Bag : NS:: Belty Trip Backpack @ A+ Event - Note! This backpack comes with straps and is designed to be worn on your back! I photoshopped the arms out. It also comes with a couple of super cute poses, so check it out!
So I had a rant yesterday, but you'll be pleased to know I'm feeling much better today... less bitter and whole lot refreshed and ready to provide some beautiful products from some wonderful creators.
I know I've used this pose before, but it really was perfect. As I was getting ready for this picture, my friend Apple told me "You look like a confused college student, that's there to study rather than party" so, I ran with that for a minute and grabbed some props, until Apple was ready to continue the story to it's thrilling climax.. " But you also want to save the hedgehogs, and the rally is on the same day as your final exam, and you need to pass it or you'll flunk the year, and have to redo it again, but that's just what your nemesis wants, the cool girl from the top table, she's even gone as far as getting someone to let the tires down on your car, so you have to run, hence the sneakers"
So I succumbed to the fact that I might need a new head (obviously, I didn't, but I still DID). Initially, I thought I wanted the LAQ Ivy head, which I tried and gosh, it's beautiful... but then I started to wonder about what I could do to make it feel like me, and realized that there would be fewer skins, and lesser make up options... so I ran around for a while and tried this one, from Catwa. I still wanted the big eyes and doll-like features from the LAQ head, but with Catwa I knew I could find some skins that would work, due to the marketplace being full of them... and yay! I found one! (and also tried a good few older ones I have in my inventory and a fair amount of those worked too!)
I really don't know why I have so many mesh heads. Part of me thinks it's just because it's SL and you can literally change your look from day to day in accordance with your budget, and in RL I think we'd all like to do that some times, although it might be a bit Worzel Gummidge (Older British people might remember good ol' Worzel!)
Check out the quick lil' video I did on the Grande Carousel!
Once again, Potato's net is being mean. I'm almost 100% certain he's wearing hair from Doux, Tattoo from Dappa, Outfit from Legal Insanity and maybeee his shoes are from Deadwool.
I've been trying to spend some time with people offline lately, but that's kind of melded into us playing computer games... that aren't SL. This is a little bit of a shock to me, because I am most definitely too old to be any type of girl, let alone a "gamer girl".
I always find it amusing how things that weren't cool 5-10 years ago, come around as being cool, and the only reason it becomes cool is because people love to be considered edgy or different... just look at the hipsters running around with their curled up mustaches, and the current 'fad' of being a babygirl. (No offence to anyone who identify either of these communities, but you haveta admit there's a sudden influx of both of these things)
Anywho, I hope your week is beautiful, and continues to do nothing but improve!
xoxo
Oh hi, did you say lipsticks? Okay! These are the Revoul Chun lipstick options, and I find them all gorgeous.
I've wanted to get into vlogs for the longest time, but my confidence was pretty much shot and I really didn't believe I could do it. Yesterday, however, I spent the entire day figuring out how to do this.
It's pretty basic, I uhm and er a lot, I need to work on the volume and there's very light editing and no music... however, I think this is a pretty decent start... the only way is up, right?
I've got a pretty shitty track-record when it comes to walking away from people.
In the past, I have run screaming from those who thoroughly deserved my attention and into the arms of those who didn't. I've seen a side to something I can't quite compute, and walked briskly away, and there's even been a few times that I just walked away because they had told me something I wasn't ready to hear.
I make no secret of the fact I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and apparently this running screaming from the 'right' people thing is something that is quite common for people with BPD. Saying that, I'm also aware that people without the condition (?) also go through this, so then I was left with that "But when is it BPD and when it is RIGHT?" question, pretty much constantly.
Because of that question circling around in my brain, I've learned recently to just let it go. If it doesn't feel right, it doesn't matter if it's my mental illness or if it's a gut decision, after all, if i'm left with a sense of peace when the decision has been made, my life has been altered for the better.
I honestly feel like the amount of people I push from my life has altered dramatically. For a minute, I was chucking bodies left right and centre in an attempt to shovel away that bad feeling, when a lot of the bad feeling was coming from inside me. I've worked on myself (and I admit I'm a very basic work in progress, even after this last year of constant self reflection), and I'm learning my toxic traits and attempting to rectify them to the best of my ability. I will undoubtedly always have traits that certain people consider toxic and I'm never going to be able to please everyone, but for my benefit I feel like I need to leave less of a trail of destruction in my path and aim for more rainbows and butterflies.
Hurt people hurt people, and I don't want to hurt anymore, and I definitely never mean to hurt anyone else.
On that note, have a great weekend, and go grab some quality gear from our favourite SL creators!
xoxo
Revoul have come out with the beautiful Chun Skin. My favourite tone is the RE10, which is the second on the left, but all of these are beautiful! \o/
Background & things : MINIMAL - The Forest (Saturday Sale find!)
{anc} NO LIMITS // flock of flying doves. [choco-brown] 4Li
I've been putting this post off and honestly, I don't really know why, other than I started doing DFS Farming in SL and I might be a little obsessed.
Anywho, lemme get you these credits before my bread burns and I make a giant oopsie!
Also, I totes borrowed the Potato as a man-dolly and I'm really not sure of his credits as his net went poof. You can't really see him anyway but if you have any questions feel free to hit me up and I'll be sure to let you know when he's back online.
