Emptying my lungs.

Pose & Bench : Ana Poses - Isfahan @ TMD

Location : My homestead (kinda public, kinda not.. be nice!)

So yesterdays adventure into the real world was absolutely freakin' exhausting.

I've started getting really, really anxious before something happens that means I have to leave the house, and although I DID manage to go to my parents special Anniversary dinner, it was nothing short of a miracle, 

At around 5am Sunday morning, having not yet slept and knowing I'd be leaving the house at around 10am, I found myself in my kitchen having a bit of a melt-down. I wish I could explain all the thoughts in my head, but anyone who has a tendency to overthink and/or suffers with anxiety will be able to tell you it'll start with something very simple, and end up with your chest heaving while you're clinging on to the kitchen cabinets for dear life while the kettle boils somewhere in the far off distance.

I did consider saying I couldn't make it. Just for a minute, of course... but I knew if I said no this time, it might be a really long time before I said yes again, and I can't have that. I have to do these ridiculously basic things with the people I love, not just for them, but for me.

The advantage of my managing to drag my half-undead body from my flat to the restaurant was that I ate a bloody amazing meal, and my dad got inebriated while my brother, who was driving, sulked playfully at being sober over his rather yummy looking steak.

All in all, it was totally worth the anxiety and I'm glad I didn't miss another family milestone.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : [theSkinnery] Luca (Catwa Applier) 

Body Skin : Clef de Peau.

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER 

Glasses :  MIRROR - Lamour Glasses @ TMD

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

UNISEX [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus - Miles Hair @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo Cronopios Collection - Knoxx 

Jacket & Shirt : BlankLine Jacket @ TMD

Jeans : GUTCHI - Bandana Denim Premium @ TMD

Sneakers : [ VERSOV ] SHARKOV_SNEAKERS @ TMD

Just a hit.

Pose : Ana Poses  - Valencian 3@ TMD

Photo taken at my (potentially forever) unfinished home.

I've been reflecting a lot today, and I just wanna put it out there that I can be an asshole.

By asshole, I mean sometimes I just cannot keep my mouth shut.

For me to make sense of things, I need to vent.. and sometimes my choice of who I vent to can be somewhat uh.. fucked up. 

See, I kind of have this habit of blurting, whether I've just met someone or I've known them for a while, I often scoop myself all the way up onto my high horse and preach to the hilltops about my personal opinions. While I'm much more confident in my opinions lately, that doesn't mean that everyone needs to know them, nor does it mean they care. I need to remember this.

I do have a habit of talking shit, too. Nothing that I can relate to 'gossip' as such, it's more like I'm really trying to work out WHY something happened, why I feel the way I do about a situation, what -I- could have done differently and why someone else reacted the way they did.

If I "talk shit" there's a 90% chance that I have already told the person I'm talking shit about how I feel, but again - that's not really anyone else's business. and it's certainly not my job to point out the flaws of others when I am so un-perfect myself.

I was considering the idea of new years resolutions today, and I think I've decided what mine is. I don't often make resolutions, because I feel like for the most part they are unrealistic, but for 2019, I want to do better at dealing with a situation and moving on. For my own sanity, I need to let things go, confide more in people that genuinely care and aren't just floaters in my life, and I definitely need to mind my own fucking business.

I really want to project positivity, and if I'm concentrated so firmly on other people and how negative they are (to ME), I will never achieve the serenity inside myself that I'm aiming for.

Happy Monday!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : [theSkinnery] Luca (Catwa Applier) @ TMD

Body Skin : Clef de Peau.@ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER 

Glasses : MIRROR - Miguel Glasses @ TMD

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

UNISEX [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic Male Hairbase

Hair : Dura-U89  @ TMD 

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo Cronopios Collection - Knoxx @ TMD

Necklaces : [MANDALA]YOLO-Jewelry-set

Coat : Hotdog - Morbid manteaux . @ TMD

Pants : {COLD-ASH} Mens GRAYSON Roll Up Trousers @ TMD

Shoes : [ VERSOV ] MOUNTOV_BOOTS_ @ TMD

What a life.

