So today I think I blew up the world a little bit...
I don't mean that in a bad way, but the more I blow up, the more I realize that this is what needs to be done to rebuild.
I need to be a little vague right now, until I've actually decided 100% how to approach my plans, but there's going to be a few changes to my blog, how I blog and probably the over-all look of my blog. I've spent a long time (almost 4 years) feeling like I don't belong, so rather than attempting to fit in to a community that hasn't really offered me any support other than the early access to events and the occasional promo of stores looking for bloggers, it's time for me to really, really blog for me - to practice what I preach.
I'm nearing my 1000th post. I think that'd be a great new start... there might be a short break in between there, but as I attempt to make a difference to my RL, it's time I address my SL too, especially if I want to use the platform in a far more healthy way.
I feel like this picture is a whole entire hashtag for my life. I'm literally exhausted from the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to sleep - and I barely do anything. I can't actually remember what it's like to get off my chair without groaning and today I left a mini tin of vaseline heating up to soften under my boob (shuttup don't act like you don't do that if you have bigger tiddies) for three whole hours because I legit forgot it was there.
I don't know where this murderous rampage idea came from, I swear I'm in a pretty good head space at the moment, and I don't feel like I need to be a violent lil shite... but when I saw how elegant and flow-y this gorgeous Narcisse dress is, I automatically saw this entire set up in my head.
I rather think of Pickle as the angel of death. Kinda beautiful and kinda scary, she'll hunt you down and tear you apart with her bare hands, without getting a drop of your blood on her dress.
Ok. I might have said too much, but still... I'm loving it!
xoxo
Also shown above is the gorgeous new Go&See Skin available in the January Powder Pack and these are the tones! Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy, Tan, Tropic, Cola and Choco!
Background : WR - sort of sci-fi (Animated with animare)
I almost forgot to write here today!
I've been watching the Shane Dawson youtube series on Jake Paul, and part of me wants to associate everything he's saying to 90% of SL (Sometimes, myself included!)
It's proving to be something I'm on the edge of my seat for, and I never really paid attention to the Paul Family or even "influencers" on youtube before quite recently.
Anywho. I have a long day ahead of me (I think) and I didn't sleep well last night - so check out the pretties I've found for this look below, and have an awesome day!
xoxo
“Will you walk into my parlour?” said the Spider to the Fly, 'Tis the prettiest little parlour that ever you did spy; The way into my parlour is up a winding stair, And I've a many curious things to show when you are there.”
- Mary Howlet
This is a theme I had been toying with since I found the Cureless eyes at previous round of Fifty Linden Fridays. I was slightly upset to realize they aren't add-on attachments, but in fact tattoo's/makeup - but they are so beautifully drawn, I am ultimately not disappointed.
Also, please please check out this beautiful skin from Lumae, I haven't been able to showcase it as well as I would like today, but I will definitely be wearing it again, as it is stunning!!
Once again I'm featuring the amazing Violin poses from Reve Obscura.
I think that because these poses resonated with me so hard, I needed to make them extra special in terms of fantasy and doing something different, so hence we have a crazy Centaur Pickle who seems to want to play the violin in the moonlight by the sea - because why the fudge not?
The pose itself is made for regular human avatars, which means from the tummy up I'm using the Violin pose. Technically the body I'm wearing isn't a horse, it's a deer (which is just as cute, obvs), and when you wear it, there's an AO that is automatically started, so of course, your arms wiggle around with your existing animations, but the newly acquired hooves will behave as though they have a life of their own. The raising up on the hind legs is part of that AO, so as you can imagine there was a little bit of timing involved in taking this picture!
Because of the nature of this outfit, I'm not doing regular grey background in-world type pictures today. That being said, have a peek at all the goodies below, so you can become your very own deer/centaur person thing!
When *R.O* showed a work in progress of his absolutely stunning set of poses, I internally screamed like an excited child at Disney.
