The seaweed is always greener.

I have no idea what pose I used because, like a derp, I forgot to note it. Sorry! ♥

Mini rant for today.

Seems like there's a whole lotta fuss about blogging on facebook, AGAIN.

I've said over and over again that I freaking LOVE what I do, regardless of me standing my avatar in front of a background, or creating a full scene around me, I work at what I do. I -try- to blog at least five times a week, and usually that turns into seven, but there are occasions when I might go a couple of days without, purely because my brain can no longer function, or because the thing I tried to do didn't work out that day, and rather than posting an unsatisfactory (yet probably perfectly usable) photograph, I retake the next day instead.

However.

The thing that really pisses me off, is that despite the amount of effort I put in, there is very little recognition. Am I unapproachable? Maybe. I can be a bit of a smart ass - usually in jest. However, when there are people getting commended as "Top Bloggers of SL" and I know for a fact they have HALF the views I have (which isn't that many, there are far better people than I to follow, don't get me wrong), I'm left sitting here scratching my head and wondering who's ass I have to kiss to be noticed.

And then those SAME PEOPLE, preach about being kind to everyone, when I've spoken face to face with them, knowing they have two faces, and both of them are mean as shit!

If you're gonna be a dick, you HAVE to own it, but maybe that's the edge? 

=takes a deep breath=

Nine times out of ten, being a blogger or a photographer has nothing to do with talent, professionalism, or creativity, but everything to do with who you know. I don't know how I ended up here - and again, I AM LUCKY. I have beautiful sponsors who create beautiful products, and for some reason they allow me, little Pickle, to work with their items... I just wish there were more creators who looked at the bigger picture, and not the amount of stars next to a picture on flickr - that's not talent or exposure, that's ass kissing.

xoxo

On a much lighter note, have a gander at the four beautiful tones that the Revoul "Nicki" Lelutka applier comes in. I absolutely adore the fullness of these lips!! From left to right : RE05, RE10, RE15, RE20.

All the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair in main picture : [LCKY] Rain // Splashing (Gacha)

Hair in Tones : Sintiklia - Hair Titania @ C88

Hand Bracelet : .AiShA. Kraken Bracelet Ring @ Fantasy Faire

Bra : Baiastice_Mermaid Jewel Bra (I'm not sure if these are available anymore, they're super old)

Tattoo : {Moon.Phase} MermaidHentaiBody_BlueScales

What I'm not.

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Catya

Skin & Lipstick : Lefort by Revoul.Kiana Catwa Applier in RE15

Eyes : LOTUS. Bright Eyes 

Ears : Random.Matter Elfie Ears.

Hair & Hairbase : +Spellbound+ Freja

Headpiece : Foxes - Spiritualist - Head Piece - Gold - Fire

Necklace : .AiShA. Draco Necklace Gold @ The Ice & Fire Fair Sponsored by Redeux (I've tried to find more information, but am currently unable to find a landmark. The link provided will take you to the website, which will hopefully be updated soon! The fair opens on the 3rd of April and is Game Of Thrones themed!)

Dragon : *HEXtraordinary* Dragon Whelps (Gacha)

I let you go.

Pose : FOXCITY Melancholy-2

Background/props : Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround

{moss&mink} Drop Curtain (Updated textures!)

Refuge - Bunbun Stool

Balderdash - Green Stardrop creeper

.AiShA. Light Ball

Toro. Tropical plant 

<:*BoOgErS*:> Blush Bear

I make no secret of the fact that I have been incredibly unlucky when it comes to SL relationships, or well, relationships of any kind, really.

I'm hard-headed, opinionated, and while I can play the placid wall-flower for a certain amount of time, it's never long before the screaming angry bitch in me comes out and wants to make stabby hands when I'm least expecting it.

You know what I learned from accidentally dating all these wrong men?

It's not always me that has the problem.

Many times I have felt myself curl up into this position mentally. Wondering what the fudge I can do to make things better. I should be meeker, I should be louder, I should have more confidence, I shouldn't talk back, I should shrink myself to the point where I'm almost pocket-sized and won't interfere with their life at all. Instead, I'll just slot right in without a word, and they'll eventually see that I'm perfect, they'll wonder what they ever did without me, and that's what love is.

