A better time.

Pose, bowl & whisk : FOXCITY. Breakfast Bento Pose (Previously at Uber)

Decor (Hold on to your hats!) : {moss&mink} Christmas Cookie Mix for LTD Christmas, available @ the mainstore.

Sari-Sari - Gingerbread Men

dust bunny . at home baking . bag of sugar

DRD - The Bakers Fail - Cake Counter (Note : Sim Sale! Up to 75% off!)

Apple Fall Pan Rack

Apple Fall Handbag & Scarf

Mutresse-Fascinated-Witty Cats

Bazar - Torronto-Slippers

*Tentacio* Mia's bakery pet 1 (Gacha)

Taken in the Scarlet Creative Magicae House

Season's Greetings Spoonies! (I've decided that I need a name for you lovely readers, you can thank my new-found adoration of Youtube and tutorials, and the fact that people like James Charles call their supporters and subscribers SISTERS and uh, things.)

Today I am actually thrilled with the way this picture came out. I love it all, so excuse me while I toot my own horn reveling in the lighting and basically everything. I really hope I'm turning a corner with my photography, sometimes I feel like I 'get it' and other times it just falls a bit short. 

Durex has popped up again, so make sure you say hi! He's obviously me. So basically I'm just asking you to pay attention to me twice. *blinks*

I slept too much today which has led me to being awake at 3am, and writing this absolutely insane blog post. However, things are better than good for me right now, and I am genuinely okay. I feel like it's been a while since I could say that and mean it, so that's really, really lovely.

If you're struggling, just know you're not alone. Know that there are others who have been in similar shoes, and you are strong enough to get through whatever trials you're currently facing.

I truly believe in flipping that switch in your brain from "Oh no, I can't." to "Oh, maybe one day." to "Fuck yes, I can!", just remember, it's not gonna happen over night, and despite taking two steps forwards and one step back... you're making progress and that deserves to be celebrated.

xoxo

Let's not talk about Pickle's lazy eyes, ok? Thankyousomuch. ♥

All of the things, Durex : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Hair : [INK] Hair_TAIT @ TMD

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Tattoo : DAPPA - Descend Tattoo. @ ManCave

Sweatpants : Lenox Arctic Pants @ TMD

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Hair : bonbon - vina hair - (FREE GIFT!)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Bra top : BUENO-Crochet Bikini 

Dress : *Tentacio* Mia's bakery dress (Gacha) - (Note : This is made for maitreya, but i managed to fit it over my belleza freya shape with minimal clipping (countered with my body hud). The bra included with the dress does NOT fit belleza freya)

Rain or shine.

Pose (left) : Animare'd beyond recognition.

Pose (right) : FOXCITY. Mens - Night Owl-3m

Props : Soy. Old Barber Chair @ TMD

Vintage Posters >Here<

Apple Fall Barber Supply Cabinet RARE (Gacha)

PPK Barber Working Case (Gacha)

Apple Fall Barbers' Sink (Gacha)

Nope.

All of the things (Left) :

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : In the Signature Hud

Head : [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Eyes :  IKON Promise Eyes

Shirt :  {COLD-ASH} JASON Polo Shirt 

Pants :  {COLD-ASH} Mens MESH DEAN Chinos 

Shoes :  {COLD-ASH}  VALKYRIE SNEAKERS

All of the things, Man-Pickle (Right) :

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - ANDREI @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus -  Caspian Hair @ TMD

Earring : MINIMAL - Marcellus Earrings @ TMD

Necklace : amias - WYN @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo - Vicious @ TMD

Hand Accessories :amias - CLEM pack @ TMD

Pants : SEUL Garcon - Jacques Jang Pant @ TMD

Boots : Lenox Burleigh Boots @ TMD

I could have done better.

Pose : FOXCITY. Mens - Night Owl-6m (Fatpack Exclusive)

Location : Backdrop Cove Tropical Beach 

Today I've been thinking about the quote "We accept the love we think we deserve" and what that means to me.

For a long time, I don't think I equated "me" with "worthy of love", so every time I found something that seemed to present itself as affection, I gripped it with both hands and attempted to cling on, even when it wasn't right. That, or when it was "too good to be true" I felt like I was undeserving, and found excuses to run away from it, or put obstacles in the way - because why would anything be 'right'?

Another saying that goes along side this was phrased best (in my opinion) by RuPaul. "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?" and this has been a bone of contention for me. I'm not saying I'm in love with me, I'm not. I have a long way to go before I think that can happen... but I definitely like myself a lot more than I have for a long while. Before, I thought that this saying was bullshit. I thought that despite me not loving me, or giving myself the attention I need, I was beyond capable of showing love. I wasn't, and I wonder if even now, I'm capable.

I do see a difference, already. In being kinder to myself, it's becoming easier to calm me when I get upset. I'm learning to listen to my gut far more than I have in the past, and if something feels bad I am able to quit out - often before I've worked out why it's bad. It's also easier for me to forgive and understand others. None of us are born perfect, and sometimes we make mistakes. 

I never seem to be able to write exactly what I want to say, or how I want to say it, but my message here remains the same as it always is, be kind to each other - but even more importantly, be kind to yourself.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin :  Clef de Peau.Oscar @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Glasses : MIRROR - Carbon Glasses @ TMD

Ears : AITUI - Snake Charmer Ears @ TMD

Hair : Dura-B86 @ TMD

Tattoo : DAPPA - Benson Tattoo @ Output Event

Pants : Lenox - Journey Sweats @ TMD

Sneakers : [ VERSOV ] BALLOV_SNEAKERS @ TMD

Burning up.

