I feel like this picture is a whole entire hashtag for my life. I'm literally exhausted from the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to sleep - and I barely do anything. I can't actually remember what it's like to get off my chair without groaning and today I left a mini tin of vaseline heating up to soften under my boob (shuttup don't act like you don't do that if you have bigger tiddies) for three whole hours because I legit forgot it was there.
The tiger is from a Poseidon pose set, as part of a rare.
I seem to have rediscovered my love of the Black Dragon viewer today. I initially loaded it up remembering how smooth it was to cam around and thought maybe it would be a better option for vlogging, but when I adjusted my settings, I remembered how much I adored the crispness for photography, too.
I initially stopped using the viewer because it had become laggy and was cumbersome for me to move around on it, when I took a large picture, it would crash, and i'd have to relog and attempt to rez everything all over again, which had also become difficult. I suppose there's been a few updates since then, as it must have been 6 months or more ago that I stopped, but now everything runs far better, and nothing has changed on my end, except maybe driver updates!
Anywho, here's hoping that the curve of learning continues and my photography only excels!
I'm boy-Pickle today. I'm not sure if you're aware, but Muggleborn adds the option of 'pouches' to most of their clothing so that it can be worn realistically by femboys and ladies with penises. I'm all for diversity in SL, so this makes my heart very happy.
xoxo
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara & [V-Tech]Boi Chest Mod For Maitreya
Background : FOXCITY. #MOOD Gacha - 5 - Staged (Common) @ Backdrop City
As I was editing this last night I was talking to two of my friends in SL that I consider family.
For me, family in SL has always been a difficult label to achieve. I've had families in the past and it's caused nothing but trouble - in fact, I'm still healing from one of my SL families, and that sounds insane to say for something that is supposed to be a game. However, these two friends of mine are my Glam-ma (Memaw) and Grandpa (Pepaw). I had a bit of a mental health revelation last night and just needed to talk, and luckily, these two beautiful souls were right there and listened.
Not only did they listen to me, but they also shared their own journeys, and they made me feel like I wasn't alone, as though I truly belonged around them, and like I could turn to them, no matter what.
I jokingly said that the photo above got all those feels edited into it, and the more I think about it, the better I feel like there couldn't be a more true statement. I feel like the Pickle shown in the picture is confident, loves and accepts herself, and those are feels that my 'family' confirmed. My grandpa actually asked me "What is your worth, Pickle?" and I answered "Well, I'm getting there, but I'm still working that out." and he said "No. You're priceless. That's how I see you, and that's how I want you to see yourself."
And now I'm gratefully sobbing into my keyboard at the unselfish show of love both of these beautiful humans managed to share with me last night and every time we speak.
I hope you find your tribe, Spoonies. They're out there, sometimes it just takes a minute to find them.
Hey, have you seen how interactive the Evani Skirt is? Ok, so it's also a reason to stare at my butt, but hello! How cool is this? It comes with a hud so you can black/whitelist the avatars you actually want to be able to use your skirt, or you can keep it public and let anyone lift the skirt. Kinda love it!
Not sure what's wrong with me today but I actually started setting this scene up before I went to bed last night, and now it's almost ridiculous o'clock and I've been doing this all day (I mean, I did also watch some random Ashton Kutcher film, and uh, cheese toastie my life away and stuffs, but yanno. Priorities). Also, stole Apple to be my obligatory blurred person who's really a person and not a mesh person who is also wearing a tarty dress so it doesn't look like i'm overdressed in the old persons club house pub. *breathes out*
ANYWAY, down below you can see more tones from the gorgeous new skin from Go&See called Eva, it's available at the mainstore and is exclusively for the Genus heads, howeverrrr! If you buy it at regular price, the skin costs 900L. If you're a member of the Go&See VIP group (which costs 50L to join), you get a massive discount on the skin and it'll only cost you 99L! BUT! You have to hurry, because the group is ONLY 50L until the end of the year!
Also, more specials is this absolutely stunning dress! It comes with a multitude of colours available in the hud, and it's a freaking group gift from Miss Chelsea! The Miss Chelsea group is 100L to join, and they come up with so many gifts plus leave the old ones out, it's well worth the fee.
Happy shopping, Spoonies!
xoxo
Shown are the tones Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy, Tan, Tropic and Choco!
Sometimes, mental health just creeps up on you and finally, for the first time in almost 10 years, I decided to distance myself from SL for a while.
Some of you will know that this is incredibly difficult for me. For a long time, SL has been somewhat of a crutch, but in recent months it's also become more of a beast in need of caging.
I can't help but see how SL is a boiling pot of people, all coming together to suit their own agendas, and in theory, that idea is beautiful. In reality, what seems we have discovered is that when our masks come off, humanity doesn't seem to care too much about others. We don't have the time to find ourselves, and we're all so hurt that hurting others is an easy alternative to focusing on our issues and building ourselves up. The society of validation has become ridiculous.. no one is responsible for your happiness other than yourself. I can't compete with social media likes, and I refuse to be one of the sheeples that incessantly kisses ass in order to become a someone.
This isn't linked JUST to SL and the internet, but the whole world is in a really crazy state of turmoil, and if you can't see it - I pity you the most.
I am tired.
We are ALL tired.
Plans for the future? Well, I'm going to continue to work on myself. I really do have everything I could possibly need in terms of material items and emotional support. I have a good group of friends that understand me and can kick my ass if needed, but will also lift me up and be legitimately proud of my accomplishments.
The whole idea of someone blowing smoke up my arse in order to make themselves feel better fills me with horror, and I can no longer be a party to allowing those people in my life.
I hope to continue to take a step back away from SL. I think it's going to be a very slow process, but I can see what a negative distraction it can become, and while I'm involved, I'd like my experiences to be filled with positivity, beauty and creativity.
Have a fantastic Wednesday, guys... and rest assured, although this may have been a bit of a downer to read, this is positive for me, and I hope it stirs something within you, too.
Car : --ANHELO-T04RD-17CGA :: christmas 2017 (red)
Meet Juniper!
You know that feeling when you meet someone who's brain works almost the same as yours, and who doesn't seem to care how bizarre and distracted by sparkles you are? That's Juni! I stole her, and now she's my new best friend!
Who knew some sarcastic gifs would be the start of a wonderful kinship!
She had a wonderful idea for us to do a post together - and it's always been something I've wanted, but being the creepy little derp I am, I've always struggled with approaching other bloggers for collaboration posts. Of course, once she'd given me her idea I ran away with it and took over because of the control freak in me. Thank you for allowing me that opportunity, Juni!
You can check out Juniper's take on our photo session >Here!!< We may be found in a slightly more silly state of undress in her photographs! *gasp!* Her credits will all be on her page, so check back regularly!!
Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet (Note : This head is on sale at 1000L for this weekend ONLY. Personally, I LOVE it. Well worth it if you want a different look, or can't afford the 5k price tag of a regularly priced mesh head. Also, she works with OMEGA!)
Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' - This is an old skin, made for the LAQ Trinity Head.