I know this isn't healthy, and I see it all now. But then... then all that mattered was me making them happy, regardless of the toll it was having on my health, on my mental state. 

Any grown man would have seen what I was doing and called me on it. Instead, these boys took advantage and played with my head even more. Slightly broken, and slightly bruised (ego-wise), I made a decision to just stop. I even remember saying to a close friend "I'm done with the whole SL dating thing, every time I meet a man I like they allow me to forget what it is I love to do, they don't support me, and they poke fun at my interests. Fuck this. Punch me next time I tell you about that awesome new guy I like, please?" 

And then Santi came along.

I wasn't interested at all.

In fact, it took two good friends to tell me to give him a chance before I even acknowledged him, but rather than him jumping up and down, forcing himself on me, he stood patiently waiting for the moment I would see him - and then, I did.

Things aren't easy all the time, and we've had a couple of bumps, but I no longer have that bad feeling in my stomach.

I don't worry that I'm going to oversleep and he's going to have left me 12 emails, 6 voice messages and a thousand skype texts asking me who i'm fucking and threatening me.

I'm not making myself sick when he hangs up on me, because it's not leading to another 3-day absence where he could be 'cheating' on me.

He doesn't get jealous when I explain to him that the reason I am the way I am is because of shitbags I've just described, and he'll rationalize and take that pain away for me for a while, and most of all, I know that unconditionally, he is there for me (unless his sodding internet gives out!).

In just a few short months, he has begun to help me undo and understand what I have been through with past relationships simply by allowing me to talk about them with him and get through the "Why am I like this?" crap. I've never, ever thought of myself as an insecure person, and it's not just "SL" people who I have had issues with in the past, it's RL too... 

Essentially, what I'm trying to say is, if it makes your tummy turn, if it causes you any sort of anxiety to be in the relationship you're in, for the sake of yourself and your sanity, run away. There are ups and downs in every relationship, sure, but you know if you're in a good one, and if you can escape the bad one, you need to find the strength to do it. Being alone isn't that bad, and I believe that there's got to be a Santi for everyone.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : NOT FOUND - YUMI SKIN PEACH  (CATWA) @ Sense Event

Body Skin : [theSkinnery] Maitreya Skin Applier - peach

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Ears : [MANDALA]SIMPLE_EARS_HUTUU

Earrings : :: SAGA :: Spring EarLoops 

Hair : #Foxy - Lovesick Hair 

Tattoo :  DAPPA  - Taisho Tattoo @ Kinky Event (open 28th Feb)

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One

Harness & Lingerie :  #EMPIRE - Heart Harness (Previously @ The Fetish Fair, now closed, please allow time to transfer to main store location)

My heaven, my hell.

Pose : *!R.O!* Beginning BENTO Pose w/ Mesh Parasol & Rose

Location : Arranmore

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Essences - Tawny Group Gift (Note : There is a 100L fee to join the group. There's also a 100L SALE going on in store right now. You do NOT have to be in the group to take advantage of the sale, so head over and throw your money in that direction, skin whores!)

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier :  Go & See * Monster * Catwa Eyes @ The Dark Style Fair 

Face Tattoo :  PMS - Skeleton Face #2 Tattoo @ Bodyfy

Hair : [e] Olivia - Essentials

Hat : .AiShA. Dia De Los Muertos Hat @ The Dark Style Fair 

Collar : *{Junbug}* The London Ruff [Pink] 

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo Mr. Hyde  @ The Mens Dept.

Skeleton & Panties : CURELESS [+] Anatomic Doll / Skeletal System / RARE (Gacha) @ Epiphany  

Gloves : Hypnose Lace_Glove Maitreya

Nail Applier :  Go & See  * Maitreya Nails * @ The Dark Style Fair 

Boots :  #EMPIRE - Crown Imperial  @ Uber

Lovers don't always win.

