Without a scratch.

Pose : <K&S> Loveliness pose 1 (Slightly edited with animare)

Background : WeArH0uSE [tunnel] Backdrop (it was at Cosmopolitan, but i'm not sure if it's the current round)

How easy it is to be sucked into the negative!

I heard somewhere that for every bad thing you hear about yourself, you hear 13 good things that you glaze over because you've taught yourself not to believe them, so now, whenever I hear someone who doesn't know me say something bad about me, I'll try to recall just five nice things I've heard from people who do know me.

Don't get me wrong, I know I have bad points, but let's face it, unless it's coming to you in the form of asked for constructive criticism, it's going to often appear like an attack... which will probably put the initiator on the defensive, and there's your argument start point.

I won't argue anymore. I can't. I'm too tired.

Instead, I'll internalize, and most of the time I'll come to the conclusion that when it really, really isn't me initiating the negative, it says more about them than it does me.

Love and light.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : [Glam Affair] Serenity Applier [ Catwa ]

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyes : LOTUS. Camouflage Eyes 12 

Eyebrows : [okkbye] bucolic eyebrows (catwa)

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Magic Pixie Ears 

Glasses : -[TWC]- Asshole Glasses -CLr BLk-

Hair : .Shi : Sa-Rah

Nose ring & Choker : Spookshow - Abyss Set

Tattoo : DAPPA - Claudia Tattoo. @ Kinky Event

Jacket : Native Urban - Melo Jacket @ Uber

Shorts : EVANI - Hanna shorts [LATEX RARE](Gacha)

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Tomomi Patent Heels @ Kinky Event

Some good.

Pose : K&S - // No chance to be without you 

Swans : Culprit Swan Seat White (BENTO)

Culprit Swan Seat Black (BENTO)

Available at a 100% Donation to Relay For Life @ The Home & Garden Expo

Taken at my homestead.

I spoke to my RL Mum today. She's a stickler for doing things her way, and as I've been slowly inching my way towards health and happiness, she's not always had the most supportive things to say. "Well hurry up and get it done" has pretty much been the narrative.

We've never had the best relationship, we're a lot alike in personality and we'd clash regularly throughout my teens and.. well, until now, really.

I started to talk to her differently. When I call or visit, I make sure I actually engage with her. I ask her how she is and I listen. I might not have a complete handle on my emotions yet and naturally there's still times where I snap, or she snaps, and we sit in silence for a moment.

Most recently she asked if I liked a pair of shoes she'd purchased for my daughter. I probably should have thought through my answer to be a little more mindful of the effort she went to, but my reply was something along the lines of "Not really, they look like special shoes." She huffed, a lot. For a 70 year old lady she can tantrum like a 6 year old... and rather than just letting it go, I snapped "If you don't want my opinion, don't ask."

I reckon I'm gonna feel bad about that interaction for a while, but I also think that maybe that was important, because I've tended to cower in her presence, and finally, at the grand ol' age of 38, I think I stood up to my Mum.

During my musings about my mental health, I've often wondered how hard it must have been for her growing up, so long ago. It's hardly surprising she has issues due to what she's faced in her past, and having an understanding of that will hopefully allow us to connect on a completely different level.

Anywho. Enjoy the contents of today's blawwwg. Be good to yourself, and each other!

xoxo

Revoul tones for the Arabella Genus Applier skin. I'm wearing RE20, which is top right!

In this set of pictures I'm wearing the DOUX - Brianna Hairstyle and my eyes are Lotus Royalty Mesh Eyes.

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : Lefort by Revoul Arabella Genus Applier (+ Chubby Body Applier for Belleza) @ Collabor88

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Rox Ears

Hair : *ARGRACE* MAYU (Not sure if this is still available!)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Petal Tattoo. @ Access

Bikini : +MB+ Brianna Bikini 

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 

Back here.

Pose : <K&S> Loveliness pose 3

Pretties behind Pickle : {LORE} Elven Gazebo  @ Enchantment

*HEXtraordinary* Cupid Fountain

Bee Designs Hobbit hole Gacha @ Enchantment

*alirium* PuffyGrass 

Jian :: Cobblestone Path

So I'm kinda getting a bird box vs LOTR vibe with this picture.
Still love it though!
xoxo

All of the things :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : VCO ~ GENUS  'Woonie' Skin Applier (Gacha) @ Kustom9

Hair : *PH* charmmy hair #5 @ Limit8

Flowers on head/Collar : Zibska ~ Aubree @ Enchantment

Blindfold & Wrist flowers : *N*Elf's flowy accessories @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival 

Dress : +Dreamcatcher+ Silk dress @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival 

Bottle pack : kotte - travellers elixir @ Enchantment

In a minute.

Pose : (left) *!R.O!* Shhh BENTO Pose (right) <K&S> ~Leonard~ Pose 2 

Background : .:Joplino:. Backdrop GGEZ @ Suicide Dollz

*katat0nik* (orange banana) Holiday Gift Bag (Gacha)

I'm having a weird day today, so I'm just gonna throw some credits around, k?

