Beautiful but broken.

Pose : Foxcity. Observe-6m

Background : FOXCITY. #MOOD Gacha - 5 - Staged (Common) @ Backdrop City

As I was editing this last night I was talking to two of my friends in SL that I consider family.

For me, family in SL has always been a difficult label to achieve. I've had families in the past and it's caused nothing but trouble - in fact, I'm still healing from one of my SL families, and that sounds insane to say for something that is supposed to be a game. However, these two friends of mine are my Glam-ma (Memaw) and Grandpa (Pepaw). I had a bit of a mental health revelation last night and just needed to talk, and luckily, these two beautiful souls were right there and listened.

Not only did they listen to me, but they also shared their own journeys, and they made me feel like I wasn't alone, as though I truly belonged around them, and like I could turn to them, no matter what.

I jokingly said that the photo above got all those feels edited into it, and the more I think about it, the better I feel like there couldn't be a more true statement. I feel like the Pickle shown in the picture is confident, loves and accepts herself, and those are feels that my 'family' confirmed. My grandpa actually asked me "What is your worth, Pickle?" and I answered "Well, I'm getting there, but I'm still working that out." and he said "No. You're priceless. That's how I see you, and that's how I want you to see yourself." 

And now I'm gratefully sobbing into my keyboard at the unselfish show of love both of these beautiful humans managed to share with me last night and every time we speak.

I hope you find your tribe, Spoonies. They're out there, sometimes it just takes a minute to find them.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyes : LOTUS. Flow Eyes @ Access

Hair : VCO HAIR _ Wonnie (Gacha) @ Kustom9

Tattoo : DAPPA - Damaged Scars. (Fresh version) @ Hentai Fair

Tank & Chain : .miss chelsea. Alva Tank 

Stole :  .miss chelsea.  Saga Stole 

Skirt & Panties : evani. - Millena skirt @ Kustom9

Boots : #EMPIRE - Sissys @ Collabor88

 Hey, have you seen how interactive the Evani Skirt is? Ok, so it's also a reason to stare at my butt, but hello! How cool is this? It comes with a hud so you can black/whitelist the avatars you actually want to be able to use your skirt, or you can keep it public and let anyone lift the skirt. Kinda love it!

This could be perfection.

Pose : Created by the amazing PotatoMan. It's not on Marketplace yet, but you can find his other pose >Here< 

I don't have a lot to say today.

Potato is wearing the Poruka Tattoo by DAPPA @ Equal10

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyes : LOTUS. Royal Eyes @ Vanity Event

Ears : L'Etre - Basic Mesh ears 

Septum : (Yummy) Selene Septum 

Tattoo : DAPPA - NotUrBB Tattoo.@ Equal10

Romper : -Narcisse- Taylor Romper @ Sultry

Shoes & Socks : [BREATHE]-Sayako Heels @ Sultry

Modest.

Pose & Snake : Amitie From Dusk Till Dawn @ Equal10

Background : anxiety %local v2

Ajjjsdflkd. I might be a little bit excited!

I am so freakin' proud of this picture. Once I found out that the theme behind this lingerie set was Burlesque, I immediately knew I wanted to do something fun and feisty, and stumbling across this pose just made me squeal with all the happy.

Want more info? Keep scrollin'!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyes : LOTUS. Royal Eyes @ Vanity Event

Hair : KUNI / Juliet @ Equal10

Tattoo : DAPPA - Leah Tattoo. @ Fetish Fair (Opens Feb 16th)

Lingerie : -Narcisse- Skylar Lingerie @ FrouFrou

In my veins.

Pose : Go&See * Divine * 4 @ Anybody

Location : My Home

I can't stop with these amazeballs Enchantment items!! I CAN'T! Hold me back! No don't.. I need to show you all the things!

On top of that, there's more luscious poses from Go&See.. keep scrolling, Spoonies!

xoxo

Go&See Divine poses 1-5.

I've chosen to wear the .miss chelsea. Saga Body @ Belle Event for these shots, so you can see the pretty positioning of the legs!

Go&See Divine Poses 6-10.

Did ya know there's a Valentine's Photography Contest for Go&See? Well there is! For all the information on that (and the chance to win 10,000 Ls!) visit Kristyna's Flickr >Here<

All of the rest of the things :

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Lika applier @ Collabor88

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Eyebrows : [okkbye] Adumbrate Eyebrows 

Ears : riNK *Elf Ears (with jewelry) - There's an entire set @ Enchantment so please check out the rest of the gorgeous items! 