Pose : Poseidon - The Watch - Grim (Gacha)

Star : .AiShA. Kunoichi Shuriken (Gacha) @ The Guardians

Location : Whole Wheat 

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin :  Bold & Beauty :: Lien (Catwa Applier)

Head : CATWA Lona (UPDATED! Go to the redelivery terminal in store to get your MOCAP head!!)

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS. Bermuda Eyes 16 (Gacha) @ The Guardians

Eyeshadow & Lipstick : Evermore. Fortune Geisha // Make-up CATWA 

Ears : : ^^Swallow^^ Pixie Ears 

Hair : Moon. Hair // - Brunettes - Solstice  @ Kustom9

Outfit : .AiShA. Kunoichi Gacha @ The Guardians

It's a nice day to start again.

Pose : Bride - FOXCITY. Fairytale Pose 4 Mirrored (Head edited with animare)

Groom - <K&S> Bloom Male pose 3

Bebe Flowergirl - FOXCITY. Numb-2m

Props and things : MONS / 3D - Leaf Wall Photoshoot Decor V2

Botanical - Decorative Light Set

JIAN Lit Brick Paths

Balderdash - Green Stardrop creeper 

 Chairs - Charming Accent Set by HJM

-Garden- by anc "secret garden" ROSE 

{moss&mink} 3D Butterfly

{moss&mink}  Alice in Easterland - Heart Topiary (Gacha)

{anc} canopy:lace:white

{moss&mink} Dreamy Genie - Backdrop (Gacha)

uK - ThereAfter Dystopia Stage @ Thereafter 

HPMD* Garden Tree09 with Lights 

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Essences - Riley (Catwa & Omega) @ Kustom9 

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eyes : LOTUS.  Oceanic Eyes @ Applique 

Hairbase : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - LIMITED 01 for CATWA

Freckles : Just Magnetized - Insta Beauty - set 02 for Catwa

Eyeliner :  Veechi - Glimmer Liner [Catwa] @ N21

Hair : lock&tuft - meiko 

Hair Flowers : *LODE* Head Accessory - Spiderwort Flower [white_silver moon] (Gacha)

Earrings : Amala - The Abigail Earrings 

Necklace : Amala - The Alessia Necklaces

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Dress : .AiShA. Olivia Dress @ The Trunk Show

Taste you.

Pose : . MILA . POSES // Heini 3 @ The Vintage Fair

Background : BUENO-Red Hall @ Kustom9

All of the things :

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Glam Affair - Lilo Applier

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : {S0NG} :: Vampy

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Dazzle Liner [Catwa]
Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK Applier - Glossy Pout (Colors)
Septum : .01 [ kunst ] - Orbit piercing RARE (Gacha) @ Kustom9 

Hair : Moon. Hair. // Melpomene From May Luxe Box
Glasses : Kenvie - Invader Sunglasses 

Tattoo : DAPPA -  Smite Tattoo @ ManCave (June 18th)

Shirt : .AiShA. Lavin Top Reduced Price @ Redeux

Hand Jewels : Amala - The Robyn Hand Bracelet @ Kustom9
Rings : The Robyn Stacking Rings @ Kustom9 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)
Bracelets : [The Forge] Gypsy Bangle Reduced Price @ Redeux
Skirt & Panties : EVANI - Deanna  @ Kustom9 
Garters & leg chains : PHEDORA / Leg Chains Caelia
Shoes : Glamistry - ZINNIA Heels

Turn to stone.

Pose : FOXCITY. Surface-1

Background : anxiety %integer.backdrop

..::THOR::.. Vintage Stool 3

{anc} ocean dust

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : VCO ~ Arah Appliers . CATWA 

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS. Bliss Eyes (Catwa) @ LTTL SMLL STYL

Hair : [monso] My Hair - Twobi /@ Kustom9

Necklace & Earrings : MINIMAL - Ryker set @ Collabor88

Tattoo : DAPPA - Lonely Tattoo. @ Men only monthly (Open 20th May)

Shirt & Skirt : .AiShA. Lia Top & Skirt @Whimsical

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Rings : Kibitz - Marcia ring

Bracelets : Kibitz -- Mila Bracelets 

Shoes : Phedora ~ Melissa Strappy heels @ Kustom9

Take a look at the {anc} ocean dust in real time! (Note, it's been resized smaller!)

