I didn't know...

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL2-6m

Beautifimous Proppages : {moss&mink} Trinity bath & Tera Planters (Grey) @ FaMESHedX

{moss&mink} #Blessed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers

Fundati's Great Grass Chamomile

Pixel Mode - Anahata - Floor Candles (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

Pixel Mode - Victoria's Bath - White Towel Stack (Check MP, no longer available gacha item)

{anc} bubbles . 

Okay Spoonies, so I know I had a total melt down a couple of days ago and basically spewed a bit of hate about how so unfair it is that recognition in blogging does not always equate to talent, but some delusional idea of 'fame', HOWEVER, I may have had an epiphany... and this is why I love blogging, because I get to share it with you.

I've spoken before about how my daughter lives with my parents, you may have to dig a little deeply to find that, but the full post is within this here blog, and I attribute that fact to me now being able to move on in a much healthier direction. 

Today my daughter called me absolutely distraught. We've had issues getting her to go to school on a regular basis, and today was one of those days. As punishment for her refusal to go, Grandad took away the internet, and she was sad about it because, like most 16 year olds, she likes to spend her days playing games with her online friends.

As I was trying to calm her and explain that when you're good, good things happen, and when you're bad you're punished, I suddenly realized this wasn't entirely true. So there I am, stumbling over my words and trying to explain that to my daughter, when it only just sunk in for me.

Don't misunderstand, I KNEW life wasn't fair. It just didn't sink in that one day I might have to explain that to someone else, nor that I'd make a bit of a twat of myself by expressing the very same sentiment in that one post we're never going to speak of again!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Somali> GROUP GIFT

Tattoo : DAPPA - Magnolia Tattoo. @ Harajuku

Bikini : Luder! Miyu Microkini 

Always waiting.

Pose : FOXCITY. Legs for Days-4 (Slightly edited with Animare)

Background & Prop things : {moss&mink} Tufted Chaise @ FaMESHed

{moss&mink} Oversized Pouf @ FaMESHed

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Vase

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Wreath

Mutresse-Exhausted-Shortie Cats

dust bunny . fresh fruit stand . lemons

dust bunny . quirky planters . pug

dust bunny . at home baking . lemon plant

Apple Fall Antique Ladders w/ Heart String

Kalopsia - Faith's Mirrors

{vespertine}- spider plant.

Taken in the 01. Lagom - PinkKink [Skybox] RARE (Not sure if this is at an event, but thank you so much for the gift, Cutie!)

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : Catwa Skin applier - Peach - Snow (Enfer Sombre*)

Eyes : [JOE SL] GIGI MESH EYES SKY GREEN 

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyebrows : Bossie. miki eyebrows [omega] 

Ears :.random.Matter.  - Natural Elfie Ears

Freckles : [okkbye] Faux Freckles from an old edition of Powder Pack

Hair : DOUX - Valentina hairstyle 

Headpiece : *HEXtraordinary* Pink Dogwood Wreath - This isn't meant to be worn on your head, but I shoved it there anyway! Some editing may be required :P

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Nocturnal Tattoo @ Anybody

Dress : evani. Polly ribbed dress @ Collabor88

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Hoshiko Wedges @ Access

I know that it's a secret...

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL3-1(Edited slightly with Animare)

Background : {moss&mink} Spring Birdbath (Part of the MadPea Spring Hunt)

{moss&mink} Bunny Hop hunt items,
including : {moss&mink} Bunny Platter - Cupcake

{moss&mink} Bunny Platter - Macarons

{moss&mink} Book & Magazine stack

{moss&mink} Bunny Cup - Mallows

NS::  Bunny Bag For Bunny Hop

Fundati's Great Grass Chamomile @ Cosmopolitan

(Fundati) Mossy Rocks

(Fundati) Coleogyne Bushes 

(Fundati) Ruins W/Ivy

Couple of hunt items available in the blog today. The first mentioned is the MadPea Spring Hunt, and you can find all details on the MadPea website, including the starting point. You grab a hud and run around the grid in search of cute creatures, capturing them on your hud. Depending on the amount of creatures you catch, you can then run back to the start point to pick up some prizes from selected stores.

