. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. drawers. yellow. RARE. (Gacha)

Soy. Green Plants Wall Panel

Soy.  Shisha [liquid night]

Soy.  OSC- OLD RADIO LP PLAYER (Gacha)

[-BLUE SKY-] Definition Frame - SMILE

[-BLUE SKY-] Definition Frame - LOVE

Hair : Opale . Flora Hair 

So yeah. It's been a bit rough lately.

Fuck it though, right?

I'm going to choose to smile.

I'm going to choose to love.

And I'm going to choose to live. 

Just give me a minute to make all this work. 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : AMITOMO Eye Collection

Eyeliner : YKON - The 4 Girlies Types - Catwa/OMEGA

Earrings : Nova -- Lucia Earrings

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Theory @ Uber

Sweater : .miss chelsea. True @ Uber

Nipples : !~SV~! Nipples 

Nipple Piercings : [CX] Kinky Cobra 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Mantra Tattoo. @ Men Only Monthly

Shorts :.miss chelsea. Mira Shorts

Leg warmers : !Rebel Hope - Wella Mesh Knit Leg Warmers

Choose love.

Pose : FOXCITY. Portrait-7m

Location : Missing Melody

The last couple of days have been a bit odd for me.

I'm coming to terms with the fact that I have been numbing reality with avoidance, which makes complete sense given my issues... but it's the self-awareness that I didn't have before that now makes everything so obvious to me.

About a week ago I was given some news about someone who used to be very important to me. I loved them with my whole heart, and unfortunately, circumstances that could have been avoided by communication meant we ended up parting ways.

The news isn't good. In fact, from what I'm hearing it's terminal.

At first, I followed the path of what I've done before, immersing myself in nonsense to stop myself from feeling too much. Today however... today I am shrouding myself in sadness and so far, the tears haven't stopped falling.

There aren't many options available to me. The second-hand information I'm receiving is basic at best. There's no certainty about time, and it's very possible I've already lost someone who is in part responsible for me attempting to get my shit together.

My heart is heavy, and I need to gather my thoughts.

Hold the ones you love dear. Cherish every moment and for goodness sake, don't shy away from telling people how you feel. All we have is a collection of moments. Don't let them slip away.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : .ARISE. Sadie Eyes

Eyelashes & Tears : Enfer Sombre* - Cry Baby Set 

Hair :  .ICONIC.:GAIA: @ The Hair Fair 2018

Shirt : toksik - Selva Top 

Pants : .miss chelsea. True Pants @ Uber

Make me cry.

Pose : FOXCITY. Good Morning-7m

Background : wr - D....I....S....C.....Oh

I wasn't entirely sure what I was going to write here today (as usual, I suppose), but I decided to pick up on the Dappa Scars set and open a dialogue that I think is glossed over quite regularly.

There's a pretty big difference between self-harm and masochism.

From a personal standpoint, I find it difficult to understand either of these actions, but I am aware they exist, and where the Dappa tattoos may look beautiful in terms of SL, they would be extremely scary for me to witness on a friend irl.

I'm pretty ignorant to all of this, honestly - and please read the following knowing I am not an expert, but this is merely an opinion.

Self-harm is usually a way to feel, to keep control of a world that is spinning wildly on it's axis. It's about relief or a distraction to stop you from overthinking a certain subject. I'm sure there are many more reasons for hurting yourself, but ultimately it's a means to peace, no matter how brief. I can't say I agree, but I will attempt to be sensitive to those who self-harm while suggesting they seek some kind of help, even if it's just opening up to someone on a regular basis.

With masochism, it's an enjoyment of the pain. It's not about hurting yourself through shame or lack of control, but because the pain is erotic, or serves a purpose. Masochists will often hook up with people who enjoy inflicting this kind of pain, Sadists. The relationship between these two kinds of people can be pretty explosive from what I gather, but please be aware this is entirely different to abuse. Consent will feature highly on the agenda of the couple, and the pain is not inflicted so that the Masochist feels worthless or less than, in fact it's very often a way of showing love and affection.

I realize this isn't for everyone, and honestly, you approach me with a razorblade, a knife or ask no matter how politely, to punch me in the face and I WILL run away as fast as possible, however I do respect that some people need this type of a relationship to function.

The only, only reason I mentioned any of this is because I don't want it to be "cool" to cut. 

It's not cool. It's very uncool.

There is also a very fine line between S&M and abuse, and if you feel negatively about the type of relationship you're in, please think carefully before you allow it to continue.

Wishing you a safe, sane and consensual Saturday.

xoxo

Go&See has produced a fantastic new skin for catwa - called "Isla".

It's available in two exclusive tones - Witchy and Moonly along with a usual tone, Pale.

I absolutely love all of these tones, there are very slight differences - pale is definitely more pink, witchy has a slightly greeny-blue undertone and moonly is more luminous.

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : Go&See * Isla * @ The Fantasy Collective

Head : CATWA Catya

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Noldor Elf Ear

Hair : Blues. Nori 

Collar : -Narcisse- Querencia Collar

 Tattoo/Scars : DAPPA - Daddy's Scars. @ Equal10

Sweater : Tee*fy Winnie Slouchy Sweater  

Panties : From the BigBeautifulDoll - SUSANNE Mesh Lingerie Set

Socks : .tsg. Prissy Ruffle Socks 

Shoes : #SHOOK - Kadie Heels @ Access

Friday night.