Hair : SINTIKLIA Hair Elvina 

Crown & Envelope : ::Static:: The One Ring & The Witch King Crown@ Enchantment

Dress : Bakaboo - Queen Ali Gown @ Enchantment

Loveliness.

Pose : FOXCITY. GSits VOL1-4m

Props : Boudoir Bed of Flowers Photo Prop

uK- Honey Do Honey Pot

Apple Fall Bees Fatpack 

including : Apple Fall Vintage Bee Skep

Apple Fall Apiary Bee Hive Mixed (Tall)

Apple Fall Apiary Bee Hive White (Tall)

*alirium* PuffyGrass

*alirium* DownyGrass 

{what next} Rainbow Fence  

LB_Sunflowers{Field}

As soon as I saw this tattoo by Dappa, I knew what I had to do... get totally naked and smear myself in honey, of course!

I love how this came out. I know it's only January, but the joy of SL is that it can be spring whenever you like, and so that's what I'm celebrating in this picture - doing whatever the fudge I want! I'm also only slightly snickering over the fact there's an actual honeypot covering my, uh, honeypot! 

-commences belly holding guffaws-.

It's now 7am and for whatever reason I'm still wide awake and utterly avoiding going to the corner shop because I'm out of butter, the same way I have been avoiding it for the last two days. Do you even know how many food things need butter to make them work? I was like "Oh, just have a potato, Pickle." and then I remember it's rubbish if there's not a lick of butter on yer jacket tattie!

Anywho, fingers crossed I'll be able to brave the outside today without a house falling on me and loosing my favourite pair of ruby red slippers (I think I might be slightly sleep deprived again), and I'll return with Clover and NikNaks of the Rib and Spicy variety. I'm also hungry.

Happy Wednesday!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Mary applier for Genus {NEW YEAR GIFT} 

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Hair : DOUX - Meghan hairstyle 

Sunflower : From the Beusy: Citrus Hairstyle + Sunflowers / 

Bee's : *LODE* Head Accessory - Phebe Bees

Septum : DAPPA - Septum X. @ TLC

Honey Applier : -[TWC]- Honey Honey

Tattoo : DAPPA - Nectar Tattoo. @ Vanity Event

These words.

Pose : FOXCITY. Fixated-3m

Background : wr - disco infernal 

Have I mentioned how much I love Narcisse's materials? Well I'm saying it again. Loveeee. Love. Loveeeeee. The end.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Mary applier for Genus {NEW YEAR GIFT} 

Eyes : HERMONY /  EYES OF THE BEHOLDER  

Hair & Hairband : TRUTH VIP Joy (Gift)

Choker : Amala - The Ariana Choker

Outfit : -Narcisse- Kit Set @ Fameshed

Nails : Ascendant - Million Bento Nails 

A matter of time.

Pose : Bossie. nyanko ecchi pose 03 (Over-ridden by the props in hands)

Props : -Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 13. Top Hat Gold @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 7. Star Glasses Gold @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 6. Lips Kiss @ LootBox

Decor : -Narcisse-  NY Photobooth - 18. Mystery Frame Memories @ LootBox

-Narcisse-  NY Photobooth - 18. Mystery Frame HNY @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 2. Rare HNY Banner Gold @ LootBox

hive // black tie balloons & Confetti For 50L Friday

{moss&mink} Bailey Bed @ Uber

{moss&mink} Heart stud table - Light

{moss&mink} Lace-up Chair w/blanket 

{moss&mink} Modern Princess - Princess Kitty RARE

{what next} Sunflowers Pitcher

[ARIA] Arlette decorative tea sandwich stand

_CandyDoll_Fancy Rug 

Taken in the BUENO-Silence Skybox- RARE

Happy new year!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi (I'm really not sure which one, but it's a liner and it's probably for LOGO head because that works with the omega system in the Genus head)

Ears : L'Etre - Pure mesh ears 

Hair : *barberyumyum*B01

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Leah Loungewear @ N21

Tell the whole world.

Pose : FOXCITY. Carefree-6m 75L fatpack for The Saturday Sale

Decor :  {moss&mink} Vintage store 

dust bunny . mini christmas tree

dust bunny . present pile

 {moss&mink} Winter Dream Sled for FaMESHed GO

I have so many THINGS to show you! I'm actually not even going to attempt to waffle today, instead I'm going to show you the things, ok? Ok!

