Live without it.

Pose : FOXCITY. Loco-4

Background : FOXCITY.  Photo Booth - Aeonian 

Today I'm showcasing the beautiful FKA skin from Revoul.

I knew it was a homage to the artist FKA Twigs, but honestly, I wasn't entirely sure who this person was. I've since watched a few of her music videos, listened to her music and done a little bit of research on her, and it turns out that not only is this amazingly talented woman a genre of her own, but she's also a bloody Brit! Go-on, Love! Also, can we just take a minute to admire the completely gorgeous hair styles she sports? Kthnx.

The inspiration behind the look today was based on FKA Twigs "Two Weeks" Music Video, which you can see right at the bottom of this post!

xoxo

Above you'll find all the tones that are available in the FKA Skin Range. It's worth noting that the teeth are on the skin, so even when your lips are closed, you're going to see them. It did take me a minute to make a shape for my mouth, but I'm almost certain you'll agree the result is well worth it! There is a shape available from Revoul.. I just really enjoy making my own!

Check out the cute lipstick shades!

All of the things :

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Lefort by Revoul.FKA Genus Applier 

Eyes : AMITOMO.Eye Collection #5 

Hair : +Spellbound+ Pyramids

Hairbase : SIIX // Pyramids Hairbase // Black

Headpiece : =Zenith=Gothic Rose headpiece 

Septum :(Yummy) Eclipse Septum - Gold

Shirt : Moon Elixir - Baby Doll - Top 

Say goodbye.

Pose : Ana Poses - Chemnitz 4 (Male pose)

Background : [ isuka ] dead ahead backdrop

All of the things :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : [Glam Affair] Serenity Applier [ Catwa ]

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Magic Pixie Ears 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair  <April> (Previously @ the Dubai Event)

Mask : O.M.E.N - Animal Gas-Mask - Goat - BLK (Former Gift)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Hunter Tattoo. @ Vanity Event

Piercing/leash : ~MR~LeashChain~

Gloves : =Zenith=The Hollow Gloves 

Pants : Native - Rolled Jeans @ TMD

This feeling.

Pose : FOXCITY. Lucid-1m

Furniture & propthings : {moss&mink} Adele Fireplace (White) @ FaMESHed 

{moss&mink} Ruffle Heart Rug @ FaMESHed 

{moss&mink} Bottled Wall Flowers (agapanthus) @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink} Confetti & Heart scatter @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink} Forever & Always @ Cupid Inc

{moss&mink}Soft Cubes (Lust - Red) @ Love Bites Hunt

{moss&mink} Heart Gem Frame (light landscape) @ Love Bites Hunt

{moss&mink} Love lamp (Red) @ Love Bites Hunt

 {moss&mink} Lace-up Chair no/blanket

=Zenith= Valentine's Day Heart Flower @ Collabor88

I'm a bit of a busy bee today. I'm dabbling in the DFS farm system in SL (again) at the moment, and so far, most of my day has been spent doing a quest for some Chives. It's all a bit bizarre, honestly, but I'm not mad, because it gave me the chance to edit some pictures and catch up on some of my favourite youtubers at the same time as completing it all. I may have gone a bit OTT though, because I bought 5 huds... and if any of you have already done this chive quest, you'll understand my slight amount of "omfg what have I done".

In other news, Moss&Mink has been very busy! I've paired together a bunch of her new items, available at different events which I'll of course list below... but all of them have a freakin' stunning finish and I'm once again blown away by how talented Cielo is!

There's also this adorable bodysuit from Miss Chelsea that I feel could be dressed up with the skirt (not shown) for a hot date or worn separately as shown above. The lace detailing is beautiful!

