I often forget about the Lelutka heads, but then I put one on and suddenly, it brings back how much I abso-freaking-lutley adore them. Every single head I've purchased from them (and I now have at least five) has bought something new.. no matter how small, and each time they up their game I'm at a loss for words. Needless to say when I saw the new Go&See skin specifically for the new brand of Lelutka heads, I made big ol' grabby hands for it!
I also decided to do the Slink body with the petite add-on for mah bewbies. I LOVE playing with (myself? LOL) my avatar, creating shapes that I believe to be fairly realistic.. and the petite add-on for the Slink helps me achieve that as I was never keen on the way the hourglass body breasts protruded.. but I am a huge fan of this shape. It's fair to say this was inspired not only by the new Go&See skin, but also Muggleborn, who go above and beyond to rig for bodies and augments that not every creator manages to include.
I probably don't say this enough, but I am SO amazingly grateful for all the beautiful brands that trust me with their creations, without their items, I'm almost certain my creativity would have been stunted as often I need a little push!
xoxo
Oh look! TONES! \o/
Starting at the top left, there's Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy
Bottom left, Tan, Tropic, Choco, Cola and I think a new tone (?) Dusky
All of the things :
Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body & Petite chest augment Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3 Skin : Go&See * Gwen * Lelutka ~ Powder Pack [2.19] Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha) Hair :tram I0210 hair @ Uber Necklace & Armbands : Avada~ Theodora Necklace & Cassia Armband @ The Secret Affair Feathers : .aisling. Velasco Nipple piercings : - Fika - Imprison Piercing Dress :+MB+ Rosalee Dress @ Whore Couture (Opens March 1st LM to follow, demo in mainstore) Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 01
Background : [Azuchi] Azuchi Castle Photo Studio (Former Gift)
I often look at my photographs and literally see the ebbs and flows of my moods.
Right now, I'm in a good place. But it seems like the work I do when I'm at my lowest is the work that I end up most proud of.
I wonder why that is?
Howeverrrr. I'm obviously going to keep attempting to improve, and hopefully work out why my state of mind affects my "art" (or whatever you wanna call it) so decisively. Maybe I just overthink when I'm good, and when I'm low, I don't care? Haha. FUDGE.
I've made no secret of the fact that I have been under the weather lately, and while I am almost 100% convinced this is completely an anxiety thing, it's come to a point where I'm absolutely going to have to get it sorted... so first thing tomorrow (today?) I'm going to pop to the hospital and get myself fixed.
It always sounds a little dramatic when someone says "I'm going to hospital!" and I really hope that's not the case here. I'm pretty sure I'm over-reacting, but on the off-chance I'm not, I'm throwing it out there that I may (or may not) be gone for a little while... and that for me means completely radio silent (unless I bite the bullet and buy a freakin' new laptop), because I really don't do mobile phones or ipads or any fancy things. So now you all know, and I really hope it's not as dramatic as it sounds haha.
In other news, the picture above has been edited quite a lot, and while I love it, I sort of hate it too. Please check out the original colourings of the items shown in the pictures below!
So, yesterday was the two year anniversary of me starting the Kaleidoscope blog.
Today, I decided that I'm going to try and use this as what it is. MY blog.
For a long time, I've avoided writing much here, purely because I have a tendency to blurt, rant, overthink and then hate everything I write and in reality, I can't imagine anyone actually wanting to read a bunch of Pickle nonsense. However - here we go. No doubt those who come for informative fashion advice will just scroll right past this and that's just peachy, you do you, Boo.
Today I wanted to introduce you properly to my alt, Paloma. She's been featuring fairly regularly here and I feel like she needs a name to her face!
I've never really had a problem with alts, unless they're shady. People I care about are aware of the fact I use alts (yes, multiples of) and why I chose to use them. For me, Paloma is my sanctuary, so opening up and sharing her with you is actually a big deal. (Also, how do you describe your alts? I mean, they're all me, so should I still refer to her as "Her" or "Me"? I'm going with "Her", because I'm "Me, Pickle" here. Now I'm even more confused, because I'm never not me...)
For a long time, I sat on my platform as Pickle, and didn't explore beyond the few 'regular' sims I'd very rarely visit. My SL had become more and more enclosed and it was difficult for me to branch out due to meeting the 'wrong' types of people and feeling trapped, bitter and jaded by the negative I'd experienced.
Paloma has actually opened up a few doors for me. Thanks to the feeling of freedom I experienced on her, I've developed entirely new relationships with people I would never have found without that free feeling. I'm in a much happier SL place, and although I still have days where i'm "meh" about all the things, I also have more days where I'm more likely to be "Hey, it's almost like I fit here!" again. I'm involving myself in activities I never thought I'd try, and through those activities, i'm meeting even more new and wonderful people. I'm no longer wastefully spending my SL time standing like a statue
I've even met a man that doesn't appear to be a complete dick (at the moment! I hope you read this, Jer!) and I'm so sickeningly contented, I sometimes annoy myself.
So what's the purpose of Paloma in terms of Kaleidoscope? Well, as I've been spending a little more time on her lately, I didn't want to forget about my passion for blogging. So I dress her up, and naturally want to show her off. Because of the freedom I feel being on her, she's become slightly more alternative than Pickle, and I feel like showing the products I love in a different way will only serve to benefit the readers/information seekers more. I hope you enjoy her, as much as I do!
Before I run off and squirrel about everything that has been rolling around in my head for - well, forever - , I want to thank you all for reading/checking out my blog up until now. I am genuinely, completely in awe of the support, likes, shares, positive words and constructive criticism that I have received. It is a piece of me. It is entirely mine. It is a place I have used continually to explore creativity, push my boundaries and explore who I am, and having others to share it with is beyond amazing. I will thoroughly encourage this to anyone who just wants to document the process of growing in ANY field. It's wonderful to look back and be able to see an improvement.
I never know how to stop writing once I start, but I guess you came here for goodies, so... here they are!