Happy Saturday.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier @ Uber

Eyes : LOTUS. Unhappy Eyes @ The Gacha Garden

Eyeliner : Veechi - Scarlett Liner [Lelutka] @ The Cupid Event

Cheek hearts : Veechi Cutie Hearts [Lelutka] @ The Cupid Event

Hair : DOUX - Zoe hairstyle 

Lingerie : -Narcisse- Lascivious Lingerie @ Kinky Event

Never left my mind.

Pose : K&S - // do you like me? // Bento pose

Background : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - City Life (Rez)

You might recognize today's guest from around this time last year. (also, you might not, but say hi anyway ok?).

Santi is making his debut back in the bloggy blog, after a cool 6 months or so away. 

It wasn't his fault he disappeared, but he was more of a casualty in my pre-self-awakening (is that even a thing?). Whatever, he's back now... and I'm not gonna let this lil bugger wriggle away again, because he truly is a gem.

I've decided I talk too much about myself. I mean, they say write about what you know, and maybe that extends to conversation too, but I can't help but feel I'm on the verge of becoming super annoying and also slightly preachy, so for that reason, I'm going to shut up. Or try to. >.>

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin & Eyelashes : [okkbye] bunnie tone001 

Blush : TS Omega Cold Days Heart Blush Applier @ The Arcade

Hair : .Doe:  Sweetum - Gingers @ The Arcade

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Joli Gag, .miss chelsea. Joli Light Harness RARE, .miss chelsea. Joli Panties @ The Epiphany

Where you should be.

Pose : K&S - // I just love you // Bento pose (Slightly edited with Animare)

Pupper (not included in pose) : O.M.E.N - Christmas Morning - Puppy - Beige

Decor : {anc} NOEL. :  tears tree / 9Li RARE (Gacha)

DRD lazy Christmas chair

I'm so happy with how this picture turned out!

I roped in Durex again, because let's face facts - I gotta love me more than anyone else!

xoxo

All the things, Durex: 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Hair : Vango. Alex

All of the things :

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Essences - Luisa (Genus) @ Kustom9

Eyes : Go&See * Babe * Genus Eyes

Lipstick : The Face ~ Genus - Original ~ Lipsticks palette

Hair : tram H1116 hair @ Uber

Tattoo : DAPPA - Mehndi Tattoo. @ Ultra

Lingerie : #EMPIRE - Xmas - Wrapped - Panties & #EMPIRE - Xmas - Wrapped - Bra @ The Arcade

Move it.

Pose : <K&S> Loveliness pose 3

Background : anxiety %f25 @ Backdrop City

I think I've touched briefly on how difficult it can be as a blogger to 'compete' with the other talent out there at the moment, and sometimes while I'm busy complaining and feeling sorry for myself over another rejection, I forget how extraordinarily lucky I am, and how grateful I should be for the creations my 'sponsors' are generous enough to gift me - and all to allow me to continue taking some photographs of myself.

I'm a bit of a stubborn and proud person. Daily, I try and work on that but old habits die hard. I don't apply to stores just because I want free things. I apply to stores because their creativity inspires mine. The "free" things are nice, but in the grand scheme of things, I'm probably only going to wear them/use them once or twice because being a blogger means that at least every day (usually more, because I have far too much free time!) I change my outfit.

This is massive for me, because for the last three years, blogging has been my hobby and that turned into a passion. I absolutely love taking someone else's creative work (with their permission of course!) and twisting that into a story that - although I may be the only one to see it - makes sense to me and despite not being successful with every new application I make, my aspirations for my blog and photography are bigger than they have ever been, and I will continue to strive for better photography, better commentary and a better Pickle to bring them all together.

Thank you to all my beautiful "sponsors" (I really do hate that term!) for coming along with me on my journey... and thank you to everyone who peeks in occasionally reading my dribble. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY 

Skin : . MILA . Alice Skin [Honey] LELUTKA 

Eyes : Go&See * Enchanted * Mesh Eyes

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Vixen Shadow

Earrings : :: SAGA :: Vegvisir Earrings @ Kustom9

Hair : *barberyumyum*B01 & *barberyumyum*(+bangs) (C)

Dress : -Narcisse- Mila Laced Mini Dress for Bound Box

Unravel me.

Pose : K&S - // on the same page // Bento pose 

Background things : Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround

{moss&mink} Drop Curtain 

{moss&mink} Emma Bed 

{moss&mink} Geometric Orb Deco @ TLC

{moss&mink} Lolli Ottoman (PG) @ TLC

[Black Bantam] Yorkie Puppy Sitting

Once again I stole Mal for a quick picture. He makes quite a good man-dolly, poor Durex is no doubt quaking that he has lost his spot!

The idea for this picture is that Mal is getting ready to go to work, but being the super needy Pickle, I've jumped on him. I think it's fairly obvious from his expression that he wasn't expecting a chunky lump of me on his back! I hope you enjoy the pretties today, and while you look at all the credits, I'm going to jump back on him, because No, No. You cannot has the work today. Ok?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA Hailey

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Eyeshadow : Veechi - I can't remember which one... but it's at the mainstore! 

