C'mere!

Pose : Foxcity. Sits Vol3-5 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background &  Props : .:Joplino:. Backdrop Lazy Nights @ Backdrop City

+Half-Deer+ Corgi Puppy - Lazy Friends (Gacha)

+Half-Deer+ Dog Clutter - Pink - Toy Rubber Ball

+Half-Deer+ Dog Clutter - Pink - Leash on Floor

+Half-Deer+ Dog Clutter - Pink - Toy Bone

BUENO-Pizza Boxes (Gacha)

+Half-Deer+ Fast Food Clutter - Spilled Soda Drink (Red)

+Half-Deer+ Fast Food Clutter - Soda Drink (Red)

Whenever I feel like I can't people successfully, I pet.

It doesn't usually happen for long periods of time, mostly just a couple of hours, but recently, I've kind of started to absolutely adore being a puppy.

I know there's a D/s term for this nonsense, but I don't have a Dominant, nor am I looking - mostly because I have a Jake, and having a Jake (luckily with a Punky attached) has been far more successful for me than having an official Dominant!

When I'm a puppy, or a kitty, or a faun, or any other kind of animal-style-thingy-ma-bob, it's entirely probable that I'm feeling slightly more vulnerable. There doesn't have to be a particular reason for my vulnerability and often, there isn't ONE reason for it... it's a culmination of things that just make me want to retreat slightly and stand at the edge of the crowd rather than finding myself central to the action. It's my time to reflect.

Where many true Babygirls may have 'little space', I find myself to be better suited to 'pet space'. I suppose both are a bit weird if you don't understand the concept!

Oddly enough, when I feel in a 'pet' kind of mood, I also feel more creative - which leads on from what I was saying a couple of days ago. Somehow being vulnerable, or allowing myself to feel the way I need to in order to heal myself, I am far more able to feel like 'me' despite the fact that my avatar might run around with a tail and ears.

I'm a bizarre little Pickle, and ultimately, I suppose I'm just glad I'm able to have this outlet to throw out my random ventings and occasionally pretty pictures!

Wishing you love and light!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA BAE

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : {S0NG} :: Bubble Eyes 

Tears : Dirty Secrets ~ Bento Tears 

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows 

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Puppy Ears : c h i m e r a . Dog Ears (Made for Furry avatars and resized, SCULPTED not mesh)

Bindi : TONY -- Sailor Scouts Moon Jewel (No longer available, but there's a lot similar!)

Goggles : Kenvie - vintage Goggles - Black RARE (gacha)

Hair : little bones. Alias @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Apex Tattoo. @ Equal10

Collar : .random.Matter. - Cermet Collar - Do Not Feed

Shirt & Pants : EVANI - Jenny @ Kustom9

Nails : -SU!- Livana Nails .GothBabe. 

Sneakers : REPRESENT - Holy Grails "Classic"

Girl, you're trouble.

Pose : Le Poppycock-Romantic allure

Background items : {moss&mink} Marie Haybales 

{vespertine}illuminated pumpkins @ Collabor88

LB_Sunflowers

I can't think of anything entertaining to talk about today!

I do however, love this Little Mix song at the end of the blog, so make sure you smack that, because it's gonna be in my head for weeks!

xoxo 

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyebrows :  [okkbye] bucolic eyebrows

Birthmark : [okkbye] bold birthmarks 

Bandaid & Bloody Nose : Mug - Violet Bandaid @ Girl Power

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Alias @ Equal10

Puppy Ears : c h i m e r a . Flopped Dog Ears (Made for Furry avatars and resized, SCULPTED not mesh)

Sunflower : From the Beusy: Citrus Hairstyle 

Collar : Sweet Thing. Puppy's White Princess Collar (Gacha)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Vixen Tattoo. @ The Seasons Story

Lingerie : Moon Elixir - Serena @ Equal10

Puppy Tail : Sweet Thing.  Shiba Puppy Tail RARE  (Gacha)

Boots : -Narcisse- Vera Boots @ The Black Fair

Let's get lost.

Pose : <K&S> Love Scars. couple 2 (Gacha)

Props : Culprit Sonata Macabre @ Salem (Opens Sept 29th)

*Funky*Junk* Halloween Decor Set 2 

Apple Fall Pug Ceramic Decor

I like to imagine that Pickle and Durex have crept into an old, abandoned house in this photograph.