Pose : Bossie. Bella Pose 03

Photo taken at my practically unfurnished home (I R LAZY)

I've been asleep most of the day today because HI! I'm Pickle, and my sleeping schedule is back to being absolutely shite! For that reason, have the details without a load of waffle from me!

xoxo

I decided to add another picture of the Go&See Skin here, it's entirely unedited except for the background, taken in CAIWL windlight and I'm wearing the TAN version of the skin. All tones are available in the powder pack! I'm wearing hair from Tableau Vivant, and a Hairbase from Just Magnetized.

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Go&See * Candy * For Powder Pack

Face Tattoo :  *Bolson / Tattoo Cronopios Collection - Knoxx @ TMD

Eyes :   LOTUS. Sparkle Eyes (mesh)  @ Vanity Event

Earrings: LaGyo_Midnight Runaway Earrings - Black @ Access

Hair : *barberyumyum*S07

Collar : - Fika - Hollow's Neck Piece @ The Winters Hollow 

Bodysuit : .:villena:. - Sheer Leotard + Crop @ Kustom9

I don't need right now.

Pose : Ana Poses - Valencian 5 @ TMD

Decor : ::no13:: mobile home Gacha @ TMD

220ML - Keeping Warm @ TMD

Lemme start off by saying a big thank you to Apple, who is currently "Apple Bottom" and did indeed, lend me her butt. TA LOVE!

I think it looks like Man-Pickle has been behaving badly in this photograph. Maybe he's pinched Apple's butt one too many times and she's sent him out of the cabin to think about what he's done while she tidies up his awful mess and eats her breakfast in peace. Man-Pickle is however considering all the ways he could get her back, and contemplating dumping the contents of the marshmallow bucket in her hot chocolate! Is that really a bad thing though? 

Check below for all the details!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Clef de Peau.Dasan [CATWA] @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER 

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hairbase : Stealthic Male Hairbase

Hair & Hat : Modulus - Lewis Hat & Hair @ TMD 

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo Cronopios Collection - Knoxx @ TMD

Pants : [ ARCBACK ] - My Jeans @ TMD

Rain or shine.

Pose (left) : Animare'd beyond recognition.

Pose (right) : FOXCITY. Mens - Night Owl-3m

Props : Soy. Old Barber Chair @ TMD

Vintage Posters >Here<

Apple Fall Barber Supply Cabinet RARE (Gacha)

PPK Barber Working Case (Gacha)

Apple Fall Barbers' Sink (Gacha)

Nope.

All of the things (Left) :

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : In the Signature Hud

Head : [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Eyes :  IKON Promise Eyes

Shirt :  {COLD-ASH} JASON Polo Shirt 

Pants :  {COLD-ASH} Mens MESH DEAN Chinos 

Shoes :  {COLD-ASH}  VALKYRIE SNEAKERS

All of the things, Man-Pickle (Right) :

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - ANDREI @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus -  Caspian Hair @ TMD

Earring : MINIMAL - Marcellus Earrings @ TMD

Necklace : amias - WYN @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo - Vicious @ TMD

Hand Accessories :amias - CLEM pack @ TMD

Pants : SEUL Garcon - Jacques Jang Pant @ TMD

Boots : Lenox Burleigh Boots @ TMD

Twist of faith.

Location : Whole Wheat

I tried some new things in this picture, my inspiration being the wonderful Cassie Middles recent vlog. You can find it on youtube, >Here<

Yesterday was a particularly difficult day for me, as I sort-of expressed in my post.

However, thanks to the help some amazing friends - Adam, Punky & Jake - I have thoroughly recovered, and although I didn't necessarily wake up and put into practice all the things I said I was going to do today... I do feel like tomorrow I WILL, and that's something wonderful.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : L'Etre Skin Shop - Akemi Skin 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY

Hair :  tram G0511 hair

Hat : From the *COCO*_SquareNeckDress Set

Collar : .random.Matter. - Cermet Collar 

Tattoo : *Bolson - Willem

Jacket :  *COCO*__BikerJacketOverShoulders

Dress : .miss chelsea. Aina Dress for Fifty Linden Fridays

Shoes : Reign.- MIXER PUMPS

I'll be me.