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hairbase : L'Etre - Chloe hairbase 

Hair : DOUX - Andromeda hairstyle 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Maji Tattoo @ Vanity Event

Top (Lower picture) : ::LV:. Scarlett Top 

Panties : [VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES 

Socks & Stockings : .:Avanti:. Harlow Socks 

Growing darker.

Pose : <K&S> Cause I'm drowning for ya 4 (Gacha) (edited slightly with Animare)

Background : WR - Repulsion redux

I'm not entirely sure if Durex is dragging Pickle away to save her, or if he's got his own murderous plans... either way, avoiding those creepy looking hands will be beneficial!

Ok, so I want you to hold on to your pants, because this might take a while to get through!

Go&See has released this absolutely stunning "Aria" Skin, available at Blush. It comes in 9 tones (you can find the tones >HERE< and include the exclusive shades Witchy, Moonly and Light), and as shown above, white brows, white brows & freckles, dark brows & freckles, and dark brows. There's also a no eyebrow version I couldn't squeeze in, so you can add your favourite brows!

I'm wearing my personal favourite shade "Pale", but I guarantee each tone is just as beautiful as the next!

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Go&See * Aria * @ Blush

Head : CATWA Catya

Choker :  #SHOOK - Identity Choker [DOLL] @ The Level Event

Hair : Eliavah ~ Tsukuyomi Hair @ The Hair Fair 2018

Skirt : -Narcisse- Trill Pleated Mini @ Kinky Event

Tattoo : DAPPA - Swarm Tattoo. @ Vanity

Claws : [CX] Canidae Claws

All of the things, Durex : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Go&See * Pale * Theo 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skrell

Eyes : Go&See * Magic * Eyes @ Anybody

Face Tattoo : DAPPA - Anti-Christ.@ The Dark Style Fair

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Nails in ear : [CX] Heavily Nailed (Group Gift)

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Vango. Henry

Body Tattoo : DAPPA - Fvneral Tattoo. @ The Black Fair

Jeans : [ VERSOV ] STEFOV_JEANS

Let's get lost.

Pose : <K&S> Love Scars. couple 2 (Gacha)

Props : Culprit Sonata Macabre @ Salem (Opens Sept 29th)

*Funky*Junk* Halloween Decor Set 2 

Apple Fall Pug Ceramic Decor

I like to imagine that Pickle and Durex have crept into an old, abandoned house in this photograph.

I'm not entirely sure where they've strewn their clothing, or what possessed them to run around such a creepy place with their pants down, but we all do crazy things sometimes, and maybe this is one of those times!

Culprit has once again stunned me with their magical bento Piano.

Don't get me wrong, it's not going to perform card tricks, or pull a rabbit from a top hat, but that doesn't make it any less spectacular! I'm adding another little gif whatsit below so that you can get a glimpse of the wonderful animations included - but please do demo the item for yourself so that you get the full effect!

I'm struggling to keep up with the awesome that Dappa is producing lately! It continues to warm my heart that brands I love who are still supporting me after a long time, manage to push their way into mainstream events one by one. There's no doubt in my mind that Dappa is entirely deserving of his current status, and he is always among the first tattoo brand that I will recommend to anyone looking for new art, not just because he's kind enough to allow me to review his items, but because the quality is always absolutely spot on.
xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair : Vango. Alex

Tattoo : DAPPA - Tengu Tattoo. @ Neo Japan

Undies : STRAY DOG - signature - boxer (free with body skin purchase)

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : AMITOMO Eye Collection

Eyeliner : YKON - The 4 Girlies Types - Catwa/OMEGA

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Theory @ Uber

Tattoo : DAPPA - Vesper Tattoo. @ Man Cave

Shirt : :::insanya::: RaverTop - Lust

Fishnets/panties : [Cynful] Cliqueish Fishnet Set 

Shoes : [MODA] PAMELA PLATFORM

Heartbeat dancing.

Pose : <K&S> Paper love RARE (gacha)

It's been a while since Durex has featured here, so I decided to dig him out of his semi-retirement phase and throw him into the darkness to choke the fudge outta Pickle. 

Let's face it, I'm sure there would have been plenty of volunteers.. *coughs* but Durex will always be my go-to in terms of male-models, he's just so pliable!

I don't have any fancy words of wisdom today, so for all the information, keep scrolling down!

xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin (Head): Not Found - Robert Skin 

Skin (Body) : Clef de Peau.Body Tight 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skrell

Eyes : Go&See * Ares * Eyes (Catwa, Genus & Mesh versions)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Stealthic - Rebellion

Face Tattoo : DAPPA - Broken Face Tattoo. @ Level Event

Body Tattoo : DAPPA - Setsuko Tattoo. @ Signature Event

Undies : RIOT / Richard Boxer Briefs 

All of the things, Pickle 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin :  Go&See * Birdy * Pale @ Blush

Head :  CATWA HEAD Catya

Makeup : DeeTaleZ MakeUp CATWA & STANDART "SAD"

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : *barberyumyum*82

Outfit : #EMPIRE - Buckle Harness (v1) @ The Arcade