Today has been slightly insane. Not only has it legitimately taken 2 days for me to set up a bunch of eggs behind my avatar, but it's also been one of those real life 'family' moments I'd really rather forget.
I've never understood the point in silencing someone when they have something to say, unless it's derogatory to another party. I don't understand how senior citizens can believe it's okay, either.
When Muggleborn popped out these antenna I got super excited, and immediately started contemplating how I could get to be a Picklefied Alien. I'm not sure I entirely pulled it off, but I did have a good time trying! It also meant that I could grab a Lumae skin, which I have been entirely neglecting (sorry!), because the textures to match the majority of the Lumae collection are included with the antenna. Also included are the textures you need to tint and match whatever skin you're wearing yourself so yay!
This week has been a bit weird for me. I feel a bit like I'm stuck in limbo again, barely moving forward. The only good part of that is that things are steady... and maybe I'm just unused to that.
I've still been watching a bunch of mental health stuff on Youtube, but for entertainment I have been revisiting Gossip Girl on Netflix... why? Because of Chuck Bass and my oddly inappropriate girl-crush on the bad-boy that might turn good. Still, when Potato's away, I need a lil eye candy (don't hate me babe!)
Here's hoping your days are filled with happy smiles, and any rainclouds that appear for you swiftly depart.
I've had this picture done for a little while, and often when I go back to seeing a photo i'd edited a while back, I hate it.. with this one, I'm not having that feeling with this, so that's a bonus!
I don't have anything fancy to say, so i'm just gonna give you some credits, okay?
So I've done another vlog type whatsit today about the Shook Baddie Claws I mentioned a couple of blogs back. I'm going to try and do one vlog a week, hopefully in conjunction with a blog, but we'll see how that actually goes, because it's far more stressful than I want to admit!
For today, that means I've done the picture above, but I'm referencing items involved in the vlog too, so you get tons of information instead of just some!
I know. For most of you, that'll consist of a regular day, but for me... well some of you will know that I didn't leave the house for a pretty long period of time and have only recently started dipping my toe back into the outside world... so it has challenges.
I slept the night before, which is a giant leap forward. Recently, I've been worrying about my forays into the real word to the point where I couldn't sleep. This time however, I woke up at a reasonable hour and then realized I had two hours before I left the house.
Those two hours mainly consisted of me over thinking every possible scenario in my head. and instead of this occurring in an overtired, sleepy Pickle brain, it was now occurring in an incredibly well rested Pickle brain, so therefore the scenarios were slightly more elaborate. I had to get cash out. What if the cash machine were broken? What if I saw someone I know, and had to explain where i've been for the past 400 years? What if I had to ask someone for help, what if I couldn't reach the ketchup, what if they were out of butter, what if what if what if???
Not only was I incredibly well rested, but I also only had two hours to panic, so for two hours, poor Potato sat on Discord with me while I made stupid noises, spoke out loud in half formed sentences because I often talk to him in my head, and made flapping noises by covering my hands with my giant sweater and for whatever reason pretended I was a bird (Not literally, but that was the action).
Whenever I'm anxious, my leg always twitches too, so I had that going ten to the dozen too.
Anyway.. I managed to go. I left the house, I got my groceries, and I came home and locked the door and haven't actually left the house again yet - but tomorrow, tomorrow I will...
The only reason I write all this is because that's MY battle, and everyone has at least one going on in their lives.
Please, remember to be kind. That crazy lady that needs a little extra help to reach the eggs might just be trying to sort her shit out. That screaming child in aisle four might be autistic and completely out of their comfort zone. All manner of ailments both mental and physical affect people, and sometimes you just can't see them by looking.
I have a big ol' project starting soon, so please excuse me if I don't write as much as usual in the interim! There's still a bunch of information for you to find here, and I hope to pick up my nonsense narrative shortly!
Bag : [VALE KOER] KEEPALL BAG @ N21 (Note : This bag comes with an animation, but is MODIFY. I took the animation out and re-edited the bag to fit with this pose)
Kinda sleepy today. Had an appointment at stupid O'clock in the morning so ofc, my anxiety being the beautiful monster it is, decided that there'd be no sleep the night before. When I did finally lie down, the next door neighbours decided it'd be a lovely time to start hammering and sawing directly outside my house, so yanno, thanks for that! I reckon I've had maybe 2 hrs sleep so I might be slightly bonkers!
I spent a long time on this photo, and I've been attempting to take a little longer with the original pictures rather than the editing. I'll never be a super photography expert, but I do enjoy having a bit of a faff with the photoshop things! If you haven't already noticed, I've added a new page to the blog, being resource tutorials that I've found helpful. Mostly it's photography, there's also a few speed edit channels and a channel dedicated to caring for your blog. I'm no genius when it comes to blog layout - I like something simple that I can understand without too much clutter - but starting my blog I used this channel to help with header set up etc.
Anywho, you came for credits, and here they are... because right after that I'm gonna go and attempt to sleep again so I can regain an ounce of normalcy!
HUZZAH! It's time for another round of Enchantment!
The event opens today at midday SLT and the theme of this round is "Brothers Grimm", which is practically open season for anything ever mentioned in one of their freaky stories! You can find more information on all things Enchantment at their website >Here< , including designers, maps and shopping guides.
I had to start with this cute little goat outfit. Anyone who follows me on facebook might be aware of the immense level of squeals I achieve whenever a goat is posted on my timeline. I am also a bit of a crazy goat lady, and will definitely share those adorable videos of little goats in onesies, or dressed up for seasonal thangs. I just can't get enough of the adorable furry babies, and want to hug them all up. Needless to say it seemed absolutely appropriate that I become an Enchanted Goat, happily playing my flute and wiggling my goat-y tail to the sound of my (probably rather rubbish but hopefully) pretty tuneage.