Pose : [LaBaguette] Imok 3 Mirr

Background : #selfie_RAMA- Vertical Palm Wall 'Pink'

My whole little mental health journey is taking some interesting turns.

It's become apparent to me that there are far more negative energies in me that I was aware of. I mean, I know I'm not perfect - show me someone who is, but recently I have really begun to notice some disturbing patterns. It's not malicious, but sometimes I am hurting so much because of some ridiculous ideals I have in my head, I end up purposefully causing pain to someone else. Misery loves company, right?

Let me explain a little more.

I am not delusional enough to think that I am always right, but part of me is delusional enough to think that I am always right. That means there's a constant struggle in me, the knowing deep down that 1. I cannot control other people and their reactions to my actions and/or words, and 2. sometimes, I'm the toxic one.

Naturally, that fills me with absolute fear, because I don't WANT to be toxic, ever.

Ultimately, now I have recognized these disturbing bad habits, my goal is to change the way I approach those situations. I'm pretty old now, so undoing that amount of "oops no" is gonna be pretty tough, but it's baby steps! As with everything I am discovering about myself and the world around me, I am going to be taking three steps forwards.. before freewheeling two steps back and then starting again.

I'm grateful for those who see the good in me, regardless of my ew, and have been reminded regularly of the quote;

"What you value, you invest in."

and sometimes, you need to invest in you.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin (Head) : TRES BEAU MAKEUP LELUTKA LUV 

Skin (Body) : S.E  BODY SKIN 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY 

Eyeliner : Just Magnetized - Classic Liner set 01

Septum & Bindi : 3. ^^Swallow^^ Supreme  Gold and Strawberry 02 (Gacha)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears

Hairbase : Tableau Vivant (I'm not sure of the exact one, but it's for lelutka!)

Hair : [e] Karina

Tattoo : Izzie's - Metallic Arrow Tattoo

Dress : .miss chelsea. Elia Dress @ Kustom9 (Opens tomorrow, 15th Sept)

Shoes : {Zaara} Padma Mojari shoes 

Never enough.

Pose : [La Baguette] Caprice 10

Background & props : *HEXtraordinary* Dragon Wall Sconce Lamp @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

*HEXtraordinary* Dragon Torchiere Lamp @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

*HEXtraordinary* Dragon Desk Lamp @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

*HEXtraordinary* Cozy Dragonets @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

*HEXtraordinary* Shoulder Dragon (Worn) @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

*HEXtraordinary* Dragonet Companion (Floating above the table) @ The Arcade (Opens Sept 1st)

22769 ~ [bauwerk] The Wizards Small Bookshelf 

22769 ~ [bauwerk] Shelf with Pots

22769 ~ [bauwerk] The Wizards Magic Book

22769 ~ [bauwerk] The Wizards Table

22769 ~ [bauwerk] Table Cauldron

22769 ~ [bauwerk] Wizard Ingrediences 

It's almost September, and most of you will be aware that when September comes, so does The Arcade.

When I saw these cute little offerings for The Arcade by Hextraordinary drop in Blogotex, my brain immediately started whirring, after all who doesn't want to have a Khaleesi moment and become the Mother of Dragons??

The dragons come in three versions, Shoulder pet, Companion and Rezzable, all of which have adorable animations. There are also three lamps to pick up, the wall lamp, a table lamp and a stand-alone lamp. All of these are shown in the picture above, and let me assure you the detail is astounding.

The skin I'm wearing today is by Go&See at Blush. There are several tones, and four head applier versions available, Lelutka (shown above), Genus, Catwa & Omega. I'm using the Cola tone, and below you can see how this looks on the different heads.

Catwa Catya.

Lelutka May

The Genus Project

Read below for more details!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin :  Go&See * Birdy * Cola @ Blush

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY 

Eyes : LeLutka Eyes.May 3.0

Eye Applier (on ALL heads shown above) : Lotus. Melancholy Eyes @ PocketGacha (available in Mesh, Catwa Appliers & Lelutka Appliers)

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pixie Ears

Hair & Hairbase (Lelutka) : Tableau Vivant \\ Punky 

Hairbase (Genus & Catwa) : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Bra : From the Dhoma - Leda Lingerie @ Cosmopolitan

You're so shook!

Pose : FOXCITY. Effortless V2-4m

My brain is in my big toe today, so rather than me waffling and not making any sense, check out the awesome swimsuit from Shook!

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : L'Etre Skin Shop - Isabela Skin 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY @ Mesh Body Addicts

Eyes : LeLutka Eyes.May 3.0

Eye Applier : Lotus. Lovelust Eyes @ PocketGacha

Piercing : -SU!- Medusa Piercing

Hairbase & Hair : S.E LORY HAIRBASE HUD 

Visor : S.E LORY VISOR COLLECTION

Glasses : #SHOOK - Lunari Sunglasses

Swimsuit :#SHOOK - Aorian Swimsuit @ Access Event