Build it up, tear it down.

Uh. I forgot to note the pose again. Sorry. 

I was wondering today, at what point does a conversation go from being a conversation between two adults, to somehow delving into drama? 

Nothing has happened to me, so no need to be concerned or to start ruminating on who Pickle's gotten into a conflict with... calm yer loins dear Spoonies!

But literally 80% of the 'drama' I have had in Second Life has been me saying "Hey, I don't like that. It made me feel this way." and another party going "Well don't you get your drama panties in a twist drama llama, if you don't like this dramatic thing, it's all your dramatic fault."

Now this can be people I've known for years and years (but mostly not, because by that point we've gotten a rapport about accepting the other has feelings, apologizing for whatever we've said or at least discussing it so we understand where the other is coming from), or it is, more likely, someone I have known for days.

Is it really a case of "You're too sensitive, Pickle!" or is it more of a case of any time someones REAL feelings get bought into SL and it's not related to the happy endorphin filled feeling of love or lust, or want or need, it's suddenly backpedal backpedal pushaway?

I realize to some this might sound like I'm one of those people who get offended all the damn time, but I've reached a point in my life where I can accept that different people have thought processes that don't match mine. If you can provide a logical reason as to why you believe something that I find morally wrong, I'll probably come around to the fact that you have a point, but I'll still believe what I want to believe with a greater understanding of the other side. I have friends of all walks of life with very, very different beliefs, Muslims, Christians, Catholics, Trump supporters, Transgender, Gay, Straight, Male, Female, Black, White and Brown. I legitimately have no issues with -people- I have issues with their interpretations of dramatic. But ultimately, I'm responsible for my own feelings... and that too is something I need to remember.

If you're wrong, take accountability and just fess up. Hell, even if you're not wrong, if you've upset someone APOLOGIZE, meaningfully and allow the beautiful parts of that potential friendship to blossom, or walk away with a lighter heart and less of a headache.

xoxo

I thought I'd show you a back view of the pretty hair from Fabia available at the Gacha Garden.

The bow has it's very own hud and you can choose between some solid colours and a few beautiful patterns. Loving this hairstyle so hard!

The Candy Skin from Revoul is available in six tones. RE05, RE10, RE15, RE20, RE25 and RE30. I've chosen to wear RE10 in my main picture today!

It also has six candy coloured lipsticks and a shape, not blogged, so make sure you run over and go demo all the pretties! 

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Shape : Kaleidoscope : Revolution Shape.

Skin : Lefort by Revoul.Candy Catwa Applier @ Equal10

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : LOTUS. Humanity Eyes @ The Gacha Garden (Opens 1st May)

Ears : L'Etre - Pure mesh ears 

Hair : -FABIA-<Vita> @ The Gacha Garden (Opens 1st May)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Chris Tattoo.@ A+ Event

Top : +MB+ Ellie Top @ Level Event (opens 30th April)

Haze.

Pose : FOXCITY. Autumn-1 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background Items :  RAMA - #selfie_RAMA Flower-Garden Lavatory RARE @ Backdrop City

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes 'Bong' (Gacha item)

The weed plants are from somewhere on marketplace a million years ago - I think they may even be prims.

Sleepy, please come back tomorrow for some ranties.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : Lefort by REVOUL Nicki Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : REVOUL - Revoulutionary Beauty Eyes 

Eyeliner : Veechi - Basic Glossy Liner

Hair : DOUX - Tyrisha Hairstyle @ Belle Event

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal 10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Herz Tattoo. @ Man Cave Event

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Sana Set @ Uber

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Song Su- @ The Epiphany

Always waiting.

Pose : FOXCITY. Legs for Days-4 (Slightly edited with Animare)

Background & Prop things : {moss&mink} Tufted Chaise @ FaMESHed

{moss&mink} Oversized Pouf @ FaMESHed

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Vase

*HEXtraordinary* White Dogwood Wreath

Mutresse-Exhausted-Shortie Cats

dust bunny . fresh fruit stand . lemons

dust bunny . quirky planters . pug

dust bunny . at home baking . lemon plant

Apple Fall Antique Ladders w/ Heart String

Kalopsia - Faith's Mirrors

{vespertine}- spider plant.

Taken in the 01. Lagom - PinkKink [Skybox] RARE (Not sure if this is at an event, but thank you so much for the gift, Cutie!)

