Waiting on the sun.

Pose : PM . Ayana 4

Background : FOXCITY K-POP Star 2. (1) You Think

Making this fairly quick today, because I can. :P

I've been thinking about choices, and what goes into our making them. I'm not very good at decision making, and while it's true that to some extent I thrive on the dramatic, making choices leaves me with funny feelings in my tummy, and not in a good way all the time - especially if they're important.

Since I've been told I have Borderline Personality Disorder, I've become far more aware of my impulses. I'm incredibly wary as to what I do, and when, and how - because I want to be sure that I'm making the RIGHT choice. But then I overthink that, too, and end up wavering in the grey area until finally I eeny meanie miney mo, and jump right in impulsively anyway.

Anywho. It's Saturday! Have an amazing weekend and make the right choices! :P

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : #Boataom :: Lisa Genus Applier

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Glasses : .random.Matter. - Moonbul Glasses 

Hair : :::Phoenix::: Mishon Hair for FaMESHed Go

Bodysuit : Pixel Geek - Milo Bodysuit * Maitreya #23 @ PocketGacha

Jacket : Pseudo- Trucker Jacket Light @ Kustom9

Shoes : #EMPIRE - Fennel @ The Fetish Fair

Wild.

Pose : *!R.O!* Ready BENTO Pose 

Scythe :{-Maru Kado-} Skull Scythe @ TMD

Location : Whole Wheat Landscape & Creations

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : #Boataom :: Lisa Genus Applier

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes 

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus - Jon Hair @ TMD

Patch, Black horns & Earring : [Cubic Cherry]  Niico gacha @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Gold Horns : Violetility - Pharaoh's Legacy Gacha, - Khnum Horns @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Collar, Pauldron, Top & Bottoms : PNB - Dreadful Queen Gacha [Dark Metal] @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Gauntlets, Knee Plate, Boots, Hands, Upper legs & Wings : TSC-Battle Duelist  RARE @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Casual easy.

Pose : FOXCITY. Legs for Days-3

Background : Apple Fall Un Salon de Jardin
Apple Fall Liberty Sketchbook

{moss&mink} Tufted ottoman @ Uber
{moss&mink} Bailey coffee table - Dark @ Uber
{moss&mink} Felt flower wallpiece @ Uber

Culprit Hacienda Bench @ The Liaison Collaborative
Culprit Hacienda Rug @ The Liaison Collaborative
Culprit Religeous Experience @ The Liaison Collaborative

crate Famila Ranch Set ~ Rug @ The Liaison Collaborative
crate Famila Ranch Set ~ Reclaimed Milk Jugs ~ Rosarita Farms @ The Liaison Collaborative

{vespertine}- aloe vera plant.

Cat Playing - Mesh - Full Perm >Here<

Little Branch_Sunflowers{Field}

I've been rocking my Genus head again for a few days, and while it's still technically in Beta and not released publicly again yet, it has been updated to omega, so I've been experimenting with hairbases, make-ups and other cool bits and pieces. I've worked out that most Logo appliers will work for the head, and that's due to the fact that Logo is omega based.

In other news, I've been really stinking lucky this week, and been invited to three new blogger teams. Now, I don't really know how or why this happened, but I was obviously over the moon when I was approached by the blogger managers for Culprit, Hextraordinary and The Enchantment event.

I don't like making a big song and dance over 'sponsorships' across social media, because I know how it feels to watch someone get a spot you were really hoping for, and while there's always going to be a "Yay congrats!" to them, my stomach does sometimes do a flip flop and make me wonder why I wasn't 'enough' to join that particular team.

The truth is, there are many reasons as to why you are or aren't selected for a team. I still feel like I'm not a 'real' blogger. I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable being all "Yeah, hi. I'm Pickle, and I'm a blogger." I have so much to learn, and there are so many different ways to present items... I just hope I do those who put their trust in me justice, and am terribly grateful to those who have supported my ramblings and pictures thus far.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : #Boataom :: Lisa Genus Applier

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes
Eyeshadow : Veechi - Lush Tropic Shadow (Logo Version)
Blush & Freckles : Veechi - Sunkissed Cheeks (Logo Version)
Hair : RAMA.SALON - Cherry Hair
Sunflower : Beusy: Citrus Sunflower *(From the hair)
Lollipop : .LeLutka Lol Bee Bop @ Mesh Body Addicts
Tattoo : THIS IS WRONG Boho tattoo
Tank : .miss chelsea. Alva Tank For the Saturday Sale (Still available in store!)
Shorts : _CandyDoll_ Kala - Jeans
Sandals : REIGN.- HUNTINGTON SANDALS

The first page.

