I didn't know...

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL2-6m

Beautifimous Proppages : {moss&mink} Trinity bath & Tera Planters (Grey) @ FaMESHedX

{moss&mink} #Blessed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers

Fundati's Great Grass Chamomile

Pixel Mode - Anahata - Floor Candles (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

Pixel Mode - Victoria's Bath - White Towel Stack (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

{anc} bubbles . 

Okay Spoonies, so I know I had a total melt down a couple of days ago and basically spewed a bit of hate about how so unfair it is that recognition in blogging does not always equate to talent, but some delusional idea of 'fame', HOWEVER, I may have had an epiphany... and this is why I love blogging, because I get to share it with you.

I've spoken before about how my daughter lives with my parents, you may have to dig a little deeply to find that, but the full post is within this here blog, and I attribute that fact to me now being able to move on in a much healthier direction. 

Today my daughter called me absolutely distraught. We've had issues getting her to go to school on a regular basis, and today was one of those days. As punishment for her refusal to go, Grandad took away the internet, and she was sad about it because, like most 16 year olds, she likes to spend her days playing games with her online friends.

As I was trying to calm her and explain that when you're good, good things happen, and when you're bad you're punished, I suddenly realized this wasn't entirely true. So there I am, stumbling over my words and trying to explain that to my daughter, when it only just sunk in for me.

Don't misunderstand, I KNEW life wasn't fair. It just didn't sink in that one day I might have to explain that to someone else, nor that I'd make a bit of a twat of myself by expressing the very same sentiment in that one post we're never going to speak of again!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Somali> GROUP GIFT

Tattoo : DAPPA - Magnolia Tattoo. @ Harajuku

Bikini : Luder! Miyu Microkini 

Haze.

Pose : FOXCITY. Autumn-1 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background Items :  RAMA - #selfie_RAMA Flower-Garden Lavatory RARE @ Backdrop City

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes 'Bong' (Gacha item)

The weed plants are from somewhere on marketplace a million years ago - I think they may even be prims.

Sleepy, please come back tomorrow for some ranties.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Eyeliner : Veechi - Basic Glossy Liner

Hair : DOUX - Tyrisha Hairstyle @ Belle Event

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal 10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Herz Tattoo. @ Man Cave Event

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Sana Set @ Uber

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Song Su- @ The Epiphany

The dog ate my homework.

Pose : Foxcity. Breezy-1

Bag : NS::  Belty Trip Backpack @ A+ Event - Note! This backpack comes with straps and is designed to be worn on your back! I photoshopped the arms out. It also comes with a couple of super cute poses, so check it out!

Background & Props : [ Focus Poses ] School Hallway Backdrop

So I had a rant yesterday, but you'll be pleased to know I'm feeling much better today... less bitter and whole lot refreshed and ready to provide some beautiful products from some wonderful creators.

I know I've used this pose before, but it really was perfect. As I was getting ready for this picture, my friend Apple told me "You look like a confused college student, that's there to study rather than party" so, I ran with that for a minute and grabbed some props, until Apple was ready to continue the story to it's thrilling climax.. " But you also want to save the hedgehogs, and the rally is on the same day as your final exam, and you need to pass it or you'll flunk the year, and have to redo it again, but that's just what your nemesis wants, the cool girl from the top table, she's even gone as far as getting someone to let the tires down on your car, so you have to run, hence the sneakers"

I think I need more time with Apple.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair : DOUX - Lala hairstyle @ Dubai Event

Hairband : #Foxy - Lace Cat Ears 'Panther'

Glasses : DAZED. Concubine Glasses

Collar : (Yummy) Crochet Choker 

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Tina Set @ N21

Gloves : **RE** Motor Gloves 

The seaweed is always greener.

I have no idea what pose I used because, like a derp, I forgot to note it. Sorry! ♥

Mini rant for today.

Seems like there's a whole lotta fuss about blogging on facebook, AGAIN.

I've said over and over again that I freaking LOVE what I do, regardless of me standing my avatar in front of a background, or creating a full scene around me, I work at what I do. I -try- to blog at least five times a week, and usually that turns into seven, but there are occasions when I might go a couple of days without, purely because my brain can no longer function, or because the thing I tried to do didn't work out that day, and rather than posting an unsatisfactory (yet probably perfectly usable) photograph, I retake the next day instead.

However.

The thing that really pisses me off, is that despite the amount of effort I put in, there is very little recognition. Am I unapproachable? Maybe. I can be a bit of a smart ass - usually in jest. However, when there are people getting commended as "Top Bloggers of SL" and I know for a fact they have HALF the views I have (which isn't that many, there are far better people than I to follow, don't get me wrong), I'm left sitting here scratching my head and wondering who's ass I have to kiss to be noticed.