So Moss&Mink came out with a couple of fabulous additions recently... the first is "La Piche Moussue" in collaboration with the Peaches hot chocolate set that I showed you somewhere.. maybe >Here< ? Anywho, the store is bloody gorgeous. So gorgeous that I'm keeping it full time on my homestead. Twice. Not only does it include the building which I've kinda shown in the first picture (you can unlink & remove the snowy top, so the store can be used throughout the seasons), but it also comes with matching inside pieces to mix & match too. There are three versions of the store, a white with red trim 'Nordic' version that is perfect for the Holiday season, the 'Worn' Blue shown, and a white and gold trim 'Clean' option... along with a selection of different coloured matching counters and displays.

There's also the super cute Sleigh, which has an unlinkable snow prim not shown. It has tons of animations in for both singles and couples, and I can see this being a welcome addition to any home or garden during the winter months.

In other stores, Miss Chelsea has provided this snug cardigan and tee combination in two colours (Sold separately) for 50L friday. Yah, it's Saturday, but I checked a couple of hours ago and it was still available for the special 50L price! I really love the detailing of Miss Chelsea's items, and this cardigan has such cute elbows I almost squealed!

The Native Urban Sneakers can be found at Uber, and have an insane colour hud! Well worth the price point, and definitely one to put in your shopping cart!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi (I'm really not sure which one, but it's a liner and it's probably for LOGO head because that works with the omega system in the Genus head)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : Moon. Hair. // Consume 75L for The Saturday Sale

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Cardigan/Top : .miss chelsea. Tati Cardi For 50L Friday

Pants : Blueberry - Cake Leggings 

Sneakers : Native - MKJ Sneakers @ Uber

Pretty deep.

Pose : [ evoLove ] - Cup of Tea No3

Taken at my home, which is still unfinished!

Today I've found myself in a little bit of a spiral, and I want to address a potentially sensitive subject, after I preface with this : I use this blog as a place to vent. Rather than spreading hate and negativity across social media and in an attempt to slow down chinese whispers which seem to be so rife across SL,  I prefer to openly discuss my feelings through this space and hopefully come to a point where I reach an understanding with myself. This is never aimed specifically at one person. It's never meant to hurt, or "shade" anybody. If you feel personally attacked by anything I write, feel free to message me in world (LollipopLace) and if you can't because I've blocked you I wish you nothing but love and light but please leave me the eff alone, and find your way to understanding yourself and your relationships.

Ok. 

It's so easy to see something on flickr, on facebook, or on any other social media and be like "Hey, that's super amazing. I want that." and part of my "job" as a blogger is to try and evoke that kind of a reaction in people. Also, with SL being so fast to move with new trends, the level of events and the commitment we make as bloggers to showcase all these beautiful items that creators painstakingly make, it becomes difficult to know when something is inspired by, and when something is a direct copy.

More than a few times there have been other bloggers who use the same pose, or put an outfit from an event together the same way as me. I'm not upset over this... it's going to happen. I remember one time, about two years ago, a blogger left a really nasty comment on my flickr in regards to an outfit I'd put together. It hurt me so bad, because I wasn't even following this other person, so I literally had no idea we'd done things similarly and it took a little investigating to figure out they did in fact blog the same event. I deleted the comment, reached out in world and explained the situation and received silence as a response, which I guess is an response in of itself!

However, there have also been times that I have spent hours and hours making a scene, selecting the perfect pose, creating the lighting and editing a photograph I am incredibly proud of... only to have someone - sometimes someone I have helped in some way while creating my scene - use the same background I set up with very minor differences, without me even knowing and tbh, usually they do it better!

The constant influx of items and the demand to blog the most recent items, it can be really, really difficult to get inspiration. It's understandable that there will be occasions where pictures from multiple people will overlap. I try my hardest to reach out to people who have inspired me, to let them know and to make sure it's okay if I credit them on my silly little blog, firstly because I feel like it's the "right thing" to do, and secondly because it's so beautiful to receive a compliment, even if the compliment comes from a stranger - I want to be that stranger!

Still, it seems that while this is something I attempt to do, very few people will give credit where credit is due. It's beautiful that so many people will credit their items to the creators, to give love and appreciation to those who make virtual items... but what about those who make ideas? Who set a wheel in motion in your brain? Don't they deserve credit, too?