The second hunt is the Bunny Hop, follow the link to find the starting point. It runs from April 1-14th, with 30 participating stores. It's claimed to be a hard hunt, so make sure your camming skills are amaze!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Catya

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA BAE (PEARL)

Birthmarks :  [okkbye]  bold birthmarks 

Eyes : LOTUS. Liquid Eyes
Eyebrows : [okkbye] Adumbrate Eyebrows 

Hair : -FABIA- Gacha   <Norma> @ Lootbox

Hair bow, Necklace & Earrings : NS::  [Bunny Hop Hunt] 

Shirt : Mug - Flower Child - #9 String Tank Pink @ Lootbox

Shorts : BUENO-Spring Shorts @ Kustom9

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Li Ling Wedges @ FaMESHed

Wild with you.

Pose : Flamingo. Don't Let Go

Table & Chairs :  {moss&mink} Mila Garden table & Betty garden chair (Light) @ The Boardwalk Event

I think the Potatoman is trying to pull me into the ocean! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Hair : -FABIA- Gacha   <Nansy> @ Lootbox

Tattoo : DAPPA - Divos Tattoo. @ ManCave Event

Swimsuit : +MB+ Bikini of Grace 

You never notice.

Photo taken at my homestead.

Items used : {moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 

{moss&mink}  Starlight Canopy @ Zodiac

{moss&mink} Aries Framed Prints @ Zodiac

uK - Mystic Dew Mist Gold

[DDD] Mixed Cattails 

HEXtraordinary - Victorian Globe Lantern - Silver

HEXtraordinary Victorian Globe Torchiere - Silver

HEXtraordinary Victorian Globe Stand Lantern - Silver

+Half-Deer+ The Mad Scientist's Birdcage

+Half-Deer+ Star Creeper Moss - Light Green 

[ zerkalo ] Darius Rug1

Apple Fall Coastal Pier Narrow

~*GOD*~ Water Lilly 

The idea for this picture came from a photo that Clara posted on Facebook. You can find the original version >Here<. I often collect Clara's posts, because they're either visually inspiring or uh, lyrically inspiring? I'm not wordy enough today! 

I'm still exhausted, although I feel a billion times better than yesterday, so my hopes are high! I thought I might be coming down with a virus, but maybe I just skirted that, fingers crossed, eh?

xoxo

Tell me something.

Things : Culprit Sonata Baby Grand Piano BENTO @ The Boardwalk Event

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 @ Belle Event

{moss&mink} Fuschia Wall Planter (Black) @ Fameshed

*alirium* PuffyGrass [Green]

*alirium* ItchyGrass [DarkGreen]

[DDD] Twinkling Flower Bush - Corner

:Fanatik Architecture: Rocks & Cliffs DOVER

HPMD* Garden Tree04 - flower two colors

{anc} flower wind / circleB / white 

{anc} suger rose field [yellow]

An ocean full of change.

Pose : <EMOZIONE> Couple Pose **On The Track ~2~**!

Seat & things : {moss&mink} Molly Hallway Seat @ Fameshed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 - Set1 @ Belle Event (I have more plans for these, so stay tuned.. I really didn't do them justice!)

{what next} Floor Jar Lantern

I roped in Potato for this post, and uh, kinda forced him into making over his avatar completely (not quite completely, but I did make him buy the new Lelutka "Guy" head). Seeing as how his internet hasn't improved over the past 18 months, it's impossible for me to find out exactly what he's wearing, but I -think- his hair is Stealthic, and his shirt is from Ascend... but I'm not certain, hence my hesitance in linking all the things.

Still, we look pretty, and clearly I'd much rather stare at him than the beautiful sunset behind us, so that's awesome, right?

I got super frustrated with this post, and for a moment I reverted into ungrateful, annoyed and super negative Pickle of last year. Not good, not fresh, not something I want to revisit, ever. 

