I've had a preeetty busy day today, and although I'm achy and sore, I'm incredibly grateful to just be here to share silly little SecondLife things with you.
I've been working on a vlog, at this moment in time, my editing program is behaving like a complete butthole and I'm struggling immensely!
I'm thoroughly enjoying the whole vlog thing, as it's definitely pushing my levels of personal comfort and feeling a bit like a derp when I talk... and although my editing is basic at best, I'm enjoying learning more each time I try.
xoxo
- Update... for whatever reason, my video editing program was completely ridiculous. After 6 hours attempting to be patient with the lag it was experiencing yesterday, and going to bed annoyed (i like to keep to my self-made deadlines) I decided to attempt a brand new program. Currently, it's worked out pretty well as I've completed the vlog! \o/ Please excuse the animal noises in the background, I shoulda moved from the ground to a platform - and my ground is LITERALLY a farm!
The Revoul skin shown today is available in 5 tones, my favourite (shown in the main pictures and vlog) is the RE25 tone! ♥
This picture got me thinking about making daisy chains as a child. I'm kinda old (shh.) so it wasn't unusual to find me in my back garden, sitting cross legged threading daisies from the grass through one another to make long flowery jewelry to adorn my head, neck and wrist, and occasionally my ankle.
That lead me to wonder how to correlate daisies to people... and as I was doing my washing up (ew!) it hit me. When I made the chains in my back garden, some of the daisies would droop while others would thrive. After a few days, I'd replace the droopy, limp flowers with fresh new ones, slotting them in to my creation without even thinking about it. Some times, I would make holes in the stems of the flower using my thumb nail and others, the daisy would be tied tight with a knot.
That is how they relate to people. Our relationships are bound by the slightest thread... the stem of our daisy. Some relationships get tied tightly with the strength of a knot, and other times, we open ourselves up to fit the needs of another. At times, our relationships wilt and we replace old friends with newer, fresher friends that fit our growth pattern.
I guess the only thing that is important in this is reminding ourselves what we want our garden to look like. Which flowers we want to pair with ours that bring the fragrance out as a beautiful medley and enhance our beauty by bringing their own special needs in to our soil. It's also important to weed regularly, because heaven knows how easy it is for someone to suck the nutrients from your roots...
Happy Tuesday, Spoonies.
xoxo
The revoul skin show comes in 5 tones. My favourite being RE20, shown in my main pictures.
I don't do much RL online shopping, but I decided to peruse Amazon after getting a voucher for Christmas. I'd always been interested in those funky charcoal masks, so I picked one of those up first, and then still had enough left over for something else.
I'm not sure if I've mentioned this book before, but it's called "Yes Man" and it's by a guy called Danny Wallace. He's an English dude, and the way the book is written is right up my alley. Complete sarcasm, infused with utter nonsense, with a little bit of a moral, too. Because I liked that book so much, I picked up a copy of another of his books, called "Random Acts of Kindness".
I expected this to be very similar to his previous book, but it is in fact, entirely different.
It's literally just a list of suggestions of how to make someone's day a bit better and I can't describe how much I freaking love it. There's ideas anywhere from planting a tree, to buying a tub of coleslaw for a Portuguese man called Rui, and applauding someone for making an effort.
On that note, I want to invite you to do something nice for someone today.
Doesn't have to be much, doesn't have to cost you a thing... but just do something that will make them smile, and sit back and see how it affects you, too.
Seriously though, I've been seeing a butt-ton of nonsense on facebook lately, which just seems to be pulling people apart, and I was wondering - is that a direct result of social media?
Without the social media thingies, our opinions would be confined to those people in our lives that actually had some semblance of importance there. Now, your next door neighbours best friends cousin can be on your social media account because you waved at her once and when she sent you a friends request you didn't want to decline in case you offended your neighbour.
This whole social media thing is an absolute minefield. You don't share enough and you have the potential to be forgotten (especially if you're a blogger/creator within the SL world), and if you use it too much you're liable to say something eventually that has the potential to piss off an entire clique, thus spinning your 'reputation' into turmoil and potentially causing you to fall off the SL grid.
