Nothing really matters but...

Pose : FOXCITY. Breezy-2

Before I go to sleep, I like to Youtube. I have a pretty select number of channels that I actually enjoy, from your generic make-up artists to more newsy type things, and sometimes even a good ol' conspiracy.

I was watching Philip DeFranco last night, he's a news type dude, but will give you the facts then if necessary he'll give you his opinion. I like this a lot. He seems fair, he doesn't appear to have an agenda, and I've been finding out some really cool shit about the world that I'd never have known before, because the mainstream news just makes me want to punch kittens through boredom.

Last night he mentioned how Instagram was going to start making likes on their posts less visible in order to raise the quality of content people were posting, and my dead little heart SOARED. THIS. This whole principle is exactly why I am planning a break, to distance myself from the "Likes = quality content" crap surrounding blogging and photography. I want to bring content to readers/viewers of my blog that adds something to their lives, whether that surrounds RL mental health issues and my perspectives, or something in SL that bugs me. I want to be slightly more informational, maybe more pictures indicating the quality of the product i'm blogging, maybe a feature on a sim, maybe more close ups and definitely more informational vlogs, which will hopefully increase in quality the more I practice!

My opinions will be broadcast even more. So if you don't like this part of my blogging, you can totally skip over it (probably like you already do, right?) and if you do, well you're gonna be in for a treat! 

The other advantage of me stepping away from the Likes debacle, will hopefully mean that I don't value the opinions of strangers on my work, and this external validation that I feel necessary will deplete. I know I'm decent at what I do, and if that makes me a big headed, entitled cowbag, I'll take that title. I know I 'deserve' things that other people are getting, but I also know that as much as I deserve what other people are getting, so do many many bloggers and photographers that are far better than I am, so why not just take that whole 'competition' aspect I feel from blogging away, and turn it back into what it should be, what it has been in the past, and what I love... a place I can show my style, give information and overall have some bloody fun.

Just today by taking away the "Omg I gotta" aspect from my photo, I feel like I encapsulated a side of the Pickle avatar that had been long forgotten, and it came easily. 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : . MILA . Neave Skin [Honey] GENUS 

Eyes : Veechi - Foxy Eyes @ UBER

Eyeliner :  Veechi  - Basic Glossy Liner

Hair : -FABIA-<Vitalina> @ The Gacha Garden 

Necklace : MINIMAL - Camera Necklace *Gold*

Shirt : evani. Polly ribbed dress @ Collabor88

I didn't know...

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL2-6m

Beautifimous Proppages : {moss&mink} Trinity bath & Tera Planters (Grey) @ FaMESHedX

{moss&mink} #Blessed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers

Fundati's Great Grass Chamomile

Pixel Mode - Anahata - Floor Candles (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

Pixel Mode - Victoria's Bath - White Towel Stack (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

{anc} bubbles . 

Okay Spoonies, so I know I had a total melt down a couple of days ago and basically spewed a bit of hate about how so unfair it is that recognition in blogging does not always equate to talent, but some delusional idea of 'fame', HOWEVER, I may have had an epiphany... and this is why I love blogging, because I get to share it with you.

I've spoken before about how my daughter lives with my parents, you may have to dig a little deeply to find that, but the full post is within this here blog, and I attribute that fact to me now being able to move on in a much healthier direction. 

Today my daughter called me absolutely distraught. We've had issues getting her to go to school on a regular basis, and today was one of those days. As punishment for her refusal to go, Grandad took away the internet, and she was sad about it because, like most 16 year olds, she likes to spend her days playing games with her online friends.

As I was trying to calm her and explain that when you're good, good things happen, and when you're bad you're punished, I suddenly realized this wasn't entirely true. So there I am, stumbling over my words and trying to explain that to my daughter, when it only just sunk in for me.

Don't misunderstand, I KNEW life wasn't fair. It just didn't sink in that one day I might have to explain that to someone else, nor that I'd make a bit of a twat of myself by expressing the very same sentiment in that one post we're never going to speak of again!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Somali> GROUP GIFT

Tattoo : DAPPA - Magnolia Tattoo. @ Harajuku

Bikini : Luder! Miyu Microkini 

Haze.

Pose : FOXCITY. Autumn-1 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background Items :  RAMA - #selfie_RAMA Flower-Garden Lavatory RARE @ Backdrop City

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes 'Bong' (Gacha item)

The weed plants are from somewhere on marketplace a million years ago - I think they may even be prims.