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : Catwa Skin applier - Peach - Snow (Enfer Sombre*)

Eyes : [JOE SL] GIGI MESH EYES SKY GREEN 

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Eyebrows : Bossie. miki eyebrows [omega] 

Ears :.random.Matter.  - Natural Elfie Ears

Freckles : [okkbye] Faux Freckles from an old edition of Powder Pack

Hair : DOUX - Valentina hairstyle 

Headpiece : *HEXtraordinary* Pink Dogwood Wreath - This isn't meant to be worn on your head, but I shoved it there anyway! Some editing may be required :P

Necklaces : .random.Matter. - Kashina - Necklaces @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Nocturnal Tattoo @ Anybody

Dress : evani. Polly ribbed dress @ Collabor88

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Hoshiko Wedges @ Access

Go on girl & Culprit Vlog.

Pose : Go&See * Divine * 6

Background & Props : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Dance Hall 

Culprit Sonata Baby Grand Piano BENTO @ The Boardwalk Event

[DDD] Twinkling Ivy 

I've had a preeetty busy day today, and although I'm achy and sore, I'm incredibly grateful to just be here to share silly little SecondLife things with you.

I've been working on a vlog, at this moment in time, my editing program is behaving like a complete butthole and I'm struggling immensely!

I'm thoroughly enjoying the whole vlog thing, as it's definitely pushing my levels of personal comfort and feeling a bit like a derp when I talk... and although my editing is basic at best, I'm enjoying learning more each time I try.

xoxo

- Update... for whatever reason, my video editing program was completely ridiculous. After 6 hours attempting to be patient with the lag it was experiencing yesterday, and going to bed annoyed (i like to keep to my self-made deadlines) I decided to attempt a brand new program. Currently, it's worked out pretty well as I've completed the vlog! \o/ Please excuse the animal noises in the background, I shoulda moved from the ground to a platform - and my ground is LITERALLY a farm! 

The Revoul skin shown today is available in 5 tones, my favourite (shown in the main pictures and vlog) is the RE25 tone! ♥

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : Lefort by Revoul Miami CatwaGenusOmega @ The Skin Fair

Ears : L'Etre - Ringed mesh ears

Hairbase :  Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : KUNI / Alex @ Equal10

Dress : .miss chelsea.  X Oakley Foxtrot - Royale with Cheese Dress V2 @ Kustom9

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Kikumi Heels (Formerly @ Kinky Event)

One in a million.

Pose : FOXCITY. Play Ball-6m (Fatpack Exclusive)

Props : *alirium* DownyGrass [Green]

*alirium* PuffyGrass [Green]

LB_FlowersBed{Daisy}

Apple Fall Oxeye Daisy Patch

This picture got me thinking about making daisy chains as a child. I'm kinda old (shh.) so it wasn't unusual to find me in my back garden, sitting cross legged threading daisies from the grass through one another to make long flowery jewelry to adorn my head, neck and wrist, and occasionally my ankle.

That lead me to wonder how to correlate daisies to people... and as I was doing my washing up (ew!) it hit me. When I made the chains in my back garden, some of the daisies would droop while others would thrive. After a few days, I'd replace the droopy, limp flowers with fresh new ones, slotting them in to my creation without even thinking about it. Some times, I would make holes in the stems of the flower using my thumb nail and others, the daisy would be tied tight with a knot.

That is how they relate to people. Our relationships are bound by the slightest thread... the stem of our daisy. Some relationships get tied tightly with the strength of a knot, and other times, we open ourselves up to fit the needs of another. At times, our relationships wilt and we replace old friends with newer, fresher friends that fit our growth pattern.

I guess the only thing that is important in this is reminding ourselves what we want our garden to look like. Which flowers we want to pair with ours that bring the fragrance out as a beautiful medley and enhance our beauty by bringing their own special needs in to our soil. It's also important to weed regularly, because heaven knows how easy it is for someone to suck the nutrients from your roots...

Happy Tuesday, Spoonies.

xoxo

The revoul skin show comes in 5 tones. My favourite being RE20, shown in my main pictures.

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : Lefort by RevoulChontei CatwaGenusOmega @ The Skin Fair

Eyes : {S0NG} :: Ange Eyes 

Ears : L'Etre - Ringed mesh ears

Hair : Stealthic - Dawn @ Kustom9

Hairpiece : Astralia - Daisy spring wreath 

Shirt & Bag : EVIE - Fanny Spring @ Equal10

Shorts : evani. - Tessa @ Kustom9

Less important.

Pose : FOXCITY. Stairs (Sitting)-4m

Background & Props : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - A Fool's Paradise

{what next} Wall Hanging Plant #1

{what next} Oasis Bloom - Prickly Pear Cactus Planter

{what next} Oasis Bloom - Tall Cactus Planter   

dust bunny . quirky planters . llama

{what next} Oasis Bloom - Succulent Planter

dust bunny . quirky planters . cactus

dust bunny . quirky planters . snail 

dust bunny . quirky planters . hedgehog   

I had a conversation with someone recently that made me think again about who I want to be and where I want to go, and although I feel like without a doubt there have been some positive changes, I do feel like I need to address something that has niggled me for the longest time.