And then those SAME PEOPLE, preach about being kind to everyone, when I've spoken face to face with them, knowing they have two faces, and both of them are mean as shit!

If you're gonna be a dick, you HAVE to own it, but maybe that's the edge? 

=takes a deep breath=

Nine times out of ten, being a blogger or a photographer has nothing to do with talent, professionalism, or creativity, but everything to do with who you know. I don't know how I ended up here - and again, I AM LUCKY. I have beautiful sponsors who create beautiful products, and for some reason they allow me, little Pickle, to work with their items... I just wish there were more creators who looked at the bigger picture, and not the amount of stars next to a picture on flickr - that's not talent or exposure, that's ass kissing.

xoxo

On a much lighter note, have a gander at the four beautiful tones that the Revoul "Nicki" Lelutka applier comes in. I absolutely adore the fullness of these lips!! From left to right : RE05, RE10, RE15, RE20.

All the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair in main picture : [LCKY] Rain // Splashing (Gacha)

Hair in Tones : Sintiklia - Hair Titania @ C88

Hand Bracelet : .AiShA. Kraken Bracelet Ring @ Fantasy Faire

Bra : Baiastice_Mermaid Jewel Bra (I'm not sure if these are available anymore, they're super old)

Tattoo : {Moon.Phase} MermaidHentaiBody_BlueScales

Wild with you.

Pose : Flamingo. Don't Let Go

Table & Chairs :  {moss&mink} Mila Garden table & Betty garden chair (Light) @ The Boardwalk Event

I think the Potatoman is trying to pull me into the ocean! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Hair : -FABIA- Gacha   <Nansy> @ Lootbox

Tattoo : DAPPA - Divos Tattoo. @ ManCave Event

Swimsuit : +MB+ Bikini of Grace 

Dry my eyes.

Pose, Stem & Petals. : *!R.O!* 11 Mins BENTO Pose

Background : ninety - callejon [ backdrop ]

Healing is messy, and so is this week.

I hope to be back to uh... normal(?) soon.

xoxo

All of the things :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Wendy> @ Whore Couture 

Headpiece : .random.Matter. - Amicus Halo [Golds] @ Kustom9

Tattoo : DAPPA - Kagami Tattoo. @ Neo Japan

Armor : [The Forge] Eldar Armour

Romper : -Narcisse- April Lace Romper  @ Zodiac

Conspicuous.

Pose : [La Baguette] Kazi G.sit poses 4

Background : FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 - Ringa Linga (Rez) RARE @ Backdrop City

The tiger is from a Poseidon pose set, as part of a rare.

I seem to have rediscovered my love of the Black Dragon viewer today. I initially loaded it up remembering how smooth it was to cam around and thought maybe it would be a better option for vlogging, but when I adjusted my settings, I remembered how much I adored the crispness for photography, too.

I initially stopped using the viewer because it had become laggy and was cumbersome for me to move around on it, when I took a large picture, it would crash, and i'd have to relog and attempt to rez everything all over again, which had also become difficult. I suppose there's been a few updates since then, as it must have been 6 months or more ago that I stopped, but now everything runs far better, and nothing has changed on my end, except maybe driver updates!

Anywho, here's hoping that the curve of learning continues and my  photography only excels!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)

Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Vanessa> @ Cosmopolitan

Necklace : *PROMAGIC* Kaali -Necklace

Tattoo : DAPPA - Conjure Tattoo. (Previously at Skin Fair)

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Elin Set @ Uber

Gloves : **RE** Motor Gloves 

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Konami Heels @ Collabor88

An ocean full of change.

Pose : <EMOZIONE> Couple Pose **On The Track ~2~**!

Seat & things : {moss&mink} Molly Hallway Seat @ Fameshed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 - Set1 @ Belle Event (I have more plans for these, so stay tuned.. I really didn't do them justice!)

{what next} Floor Jar Lantern

I roped in Potato for this post, and uh, kinda forced him into making over his avatar completely (not quite completely, but I did make him buy the new Lelutka "Guy" head). Seeing as how his internet hasn't improved over the past 18 months, it's impossible for me to find out exactly what he's wearing, but I -think- his hair is Stealthic, and his shirt is from Ascend... but I'm not certain, hence my hesitance in linking all the things.

Still, we look pretty, and clearly I'd much rather stare at him than the beautiful sunset behind us, so that's awesome, right?