I'm not entirely sure where they've strewn their clothing, or what possessed them to run around such a creepy place with their pants down, but we all do crazy things sometimes, and maybe this is one of those times!

Culprit has once again stunned me with their magical bento Piano.

Don't get me wrong, it's not going to perform card tricks, or pull a rabbit from a top hat, but that doesn't make it any less spectacular! I'm adding another little gif whatsit below so that you can get a glimpse of the wonderful animations included - but please do demo the item for yourself so that you get the full effect!

I'm struggling to keep up with the awesome that Dappa is producing lately! It continues to warm my heart that brands I love who are still supporting me after a long time, manage to push their way into mainstream events one by one. There's no doubt in my mind that Dappa is entirely deserving of his current status, and he is always among the first tattoo brand that I will recommend to anyone looking for new art, not just because he's kind enough to allow me to review his items, but because the quality is always absolutely spot on.
xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair : Vango. Alex

Tattoo : DAPPA - Tengu Tattoo. @ Neo Japan

Undies : STRAY DOG - signature - boxer (free with body skin purchase)

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : AMITOMO Eye Collection

Eyeliner : YKON - The 4 Girlies Types - Catwa/OMEGA

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Theory @ Uber

Tattoo : DAPPA - Vesper Tattoo. @ Man Cave

Shirt : :::insanya::: RaverTop - Lust

Fishnets/panties : [Cynful] Cliqueish Fishnet Set 

Shoes : [MODA] PAMELA PLATFORM

Every second.

Pose & Lounger/Swing : FOXCITY. Cozy-7 @ Uber

Props : junk. wannabe boho. rug. three. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. wall hanging. navy. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. petal mirror. metal. (Gacha)

junk. wannabe boho. drawers. yellow. RARE. (Gacha)

Soy. Green Plants Wall Panel

Soy.  Shisha [liquid night]

Soy.  OSC- OLD RADIO LP PLAYER (Gacha)

[-BLUE SKY-] Definition Frame - SMILE

[-BLUE SKY-] Definition Frame - LOVE

Hair : Opale . Flora Hair 

So yeah. It's been a bit rough lately.

Fuck it though, right?

I'm going to choose to smile.

I'm going to choose to love.

And I'm going to choose to live. 

Just give me a minute to make all this work. 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : TRES BEAU MAKEUP CATWA ASHLEY

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : AMITOMO Eye Collection

Eyeliner : YKON - The 4 Girlies Types - Catwa/OMEGA

Earrings : Nova -- Lucia Earrings

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Theory @ Uber

Sweater : .miss chelsea. True @ Uber

Nipples : !~SV~! Nipples 

Nipple Piercings : [CX] Kinky Cobra 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Mantra Tattoo. @ Men Only Monthly

Shorts :.miss chelsea. Mira Shorts

Leg warmers : !Rebel Hope - Wella Mesh Knit Leg Warmers

All for you.

Left to right : Durex, Nana, Pickle.

Nana's Pose : Kokoro Poses - Mermaid 1

Pickle's Pose :Kokoro Poses - Mermaid 2 (Edited with animare)

Location : Seychelles (Private sim, Thanks Adam & Kristi!)

Props : Culprit Sonata Bento Upright Piano (LARGE)

[sau]Classic violin @ TMD

Thunk! Trumpet Silver & Rich

GCD - Vintage Microphone with Stand

This piano from Culprit is just EVERYTHING!

You can't tell from this picture, but I have included a little gif below just for a hint at how awesome it is. There's some amazing bento animations included, so when the music plays (and it really does play!) the hands of your avatar will move across the keys, and your fingers will wiggle too! It's so stinkin' cute!

I've only shown one style of the piano, but there are several different themes, which enable you to match it with practically every room conceivable to create in SL!

Here's the little gif. I'm still working out how to create video's in SL, so this is as much as I can do. The best thing to do would be to try a demo of the piano yourself. It truly is a dream!