Sleepy, please come back tomorrow for some ranties.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Eyeliner : Veechi - Basic Glossy Liner

Hair : DOUX - Tyrisha Hairstyle @ Belle Event

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal 10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Herz Tattoo. @ Man Cave Event

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Sana Set @ Uber

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Song Su- @ The Epiphany

The dog ate my homework.

Pose : Foxcity. Breezy-1

Bag : NS::  Belty Trip Backpack @ A+ Event - Note! This backpack comes with straps and is designed to be worn on your back! I photoshopped the arms out. It also comes with a couple of super cute poses, so check it out!

Background & Props : [ Focus Poses ] School Hallway Backdrop

So I had a rant yesterday, but you'll be pleased to know I'm feeling much better today... less bitter and whole lot refreshed and ready to provide some beautiful products from some wonderful creators.

I know I've used this pose before, but it really was perfect. As I was getting ready for this picture, my friend Apple told me "You look like a confused college student, that's there to study rather than party" so, I ran with that for a minute and grabbed some props, until Apple was ready to continue the story to it's thrilling climax.. " But you also want to save the hedgehogs, and the rally is on the same day as your final exam, and you need to pass it or you'll flunk the year, and have to redo it again, but that's just what your nemesis wants, the cool girl from the top table, she's even gone as far as getting someone to let the tires down on your car, so you have to run, hence the sneakers"

I think I need more time with Apple.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair : DOUX - Lala hairstyle @ Dubai Event

Hairband : #Foxy - Lace Cat Ears 'Panther'

Glasses : DAZED. Concubine Glasses

Collar : (Yummy) Crochet Choker 

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Tina Set @ N21

Gloves : **RE** Motor Gloves 

Own it.

Pose : FOXCITY. Fairytale Pose 2

Bunnies (Overides the pose slightly on >>this side) : [La Baguette] White Bunnies 

Background things : Fundati's Great Grass (square) Chamomile

Boudoir Egg Piles

Today has been slightly insane. Not only has it legitimately taken 2 days for me to set up a bunch of eggs behind my avatar, but it's also been one of those real life 'family' moments I'd really rather forget.

I've never understood the point in silencing someone when they have something to say, unless it's derogatory to another party. I don't understand how senior citizens can believe it's okay, either. 

Still, chocolate egg, anyone?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : . MILA . Christina Skin [Ivory] CATWA 

Eyes : [JOE SL] GIGI MESH EYES 

Hair : .Entwined. Jennifer 

Outfit : -Narcisse- Some Bunny 2 Love Gacha @ The Epiphany

Work it out.

Pose : {PINGPONG} MIMI Bento poses #4 (I don't think this store exists anymore, sorry.)

Background : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - RGB Drive @ Backdrop City

I feel super cute in this whole outfit, go buy it all, immediately, and feel cute with me!

(or don't, but at least tell me I'm adorable.)

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : . MILA . Christina Skin [Ivory] CATWA 

Eyes : {S0NG} :: Bubble Eyes 

Eyeliner : Veechi - Scarlett Liner [Catwa]

Ears : L'Etre - Pure mesh ears PIXIE

Hairbase : Tableau Vivant \\ Catwa hairbase 11 - A

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Madeline> @ Tres Chic

Choker : #SHOOK - Identity Choker {SAVAGE}

Shirt : BUENO-NeoTop @ Kustom9

Pants : SPIRIT - Nancy pants @ Kustom9

Shoes : Native - Guetta Sneakers  @ Access

Ok, so this vid is a little weird and I think in an attempt to be edgy they might have cut corners.. but I actually kinda like the song, and the vid was just kinda.. unironically ironic and almost cool. *blinks*.

Always waiting.

Pose : FOXCITY. Legs for Days-4 (Slightly edited with Animare)

Background & Prop things : {moss&mink} Tufted Chaise @ FaMESHed

{moss&mink} Oversized Pouf @ FaMESHed

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Vase

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Wreath

Mutresse-Exhausted-Shortie Cats

dust bunny . fresh fruit stand . lemons

dust bunny . quirky planters . pug

dust bunny . at home baking . lemon plant

Apple Fall Antique Ladders w/ Heart String

Kalopsia - Faith's Mirrors

{vespertine}- spider plant.

