Here she goes again!

Pose : ++Vetrovian  Poses - Christmas Trick++

Decor : dust bunny . present pile

dust bunny . vintage sleigh . with gifts

DRD lazy Christmas chair

DRD christmas decoration - #WHATEVER

*HEXtraordinary* Nope Cat - Mistletoe Hat

{anc} NOEL. :  tears tree / 9Li RARE

I'm stealing people left and right at the moment, and I'm not even sorry! Today I'm joined by Maka, who is mostly naked around me.

OK... calm down! He started it by using a candycane for his man-bit and I just continued the theme in the name of Christmas! You're very welcome for this most recent show of his manhood!

Yesterday I wrote a bit that lead to a whole different wave of thinking, because hi, I'm Pickle, and my brain never stops.

For a long, long time I've felt absolutely fucking exhausted. I've spoken many times about my spoons, (original post >Here<) and how sometimes I just don't have the energy to deal with people, but recently I've made some changes in my life which has enabled me to spend more time with people who don't take from my cutlery drawer and who enrich my life... and I've also noticed that I've been more open to meeting and spending time with people who aren't directly "in my circle".

I really feel as though this is a direct result of cutting loose those who take. Granted, just because I feel drained by someone, doesn't mean everyone is going to be drained by them. Still, because I'm no longer hiding from those who constantly demand my attention and 'services', I have more space in my life to do things I actually want to do.

I'm not saying this is entirely the fault of other people, either. It's taken me a while to figure out that just because you CAN do something for someone else, doesn't mean you should.. and you should never feel like you have to agree or disagree with something, just because you feel like it's the right thing to do for them. Selfish is something I have always struggled with, and in an attempt to be selfLESS, I was giving too much through fear of not being accepted by others... and the real acceptance had to come from me.

Lawd.

Am I on my soapbox again?

I use this blog sometimes as an outlet, and I know that a lot of this won't make sense to everyone, but it helps me to figure out what's going on with the changes I'm making for me.. and if anyone relates then that's a bonus.

-kicks the soapbox and wanders off-

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Go&See * Candy * For Powder Pack

Blush : Avoixs - Winter Blushes @ B U S A N

Lipstick : Go&See * AmCold * Lipstick ~ Genus @ Girl Power

Eyes :   LOTUS. Nocturnal Eyes (previously at N21) 

Hair : bonbon - kelly hair 

Hat : [Atomic] Happy Hats_Let's Be Festive! - Tree Trimmings 2 @ The Epiphany

Glasses : NS::  DeerLove SHADES (1L Gift!)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Machina Tattoo.@ B U S A N

Stockings & Lights : :Moon Amore: FALALALA Socks&Lights (Cherry)

Limited edition.

Pose & wreath prop : [ Focus Poses ] Christmas Access Gift  @ Access

I'm joined by Hayyz today, and I'm absolutely chuffed she could pop over and take a picture with me.

I've not always been the kindest person towards her, but I have always been honest... and luckily, we've come to a place where we can poke each other gently and get along rather nicely.

I'm going to drop her flickr >here< and her blog >here< and politely request you give this budding blogger and photographer a follow and show some support. I can't wait to watch her and see how she progresses.

In other news, I've been watching Youtube a LOT lately. I suppose I'm feeding my need for nonsense with that rather than SL drama... which I have mixed feelings about, and will probably be addressed some other time...

Anywho, the commentary guy was saying how he felt like anyone who could be constantly positive and wanted everyone to play happy and be nice was fake, and I wanted to talk about this.

I don't think it's 'fake' to focus on bringing people together and making things happy.

I do think it's fake when you're doing those things because you think it's the right thing to do to make people like you more, or to push you further into a community or scenario based solely on the 'good' you do for everyone else. Let's face it, doing nice things for people makes you feel good. If it didn't feel good there'd be even less of a chance of us actually attempting to please others. I think the important thing to remember in doing nice things, is that we are doing them just to be nice, without alternate motives and without expectations of reciprocation.

The commentary guy also mentioned how being spiteful and angry was a natural emotion, and I definitely agree.. but just because you are angry, or feeling spiteful or some other negative, that doesn't mean you have to follow through and hurt someone because you hurt.

If I'm on my soap box, I apologize. I'm definitely not good at any of this at the moment, but I'm hoping that by putting all my feels into words, and expressing myself I can not only understand everything a little more, but maybe encourage a discussion or thought in others, too. It'll also be a reminder to me to work on the way I deal with my own personal situations, I'm definitely not the woman I was last year, and I hope I continue to grow and learn to accept myself and others.

xoxo

Hi! I'm wearing lipsticks from Go&See here, and yes... i'm trying desperately to provide you with a pretty image when I compare shades, but I'm still working out a good way to do this and so you're left with pictures that are on-a-wonk. Sorry. Practice makes perfect tho - and it doesn't take away from the pretty lip colours, so focus on that pls, dear readers! 

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Go&See * Candy * For Powder Pack

Blush : Avoixs - Winter Blushes @ B U S A N

Lipstick : Go&See * AmCold * Lipstick ~ Genus @ Girl Power

Eyes :   LOTUS. Nocturnal Eyes (previously at N21) 

Hairbase : Just Magnetized - Essential Hairbase - set 05 

Hair : !Oleander ~ Izzie.

Ears : Mug - Noel Ears

Coat : *katat0nik* Cropped Fur Coat @ Collabor88

Girl, you're trouble.

Pose : Le Poppycock-Romantic allure

Background items : {moss&mink} Marie Haybales 

{vespertine}illuminated pumpkins @ Collabor88

LB_Sunflowers

I can't think of anything entertaining to talk about today!

I do however, love this Little Mix song at the end of the blog, so make sure you smack that, because it's gonna be in my head for weeks!

xoxo 

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyebrows :  [okkbye] bucolic eyebrows

Birthmark : [okkbye] bold birthmarks 

Bandaid & Bloody Nose : Mug - Violet Bandaid @ Girl Power

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hair : little bones. Alias @ Equal10

Puppy Ears : c h i m e r a . Flopped Dog Ears (Made for Furry avatars and resized, SCULPTED not mesh)

Sunflower : From the Beusy: Citrus Hairstyle 

Collar : Sweet Thing. Puppy's White Princess Collar (Gacha)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Vixen Tattoo. @ The Seasons Story

Lingerie : Moon Elixir - Serena @ Equal10

Puppy Tail : Sweet Thing.  Shiba Puppy Tail RARE  (Gacha)

Boots : -Narcisse- Vera Boots @ The Black Fair