Waistcoat : uc_fringe_ornamental_black_women_vest (Note: This is a standard size item. I'm not 100% certain but it may have been updated to fit mesh bodies - but I'd probably still use standard sizes to avoid the clipping issues sometimes encountered when layering!)
I'm joined today by a super special guest, Cielo Capalini. She owns and creates for the Moss&Mink brand, but more importantly, she's one of my very best friends!
Our meeting was... awkward. Giving both of our personalities, I think that awkward was really the only way it could go... but it turned out for the best. It was a while ago now, blogging was still new to me, and Moss&Mink had only participated in one of the Fantasy Gacha events, but Cielo had made a gorgeous set revolving around faun legs, and I was so excited to blog it when I got it, it really had made me incredibly happy, and when she wandered into the sim I was standing on, said hello and I realized who she was, I'm almost ashamed to say I fan girled all over. It was NOT my finest moment. I am SO glad we met, though, and despite my literally epic squealing fit in her IMs, she saw past that, and we have grown together.
I'm always amazed at how she comes up with ideas, and how she will literally transform something into her practically trademarked style, She seems to be an unending, magical bucket of creativity, every time you reach in to take an idea, that bucket fills up again and she's off running and lightspeed with her beautiful brain exploding colours and meshes all over the place.
The thing I admire most of all about this gorgeous lady, however, is her never-ending willingness to learn. When she starts talking about what she wants to do next, where she wants her brand to be... sometimes it takes my breath away a little and I am honestly in awe.
Anyway, she's my friend and you can't have her (i'm kidding, kinda), and that's that.
I have a big ol' project starting soon, so please excuse me if I don't write as much as usual in the interim! There's still a bunch of information for you to find here, and I hope to pick up my nonsense narrative shortly!
Bag : [VALE KOER] KEEPALL BAG @ N21 (Note : This bag comes with an animation, but is MODIFY. I took the animation out and re-edited the bag to fit with this pose)
I had a really, really vivid dream last night. It was so detailed and so much like a movie, that when I was woken up by my alarm (yes, it's Sunday, but fudge, I'm trying to be normal!), I knew how it should have ended. I knew the characters backstories. I knew how they'd gotten to the point I was at when I was disturbed.
It floored me a little, and I remember reading about Stephen King, who is meant to write about his nightmares and a part of me wondered if I should be doing the same.
This wasn't a nightmare, but there were parts that could have been horror/thriller.
I'm considering trying to take an SL Picture to encompass my dream, and maybe I'll tell you more about it in the future. In the meantime, have some pretties from Miss Chelsea, Breathe & Dappa.
Eyeshadow : Veechi (I'm really not sure which one, but it's a liner and it's probably for LOGO head because that works with the omega system in the Genus head)
Today I've found myself in a little bit of a spiral, and I want to address a potentially sensitive subject, after I preface with this : I use this blog as a place to vent. Rather than spreading hate and negativity across social media and in an attempt to slow down chinese whispers which seem to be so rife across SL, I prefer to openly discuss my feelings through this space and hopefully come to a point where I reach an understanding with myself. This is never aimed specifically at one person. It's never meant to hurt, or "shade" anybody. If you feel personally attacked by anything I write, feel free to message me in world (LollipopLace) and if you can't because I've blocked you I wish you nothing but love and light but please leave me the eff alone, and find your way to understanding yourself and your relationships.
Ok.
It's so easy to see something on flickr, on facebook, or on any other social media and be like "Hey, that's super amazing. I want that." and part of my "job" as a blogger is to try and evoke that kind of a reaction in people. Also, with SL being so fast to move with new trends, the level of events and the commitment we make as bloggers to showcase all these beautiful items that creators painstakingly make, it becomes difficult to know when something is inspired by, and when something is a direct copy.
More than a few times there have been other bloggers who use the same pose, or put an outfit from an event together the same way as me. I'm not upset over this... it's going to happen. I remember one time, about two years ago, a blogger left a really nasty comment on my flickr in regards to an outfit I'd put together. It hurt me so bad, because I wasn't even following this other person, so I literally had no idea we'd done things similarly and it took a little investigating to figure out they did in fact blog the same event. I deleted the comment, reached out in world and explained the situation and received silence as a response, which I guess is an response in of itself!
However, there have also been times that I have spent hours and hours making a scene, selecting the perfect pose, creating the lighting and editing a photograph I am incredibly proud of... only to have someone - sometimes someone I have helped in some way while creating my scene - use the same background I set up with very minor differences, without me even knowing and tbh, usually they do it better!
The constant influx of items and the demand to blog the most recent items, it can be really, really difficult to get inspiration. It's understandable that there will be occasions where pictures from multiple people will overlap. I try my hardest to reach out to people who have inspired me, to let them know and to make sure it's okay if I credit them on my silly little blog, firstly because I feel like it's the "right thing" to do, and secondly because it's so beautiful to receive a compliment, even if the compliment comes from a stranger - I want to be that stranger!
Still, it seems that while this is something I attempt to do, very few people will give credit where credit is due. It's beautiful that so many people will credit their items to the creators, to give love and appreciation to those who make virtual items... but what about those who make ideas? Who set a wheel in motion in your brain? Don't they deserve credit, too?
It's all love here, seriously. I'm often floored by the work that SL residents can create, and I will always stand by that ideal. There's no doubt that there have been moments where something has sparked an idea in my head and I have not credited them because we scroll so fast through our social media we don't even recognize where the idea came from.