Luckily, Potato is incredibly understanding and fully supported me having a near-hissy-fit, calmed me down and told me to go the fuck to sleep (not quite like that, but he probably could have gotten away with it... maybe?), but yeah. Here we are 3 days later with an actual picture to show for his patience! I love that man.

Anywho, I know you're not here for my rambles, so have some information.

Happy weekend, Spoonies!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pyramid Ear

Hairpiece : {moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 @ Belle Event (These aren't supposed to go on your head, but they look cute. Love me pls.)

Horns : Lovely Disarray - Sketched Hellion Horns

Hair : [monso] My Hair - Yurin

Necklace : (Yummy) Bang Bang Choker @ Uber

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Tuva Set @ Equal 10

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 

Rings :  (Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Satoyo Heels @ Fameshed

Shake things up.

Pose & Hair : Tableau Vivant \\ Editorial hair \ Daydream Pose (Gacha)

Propthings : {moss&mink} Mya Desk & {moss&mink} Nora chair (formerly @ Equal10)

{moss&mink} Geo Computer (Black)

Mutresse-Drinking-Shortie Cats (Gacha)

+Half-Deer+ Book Clutter II 

nani // neko artist // pencil case_(rez) Gacha

nani // neko artist // papers_(rez) Gacha

/ frag.ments' / All Nighter Lamp ( Hvit )

Bueno -Kitty Cat-Backpack & -Dino- Backpack (Gacha) @ Arcade

I've had this picture done for a little while, and often when I go back to seeing a photo i'd edited a while back, I hate it.. with this one, I'm not having that feeling with this, so that's a bonus!

I don't have anything fancy to say, so i'm just gonna give you some credits, okay?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : [Glam Affair] Olive Applier [ Genus ] Basic Line (Previous 50L Friday)

Eyes : LOTUS. Flow Eyes 

Hair : Entwined Vilde

Outfit : Bueno-Wknd Pants & Top @ Collabor88

A little colder.

Pose & Drape: *!R.O!* Entertain BENTO Pose

Decor :  *HEXtraordinary* Reef Aquarium @ The Arcade 

Including : *HEXtraordinary* End Table Aquarium

*HEXtraordinary* Black Clownfish

*HEXtraordinary* Orange Clownfish

*HEXtraordinary* Pink Clownfish

*HEXtraordinary* Blue Clownfish

*HEXtraordinary* Aqua Clownfish

*HEXtraordinary* Blue Tang

*HEXtraordinary* Powder Blue Tang

*HEXtraordinary* Yellow Tang

*HEXtraordinary* Purple Tang

*HEXtraordinary* Green Anemone

*HEXtraordinary* Purple Anemone

*HEXtraordinary* Pink Anemone

*HEXtraordinary* Yellow Anemone

Mutresse-Begging-Shortie Cats

Mutresse-Teased-Shortie Cats

/ frag.ments' / Stacks of Frame ( Hvit )

hive // potted plants . cordyline tree . pot a

hive // potted plants . swiss cheese plant . pot a

A.V. Vincent Carpet

Dead Dollz The Cute One - Sweater - Black

Dead Dollz The Party One - Stockings - White

ARIA - Brynn Leather Sofa

Apple Fall China Cabinet

Apple Fall  Handbag & Scarf

[-BLUE SKY-] Definition Frame - LOVE

{moss&mink} Hung globe light - White

{moss&mink} Geometric Orb Deco

{moss&mink} #Blessed

{moss&mink} French Candle (Cluster)

{moss&mink} Red Roses

Photo taken in the Apple Fall Paris Apartment

Sometimes I forget what day it is!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Hair : Doe: Ettie

Skin : Glam Affair

Collar : Cae :: Interlaced :: Collar

Tattoo : DAPPA - Mystic Tattoo. @ Vanity 

For you.