Lastly, Empire's shoes finish the outfit off with an appropriate amount of oomph! 

xoxo

All of the things :

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier @ Uber

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Hair : Lamb. Wildflower

Headpiece : Mossu - Fleur.Wreath @ Collabor88

Rings : (Yummy) Art Deco Rings @ Collabor88

Bodysuit : .miss chelsea. Saga Body @ Belle Event

Thigh Strap :*MUKA* Leg Strap 

Shoes :  #EMPIRE  - Variscite @ Kustom9

Hard to deal with.

Pose : Bossie. Belle Pose 02

Background & Props :  [BH9] - The Subway V1 @ Backdrop City

YO_V.boy-004 

YO_People Talking

I went grocery shopping a couple of days ago.

I know. For most of you, that'll consist of a regular day, but for me... well some of you will know that I didn't leave the house for a pretty long period of time and have only recently started dipping my toe back into the outside world... so it has challenges.

I slept the night before, which is a giant leap forward. Recently, I've been worrying about my forays into the real word to the point where I couldn't sleep. This time however, I woke up at a reasonable hour and then realized I had two hours before I left the house. 

Those two hours mainly consisted of me over thinking every possible scenario in my head. and instead of this occurring in an overtired, sleepy Pickle brain, it was now occurring in an incredibly well rested Pickle brain, so therefore the scenarios were slightly more elaborate. I had to get cash out. What if the cash machine were broken? What if I saw someone I know, and had to explain where i've been for the past 400 years? What if I had to ask someone for help, what if I couldn't reach the ketchup, what if they were out of butter, what if what if what if???

Not only was I incredibly well rested, but I also only had two hours to panic, so for two hours, poor Potato sat on Discord with me while I made stupid noises, spoke out loud in half formed sentences because I often talk to him in my head, and made flapping noises by covering my hands with my giant sweater and for whatever reason pretended I was a bird (Not literally, but that was the action). 

Whenever I'm anxious, my leg always twitches too, so I had that going ten to the dozen too.

Anyway.. I managed to go. I left the house, I got my groceries, and I came home and locked the door and haven't actually left the house again yet - but tomorrow, tomorrow I will...

The only reason I write all this is because that's MY battle, and everyone has at least one going on in their lives.

Please, remember to be kind. That crazy lady that needs a little extra help to reach the eggs might just be trying to sort her shit out. That screaming child in aisle four might be autistic and completely out of their comfort zone. All manner of ailments both mental and physical affect people, and sometimes you just can't see them by looking. 

Be kind, always.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Chanel CatwaGenusLelutka App (RE20) @  A+ Event

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes @ Shiny Shabby

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Devotion Shadow @ soiree

Hair : .Entwined. Vilde

Dress & Cardigan : .miss chelsea. Ines Set @ Uber

Bag : =Zenith=Unicorn Bag (Super old gacha)

Boots : [BREATHE]-Taniki Heels @ FaMESHed X

Patience.

Pose : FOXCITY. Glitz-3m (Edited v. slightly)

I know, I know, I ran away and didn't tell you!

I'm sorry!

Sometimes, mental health just creeps up on you and finally, for the first time in almost 10 years, I decided to distance myself from SL for a while.

Some of you will know that this is incredibly difficult for me. For a long time, SL has been somewhat of a crutch, but in recent months it's also become more of a beast in need of caging.

I can't help but see how SL is a boiling pot of people, all coming together to suit their own agendas, and in theory, that idea is beautiful. In reality, what seems we have discovered is that when our masks come off, humanity doesn't seem to care too much about others. We don't have the time to find ourselves, and we're all so hurt that hurting others is an easy alternative to focusing on our issues and building ourselves up. The society of validation has become ridiculous.. no one is responsible for your happiness other than yourself. I can't compete with social media likes, and I refuse to be one of the sheeples that incessantly kisses ass in order to become a someone.

This isn't linked JUST to SL and the internet, but the whole world is in a really crazy state of turmoil, and if you can't see it - I pity you the most.

I am tired.

We are ALL tired.

Plans for the future? Well, I'm going to continue to work on myself. I really do have everything I could possibly need in terms of material items and emotional support. I have a good group of friends that understand me and can kick my ass if needed, but will also lift me up and be legitimately proud of my accomplishments.

