Super short one today because the whole vlog ordeal made me so anxious I'm kinda exhausted... plus Potato Man's internet seems to be stable atm so I'm literally making grabby hands at him!
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body
The Mens Department is going to be closing to get ready for a new round very shortly, make sure you stop by and pick up these goodies before they're gone!
Today I've been thinking about the quote "We accept the love we think we deserve" and what that means to me.
For a long time, I don't think I equated "me" with "worthy of love", so every time I found something that seemed to present itself as affection, I gripped it with both hands and attempted to cling on, even when it wasn't right. That, or when it was "too good to be true" I felt like I was undeserving, and found excuses to run away from it, or put obstacles in the way - because why would anything be 'right'?
Another saying that goes along side this was phrased best (in my opinion) by RuPaul. "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?" and this has been a bone of contention for me. I'm not saying I'm in love with me, I'm not. I have a long way to go before I think that can happen... but I definitely like myself a lot more than I have for a long while. Before, I thought that this saying was bullshit. I thought that despite me not loving me, or giving myself the attention I need, I was beyond capable of showing love. I wasn't, and I wonder if even now, I'm capable.
I do see a difference, already. In being kinder to myself, it's becoming easier to calm me when I get upset. I'm learning to listen to my gut far more than I have in the past, and if something feels bad I am able to quit out - often before I've worked out why it's bad. It's also easier for me to forgive and understand others. None of us are born perfect, and sometimes we make mistakes.
I never seem to be able to write exactly what I want to say, or how I want to say it, but my message here remains the same as it always is, be kind to each other - but even more importantly, be kind to yourself.
I was lucky enough to stumble across this gorgeous sim by Eripom Moonwall thanks to my friend Jakeb. For flickr fans, you may already be aware of Eripom, and you can find their stream >Here< and Jakeb is completely responsible for my in-world profile picture and you can find his flickr stream >Here<
TMD opened for a new round yesterday (5th August), and as usual, the selection of male fashion is out of this world. I'm kinda loving how man-Pickle looks today. Being blonde in SL has always been a struggle for me, moreso as a guy because of the restrictions you get on hairbases etc. It's REALLY hard to tint hairbases to blonde, but thanks to the roots on the L'etre hair shown in todays picture, I had absolutely no problem making my base brown, and still rocked the blonde!
One thing I've noticed as a guy is finding shoes and pants that fit together is almost impossible. Today, instead of wearing the Gianni fit shoes I've decided to go with the unrigged version, and edited my height accordingly. Don't be afraid to experiment with sizes, even if it's not for your particular mesh body - because sometimes, creating an outfit that doesn't clip equals making adjustments to the way you would usually wear your outfit.
I feel like maybe Man-Pickle may have reverted to Boy-Pickle for this bloggy, but I'm kind of digging the entire look.
It's been a bit of a running joke that I could make the perfect fuckboy - and I think I might have proved that assertion correct, however, if I'm gonna be a fuckboy, I'm gonna be the best damn fuckboy SL has seen. With that said, here are a few rules if you would like to be the best fuckboy you can be. (This is satire, if you can't handle it - scroll on down for the regular details!)
1. Begin every IM with "Hey bbg." "Hey slut." or another derivative to prove your Internet Dominance.
2. After initial IM wait 10 minutes to respond to every message you receive.
3. Feign some sort of interest in the latest video game/anime.
4. Complain tirelessly about the girls who won't leave you alone because you're just so awesome.
5. Share your musical talent with everyone you talk to, asap.
6. Give out backhanded compliments. "You look like shit. That shirt is cute tho boo."
7. All your exes are batshit.
I'm tired. There's more, but tbh, if you wanna be a fuckboy - fuck off. :P
Man-Pickle has been suspiciously missing lately, and I can only apologize for his sudden disappearance. However, I'm feeling 34058934% better than I have in weeks, and so hopefully -HOPEFULLY- things can get semi normal except for when I'm doing the whole RL thing which is scary and awesome and amazing and I'll fill you guys in on when there's a substantial change.
In the meantime, please check out all the awesome things from TMD before the round closes!
xoxo
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body
This outfit was kind of odd which naturally means I absolutely love it, the colours are very vivid, though! I feel a bit like a rainbow Viking. I'm going to come steal your man and pillage your village, all while looking fabulous in my pink fur.
The past couple of days have been quite difficult, and this outfit, this stance, and the way this image has come across is kind of how I feel today. I'm a strong woman. At times, I need to remind myself of this. One of the things that I am proud of about myself is that I am not scared to feel anymore.
I have always been heavily led by my emotions, if i'm sad, I'll probably cry. If I'm happy, I'll probably cry. If I'm scared, there's every chance I might cry haha. I used to be incredibly ashamed of this, but I think I've finally come to terms with the fact that although I am emotional, this doesn't make me less strong. In fact, I feel like maybe it makes me stronger. I refuse to dull down those emotions to make those around me comfortable. I got told today that I "Feel too much" and I need to stop. Honestly, it made me make that weird squishy nose face and furrow my brow. Like, what? How can you feel too much? It made me incredibly defensive, and if anything just made my decision not to dim any part of me to 'fit in' much easier. I care, deeply. I love, entirely. I give freely, and you know what? I'll carry on doing all of those things because if I don't... I just wouldn't be Pickle.
Skin : Glam Affair - Milu - Catwa Head Applier - Good Girl ( Polar ) (Note : The polar tone is NOT in your Maitreya hud. You need to purchase the body applier separately - but it does come with this cute freckles version, too! \o/)