Pose : Started with FOXCITY. Lucid-3m Edited with Animare

Props : *HEXtraordinary* Flutterfly Bush - Blue

*HEXtraordinary* Venomous Tentacle Vine

*HEXtraordinary* : Cranky Baby Mandrake

*HEXtraordinary* Frumious Blubbersnort

*HEXtraordinary* Screeching Snap Seedling

*HEXtraordinary* Carniverous Geranium

*HEXtraordinary* Flutterfly Bush - Lavender

*HEXtraordinary* Gray Owl - Flying

*HEXtraordinary* Screech Owl - Perched

*HEXtraordinary* Saw-Whet Owl - Perched

*HEXtraordinary* Brass Owl Cage

DRD - Series 01 - Bookcase Mess - Dark

DRD - Series 01 - Bookcase - Light

uK - Mystic Dew Mist Green

Kalopsia - Flying Curtain 

DISORDERLY. / Book Magic / Magical Birdcage

DISORDERLY. / Book Magic / Magical Potions

DISORDERLY. / Book Magic / Magical Suitcase

[ zerkalo ] Huge pile of books RARE (Gacha)

{moss&mink} Forever & Always (only Always)

I blame Narcisse for this extremely over-the-top Harry Potter themed post today. If the gorgeous little Seeker Necklace had never been dropped, I could have avoided this nonsense, instead, I went full Potter-head and grabbed a bunch of HEXtraordinary items too, because what's better than a little bit of Potter? A LOT OF POTTER!

I also feel like I could potentially be Harry & Hermione's lovechild, thanks to the glasses and the hair... but I'll leave that for you to decide.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Lefort by Revoul.Chun Catwa Applier @ Kustom9

Glasses : NS::  Kitty KaWaii SHADES @ Fluffy Kawaii

Hair : [LeLutka]-SALOME hair (I'm not sure if this is still available.. sorry!)

Necklace : -Narcisse- Seeker Chain - Gold @ World of Magic

Dress : EVANI-Bamboo dress 

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Natsuyo Heels @ Belle Event

This feeling.

Pose : FOXCITY. Lucid-1m

Furniture & propthings : {moss&mink} Adele Fireplace (White) @ FaMESHed 

{moss&mink} Ruffle Heart Rug @ FaMESHed 

{moss&mink} Bottled Wall Flowers (agapanthus) @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink} Confetti & Heart scatter @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink} Forever & Always @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink}Soft Cubes (Lust - Red) @ Love Bites Hunt

{moss&mink} Heart Gem Frame (light landscape) @ Love Bites Hunt

{moss&mink} Love lamp (Red) @ Love Bites Hunt

 {moss&mink} Lace-up Chair no/blanket

=Zenith= Valentine's Day Heart Flower @ Collabor88

I'm a bit of a busy bee today. I'm dabbling in the DFS farm system in SL (again) at the moment, and so far, most of my day has been spent doing a quest for some Chives. It's all a bit bizarre, honestly, but I'm not mad, because it gave me the chance to edit some pictures and catch up on some of my favourite youtubers at the same time as completing it all. I may have gone a bit OTT though, because I bought 5 huds... and if any of you have already done this chive quest, you'll understand my slight amount of "omfg what have I done".

In other news, Moss&Mink has been very busy! I've paired together a bunch of her new items, available at different events which I'll of course list below... but all of them have a freakin' stunning finish and I'm once again blown away by how talented Cielo is!

There's also this adorable bodysuit from Miss Chelsea that I feel could be dressed up with the skirt (not shown) for a hot date or worn separately as shown above. The lace detailing is beautiful!

Lastly, Empire's shoes finish the outfit off with an appropriate amount of oomph! 

xoxo

All of the things :

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier @ Uber

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Hair : Lamb. Wildflower

Headpiece : Mossu - Fleur.Wreath @ Collabor88

Rings : (Yummy) Art Deco Rings @ Collabor88

Bodysuit : .miss chelsea. Saga Body @ Belle Event

Thigh Strap :*MUKA* Leg Strap 

Shoes :  #EMPIRE  - Variscite @ Kustom9

Fix these kinks.