Props : {moss&mink} Hanging Party Table @ Uber

{moss&mink} Party Food Pack @ Uber

I'm using the facial expression hud "Axis" by LeLutka and it's AHMAYYYZING!

I tried to apologize to someone today for a misunderstanding, and rather than it making things better, I managed to make things worse. 

It just reminded me that sometimes, although you're ready to say what you need, the other person may not be ready to hear it, or accept it. Sometimes, their perception of you has been so distorted from someone else's perspective, it's just not worth the hassle, and everything you do will be considered as yet another bad move, even when your intentions are good.

Therefore, I will learn to apologize and then shut up. 

I can't make people like me, and those that do deserve my time more than those I need to convince.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : DeeTaleZ *Appliers* LeLutka Heads "Face Dominique" 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Vivacious Shadow @ Uber

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : *barberyumyum*66 

Hairband (Ears) : From  #Foxy - Lace Corset Choker & Ears set

Hairband (Flowers) : . Liquence . - Flower Crown

Drool : Dirty Secrets ~ Bento Drool (this is RIGGED for mesh heads, so I wore a version that sat above my tongue, not for my head type!)

Tattoo : *Bolson / Hanzo

I'll be there.

Pose : *!R.O!* Ignored BENTO Couple Pose (includes teddy & controller)

Background & Props : Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround

dust bunny . giant palm plant

dust bunny . spicy fiesta @ Uber

{vespertine}- aglaonema plant.

{vespertine}- aloe vera plant.

BUENO-Pizza Boxes

BUENO-Gamer- OG

BUENO-Cooler Bangers-Seoul Beer

Junk Food - Hexbox 1 Scattered Games

Junk Food - Hexbox Games Stack

ARIA - Brynn Leather Sofa

(epia) - Retro Television

Say hi again to Apple! She's featured once already in this blog, under the name of Kat, but because she's a happy little weirdo, she's changed her name to Apple so that we can be juicy together! Who wouldn't want a thick juicy Pickle and Apple combination?!

I know I've recently had a bit of a weep about my inability to maintain friendships, but Apple has been someone pretty darn constant for a fair few months, and she deserves a bit of a shout out.

When she first messaged me, I was kinda scared of her - I mean, she's gorgeous, right? Not only is she pretty af, but she's also absolutely freakin' hilarious. Legit! There's rarely a comment she makes where I don't LOL or OMG at her.

I think it helps that we have very similar humours, the drier and wittier the better - and she's an expert at one liners.

So, although I'm terrible at friendships, I'm also incredibly grateful for the ones that push through and remain despite my constant weirdness, the ones who hold me up when I'm feeling absolutely at my lowest and who let me obsess and rant and vent and over-talk until I'm feeling like the OGPickle. I only hope that I give you back half of what you guys give me!

xoxo

All of the things, Pickle (Left) :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin (Head) : Not Found - Lia Skin Toffee (Catwa)

Skin (Body) : [TheSkinnery] Toffee

Head :  CATWA HEAD Catya

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Lipstick : [PF] CATWA Lipstick - Queen Palette

Hair : tram H0813 hair

Tattoo : *Bolson / Token @ Uber

Shirt : Emery Nothing To Hide Crop Top @ Uber

Pants : .miss chelsea. Reba Pants for Saturday Sale

All of the things, Apple (Right) : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin (Head) : Not Found - Lia Skin Toffee (Catwa)

Skin (Body) : [TheSkinnery] Toffee

Head :  CATWA HEAD Catya

Hair : RAMA Salon - Amber Hair for Saturday Sale

Shirt :  [Fetch] Four little words tee 

Rings : **RE** Witchy Rings

Pants : .miss chelsea. Reba Pants for Saturday Sale

Slides : Mossu - Sparkle.Platforms

The sound of crazy.

Pose : FOXCITY. Soulfood-2m

Location : Arranmore

There are times where I look through this blog and think "Pickle, bb, what is you doin'?" because there really isn't a set style that I follow, there isn't a theme that my pictures all fit into.

I'm often reminded that having a 'niche' is important when you're a blogger - but for me, part of the joy of SL is that you can look entirely different every day, and for that reason alone, I point blank refuse to be anything other than Pickle. Which means I'm going to continue rocking different looks, embracing many different themes, and experimenting with my avatar.