Many moons ago, when I was just a wee slip of a lass, I was actually fairly decent at playing the Viola. Not many people seem to know what a Viola is, and the only way I can describe it is that it is bigger than a Violin, still held under the chin, and in regards to Orchestral situations, the Violas (being slightly more bass-like) would sit nearer to the Cellos than the Violins.
Back then, I was incredibly jealous of the Violin players. Not only did one of them get chosen as "First Violin" which essentially meant that special person would be second in command to the Conductor (that's the guy waving his stick around looking slightly crazy with his wig falling off if he gets really into it), but it also meant there were solo's and actual recognizable tunes that they were often responsible for. As a Viola player, it was rare (in Orchestral terms) I would get anything fancy to play, and I was always slightly butthurt by that.
However, other than wanting to be a Violin player because of my teenage jealousy, I had a few absolutely wonderful experiences. I was lucky enough to do a small (like, extremely small) tour of Barcelona (where I bought a Real Madrid football shirt, and got chased along a beach by a naked Spaniard), played at the Royal Festival Hall and the Barbican Centre in London and made a few friends that I'll never forget.
In other news, *R.O* stated that this pose set was inspired by Lindsey Stirling. As an artist, she is visually and aurally stunning, and my picture today was loosely based upon her amazing "First Light" video - which I have included below for you to peek at. Please do peek. Please!
For the longest time I thought that SL was all I could do. I mean, I'm not an expert at it, but I've been using it for like, 10 years, which is almost forever. Of course, this isn't my original avatar and there's been several incarnations of 'Pickle' but she's pretty much the longest serving avatar I've had, minus an old *cough* work av *cough* and my child avatar who's just always been a kid (We'll maybe step into the child world sometime, but for now, yes, I have one, no, she's not a pervert and luckily I've not encountered much of that gross crap during her 9 year existence.) I've always wanted to try other games. I've joined in with people doing things for very brief periods - WoW, LoL, Rocket League, Tera, Final Fantasy... that's just a few I've dipped my toe into.
For me, it was never about the game itself (although I do have to be able to 'invest' something into it), but more to do with the people I played with. If they had an interest, it was far easier for me to ease myself into it too. Unfortunately, I'd never met anyone with the patience to actually be like "Hey, you're doing alright.. try this!" which meant that often times I'd make a fool of myself and get told off by some non-noobalicious person in-game and feel like poop and just stop playing all together. I need the motivation of good people, basically, or at least a slight knowledge of how the thing works, through experience.
THIS IS WHERE THE SAP STARTS. Feel free to scroll where necessary lol.
I've never been one to sit and write down a bunch of feels. It's awkward, and I always wonder how genuine it makes me appear, but even with that anxious part of me going "Pickle, this is a terrible idea" another part of me wants to explain the inner workings of uh, well, me.
I've said before that having a positive person in my life has changed me immensely, and the whole playing games thing has changed with it. I can't tell you how lovely it is for someone like me, with all my foibles and weird little quirks to be able to nuzzle into someone so completely tuned in to me, some who squirrels away all the little details I vent/rant/cry/talk about and make all the things actually feel like all the things. His encouragement is a brand new kind of encouragement for me, and it's amazing and wonderful and brilliant and bright.
He's encouraged me to pick up other games, and will contentedly and patiently walk me through even when I'm having my stompy-feet-I-can't-do-it moments.
And it's not just games, either. He's in my head telling me I can do the basics too!
When I'm having a bad day, he's there to say "It's ok."
When I'm having a good day, he'll tell me "I like hearing you smile!"
It's little things, tiny gestures that have always been missing. That I've done for others and they've fallen by the wayside, and linking back to the post I did about "Learning how to love each other", I feel like I've met someone who completely links in to how to love ME. I just hope I can do the same back, because I do not want this one to go anywhere.
Ok. I'm done. Listen to the song today... it made me tear up. <3
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I gotta learn how to do this properly, but the bento arms from aii MOVE. The upper and lower versions are optional, and connect to different parts of your anatomy so they're constantly moving independently of each other. The 'balls' *giggles foolishly* and shawl are also optional. Seriously, go demo these. They're kinda pricey at 1000L, but I think they're WELL worth it.