Life isn't fair.

I get that certain people are capable of "playing the game", and therefore they'll be the ones who seemingly succeed, which kinda makes their lives enviable to some... but I can't ever be that person again, if I ever was. The only way I have ever been able to achieve anything is to work my ass off, and as my friend mentioned to me in our conversation, I've worn many hats, especially within SL and whenever I felt like I was heading in a direction that didn't suit me, I think I may have intentionally shot myself in the butt to prevent it from happening. Still, in terms of blogging and photography, no matter how hard I try, how much I think I have improved, my not playing the game hurts me in terms of exposure.

Now, this may seem like I'm sitting here whining that I'm incredibly unpopular, but I'm not. I'm just using this platform as an example of what is changing for me, and how I'm viewing things... and in terms of blogging and many, many other things in my life that I'm not 'there' yet with, I fucking LOVE doing it. Because I love doing this, I will continue to do this. I will not circle jerk and I will stay the eff away from drama surrounding any activity I enjoy. I'm more than happy to work at my own pace now and although that jealousy monster might occasionally rear it's ugly head, it's power is fading daily, and I feel as though each "Congratulations" I pass on to someone else is more genuine than the last.

If others decide to play games, I'll no doubt see it, but it's not my life... it's theirs, and they have every right to live the way they see fit. 

If you love what I do, that's a bonus... but I want to hold my head high and walk with integrity.

So, yeah, life isn't fair, but it does give us a chance to show our worth and I'm finally figuring out what mine is. I'm priceless. And so are you.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : . MILA . Neave Skin [Honey] GENUS 

Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted (Gacha)

Eyeliner : Veechi - Basic Glossy Liner

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair :  -Fabia- Mesh Hair   < Andy> @ Rewind (opens 20th March)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Rachel Tattoo. @ Equal10

Shirt : #SHOOK - Thotiana Top @ Level Event

Shorts : BUENO-Spring Shorts @ Kustom9

Sneakers : Native - Another 1 Sneakers 

An ocean full of change.

Pose : <EMOZIONE> Couple Pose **On The Track ~2~**!

Seat & things : {moss&mink} Molly Hallway Seat @ Fameshed

{moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 - Set1 @ Belle Event (I have more plans for these, so stay tuned.. I really didn't do them justice!)

{what next} Floor Jar Lantern

I roped in Potato for this post, and uh, kinda forced him into making over his avatar completely (not quite completely, but I did make him buy the new Lelutka "Guy" head). Seeing as how his internet hasn't improved over the past 18 months, it's impossible for me to find out exactly what he's wearing, but I -think- his hair is Stealthic, and his shirt is from Ascend... but I'm not certain, hence my hesitance in linking all the things.

Still, we look pretty, and clearly I'd much rather stare at him than the beautiful sunset behind us, so that's awesome, right?

I got super frustrated with this post, and for a moment I reverted into ungrateful, annoyed and super negative Pickle of last year. Not good, not fresh, not something I want to revisit, ever. 

Luckily, Potato is incredibly understanding and fully supported me having a near-hissy-fit, calmed me down and told me to go the fuck to sleep (not quite like that, but he probably could have gotten away with it... maybe?), but yeah. Here we are 3 days later with an actual picture to show for his patience! I love that man.

Anywho, I know you're not here for my rambles, so have some information.

Happy weekend, Spoonies!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier 

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pyramid Ear

Hairpiece : {moss&mink} Paper Flowers Pk1 @ Belle Event (These aren't supposed to go on your head, but they look cute. Love me pls.)

Horns : Lovely Disarray - Sketched Hellion Horns

Hair : [monso] My Hair - Yurin

Necklace : (Yummy) Bang Bang Choker @ Uber

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Tuva Set @ Equal 10

Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 

Rings :  (Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set

Shoes : [BREATHE]-Satoyo Heels @ Fameshed

Different DNA.

Pose : FOXCITY. Formal VOL1-2m (Big gown)

When Muggleborn popped out these antenna I got super excited, and immediately started contemplating how I could get to be a Picklefied Alien. I'm not sure I entirely pulled it off, but I did have a good time trying! It also meant that I could grab a Lumae skin, which I have been entirely neglecting (sorry!), because the textures to match the majority of the Lumae collection are included with the antenna. Also included are the textures you need to tint and match whatever skin you're wearing yourself so yay!