Taken in the 01. Lagom - PinkKink [Skybox] RARE (Not sure if this is at an event, but thank you so much for the gift, Cutie!)

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : Catwa Skin applier - Peach - Snow (Enfer Sombre*)

Eyes : [JOE SL] GIGI MESH EYES SKY GREEN 

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyebrows : Bossie. miki eyebrows [omega] 

Ears :.random.Matter.  - Natural Elfie Ears

Freckles : [okkbye] Faux Freckles from an old edition of Powder Pack

Hair : DOUX - Valentina hairstyle 

Headpiece : *HEXtraordinary* Pink Dogwood Wreath - This isn't meant to be worn on your head, but I shoved it there anyway! Some editing may be required :P

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Nocturnal Tattoo @ Anybody

Dress : evani. Polly ribbed dress @ Collabor88

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Hoshiko Wedges @ Access

Live without it.

Pose : FOXCITY. Loco-4

Background : FOXCITY.  Photo Booth - Aeonian 

Today I'm showcasing the beautiful FKA skin from Revoul.

I knew it was a homage to the artist FKA Twigs, but honestly, I wasn't entirely sure who this person was. I've since watched a few of her music videos, listened to her music and done a little bit of research on her, and it turns out that not only is this amazingly talented woman a genre of her own, but she's also a bloody Brit! Go-on, Love! Also, can we just take a minute to admire the completely gorgeous hair styles she sports? Kthnx.

The inspiration behind the look today was based on FKA Twigs "Two Weeks" Music Video, which you can see right at the bottom of this post!

xoxo

Above you'll find all the tones that are available in the FKA Skin Range. It's worth noting that the teeth are on the skin, so even when your lips are closed, you're going to see them. It did take me a minute to make a shape for my mouth, but I'm almost certain you'll agree the result is well worth it! There is a shape available from Revoul.. I just really enjoy making my own!

Check out the cute lipstick shades!

All of the things :

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Lefort by Revoul.FKA Genus Applier 

Eyes : AMITOMO.Eye Collection #5 

Hair : +Spellbound+ Pyramids

Hairbase : SIIX // Pyramids Hairbase // Black

Headpiece : =Zenith=Gothic Rose headpiece 

Septum :(Yummy) Eclipse Septum - Gold

Shirt : Moon Elixir - Baby Doll - Top 

What's inside you.

Pose : FOXCITY. Lucid-3

Props : Pixel Mode - Fall Harvest 

JIAN :: Bunnies

[DDD] Lil' Garden Plot - Carrots

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : [Glam Affair] Serenity Applier [ Catwa ]

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyes : LOTUS. Camouflage Eyes 

Eyebrows : [okkbye] bucolic eyebrows (catwa)

Nose & Freckles Tattoo :[okkbye] deer girl face paint (Gacha)

Hair : Stealthic - Intrepid 

Bunny ears : + Cotton Usagi Ears+ {aii}

Choker : Hazy. UsagiNyan Choker. Ivory (Gacha)

Outfit : -Narcisse- Romy @ FaMESHed

Gloves/Sleeves : Sweet Thing. Lolita Lace Cuffs 

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Mutsoko Heels @ Belle Event

Take the long way home.

Pose : Foxcity. Made Up-1 (Fatpack Exclusive) (Note, the cupcake over-rides that hand&arm pose)

Cupcake : :::ChicChica::: Sweet Gacha #12

Background ; [BH9] - Brinkles ATM V1

So I succumbed to the fact that I might need a new head (obviously, I didn't, but I still DID). Initially, I thought I wanted the LAQ Ivy head, which I tried and gosh, it's beautiful... but then I started to wonder about what I could do to make it feel like me, and realized that there would be fewer skins, and lesser make up options... so I ran around for a while and tried this one, from Catwa. I still wanted the big eyes and doll-like features from the LAQ head, but with Catwa I knew I could find some skins that would work, due to the marketplace being full of them... and yay! I found one! (and also tried a good few older ones I have in my inventory and a fair amount of those worked too!) 

I really don't know why I have so many mesh heads. Part of me thinks it's just because it's SL and you can literally change your look from day to day in accordance with your budget, and in RL I think we'd all like to do that some times, although it might be a bit Worzel Gummidge (Older British people might remember good ol' Worzel!)