The whole idea of someone blowing smoke up my arse in order to make themselves feel better fills me with horror, and I can no longer be a party to allowing those people in my life.

I hope to continue to take a step back away from SL. I think it's going to be a very slow process, but I can see what a negative distraction it can become, and while I'm involved, I'd like my experiences to be filled with positivity, beauty and creativity.

Have a fantastic Wednesday, guys... and rest assured, although this may have been a bit of a downer to read, this is positive for me, and I hope it stirs something within you, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (Babyface)

Skin : [theSkinnery] Nadine (Genus Applier)

Eyes : [theSkinnery] Autumn Eerie Eyes 4

Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses [Gold]

Hairbase : Just Magnetized - Essential Hairbase - set 05 

Hair : DOUX - Ryan hairstyle @ Dubai

Earrings : Messy. Hoop Earrings Bear 

Bear ears & Tail : +Half-Deer+ Little Lights - Bear Ears + Tail 

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Nola Set  @ N21

Bear Bag : =Zenith= Babo Bear Bag 

Boots : #EMPIRE - Moonstone @ Tannenbaum

Love every minute.

Pose & Fans : oOo Studio bon_one

Background : [Azuchi] Azuchi Castle Photo Studio (Former Gift)

I often look at my photographs and literally see the ebbs and flows of my moods.

Right now, I'm in a good place. But it seems like the work I do when I'm at my lowest is the work that I end up most proud of.

I wonder why that is?

Howeverrrr. I'm obviously going to keep attempting to improve, and hopefully work out why my state of mind affects my "art" (or whatever you wanna call it) so decisively. Maybe I just overthink when I'm good, and when I'm low, I don't care? Haha. FUDGE.

Have some credits!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA BAE

Head : CATWA Lona

Lipstick : -SU!- Nixu Lip Gloss 

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : Entwined. Drew

Mask : =Zenith=Miao xianren Mask (Red) (Gacha)

Feathers : .aisling. Velasco

Bodysuit & Corset : -Narcisse- Miss Maine Corset & Bodysuit For Fameshed GO!

Shoes : #EMPIRE - Incanus @ FaMESHed

In my zone.

Pose : lksdjf it's an AO pose again, I'm sorry!

Basket of Kitties : =Zenith= Kitten Basket 

Location : Erebos Harbor 

I'm hoping this photo reminds you of a modern day fairytale. That was kind of what I was going for. Maybe a Snow White or Sleeping Beauty (pre-needle to her finger), wandering contentedly through the forest in relative innocence before any bad-things occur.

I've always struggled to take photo's with softer windlights, but I'm exceedingly happy with this one. The only thing I did differently was take my time, so I guess I need to stop being impatient!

I'm not going to do a giant Pickle rant today, so I'll just stop here long enough to wish you a very happy Wednesday! Love and light!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body & Hands : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : { Clair de Lune } Aurora (Note : this skin is ADULT, but the store is CHILD orientated, please go dressed accordingly!)

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Rebirth Eyes (Gacha) @ Pocket Gacha(15th June)

Hair & Flowers : RAMA.SALON - Julie Hair @ Blush

Necklace : +Half-Deer+ Forest Charm - Fox Necklace (Silver) (gacha)

Shirt : EVANI - SISILE TOP @ Uber

Jeans : EVANI - SISILE JEANS @ Uber

Safe with me.

Pose & Knife : *Eternal Dream* Feral 06 @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Background & Decor : Violetility - Magic Clans Gacha @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

So it's that time again! By the time I've posted this blog, Fantasy Gacha Carnival will officially be open! That's right, today, 7th May, FGC opens it's doors once again with the theme "Tribe Life, Forest People, Wild Thing, Mamba, Panthers, Feral, Wunderlusters". You can find all about this new round by clicking to the website >Here< it'll not only show you a bunch of the creators and their items on offer, it'll also give you access to all the bloggers lucky enough to be a part of this wonderfully creative event.