This week has been a bit weird for me. I feel a bit like I'm stuck in limbo again, barely moving forward. The only good part of that is that things are steady... and maybe I'm just unused to that.

I've still been watching a bunch of mental health stuff on Youtube, but for entertainment I have been revisiting Gossip Girl on Netflix... why? Because of Chuck Bass and my oddly inappropriate girl-crush on the bad-boy that might turn good. Still, when Potato's away, I need a lil eye candy (don't hate me babe!)

Here's hoping your days are filled with happy smiles, and any rainclouds that appear for you swiftly depart.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : ! Lumae Fantasy : All Heads - Ethesi (for more options, check my previous post >Here<)

Head : CATWA Lona
Ears : BentBox Sylvan Ears 

Eyes : LOTUS. Reflection Eyes @ Equal 10 (Fantasy version)

Hair : Entwined Blythe  @ Equal 10

Antenna : +MB+ Antenna

Bra top : PLX. "Peyton " Bra @ Equal 10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Calla Tattoo. @ Harajuku Event

Panties : Blueberry - Tinker Panties

This could be perfection.

Pose : Created by the amazing PotatoMan. It's not on Marketplace yet, but you can find his other pose >Here< 

I don't have a lot to say today.

Potato is wearing the Poruka Tattoo by DAPPA @ Equal10

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyes : LOTUS. Royal Eyes @ Vanity Event

Ears : L'Etre - Basic Mesh ears 

Septum : (Yummy) Selene Septum 

Tattoo : DAPPA - NotUrBB Tattoo.@ Equal10

Romper : -Narcisse- Taylor Romper @ Sultry

Shoes & Socks : [BREATHE]-Sayako Heels @ Sultry

Modest.

Pose & Snake : Amitie From Dusk Till Dawn @ Equal10

Background : anxiety %local v2

Ajjjsdflkd. I might be a little bit excited!

I am so freakin' proud of this picture. Once I found out that the theme behind this lingerie set was Burlesque, I immediately knew I wanted to do something fun and feisty, and stumbling across this pose just made me squeal with all the happy.

Want more info? Keep scrollin'!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyes : LOTUS. Royal Eyes @ Vanity Event

Hair : KUNI / Juliet @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Leah Tattoo. @ Fetish Fair (Opens Feb 16th)

Lingerie : -Narcisse- Skylar Lingerie @ FrouFrou

How's it feel?

Pose : Go&See * LoveBites * 5 @ Love Bites Hunt

Background : Foxwood - Fleur - Backdrop @ Collabor88

So today I decided I was going to just take it easy, and do a pretty basic shot without anything too fancy going on.

Then I saw all the AMAZING that has popped up lately, scrapped that idea, and now I have an absolute TON of information for you. Grab a coffee, grab a sammich, and sit your butts on your chair for all the good stuff!

Pose 1-5

Hey Go&See, I see you! There are 10 poses available from Go&See for the Love Bites hunt. 

I always adore the poses from Go&See, but poses for me are kinda awkward to blog because everyone is a different shape, and depending on what body I'm using, the hands dig in where they shouldn't or some other body part is protruding through, however, whenever I DO take the risk and grab a pack, I'm absolutely never disappointed. I feel like these are perfect for pictures, and could also be used for some cutesy static AO stands too!

Pose 6-10

In the above pictures I'm wearing the AsteroidBox Ursa Lingerie & the shoes from the Miss Chelsea Lilo Outfit, not shown in the main picture above.

I decided to kill two birds with one stone here, which took a while, because I'm still not as organized as I'd like people to think! However, here we have the skin tones for the gorgeous Tanya skin from Revoul, shown on the Lelutka May head. 

Also shown are ALL the tones from the Lotus Royal Eyes. (you can click on the picture to make it larger on your screen for more details). Lotus has recently changed the way they sell their mesh eyes, which are what i'm wearing in the pictures,  un-rigged Mesh Eyes are now available at the Lotus Main Store, which leads me to believe that when you purchase a mesh eye applier in the future, you will need these new mesh eyes to make everything work, but you'll be able to change your eyes using the future Lotus Mesh Eye appliers available at both the mainstore, and any events. An advantage of this means you will never adjust your mesh eyes again! 

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY

Skin : Lefort by RevoulTanya Lelutka Applier (Shown in tone RE20) @ Equal10

Eyes : LOTUS. Royal Eyes @ Vanity Event

Ears : .random.Matter. - Haruhi Ears 

Hair : *barberyumyum*S08(FLF)

Necklace : *PROMAGIC* Kaali -Necklace

Dress & Shoes : .miss chelsea. Lilo Set @ Romp

Jacket : SEUL - Robyn Puffer - Princessa