Sing me lullabies.

Pose & Horse : :: Focus Poses Horse Girl 2 ::

Location : Netherwood

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Glam Affair- Ellen - Catwa Mesh Head Applier @ The Epiphany

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : Elysian (Steel)

Ears : [MANDALA]SIMPLE_EARS_HUTUU

Freckles : Just Magnetized - Insta Beauty - set 01 for Catwa from April's Powder Pack

Brow Bone Highlight : Essences #Brow Bone Highlighter (Catwa) From March's Powder Pack

Hair : .Entwined. Ruby @ FaMESHed 

Outfit : .AiShA. Victoria Gacha @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Gloves : **RE** Deah Gloves & Rings @ Shiny Shabby

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Boots : Violent Seduction - Lilith Boots (Gacha) 

Reckless.

Pose : Black Cats poses - Balance 3

Background : MINIMAL - Illusion II - *2* (Gacha) @ Epiphany

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : : Insol: Yolo Gacha #RARE @ The Epiphany

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : Go&See * Mountain * Catwa Eyes @ The Dark Style Fair

Eyeliner : Veechi - Wet Liner [Catwa]

Highlight & Freckles : Just Magnetized - Insta Beauty From Powder Pack April

Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK Applier - Glossy Pout

Glasses : .random.Matter. - Yeol Glasses

Septum : MONS / MESH - Septum Ring (style30)

Hat & Hair : Mello. Ritualist @ The Coven

Tattoo : DAPPA   - Mortem Tattoo.@ The Dark Style Fair

Dress : .AiShA. Cage Mini Dress @ The Dark Style Fair

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Bracelets :  Kibitz -- Scarlett Bracelets

Shoes : Phedora  ~ Kennedy heels @ The Chapter Four

 

Let it burn.

Pose : FOXCITY. Surface-3

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Glam Affair - Pippi - Catwa Mesh Head Applier - Asia (Fifty Linden Fridays)

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes

Eye Applier : Elysian (Endwood)
Eyelashes : [okkbye] Amaris Eyelashes (CATWA) From March Powder Pack 
Eyeshadow : Veechi - Auroral Shadow @ Kawaii Project
Lip : Just Magnetized - Lotus Lipstick for CATWA v2 @ Limit8
Septum : .ARISE. Nose Ring
Hair : little bones. Reckless
Headpiece : .AiShA. Be Light! Headpiece @ The Fantasy Faire
Collar : .aisling. Nura
Body Freckles : [theSkinnery] Maitreya Freckles Applier (only available when you purchase skin appliers)
Bodysuit & Chains : **RE** Katia Body RARE (Gacha) @ Epiphany
Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system
Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)
Gloves : [CX] 18 Luceat Arachne Gloves @ Epiphany
Boots : BAX Regency Boots Black Patent Leather

A miracle.

Pose, Basket & Egg : *!R.O!* Easter BENTO pose

Props : Studio Skye Enchanted Woods

ChiMia:: Old White Fence former GIFT

.AiShA. Butterfly Bench @ We <3 RP

Boudoir : Butterflies in flight

HPMD* Garden Tree04 

*alirium* DownyGrass

[ keke ] wild lilies

[ keke ] secrets garden flower

[ keke ] flower circle

All of the things :

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : VCO ~ Arah Appliers . CATWA

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eyelashes : [okkbye] Chunky Lashes From January Powder Pack 

Eye Applier : Go&See * Mermaid * Catwa Eyes

Eyebrow : Lurid Thin Lush Brows Catwa Applier

Hair & Lights : Tableau Vivant \\ Fae hair @ Collabor88

Bunny Ears : + Cotton Usagi + {aii}

Dress : {moss&mink} Alice in Easterland - Sweet Bunny RARE (Gacha) @ The Guardians

Shoes : fri. - Rita Sandals @ Collabor88

 

 

I wanted to show you the **CC** - Song of Sakura in real time.

 The dance is from Akeyo - Kim 08