Anywho, have a beautiful day, Spoonies.

xoxo

All of the things.

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : [Glam Affair] Serenity Applier [ Catwa ]

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyes : LOTUS. Camouflage Eyes 12 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Magic Pixie Ears 

Hair : tram G0210 hair

Choker : Amala- The Ariana Choker - Gold

Tattoo : DAPPA - Antora Tattoo.@ TLC

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Mona Set @ N21

If you do nothing else today, take a moment to listen to this beautifully under-rated song. ♥

I know that it's a secret...

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL3-1(Edited slightly with Animare)

Background : {moss&mink} Spring Birdbath (Part of the MadPea Spring Hunt)

{moss&mink} Bunny Hop hunt items,
including : {moss&mink} Bunny Platter - Cupcake

{moss&mink} Bunny Platter - Macarons

{moss&mink} Book & Magazine stack

{moss&mink} Bunny Cup - Mallows

NS::  Bunny Bag For Bunny Hop

Fundati's Great Grass Chamomile @ Cosmopolitan

(Fundati) Mossy Rocks

(Fundati) Coleogyne Bushes 

(Fundati) Ruins W/Ivy

Couple of hunt items available in the blog today. The first mentioned is the MadPea Spring Hunt, and you can find all details on the MadPea website, including the starting point. You grab a hud and run around the grid in search of cute creatures, capturing them on your hud. Depending on the amount of creatures you catch, you can then run back to the start point to pick up some prizes from selected stores.

The second hunt is the Bunny Hop, follow the link to find the starting point. It runs from April 1-14th, with 30 participating stores. It's claimed to be a hard hunt, so make sure your camming skills are amaze!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Catya

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA BAE (PEARL)

Birthmarks :  [okkbye]  bold birthmarks 

Eyes : LOTUS. Liquid Eyes
Eyebrows : [okkbye] Adumbrate Eyebrows 

Hair : -FABIA- Gacha   <Norma> @ Lootbox

Hair bow, Necklace & Earrings : NS::  [Bunny Hop Hunt] 

Shirt : Mug - Flower Child - #9 String Tank Pink @ Lootbox

Shorts : BUENO-Spring Shorts @ Kustom9

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Li Ling Wedges @ FaMESHed

Conspicuous.

Pose : [La Baguette] Kazi G.sit poses 4

Background : FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 - Ringa Linga (Rez) RARE @ Backdrop City

The tiger is from a Poseidon pose set, as part of a rare.

I seem to have rediscovered my love of the Black Dragon viewer today. I initially loaded it up remembering how smooth it was to cam around and thought maybe it would be a better option for vlogging, but when I adjusted my settings, I remembered how much I adored the crispness for photography, too.

I initially stopped using the viewer because it had become laggy and was cumbersome for me to move around on it, when I took a large picture, it would crash, and i'd have to relog and attempt to rez everything all over again, which had also become difficult. I suppose there's been a few updates since then, as it must have been 6 months or more ago that I stopped, but now everything runs far better, and nothing has changed on my end, except maybe driver updates!

Anywho, here's hoping that the curve of learning continues and my  photography only excels!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)

Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Vanessa> @ Cosmopolitan

Necklace : *PROMAGIC* Kaali -Necklace

Tattoo : DAPPA - Conjure Tattoo. (Previously at Skin Fair)

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Elin Set @ Uber

Gloves : **RE** Motor Gloves 

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Konami Heels @ Collabor88

Maybe.

Pose : Foxcity. Sits VOL1-5 (Edited with animare)

Background things : ionic : Teacher Scene - RARE

Soy. Window [Here I am] green   

Hi, I'm exhausted. I people'd. They're hard work.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Baby Face)

Eyes : [theSkinnery] Autumn Eerie eyes 

Glasses : K{<3}P - Yami Glasses 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Silvia> @ Unik Event (I couldn't find a start date for this event, Sorry!)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Legion Tattoo.@ Men Only Monthly

Collar : (epoque.s) Neo Classicist Collar - White // Gold Studs (Welp, this store hasn't been around in forever..Oops.)

Shirt & Skirt : NS::  3mo vs Girly @ Fluffy Kawaii

Socks :fri.- Cozy.Socks

Kneepad : *MUKA* Spike Kneepads

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Miniso Sneakers @ Soiree

Completely unrelated video, but if you do nothing else today, listen and watch. <3