So today I think I blew up the world a little bit...
I don't mean that in a bad way, but the more I blow up, the more I realize that this is what needs to be done to rebuild.
I need to be a little vague right now, until I've actually decided 100% how to approach my plans, but there's going to be a few changes to my blog, how I blog and probably the over-all look of my blog. I've spent a long time (almost 4 years) feeling like I don't belong, so rather than attempting to fit in to a community that hasn't really offered me any support other than the early access to events and the occasional promo of stores looking for bloggers, it's time for me to really, really blog for me - to practice what I preach.
I'm nearing my 1000th post. I think that'd be a great new start... there might be a short break in between there, but as I attempt to make a difference to my RL, it's time I address my SL too, especially if I want to use the platform in a far more healthy way.
I got all freaked out today when I read in my "Yes Man" book (yes, re-reading it, it's good, don't judge me), that someone had their interest PEAKED. Now, I always thought it was PIQUED. So now we're going on a google journey to find out the difference.
Piqued : verb
past tense: piqued; past participle: piqued
1.
arouse (interest or curiosity).
"with his scientific curiosity piqued, he was looking forward to being able to analyse his find"
irritate, annoy, bother, vex, provoke, displease, upset, offend, affront, anger, exasperate, infuriate, gall, irk, get someone's back up, disgruntle, nettle, needle, ruffle, get on someone's nerves, ruffle someone's feathers,
Peaked : adjective
having a peak.
"a peaked cap"
Well okay then, Penguin Books (I think?), why are you allowing an incorrect term in your most awesome Yes Man story? I'm going to write a stern note to the editor! (Not really, far too lazy for that.)
Anyway. now that my curiosity has been sated, let's only use peaked in relation to things with a peak, yah? Thanks so much.
Headpiece : *HEXtraordinary* Pink Dogwood Wreath - This isn't meant to be worn on your head, but I shoved it there anyway! Some editing may be required :P
This scene was a little bit of a challenge for me, but ultimately I'm super happy with the outcome!
I really enjoy attempting to pull everything together coherently, while attempting to give a little visual story to go along with it. It's definitely a work in progress (as is my photography process in general!) and I'm thoroughly enjoying learning new things and trying new angles!
Happy days are here, and The Secret Affair has opened it's doors for the December round!
You can find more information about the event on the website >Here< or simply take the tp to transport yourself to the winter wonderland that has been created for you to peruse some fabulous goodies!
Dress : .Viki. Titania @The Secret Affair (Inworld store unavailable for SLURL at time of posting)
Bit of an obvious choice for a song this time, but it really was running around my head during the whole creation of this post, so you're welcome for the music mite that will potentially burrow into your earholes! <3
The last couple of days have been a bit odd for me.
I'm coming to terms with the fact that I have been numbing reality with avoidance, which makes complete sense given my issues... but it's the self-awareness that I didn't have before that now makes everything so obvious to me.
About a week ago I was given some news about someone who used to be very important to me. I loved them with my whole heart, and unfortunately, circumstances that could have been avoided by communication meant we ended up parting ways.
The news isn't good. In fact, from what I'm hearing it's terminal.
At first, I followed the path of what I've done before, immersing myself in nonsense to stop myself from feeling too much. Today however... today I am shrouding myself in sadness and so far, the tears haven't stopped falling.
There aren't many options available to me. The second-hand information I'm receiving is basic at best. There's no certainty about time, and it's very possible I've already lost someone who is in part responsible for me attempting to get my shit together.
My heart is heavy, and I need to gather my thoughts.
Hold the ones you love dear. Cherish every moment and for goodness sake, don't shy away from telling people how you feel. All we have is a collection of moments. Don't let them slip away.
I'm going to keep this short and sweet today, mainly because I'm hoping to pop out a Man-Pickle post. I feel like he's been neglected lately!
My inspiration for today was the amazing sweater & leggings from CandyDoll. Yes, we're squeeing all over them, why? Well, if you look closely, you'll see that not only is it a bit nipply out, but the butt (shown below) is legitimately amazing.
Not gonna lie, the whole ensemble took me a minute to put together. Again, some of these items might be a little on the "older" side of SL fashion, but honestly, the quality is still there, so I'm going to rock all the things in my inventory until they wear out!
When I popped the Little Bones hair & hat on my head I knew I was finally getting somewhere, it really gives the impression that Pickle is a Russian Countess (I don't even know if they have them there, but I'm going with it), waiting for her driver after an expensive luncheon with one of her lady-friends. Mhm, today I am a Lady Who Lunches.
I hope your weekend was amazing, now here are some things:
So, yesterday was the two year anniversary of me starting the Kaleidoscope blog.
Today, I decided that I'm going to try and use this as what it is. MY blog.
For a long time, I've avoided writing much here, purely because I have a tendency to blurt, rant, overthink and then hate everything I write and in reality, I can't imagine anyone actually wanting to read a bunch of Pickle nonsense. However - here we go. No doubt those who come for informative fashion advice will just scroll right past this and that's just peachy, you do you, Boo.
Today I wanted to introduce you properly to my alt, Paloma. She's been featuring fairly regularly here and I feel like she needs a name to her face!
I've never really had a problem with alts, unless they're shady. People I care about are aware of the fact I use alts (yes, multiples of) and why I chose to use them. For me, Paloma is my sanctuary, so opening up and sharing her with you is actually a big deal. (Also, how do you describe your alts? I mean, they're all me, so should I still refer to her as "Her" or "Me"? I'm going with "Her", because I'm "Me, Pickle" here. Now I'm even more confused, because I'm never not me...)
For a long time, I sat on my platform as Pickle, and didn't explore beyond the few 'regular' sims I'd very rarely visit. My SL had become more and more enclosed and it was difficult for me to branch out due to meeting the 'wrong' types of people and feeling trapped, bitter and jaded by the negative I'd experienced.
Paloma has actually opened up a few doors for me. Thanks to the feeling of freedom I experienced on her, I've developed entirely new relationships with people I would never have found without that free feeling. I'm in a much happier SL place, and although I still have days where i'm "meh" about all the things, I also have more days where I'm more likely to be "Hey, it's almost like I fit here!" again. I'm involving myself in activities I never thought I'd try, and through those activities, i'm meeting even more new and wonderful people. I'm no longer wastefully spending my SL time standing like a statue
I've even met a man that doesn't appear to be a complete dick (at the moment! I hope you read this, Jer!) and I'm so sickeningly contented, I sometimes annoy myself.
So what's the purpose of Paloma in terms of Kaleidoscope? Well, as I've been spending a little more time on her lately, I didn't want to forget about my passion for blogging. So I dress her up, and naturally want to show her off. Because of the freedom I feel being on her, she's become slightly more alternative than Pickle, and I feel like showing the products I love in a different way will only serve to benefit the readers/information seekers more. I hope you enjoy her, as much as I do!
Before I run off and squirrel about everything that has been rolling around in my head for - well, forever - , I want to thank you all for reading/checking out my blog up until now. I am genuinely, completely in awe of the support, likes, shares, positive words and constructive criticism that I have received. It is a piece of me. It is entirely mine. It is a place I have used continually to explore creativity, push my boundaries and explore who I am, and having others to share it with is beyond amazing. I will thoroughly encourage this to anyone who just wants to document the process of growing in ANY field. It's wonderful to look back and be able to see an improvement.
I never know how to stop writing once I start, but I guess you came here for goodies, so... here they are!
Skin : Essences - Tawny Group Gift(Note : There is a 100L fee to join the group. There's also a 100L SALE going on in store right now. You do NOT have to be in the group to take advantage of the sale, so head over and throw your money in that direction, skin whores!)