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Skin : Go&See * Hela * Tropic @ Blush

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE

Eyes : -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Lipstick : . MILA . Princess of Darkness Makeup

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pixie Ears 

Hair : Tableau Vivant \\ Faun hair RARE@ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Headpiece : =Zenith= Hun Archmage Antler (Begie)

Tattoo : Izzie's - Metallic Arrow Tattoo

Outfit : Luas Grenna (Gacha) @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

New technology.

Pose : FOXCITY. Steamy-4m

Background : ///BENJAMINZ/// CTRL BACKDROP @ Rewind 

Toro. Stacked Television {White Noise} (Gacha)

I'm not really one to get my nipples out without due cause, but this outfit just made all kinds of sense to me. It's a little bit naughty and a lot fantastic... and I feel like maybe I'm missing some of that fantastical stuffs lately, and with the fantasy gacha carnival thingies going on, sometimes regular posts can look a little bland.

This look shows more items from the Y2K round of Rewind, and I'm absolutely loving the ErschxOppa set (There are earrings and a necklace not shown, too).

It's a gacha and it's so different that as soon as it popped up I just KNEW it was going to be fun to photograph. As usual, my anxious little brain has been whirring with ideas surrounding the items, and finally I settled upon this. Tada!

I'm always slightly wary of wearing skins that aren't my RL race. I'm almost literally the whitest white girl in the history of white people. I've been bought up in the most white-collar, English way possible for my generation, and I am mostly pretty ignorant to the struggles of many other races. The last thing on my mind is making people uncomfortable or awkward because of a way that I portray an item, and I really hope that I do justice to the skins and pretties that I find across the grid. If you choose to look at this post, or any of my posts for any reason, just know that I am attempting to make art, regardless of race, colour, gender stereotypes or roles. I want so badly to bridge ALL the gaps and have a world where nothing matters except lifting people up and making others happy, but not at the expense of ourselves... but I know realistically this is just a dream for how the world works right now.

That being said, this skin is truly beautiful, as are all the items portrayed in today's post. I am absolutely thrilled with the outcome of the photograph, and only hope you enjoy what I have bought you. xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : NOT FOUND - YUMI SKIN PEACH  (CATWA) @ Sense Event

Body Skin : [theSkinnery] Maitreya Skin Applier - peach

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : Hayaru  - Jung mesh eyes 

Ears :  ^^Swallow^^  Dragon Ears @ Kustom9

Lipstick : .{PSYCHO:Byts}. Sadayakko Lipstick

Hair : booN Lab.004 hair

Headpiece & Wings : ERSCH & .Oppa.- TV Angel Gacha @ Rewind 

Nipples : !~SV~! Nipples 

Corset & Nipple Tags : ::Axix:: Tomoe's Ofuda&Bodysuit @ BoundBox Feb'18 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One

Shoes & Socks : =Zenith=Xiang Mo Boots (Red) -Maitreya (Gacha)

Chasing my mind.

Hi!

I was talking to my SL brother, Kim, today. He was discussing how he'd felt so much better since he'd gotten closure with a negative entity in his life, and sometimes it's nice to just put things behind you... and I while I agree completely, it's lovely to be able to close a door on someone/something and have nothing but positive energy, it's not always possible.

I think I tend to focus a lot on negatives for myself. With other people, I can almost always see a bright side, and I suppose that's quite nice if you ever come to me for advice.

Anywho... I know I have a terrible tendency to put situations in boxes in my head and then leave them there. The only problem with doing that is that they're never actually 100% resolved, and there's an odd residue, or a trail of broken neurons or something that just don't connect to anything anymore. Closing those doors completely might be beneficial, but at the same time, what if the responses you're met with aren't what you're hoping for?

I'm going to mull this over for a while. Maybe there are some synapses that I can reconnect to lost boxes safely.