All of the things, Durex : 

Helmet : Dominion Dive Suit* Market (Note: Other than one truly expensive gacha mesh helmet, this one was the only one I could find that seemed to fit the theme that had any kind of quality to it. It is made of SCULPTIES)

Suit : Kauna - 2BN Casual Suit (Note: a while back, Kauna set all his items to 0L in a clearout/no more Kauna sale. Kauna is STILL there, as are all the products, so go, buy the things, your wallet will not be harmed in the process!)

All of the things, Nana : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : ItGirls - Catwa Skin Applier - Lore

Head : CATWA Catya

Hair : little bones. Mara

Tail : ~ Cynefin ~ Lorelei Bento Mermaid Tail 

Ukulele :  REIGN.- UKULELE - #3 

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : L'Etre Skin Shop - Akemi Skin 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY

Eyes : Hayaru - Jung mesh eyes 

Ears : Lovely_Alien_WebbedEars

Hair : Tableau Vivant // Demon huntress 

Barnacle Tattoo : {Moon.Phase} Barnacles On Body And Face

Starfish Boobies : {LP} -  Mermaid Set

Tail : ~ Cynefin ~ Lorelei Bento Mermaid Tail 

Tell the world.

Pose : Foxcity. Soulfood-5

Headphones : .miss chelsea. Niki Headphones Onyx (From the Day to Slay Gacha)

Location : Southern Roots Town Square

Plato apparently said "Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination and life to everything."

I have to admit, I kind of agree.

I have never been overly passionate about a particular band or style of music. 

At 7 or 8, my next-door neighbour went to a Michael Jackson concert and bought me back a program. Instantly I decided that I was going to marry him, and made it my goal to learn (very basically) the keyboard notes to "Beat it".

At 11, I started to get really interested in learning to make my own music, and eventually was chosen to learn the Viola (instances of that nonsense have been previously spoken about in this blog!).

When I was 16ish (shh), I thought I had a crush on Gary Barlow from Take That - but I didn't really. I just wanted to be accepted by the kids at school who thought Take That were the shit.

It was around the same time I was lucky enough to see The Rolling Stones in concert (admittedly the only concert I have ever been to), and without a doubt it is something I will remember forever, despite not being a superfan. The atmosphere was beyond amazing, all those people of different ages coming together, celebrating the sound of Mick Jaggers impeccable vocals.

Breaking up with my first 'proper' boyfriend at age 18 left me sobbing as I clicked record watching MTV, capturing all the sappy lovesongs I could possibly think of on VHS and then in an act that now leaves me cringing, I passed the video to his friend to give to him. Ugh. I'm pretty sure Britney Spears and BackStreet Boys were prevalent across that awful, embarrassing vid.

When I found out I was pregnant, Pink Floyd's "The Wall" became super important to me -  my daughter kicked IN RHYTHM for the entire song when I was in the car... and when she was born Travis' "Flowers in the window" made me cry and Plumbs "In my arms" made my heart explode.

When I broke up with my Fiance, and I thought my world was ending, Leona Lewis and Three Days Grace pulled me through, my bedroom windows open and me singing loud enough to disturb the neighbours #noshame.

More recently, my Daughter performed Adele's "Chasing Pavements" in public, and now I can't listen to that without remembering the pride I felt watching her confidence shine.

What i'm trying to say is that for every important part of your life, there has probably been a song that you can relate to. A memory that is attached, whether good or bad.

I revel in these songs, these moments, and I hope you do, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Atelier Pepe - Whitney @ Vanity

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Earrings : :: SAGA :: Moon Phase Earrings 

Glasses : MINIMAL - Gio Glasses -Gold- (Gacha)

Hairbase : SIIX // Cambodian Hairbase

Hair : little bones. India @ Collabor88

Tattoo : DAPPA - Ivory Tattoo. @ Anybody

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Naja Set @ Equal 10

Sneakers : [VALE KOER] THE ALTER PLATFORMS

We need to talk.

Pose : Foxcity. Formal vol2-7m (Edited with Animare)

Location : Missing Melody

Bag : (OLD! May not be available!) -David Heather-Chiot Bag/Grey

There seems to be a bit of a 'thing' at the moment (again) surrounding Body Positivity... and it's all been kicked off (again) by Tess Holiday being given a cover on a magazine.