It's all love here, seriously. I'm often floored by the work that SL residents can create, and I will always stand by that ideal. There's no doubt that there have been moments where something has sparked an idea in my head and I have not credited them because we scroll so fast through our social media we don't even recognize where the idea came from. 

Anywho, that's my rant/vent/nonsense for today.

Enjoy! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Festive Shadow @ N21

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : tram H1219 hair @ Uber

Hair piece : tram -Star Accessory

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Outfit & Boots : .miss chelsea. Juni Set @ Uber

Romance isn't dead.

Pose : Amitie Comfy 01m @ Vanity Event

Decor : junk. hester's attic couch. antique.

Mutresse-Peeking-Shortie Cats (Gacha)

-tres blah- Hodgepodge - Wine Duet (gacha)

DRD - Boho Princess - Carpet - A

Merry Christmasthings!

In the UK we call the day after Christmas "Boxing Day". I don't know why. Maybe it's because we have so many lovely new presents we spend the day smothered in boxes? Perhaps it's because we all secretly want to punch our beloved family in the face? WHO KNOWS! Let's ask google.

-wanders off-

Ok. So. Apparently I was terribly wrong, and it was either a 'Christmas Bonus' for servants who had worked Christmas day, or the distribution of 'Poor boxes' from churches. You can find a bunch more detail in this article > here <. Personally, I still kinda like the idea of a dramatic family feud based somewhere in the past when boys still wore newspaper flat hats and men were mostly found donned in suits and ties. 

Whatever you're celebrating today, I hope this finds you happy and healthy, with a renewed love of your chosen tribe. 

xoxo

All of the things! :

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Festive Shadow @ N21

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : *Besom~ Wok Bun

Top : -Narcisse- Eve Bralette (Previously at the Seduction Event)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Panties : From the erratic / diana - lingerie Set

A better time.

Pose, bowl & whisk : FOXCITY. Breakfast Bento Pose (Previously at Uber)

Decor (Hold on to your hats!) : {moss&mink} Christmas Cookie Mix for LTD Christmas, available @ the mainstore.

Sari-Sari - Gingerbread Men

dust bunny . at home baking . bag of sugar

DRD - The Bakers Fail - Cake Counter (Note : Sim Sale! Up to 75% off!)

Apple Fall Pan Rack

Apple Fall Handbag & Scarf

Mutresse-Fascinated-Witty Cats

Bazar - Torronto-Slippers

*Tentacio* Mia's bakery pet 1 (Gacha)

Taken in the Scarlet Creative Magicae House

Season's Greetings Spoonies! (I've decided that I need a name for you lovely readers, you can thank my new-found adoration of Youtube and tutorials, and the fact that people like James Charles call their supporters and subscribers SISTERS and uh, things.)

Today I am actually thrilled with the way this picture came out. I love it all, so excuse me while I toot my own horn reveling in the lighting and basically everything. I really hope I'm turning a corner with my photography, sometimes I feel like I 'get it' and other times it just falls a bit short. 

Durex has popped up again, so make sure you say hi! He's obviously me. So basically I'm just asking you to pay attention to me twice. *blinks*

I slept too much today which has led me to being awake at 3am, and writing this absolutely insane blog post. However, things are better than good for me right now, and I am genuinely okay. I feel like it's been a while since I could say that and mean it, so that's really, really lovely.

If you're struggling, just know you're not alone. Know that there are others who have been in similar shoes, and you are strong enough to get through whatever trials you're currently facing.

I truly believe in flipping that switch in your brain from "Oh no, I can't." to "Oh, maybe one day." to "Fuck yes, I can!", just remember, it's not gonna happen over night, and despite taking two steps forwards and one step back... you're making progress and that deserves to be celebrated.

xoxo

Let's not talk about Pickle's lazy eyes, ok? Thankyousomuch. ♥

All of the things, Durex : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Hair : [INK] Hair_TAIT @ TMD

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Tattoo : DAPPA - Descend Tattoo. @ ManCave

Sweatpants : Lenox Arctic Pants @ TMD

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Hair : bonbon - vina hair - (FREE GIFT!)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Bra top : BUENO-Crochet Bikini 

Dress : *Tentacio* Mia's bakery dress (Gacha) - (Note : This is made for maitreya, but i managed to fit it over my belleza freya shape with minimal clipping (countered with my body hud). The bra included with the dress does NOT fit belleza freya)