Pose : FOXCITY. Formal VOL1-2m

Background items : A selection of noms from [V/W] Nobility Delights @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

dust bunny . wanderlust . blanket ladder (Gacha)

hive // hay bale w/blanket

Are you ready for the Fantasy Gacha Carnival? 

Tonight (6th August) at Midnight SLT, the doors open and you can shop! I'm always excited for this event, because it brings to light the importance of roleplay and fantasy in the SL community.

The theme of this round is Royalty, and as usual, you can grab more details including a list of designers, bloggers and a shopping guide > Here <

I've skipped the grey pictures again, I guess I'm becoming a member of TeamLazy lately, but I have added a close up of the gorgeous necklace and nails i'm wearing, so that you can see the details in those.

By the way, has anyone seen my Handsome Prince anywhere?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : #Boataom :: Lisa Genus Applier

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes 

Hair : TRUTH VIP Yuko (VIP Group Gift)

Necklace : Bliensen + MaiTai - Principessa - Necklace @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Dress : SMD Lady Penelope Gown Set-Gown & SMD Lady Penelope Gown Set-Overskirt @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Nails  & Rings : [VO.Z] Butterfly Dream Nails & [VO.Z] Thorns Rose Bento Rings @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

First light.

Pose : *!R.O!* Violin BENTO Pose 2 (Set comes with Violin & Bow, not shown)

Violin & Bow : [GW] Skull Violin Moonstone 

Location : Yorkshire

When *R.O* showed a work in progress of his absolutely stunning set of poses, I internally screamed like an excited child at Disney. 

Many moons ago, when I was just a wee slip of a lass, I was actually fairly decent at playing the Viola. Not many people seem to know what a Viola is, and the only way I can describe it is that it is bigger than a Violin, still held under the chin, and in regards to Orchestral situations, the Violas (being slightly more bass-like) would sit nearer to the Cellos than the Violins.

Back then, I was incredibly jealous of the Violin players. Not only did one of them get chosen as "First Violin" which essentially meant that special person would be second in command to the Conductor (that's the guy waving his stick around looking slightly crazy with his wig falling off if he gets really into it), but it also meant there were solo's and actual recognizable tunes that they were often responsible for. As a Viola player, it was rare (in Orchestral terms) I would get anything fancy to play, and I was always slightly butthurt by that.

However, other than wanting to be a Violin player because of my teenage jealousy, I had a few absolutely wonderful experiences. I was lucky enough to do a small (like, extremely small) tour of Barcelona (where I bought a Real Madrid football shirt, and got chased along a beach by a naked Spaniard), played at the Royal Festival Hall and the Barbican Centre in London and made a few friends that I'll never forget.

In other news, *R.O* stated that this pose set was inspired by Lindsey Stirling. As an artist, she is visually and aurally stunning, and my picture today was loosely based upon her amazing "First Light" video - which I have included below for you to peek at. Please do peek. Please!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara 

Gold Arm : CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Dolly Arm  / RARE @ Epiphany

Gold Leg : CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Dolly Leg @ Epiphany

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE 3.0

Skin : #Boataom :: Albina AF Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Downer Eyes (ESSENTIALS) /RARE/ @ Epiphany

Freckles : Head - [theSkinnery] Freckles! 

Body - Izzie's - Body Freckles II 

Face Stars : ..miss chelsea. Gaia Face Stars @ Epiphany

Ears : ^^Swallow^^  Pixie Ears 

Earrings : e.marie // Feather Earrings - White @ N21

Hair & Hairbase : Tableau Vivant  \\ Braidy (curly) & .Tableau Vivant  \\ Lelutka HB11 (Gacha)

Collar :  CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Doll Choker @ Epiphany

Bodysuit : .Enfant Terrible. May Bodysuit From a former Bound Box

Human foot : Slink Avatar Enhancement Feet Deluxe 

Premonition.

Pose : <K&S> I'm Sorry I'm Gone. @ Dubai

Background : FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Two Minds. Black @ Limit8

A couple'a few items here today. Very quickly showing you the undies available in the CandyDoll Epiphany gacha - I have plans to showcase more of this gorgeous set in the not-too-distant future.