Pose : ::: FF(Now Ana Poses) - singel pose - gaming

Props : .miss chelsea. Joli Sheer Curtain (Gacha)

{moss&mink} Modern Princess - Beaded Lamp (Light) (Gacha)

{moss&mink} Geo Computer (Pink)  @  A+ Event

+Half-Deer+ Book Clutter II - Pastel - Messy Row @ soiree

+Half-Deer+ Book Clutter II - Pastel - Messy Stack Big @ soiree

BUENO-Headphones-White

Garbaggio // Pickle (Custom, from a super awesome frand! Thank you beautiful!)

dust bunny . secretary desk 

[Fetch] RudeAF Candy Stool - Nah (Gacha)

NS::  Pom Pom Fluffy Rabbit @ Fluffy Kawaii

Happy Monday! 

I know there'd usually be a man-Pickle or at least a Durex in this post, but obviously today they're both missing, and you're left with some nude Pickle butt. Not sorry!

I think I may have discussed this previously, but I have -diagnosed by a therapist- Borderline Personality Disorder and lately, I've been watching some online videos regarding this uh.. condition? Personality? I don't even know what to call it because "Mental Issue" just sounds eeky and like I'm ready to stab someone with a machete at any moment, which really isn't the case... (mostly).

I'm not sure how many of you will identify with this disorder, but I'm sure there will be a few of you that even though you don't have this condition, you may relate on some level, because let's face it, you don't have to be bonkers to feel some type of way sometimes. Anywho, specifically referring to the issues I've always experienced with maintaining healthy friendships and relationships, I've learned that the a lot of the traits I have there are actually borderline traits, and I'd like to talk about that a little. Now, don't for a moment think that just because I'm talking about this, and you potentially identify with something similar that you have Borderline, but if you do your own research and feel like you might, I highly recommend talking to your doctor or therapist and finding out for certain. don't diagnose yourself for lawds sake!

So according to my research, as a person with Borderline, I'm unable to stay in a grey area when it comes to people and their actions... and this has proven to be true a LOT recently. I have a tendency to be either "Yep, they're awesome" or "Nope, avoid", and people that sit within that grey area for me are kinda irrelevant and I am unable to focus on.. but honestly, that grey area is TEENY TINY in the grand scheme of things, I'll either decide immediately that I like or dislike you, or I'll fold you into the grey area of "I don't mind you.. BUT." 

There's also the huge issue of being unable to see past black and white, like "Hey I like you today" but when your actions don't match your words, I can't quite compute that, and suddenly you're a terrible person and now I'm ranting and trying to understand why it is I think you're a terrible person when actually, you've only done one minor thing that isn't -perfect- but I can't unsee it and now I'm spiraling and OMG!

So I knew I did these things. More recently, I have been desperately trying to understand why I have always felt like this, and it was only thanks to the accidental youtube binge I went on that I discovered it was most definitely a borderline trait.

Now, I'm not saying that because it's a part of my 'mental illness' it's something that I (or you by proxy) should just deal with - I really don't feel that way at all. However, it does allow me to forgive myself for the past issues I've had with friendships and relationships, and now I'm fully aware that it is part of my brain malfunctioning, I will hopefully be in a position to correct it as it happens. 

That being said, it does leave me in a bit of a tizz when I think about it, because now I really do second guess myself, but as I said to Potato a couple of days ago, "When I get that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach about a person, does it really matter if it's just my borderline?" I guess I'll keep you updated!

I may refer to my "Midlife Crisis" fairly often, but it really is a journey of self-discovery, and of self acceptance and improvement. I am not perfect. I will never BE perfect... but I can be better and I really feel like the greater the understanding I have of my mental illness, the more facets of it I can work on, and ANYONE who is mad at personal improvement is just not worth worrying about.

Have a beautiful day, Spoonies.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Go&See * Laura * @ Gloss

Eyes : LOTUS. Beauty Eyes @ Equal10

Hair : booN Lab.009 hair

Tattoo : DAPPA - Persempre Tattoo. @ Equal10