All of the things : 

Head : CATWA Uma

Skin : more more. nari skin_RARE1 (Gacha)

Eyes :  CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers :  LOTUS. Charmant Eyes (Gacha) @ Chapter 4 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & star stickers

Eyebrows & Eyeshadow : Go&See * Frozen * Eye - Make-Up Pallete ~ Catwa @ Chapter 4 

Tongue : ::Axix:: Aine Tongue [Pierced] @ Kinky Event

Collar : Stockholm&Lima: Little Spiked Collar 

Hair : *Besom~Relle 

Headpiece : =Zenith=Winter Deer Headband (Milk) (Gacha)

Learn how to change.

Background & Props : [Azuchi] Azuchi Castle Photo Studio (Former Gift)

{moss&mink} Winter Delights (Gacha) (Previously @ The Arcade)

Including - {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Dango, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Kotatsu Table - Queen RARE, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Macha tea, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Mochi, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Tea, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Teacups, {moss&mink} Winter Delights - Teapot.

Stepping into the new year, I feel like I should have a sense of excitement and newness and part of me is excited & feeling that certain things are new, but that has nothing to do with the 'new year' and everything to do with the relationships that are currently being formed in my circle.

I have never been one for resolutions, believing that a new year doesn't necessarily mean a new beginning, because you can choose to start again whenever the heck you like.

I guess "not having a resolution" is my only resolution this year. I don't feel like I NEED to change anything right now, I feel like I'm motoring along quite contentedly, holding hands with someone I enjoy the company of, sitting next to a few good people, and hopefully making the world slightly more sparkly for the people around me I care about... because right now, there's nothing but bright lights ahead, and it ain't no train.

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Uma

Skin : more more. nari skin_RARE1 (Gacha)

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier:  LOTUS. Tenshi Eyes - Chairo (Catwa) RARE (Gacha) 

Hair : *barberyumyum*93

Outfit (Mask, Dress, Shoes & Accessory : =Zenith= Puppet division Gacha 

Coming through.

Pose & Dogs : .Focus Poses. Couple 27

Location : D 0 X

I can't describe the feeling of contentment I have right now.

To say the last week has been a rollercoaster of emotions would be an understatement, even by my standards. If you've been reading for a while, you'll know that I barely left my platform for two years. It seems that stepping out of my box has ruffled a few feathers, and I'm okay with that. Those who know me, will continue to. Those that don't perhaps never will.

This last week I literally bumped souls with someone. At first, I was naturally cautious.

The more we talked and the more patient they were, the easier it has been for me to open up.

I'm not scared to say anything.

I'm not worried that I might be too much, or not enough.

As things stand right now, holding hands and walking is enough, and I cannot thank them enough for their understanding of me, their time spent with me allowing me the space for creativity and ranting and all the things that make me feel good.

I'm  not stifled. I'm still free.

And it feels really, really fucking nice.

All of the things, SantiClaus :

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 

Skin : Tableau Vivant \\ Fabio applier 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Daniel

Eyes : -SU!- Lythion Eyes

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair :  Modulus - Julius Hair (FREE Fatpack @ Consent)

Coat/Hoody/Shirt :  fame femme: Pit Coat @ TMD

Jeans :  Legal Insanity - Lynch black jeans w/bandana

Boots : [Deadwool] Patmos boots

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet 

Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' 

Birthmark : [okkbye] dewy blushers (catwa & omega)

Eyes :  -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha) 

Bindi & Nose Ring : :: SAGA :: Wonderland Jewel Set @ Kustom9

Hair : *barberyumyum*93 

Coat : NIU - Cotton coat @ Liaison Collaborative

Sheep Bag :  =Zenith= Sheep Head Bag (Note : This is a really old gacha item, not sure if still available)

Leggings : Blueberry - Cake - Tight Leggings 

Boots & Socks : #EMPIRE - Luculia @ Winter Trend