I got super frustrated with this post, and for a moment I reverted into ungrateful, annoyed and super negative Pickle of last year. Not good, not fresh, not something I want to revisit, ever. 

Luckily, Potato is incredibly understanding and fully supported me having a near-hissy-fit, calmed me down and told me to go the fuck to sleep (not quite like that, but he probably could have gotten away with it... maybe?), but yeah. Here we are 3 days later with an actual picture to show for his patience! I love that man.

Anywho, I know you're not here for my rambles, so have some information.

Happy weekend, Spoonies!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pyramid Ear

Hairpiece : {moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 @ Belle Event (These aren't supposed to go on your head, but they look cute. Love me pls.)

Horns : Lovely Disarray - Sketched Hellion Horns

Hair : [monso] My Hair - Yurin

Necklace : (Yummy) Bang Bang Choker @ Uber

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Tuva Set @ Equal 10

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 

Rings :  (Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Satoyo Heels @ Fameshed

Where do we go?

Pose : FOXCITY. GSits VOL2-2m

Background :  anxiety %formaldehyde

This one has been a bit of a labor of love, as I've kind of been toying with this picture for about 6 hours. I mean, that's on and off... with short bursts of SL shopping and RL interruptions (girl's gotta eat, yanno.)

I love the outfit too, everything. From head to toe! As usual you can grab some CAIWL unedited pictures below, so whatcha waiting forrr?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)

Hair : #7 Sintiklia - Top style - Hair Jayla - Blacks&whites (Gacha) @ Arcade

Mask : DAPPA - Antisocial Mask. (Formerly @ The Fetish Fair)

Choker : random.Matter - Feral Collar [Silver/Old] (Group Gift (50L Fee))

Tattoo : DAPPA - Moon Tattoo.~@ The Skin Fair

Outfit : evani. - Missy @ Whore Couture 

Boots : [BREATHE]-Tanami Heels @ Uber

Falling into nothing.

Pose :  FOXCITY.  - Me time -5     

Background & props : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - New Beginnings (w/white exterior)   @ Backdrop City

 CUREMORE / Lost Paradise / Forbidden fruits (Red) (Gacha)

Decor from Mesh India

Draw the symbolism from this wherever you can, because I'm not sure I'm entirely confident what I was going for!

I'm a sleepy Pickle today, so have some credits, yeah? We'll talk tomorrow.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)

Eyeliner : Veechi - Basic Glossy Liner

Lipstick : -SU!- Matte Lip Essentials 

Earrings : Saga  Boho Princess Earring 

Headpiece : CUREMORE / Lost Paradise / Wreath (Fire)(Gacha)

Hair : [LeLutka]-SALOME hair (I'm not sure if this is still available.. sorry!)

Dress : evani. - Ingrid dress @ Uber

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 01

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Momoka Heels @ The Arcade (March 1st)

I give in.

Pose : FOXCITY. Breezy-7m (edited with Animare)

Background : anxiety %local v1

I often forget about the Lelutka heads, but then I put one on and suddenly, it brings back how much I abso-freaking-lutley adore them. Every single head I've purchased from them (and I now have at least five) has bought something new.. no matter how small, and each time they up their game I'm at a loss for words. Needless to say when I saw the new Go&See skin specifically for the new brand of Lelutka heads, I made big ol' grabby hands for it!
I also decided to do the Slink body with the petite add-on for mah bewbies. I LOVE playing with (myself? LOL) my avatar, creating shapes that I believe to be fairly realistic.. and the petite add-on for the Slink helps me achieve that as I was never keen on the way the hourglass body breasts protruded.. but I am a huge fan of this shape. It's fair to say this was inspired not only by the new Go&See skin, but also Muggleborn, who go above and beyond to rig for bodies and augments that not every creator manages to include.
I probably don't say this enough, but I am SO amazingly grateful for all the beautiful brands that trust me with their creations, without their items, I'm almost certain my creativity would have been stunted as often I need a little push!
xoxo

Oh look! TONES! \o/
Starting at the top left, there's Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy
Bottom left, Tan, Tropic, Choco, Cola and I think a new tone (?) Dusky

All of the things :

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  & Petite chest augment
Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3
Skin : Go&See * Gwen * Lelutka ~ Powder Pack [2.19]
Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha)
Hair :tram I0210 hair @ Uber
Necklace & Armbands : Avada~ Theodora Necklace & Cassia Armband @ The Secret Affair
Feathers : .aisling. Velasco
Nipple piercings : - Fika - Imprison Piercing
Dress : +MB+ Rosalee Dress  @ Whore Couture (Opens March 1st LM to follow, demo in mainstore)
Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 01