I've paired the outfit with a delicious skin from Lumae, and as usual, you can see some of the options available with this gorgeous skin below, all taken in calWL windlight on firestorm.
xoxo
Showing above, Lumae Fantasy Nylissa skin, in the version1 eyebrow. Left to right - No brow, white brow, grey brow, black brow.
It's worth mentioning that although I've shown this skin on Catwa Lona, it's also available for Genus, Lelutka, LAQ & GAEG heads.
This is the version2 eyebrow. Left to right - No brow, white brow, grey brow, black brow.
I've used the 'freckled' version of the skin to show off this eyebrow, although both v1 & v2 eyebrows come with the freckled options, so you can mix and match to your own preferences.
Vines : Eden Outfit *WHITE* by Caverna Obscura (Note : I'm using a Slink Physique version of this item, and it does clip slightly, as shown above. Please DEMO before you purchase!)
I was talking with Jake today about SL people (not specific people, just people in general) and how we view avatars.
To me, it's always been a case of being attracted to an avatar and then maybe connecting with the person behind it. I know, I know... Pickle, you're shallow af! To a degree, that's right. In terms of avatars I can be super shallow, and probably won't initiate contact with someone I don't enjoy the appearance of. However, that doesn't mean I'll poopoo a conversation with someone who doesn't appeal to me, in terms of their avatar.. in fact, many people I connect with on an intellectual level don't have the same style as me and a lot of the time, don't even enjoy shopping - an idea that is completely foreign to me!
I'm going to use the conversation we were having (with permission!) to enlighten you on my theory.
ᴊᴀᴋᴇ : I'm following in the trendy footsteps of the pickle
ᴊᴀᴋᴇ : who has declared that avis are whatever you say they are....that day
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : Yes
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : I don't think your avatar is a reflection of you in the way it looks
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : but in the way it behaves.
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ nods
ᴊᴀᴋᴇ : my avi is pretty much just a handy conduit I use to gain an experience
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : Yeah, kind of like a pen writes on paper, you use your av to connect.
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : you can have a £2 pen
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : or a £200 pen
Pɪᴄᴋʟᴇ : it does the same thing
We don't all play SL the same way and it's important to remember that.
I find it such a shame when a new SL'er is cast out because of how they look, and even worse when an older resident is ignored because they don't fit the bill of a certain clique's appearance needs.
There are hidden gems everywhere - and sometimes, that free pen from the bank is gonna write far smoother than the fancy expensive pen.
Background : [Azuchi] Azuchi Castle Photo Studio (Former Gift)
I often look at my photographs and literally see the ebbs and flows of my moods.
Right now, I'm in a good place. But it seems like the work I do when I'm at my lowest is the work that I end up most proud of.
I wonder why that is?
Howeverrrr. I'm obviously going to keep attempting to improve, and hopefully work out why my state of mind affects my "art" (or whatever you wanna call it) so decisively. Maybe I just overthink when I'm good, and when I'm low, I don't care? Haha. FUDGE.
I was a pretty decent student when I was at school, definitely kind of middle-of-the-road.
I didn't really enjoy maths and numbers still confuse me, but give me a book to read, or a story to write and I'd be in my element.
When I was around 14, a girl called Karen decided she didn't like me anymore. I was okay with that, because she was a big meanie anyway - but she was kinda scary. She'd had a fight with a girl in the year above one lunchtime, and everyone had spread out to the local park to watch it happen... not only was there hair pulling and scratching but I distinctly remember the sound of a couple of punches connecting too. For this reason, I was afraid of her.
See, I have a mouth. I can shout my mouth off until the cows come home. I can rip you a new bumhole, make you feel like utter crap, and still have a slew of insults ready to throw in your face, but put me next to someone who's ready to fight and I'll offer to hold the coats and keep the earrings safe in my pocket.
Karen sat behind me in maths. I could hear her muttering about me to the girl sitting next to her, so I turned around and told her she was distracting me, because I could hear everything. She ignored me, and continued to talk crap, looking me in the eye as she said "Yeah? What you gonna do about it?"
I had been pushed by this girl for weeks, and in that moment - the only moment in my life I have actually fully blacked out, I reached forward and slapped her hard across the face.
To say she was shocked was an understatement. No one expected little Pickle to retaliate in that kind of way. The whole classroom was quiet... and me?
I turned around, lay my head on the desk, and sobbed my heart out, out of fear, out of frustration and out of anger.
For the record, Karen later got her own back on me, and threw a can of tango at my head... now, we're friends on facebook!
I ALWAYS get squealy when Saga pops up with a new release, and once again the quality doesn't disappoint. The earrings, bindi and nose piercings are all going to be available at the Level event opening on the 30th July.
Along with new Saga loveliness, there's also some amazing new make-ups from Go&See, the highlighter you see that sprinkles across my cheeks, chin, nose and just under my eyebrows is the new Contour Glitter for Blush Event, open on the 28th July.
I woke up today and was all organized, which is incredibly unusual... but then stuff made me go -flop- and now my anxious brain is making me overthink, and i'm tired and headachy and blah! However, please go visit the new sim Borneo, I accidentally stumbled across it using editors choice - there's also a photo contest for a prize of 15kL's, so that's definitely worth looking into too.
Another quick note is on the Bueno Dungaree/Overalls I'm wearing. YOU NEED TO HAVE THESE. Each individual overall colour comes with a hud for the shirt. There are MANY colours and patterns for the shirt, plus a longsleeve & short sleeve option AND the ability to turn the shirt off completely so that you can wear your own choice beneath it.
My brain feels a little better upon almost completing this blog, \o/
I hope your day is full of love and laughter! xoxo