Happy Sunday, guys!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Insol: 'Just Alice' // 3. Peppy babe - ST Milk (B3) (Gacha) @ The Epiphany

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes

Eye Applier :  Go&See * Boo * Catwa Eyes

Eyeshadow & Lipstick :  . MILA . Princess of Darkness Makeup

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Tongue : SN - Kali Split Tongue 

Hair : *Besom~ Summer Luv

HairBand : .Oppa. Emily Ears Headband 

Collar/Chain : K{<3}P - Anastasia Collar @ SaNaRae

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo - Mikhail (includes face & body)

Hoodie : BUENO-Ana Top

Bracelets : .random.Matter. - Yoona Cuffs & .random.Matter. - Asher Cuff

Rings : (Yummy) Curator Rings Set

Shorts : .miss chelsea. Drew Shorts @ N21

Sandals : #EMPIRE - Hyssop @ Collabor88

I do what I like.

Pose : WRONG ST4 (Edited hands/Arms with Animare)

Ball Prop : OLQINU : rich play <ball [black]> @ Sanarae

Background & Location : [Since1975] Fit Box-Gym Saloon @ Backdrop City

It's Man-Pickle Monday!

I'm not going to write a great deal now, because I've already posted once today and I think that's enough Pickle-Dribble for one day.

Instead, please enjoy a regular installment of Man-Pickle for your viewing pleasure - and remember, TMD closes soon, so this is your last chance to pick up the amazing offerings for this round, so get there quick!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Stray Dog - Liam Skin - TONE 04 @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes :  LOTUS. Cosmic Eyes 18 (Catwa) MYSTERY RARE (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair : Dura-B&G82

Tattoo : *Bolson / Leonardo @ TMD

Outfit : COMPLEX / KEVIN SHORTS / HOODIE @ TMD

Sneakers : [VALE KOER] THE COUTURE HIGH TOPS

Reverse.

Background : [sau]MC clubhouse @ TMD

Here we have a wild Man-Pickle in his natural habitat.

Yeah I'm not sure where I'm going with that, but this look was fun to put together!

I think almost everything I'm wearing is available at TMD, so once again, STOP TELLING ME YOU CAN'T FIND DECENT CLOTHING, DUDES.

Thanks so much! *skips off into the sunset*

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body (Updated, should be sent automatically)

Skin : Stray Dog - Liam Skin - TONE 04 @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes :  LOTUS. Cosmic Eyes 18 (Catwa) MYSTERY RARE (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Dura-B85 @ TMD

Glasses : [Z O O M] Aviator 2018: Retro @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Leonardo @ TMD

Shirt & Vest : <Kalback> Denim Jacket @ TMD

Bracelets : [ kunst ] - Skull bracelets @ TMD

Shorts : not so bad . mesh . ADAM denim shorts @ TMD

Boots : Lenox - Rider Boots @ TMD

Everything you need.

Pose : Ana Poses - Mumbai 03 @ TMD

Location : Peaky Blinders 

Being the crazy English bird I am, I took a chance on heading over to the Peaky Blinders sim, which is of course based upon the Peaky Blinders series. I was incredibly pleasantly surprised by the composition of the English Countryside they've achieved here, It's absolutely beautiful, and there are so  many lovely little spots to take pictures. Apparently they even do Open Mic nights and have rentals.

I ran in to a couple of the owners, and they were super welcoming too, so I really feel like this is a place to watch out for. Thanks for bringing the creativity & beauty to SL guys, big thumbs up from me!

Also, I'm well aware of how weird it is to claim I'm an "English bird" when I'm rocking Man-Pickle in all his manly glory. Pls just love me. <3

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 

Skin : Stray Dog - Liam Skin - TONE 04 @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes :  LOTUS. Cosmic Eyes 18 (Catwa) MYSTERY RARE (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus - Danny Hair @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Leonardo @ TMD

Necklace : amias - VITALI @ TMD

Jacket : [VALE KOER] DARKSHADOW PARKA @ TMD 

Pants : TonkTastic - Chino w. Belt @ TMD 

Shoes : [ VERSOV ] DJANGOV_SNEAKERS @ TMD