Also a few lovely Dappathings! Once again, completely amazed by his work, I'm convinced it gets more detailed and better quality with every tattoo he produces.

xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - TANK 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skrell

Eyes : -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Facial Hair : Y-U: JORDAN 

Face & Neck Tattoo : DAPPA - Aces Face Tattoo. @ Man Cave

Chest Tattoo : DAPPA - Dagon Tattoo. @ Men Only Monthly

Pants : [ VERSOV ] STEFOV_JEANS

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE 3.0

Skin : #Boataom :: Albina AF Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Downer Eyes (ESSENTIALS) /RARE/ @ Epiphany

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pyramid Ears

Freckles : Head - [theSkinnery] Freckles! 

Body - Izzie's - Body Freckles II 

Hair : little bones. Tara 

Lingerie : _CandyDoll_ Amada Pink Bra & _CandyDoll_ Amada Pink Panties (Gacha) @ Epiphany

Tattoo : DAPPA - GRLPWR Tattoo. @ Access

Can't stay.

Pose : *!R.O!* Holding On BENTO Pose

Background & Props : {moss&mink} Deep Desires @ Epiphany

Includes :{moss&mink} Deep Desires - Toys Shelf (Black)

{moss&mink} Deep Desires - Twinkle Gems (Red)

{moss&mink} Deep Desires - Art Print (3)

{moss&mink} Deep Desires - Gothicorn Buttplug

I'm visualizing here. It's a technique I've picked up from my hours of netflixing, youtubing and generally attempting to think positively about life.

The idea of visualizing is seeing yourself in the future, doing the thing you love. Having the relationships you want. Finding the contentment you long for.

 Although I'm not heavily into D/s I do believe in a lot of the values that come along with it.. and believe that there are certain things that should be discussed before taking any sort of relationship to a next level. 

Honesty. Respect. Consent. Loyalty. Commitment.

Those are just five words we often throw around without much thought, and without thinking through the consequences. Much like D/s those words mean different things to different people, and it's important to understand where your partner is coming from when you're making decisions.

So often, I see facebook posts from people who have thrown themselves into new relationships and have opened themselves up too quickly, backing down on what they want because someone has shown them a form of affection that they might be able to understand and identify. So many times I watch as the same patterns emerge - patterns that my own relationships have mirrored - and it breaks my heart that the people involved - beautiful people, capable and worthy of love and loving, are hurt because they haven't taken the time to really get to know the person they coupled with.

So, my Pickle-ism for the day is take your time.

Hopefully, I'll take my own advice next time, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE 3.0

Skin : #Boataom :: Albina AF Lelutka Applier 

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Downer Eyes (ESSENTIALS) /RARE/ @ Epiphany

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf HD

Hair : +Spellbound+ Viper @ The Chapter 4

Collar : {moss&mink} Deep Desires - Collar @ Epiphany

Tattoo : DAPPA - Zagan Tattoo. @ Equal10

Cuffs : {moss&mink} Deep Desires - Cuffs @ Epiphany

Panties : BBD - SAVANNAH Lingerie

Can't keep up.

Pose : FOXCITY. Melancholy-7

Background : wr - the tiles need fixing 

There is so much brain activity going on in my head right now I'm kind of struggling to function.

This is amplified by the fact I've managed to completely screw up my sleep schedule! I'm mad at myself, but I know this is just me taking a step backwards before starting off onto my whole "New Pickle" regime again. 

I've been joking lately that I'm going through an entire mid-life crisis. I feel like maybe I'm a little bit young to actually have a mid-life crisis, but then I remember that I'm only 19 in my head, and maybe it's completely appropriate to feel like a post-pubescent teenager again, 19 years later. (shh. I'm old ok?)

Ideally, I would use this time to buy a brand new car (preferably something fancy - and red. A Porche convertible, because it is Summer here, after all.) and then I remember I can't drive, so that goes out of the window. I'd also like a toy-boy... but only in theory. I've figured out that toy-boys are lovely to look at, but I don't game, don't like anime, and get tired of innuendos fairly quickly, so I reckon I'll just stick with single-dom until the crisis subsides!

I hope your Friday outlook is bright - don't forget to grab your 50L friday goodies! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : #Boataom :: Lisa Genus Applier '@ Tres Chic

Head & Eyes: GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Eye Applier : Go&See * Babe * Genus Project Eyes @ Chapter 4

Hair : *barberyumyum*P01

Collar :  NamiiChu ~ Runa Bell Collar.@ RLD

Lingerie : AsteroidBox. Ursa Lingerie @ RLD

Nails : (NO) French Tip Mesh Nails

Rings : (Yummy) Curator Rings Set 

Cardigan : [Cynful] Fuzzy Cardigan 

Boots : #EMPIRE  - Bertram @ FaMESHed