The overall consensus seems to be "If supermodels aren't body positive because they're too skinny, how is Tess Holiday any better, because she's too fat?"

Let me preface any more conversation on this matter by saying "Hi, I'm Pickle, and IRL I has The Chubs." So, you're getting my unfiltered opinion now, knowing I am not skinny.

As far as I'm aware, Tess Holiday does work out, and doesn't necessarily eat a bunch of shite, but that's all hearsay and we don't actually know for certain. Just because you see her munching on avocado toast on Instagram, it doesn't mean she's not ordering a major Chinese Take-Out when the camera isn't flashing.

However!

These bodies we are given are the only bodies we will ever have. THAT is fact. There may be ways of modifying the body with some work-outs and ofc the whole plastic surgery thing, but ultimately, we can't bodyswap yet, so the body we're born with is going to remain with us until the day we die and although I wish we had our SL sliders in RL, I'm not mad at my body for being the way it is, it's so far served me very well.

Now, I don't think supermodels OR Tess Holiday are suitable for the role model tags. In fact, I'm incredibly unsure as to who would be, mostly because we don't see people 24hrs a day, 7 days a week, we are all human and sometimes we are going to make mistakes. My opinion on the whole scenario is literally "Fuck 'em". Listen to your body - because no one knows it better than you. 

If you want to lose or even gain weight, do it. But do it carefully, and with thought and pre-planning. Set a goal weight, talk to your doctor and once you've reached that weight, STOP. Even when I was skinny I thought I was fat, and that's on ME. No one would tell me I was fat, in fact, quite the opposite. I was told I was too thin around my wrists a bunch and people suggested I should eat more when I was at my thinnest - and it wasn't even THAT thin!  Since I have put on a lil more weight and now I have my chunky tummy and my fuller cheeks I've been told quite regularly "You'd be so pretty if you lost some weight." Literally, i'm like, whut bitch? Because I have a fuller figure I'm no longer pretty? K.

I think the goal is to feel content with your body. I would like to be thinner - but I would also like to be healthier, too. I know with my situation being the way it is right now, I'm not going to be able to eat as healthily as I would like, so rather than changing my diet (which I will do in the future), I have decided to change the way I eat. I'm controlling my portion size, and spending more time on actually eating - enjoying the food before I use it to just fill my tummy and the crippling void of self loathing *coughs* yes, I can be an emotional eater! I'm not silly enough to believe this is going to make a massive difference, but it makes me FEEL BETTER about myself, and ultimately, that's the goal.

As an end to this Pickle-Rant, what I would like, regardless of your size, is for you to love yourself.

Your body does not define you. Your actions and your words have far more of an impact on the people that matter than your weight ever will.

Love yourself, because no matter what, you are worthy of your own kindness.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Atelier Pepe - Whitney @ Vanity

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes

Glasses : #SHOOK - Lunari Sunglasses 

Hair : little bones. Lucid @ Collabor88

Choker : * Cocoroni : Flower Choker (No longer available)

Necklace : Cae :: Lalaphant :: Necklace (Formerly FLF)

Shirt : BUENO-Laura Top @ Collabor88

Nails : (NO) French Tip Mesh Nails

Rings : (Yummy) Curator Rings Set

Pants : Vinyl - Hart Wide Legs @ Collabor88

Sandals : Reign. - BRAIDED BEACH SANDALS (Gacha)

There's still time.

Pose : [La Baguette] Caprice pose 7

Background : Taken at my friends private sim, the trees aren't mine..

-Garden- by anc curly forest grass {purple}

-Garden- by anc "silence" spider lily {DARK/ai}

-Garden- by anc "secret garden" ROSE {goth/night}

I've been watching youtube for a while this morning, and specifically, Gabby Hanna. She's kind of well known for dealing with drama in her personal life, she's pretty blatant and I feel an odd sort of kinship with her, because it really does seem as though she's a little further in her personal self-betterment journey. Anyway, she mentioned something in one of her videos that really struck home with me, and she said : 

"Find a way to be grateful for your pain"

At the time, she was discussing her 'art', and was just commenting on how she felt like she'd been through a lot, but was glad for those experiences because it had helped her develop creatively, and had become a source of inspiration to her too.