I really believe that while opinions aren't -usually- harmful, the way other people respond to said opinions can be. Not everyone needs to know your feelings. Not everyone needs to agree with you, and the truth is that if they do, you're probably surrounded by a bunch of 'yes men' that will likely shit talk you behind your back anyway, so sure, give us your opinions via social media, but don't get butthurt or defensive when your opinion isn't shared by all of your followers, and remember just as you seek respect for your opinion, others will be expecting the same for theirs, regardless of the content differing.
Location : My homestead (kinda public, kinda not.. be nice!)
So yesterdays adventure into the real world was absolutely freakin' exhausting.
I've started getting really, really anxious before something happens that means I have to leave the house, and although I DID manage to go to my parents special Anniversary dinner, it was nothing short of a miracle,
At around 5am Sunday morning, having not yet slept and knowing I'd be leaving the house at around 10am, I found myself in my kitchen having a bit of a melt-down. I wish I could explain all the thoughts in my head, but anyone who has a tendency to overthink and/or suffers with anxiety will be able to tell you it'll start with something very simple, and end up with your chest heaving while you're clinging on to the kitchen cabinets for dear life while the kettle boils somewhere in the far off distance.
I did consider saying I couldn't make it. Just for a minute, of course... but I knew if I said no this time, it might be a really long time before I said yes again, and I can't have that. I have to do these ridiculously basic things with the people I love, not just for them, but for me.
The advantage of my managing to drag my half-undead body from my flat to the restaurant was that I ate a bloody amazing meal, and my dad got inebriated while my brother, who was driving, sulked playfully at being sober over his rather yummy looking steak.
All in all, it was totally worth the anxiety and I'm glad I didn't miss another family milestone.
Photo taken at my (potentially forever) unfinished home.
I've been reflecting a lot today, and I just wanna put it out there that I can be an asshole.
By asshole, I mean sometimes I just cannot keep my mouth shut.
For me to make sense of things, I need to vent.. and sometimes my choice of who I vent to can be somewhat uh.. fucked up.
See, I kind of have this habit of blurting, whether I've just met someone or I've known them for a while, I often scoop myself all the way up onto my high horse and preach to the hilltops about my personal opinions. While I'm much more confident in my opinions lately, that doesn't mean that everyone needs to know them, nor does it mean they care. I need to remember this.
I do have a habit of talking shit, too. Nothing that I can relate to 'gossip' as such, it's more like I'm really trying to work out WHY something happened, why I feel the way I do about a situation, what -I- could have done differently and why someone else reacted the way they did.
If I "talk shit" there's a 90% chance that I have already told the person I'm talking shit about how I feel, but again - that's not really anyone else's business. and it's certainly not my job to point out the flaws of others when I am so un-perfect myself.
I was considering the idea of new years resolutions today, and I think I've decided what mine is. I don't often make resolutions, because I feel like for the most part they are unrealistic, but for 2019, I want to do better at dealing with a situation and moving on. For my own sanity, I need to let things go, confide more in people that genuinely care and aren't just floaters in my life, and I definitely need to mind my own fucking business.
I really want to project positivity, and if I'm concentrated so firmly on other people and how negative they are (to ME), I will never achieve the serenity inside myself that I'm aiming for.
Lemme start off by saying a big thank you to Apple, who is currently "Apple Bottom" and did indeed, lend me her butt. TA LOVE!
I think it looks like Man-Pickle has been behaving badly in this photograph. Maybe he's pinched Apple's butt one too many times and she's sent him out of the cabin to think about what he's done while she tidies up his awful mess and eats her breakfast in peace. Man-Pickle is however considering all the ways he could get her back, and contemplating dumping the contents of the marshmallow bucket in her hot chocolate! Is that really a bad thing though?
Today I wanted to make a valiant effort to show off some of the fantastic tattoo's Dappa is producing. I feel like I blink, and he's gotten a brand new product at another premium event, so trying to keep up with him is insane - but Pickle loves a challenge!
I'm showcasing two today, one on Pickle and one on Durex, and although Durex's may not be entirely christmas themed, I felt like the colours fit in perfectly for a scene.
I woke up today with intentions of getting stuff done.
What actually happened was incessant zoning out, ridiculous videos watched on youtube and a whole heap of Ark, Survival Evolved. Welp. There's always tomorrow!