Pose : Ana Poses - Dhaka 4 @ TMD

Location : Baja Sands

Sometimes, it's easy to look at things with the wrong perspective.

I say this knowing that my journey is still a process, knowing that I'm still learning to see things with a positive eye - however, since I have been actively trying to become more positive I have definitely noticed changes.

I've also noticed an influx of people who don't want my life to excel, who are so stuck in their own misery they are incapable of wishing someone - sometimes someone they don't even know and have never spoken to - well. All it takes is a nod and a smile to be positive. You don't have to offer up words of encouragement, but keeping your negative and abuse laden comments to yourself is in itself a positive step toward thinking differently.

I can definitely be one of the most judgmental people you have met. It's taking me a butt-ton of patience with myself to re-teach my brain that this isn't appropriate. Many of us, as humans, have been through some excruciating times and been put in situations you would wish on no-one. Bob Marley is rumored to once said 

“Who are you to judge the life I live?

I know I'm not perfect

-and I don't live to be-

but before you start pointing fingers...

make sure you hands are clean!”

Not one of us is perfect. We have all been broken. We are all stitched together the best way we know how, sometimes with care and love and other times with self loathing and internal anger. You know which way you have been stitched and only you can make a difference in how you see yourself. Projecting your insecurities on another does no good, you're simply spreading your negativity in a vague attempt to bring someone down to your level of misery.

Make a choice today, and decide to show love. Project hope. Give off positivity.

Also, love yourself. You really do deserve it. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - LIAM CATWA

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers : {S0NG} :: Ange Eyes @ TMD

Beard : WOLVES ///   BeardV1 (I can't find a LM, So sorry, not sure if this exists anymore)

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Drop Ears

Ear Weights : HAIL Salamander Ear Weight & HAIL Open Ring Ear Weight

Hair & Hat : Modulus - Timmy Hair & Hat @ TMD

Shirt : Lenox - Hawaiian Shirt @ TMD

Pants : TonkTastic - Bermuda Shorts @ TMD

Sneakers : Native - Odell Sneakers @ TMD

Reverse.

Background : [sau]MC clubhouse @ TMD

Here we have a wild Man-Pickle in his natural habitat.

Yeah I'm not sure where I'm going with that, but this look was fun to put together!

I think almost everything I'm wearing is available at TMD, so once again, STOP TELLING ME YOU CAN'T FIND DECENT CLOTHING, DUDES.

Thanks so much! *skips off into the sunset*

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body (Updated, should be sent automatically)

Skin : Stray Dog - Liam Skin - TONE 04 @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes :  LOTUS. Cosmic Eyes 18 (Catwa) MYSTERY RARE (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Dura-B85 @ TMD

Glasses : [Z O O M] Aviator 2018: Retro @ TMD

Tattoo : *Bolson / Leonardo @ TMD

Shirt & Vest : <Kalback> Denim Jacket @ TMD

Bracelets : [ kunst ] - Skull bracelets @ TMD

Shorts : not so bad . mesh . ADAM denim shorts @ TMD

Boots : Lenox - Rider Boots @ TMD

Take your time.

Pose, Joint & Phone :  *!R.O!*  Texting BENTO Pose

Location : [:: SPLASH :: ] 420 Hangout //Voice Chat Beach (Adult)

All of the things : 

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - YORI - TONE 06  @ The Mens Dept 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS. Tenshi Eyes - Chairo (Catwa) RARE (Gacha) 

Ears :   ^^Swallow^^  Gauged Ears

Septum : (Yummy) Lotus - Gold 

Freckles & Moles :  Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa]

Hairbase : #SIIX // Cambodian Hairbase

Hair : Besom~ Ruby Said (Gacha)

Tattoo :  *Bolson / Tattoo Mesh Body Pack - Hanzo

Shirt : TonkTastic - Cotton Tee -Weed&Peace @ The Mens Dept 

Watch :  [VEX] The Wilson @ The Mens Dept 

Pants : Lenox Leather Pants @ The Mens Dept 

Boots : Razor & Wretch /// Omen Boots @ The Mens Dept (Note : There's no Signature Fit for these boots, I'm wearing the TMP version, and they fit pretty well, but as you can see in the photo above there is SOME clipping in certain poses. Demo first!)

When it all falls down.

Pose, Phone & Smoke : FOXCITY. Mens - Night Owl-6 (Fatpack Exclusive)

Location : Elysion (Adult & Group Only)

All of the things : 

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - MARVIN - TONE 02 @ The Mens Dept

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier :  LOTUS. Freedom Eyes @  The Chapter Four 

Ears :   ^^Swallow^^  Gauged Ears

Beard : Beusame // Beard V47 Tintable @ The Mens Dept

Hair & Hat : Stealthic - Psycho @ The Mens Dept

Glasses : [Z O O M] Vardoone Glasses @ The Mens Dept

Tattoo : -Endless Pain Tattoos @ Bodyfy (Open 8th August)

Shirt & Tie : //Ascend// Eric Bow tie Shirt @ The Mens Dept

Watch & Bracelet : -NOeditiON DweelerWatch w/ Fortune Bracelet @ The Mens Dept

Jeans & Underpants : Lenox Disruptor Jeans @ The Mens Dept

Sneakers : [VALE KOER] LUNAR STRIDERS @ The Mens Dept