It's not the first time I've heard stories about that, and it's also well known that artists such as Van Gogh, and more recently Robin Williams and various musical influencers used their mental health issues to create masterpieces too, and while many of these beautifully creative people suffered immensely, and oftentimes have passed before their time, the remnants of them are left in their art - and I think that is an amazing legacy.

I know that mental health is probably something I reference a lot in my rantings, but I can't help but feel like it does need to be spoken about more. It needs to become more widely accepted that we are ALL on a spectrum, and just because you feel like you can't relate right now, it doesn't mean that you won't need help at some point later in life.

Your mind is a fragile thing, and I am discovering more every day that it is incredibly important to treat yourself with respect. You can be the sweetest, kindest person in the entire world - but if you're not capable of treating yourself with the same hand you treat everyone else, you're only going to exhaust yourself.

Think positively today, peeps. After all, if nothing else it's nearly the weekend!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : L'Etre Skin Shop - Isabela Skin 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY @ Mesh Body Addicts

Eyebrows : Bossie. alice eyebrows [LeLutka]

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Septum & Nose Piercing : From the :: SAGA :: Verena Jewel Set

Hair : little bones. Poison @ Collabor88

Headpiece : *LODE* Head Accessory - Phlox Crown [purple](Gacha)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Garland Tattoo. @ Anybody

Robe & Skirt : #SHOOK - Dareenka Outfit @ Anybody

Nipples :  !~SV~! Nipples 

Nipple Piercings : [CX] Venereal 

Panties : From the S&P lingerie Elle (Previously in BoundBox)

Until the sky fell.

Pose : Poseidon Sirens 5 (Head adjusted slightly with Animare) @ The Secret Affair

Hair : Beusy: Nymph Hair 

Fishes : nani - dreamy pond - koi fish (Gacha)

Props :  .:Tm:.Creation THE CASCADING Rocks and Plants Scene @ The Secret Affair

To my absolute amazement I was offered a position as a Secret Affair blogger.

I'm not entirely sure what I did to deserve this, but I am obviously thrilled!

This round, the theme is "Isle of the Devil's Sea", and you can find some more information on designers and other such awesome on their website >Here<

The event opened today, so make sure you take a look around and grab some goodies!

Unfortunately, Pickle is still sitting in uncomfortable RL misery -wails dramatically- while this sickness kicks my butt, however, I am thoroughly enjoying this look of "Terribly dramatic half-mermaid being terribly dramatic in what is essentially a back-garden pond."

I hope you enjoy it too!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Intuition Eyes (Gacha) @ Chapter Four

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pixie Ears 

Eyebrows : Bossie. Sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Makeup : P O E M A - Mermaid Lipstick *Catwa App @ The Secret Affair

P O E M A - Mermaid Scales *Catwa App @ The Secret Affair

Hair : little bones. Twyla 

Headpiece : - shanghai - Silent Tiara Black @ The Secret Affair

Tattoo : MoonPhase MermaidHentai_JustScales_ @ The Secret Affair

Bikini : Velika Rituals - Sea Creature Bikini @ The Secret Affair

Add up what is left.

Pose : Bossie. lisa pose 04

Location : Backdrop City

I often forget that Fifty Linden Fridays is a thing, and then I kick myself, because there are legitimately so many amazing stores offering up products -exclusive or otherwise- for just 50L.

If you're not aware of the group, it's free to join >Here<. 

This week, Miss Chelsea have put out the skirt shown above in TWO colours for just 50L. There's this "Nude" version, and a baby-pink/blush colour too. 

This skirt is actually one of my very favourite items from Miss Chelsea, and these colours are new, and I -think- exclusive to 50L Friday.. so of course you're going to have my 100% backing of taking advantage of the offer and all the others available today!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya 

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Coffee Eyes @ Gacha Garden

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Hair : little bones. Relay

Necklace : (Yummy) Secondhand Necklace 

Top : Asteria "Elle"[Maitreya/Belleza] Top 

Cardigan : [Cynful] Fuzzy Cardigan

Skirt : .miss chelsea. Cloe Skirt Freya Nude For Fifty Linden Fridays

Shoes : **UTOPIA@Design** - "SMILLA" -