Bag : NS:: Belty Trip Backpack @ A+ Event - Note! This backpack comes with straps and is designed to be worn on your back! I photoshopped the arms out. It also comes with a couple of super cute poses, so check it out!
So I had a rant yesterday, but you'll be pleased to know I'm feeling much better today... less bitter and whole lot refreshed and ready to provide some beautiful products from some wonderful creators.
I know I've used this pose before, but it really was perfect. As I was getting ready for this picture, my friend Apple told me "You look like a confused college student, that's there to study rather than party" so, I ran with that for a minute and grabbed some props, until Apple was ready to continue the story to it's thrilling climax.. " But you also want to save the hedgehogs, and the rally is on the same day as your final exam, and you need to pass it or you'll flunk the year, and have to redo it again, but that's just what your nemesis wants, the cool girl from the top table, she's even gone as far as getting someone to let the tires down on your car, so you have to run, hence the sneakers"
I had a really, really vivid dream last night. It was so detailed and so much like a movie, that when I was woken up by my alarm (yes, it's Sunday, but fudge, I'm trying to be normal!), I knew how it should have ended. I knew the characters backstories. I knew how they'd gotten to the point I was at when I was disturbed.
It floored me a little, and I remember reading about Stephen King, who is meant to write about his nightmares and a part of me wondered if I should be doing the same.
This wasn't a nightmare, but there were parts that could have been horror/thriller.
I'm considering trying to take an SL Picture to encompass my dream, and maybe I'll tell you more about it in the future. In the meantime, have some pretties from Miss Chelsea, Breathe & Dappa.
I've had this idea in my head for so ages, but finding a pose was exceptionally difficult... and then when i found the pose, the tree that came with it was all sorts of weird, and i had to resize a massive landscaping tree and OMG all the random oddness. Haha.
Anywho, Durex is back... HURRAY!! I gotta admit I really love how he looks in this! I have no idea why he's shirtless in the cold - some people are just bonkers, and as he's technically me I feel like this goes without saying.
I've used some mesh peoples in this picture, and the inspiration behind that comes from someone who's pictures I often admire from afar. Geena Carminucci can be found on flickr and on her blog. I thoroughly believe in giving credit where it's due, and if you don't know this amazingly talented lady's work, where the fuck have you been and what are you doing with your life?
I loveeee my facebook at the moment. So much absolute positivity, amazingly talented people sharing their artwork and general a feeling of love and community, and even though I'll always be a bit of a weird loner, I will ALWAYS long for more of these feels.
Merry Christmas, ya filthy Spoonies (make this a thing, love it, pls).
This picture was inspired 100% by the absolutely adorable Culprit FuzzyWuzzy!!
Culprit currently has a storewide sale going on, so for a while you can grab this gorgeously fuzzy, cuddly kitty for 50L.. along with some equally as amazing items. The sale is in order to provide the Culprit creators with a brand new roof for their house, and in light of the recent forays into go-fund-me's and other awkward fundraisers, in my opinion this is beneficial for everyone. Low-cost, quality SL items which will equate to real life help. Shop your little hearts out, grab some unique Holiday gifts and have a blast in the process. Lovely jubbly!
Peaches - A Raven's Feast Hot Chocolate Bar @ FaMESHed (Note - this is part of a Collaboration between Moss&Mink & Peaches, and I've currently only included the Peaches collection. Keep your eyes peeled for the Moss&Mink part in the future!)
Includes : A Raven's Feast - Chalk Board
A Raven's Feast - Chocolate Chips
A Raven's Feast - Cinnamon Sugar
A Raven's Feast - Cup Stand
A Raven's Feast - Side Table (Includes variations with draped blankets)
A Raven's Feast - Straws
A Raven's Feast - Syrups
A Raven's Feast - Whipped Cream
A Raven's Feast - Hot Chocolate Dispenser (Includes colour variations)
A Raven's Feast - Marshmellows
I'm a pretty proud person, and sometimes in the past, my pride has definitely gotten in the way of me making progress both in SL & RL.
Today I questioned myself, and whether my pride was a reason I haven't excelled as far as I would have liked in terms of blogging and/or Photography.
My main reason for beginning this journey was to prove to someone else I could do it MY way. I feel like I've done that, but honestly, it's unlikely that they even notice, let alone care, that I am still blogging three years later.
However, along the way I discovered a passion for photography (still in progress!), and when I finally felt like I could maybe write occasionally in my blog, I discovered it to be a fabulous form of therapy and far better to help me find myself than the professionals I've seen (shh, I'm broken!).
There are a few things I get frustrated at when I speak about "SL Bloggers", and those are assumptions made. I've seen a lot of it, and in certain circles these assumptions are most definitely prevalent, read on for my feelings on the nonsense!
a. Bloggers only want free shit.
* In my world, I love free shit. However, I don't want free shit I feel I am undeserving of, or free shit that I don't absolutely adore. It took me three months of (almost) daily blogging to even consider reaching out to creators for sponsorship, because I wanted to be taken seriously and even now, I only apply to stores that I genuinely love. I have been asked to blog for a couple of stores and events too, and that's always ALWAYS incredibly flattering. I'm lucky enough to feel like I'm at a point where I can decide whether that particular store or event has the quality I want to showcase in my 'work'.
b. Bloggers only make friends with creators they want free shit from.
* I have never made friends with someone purely to become a someone in their life to forward my blog, myself, or for any reason other than friendship. Three years into my blog, and I feel like I'm only genuine friends with maybe three creators. I have respect and admiration for the others, and while I won't throw away a future friendship with anyone, I will never approach someone for personal gain. It IS something I witness often though, but it works both ways, and when you're in any type of community it makes sense that you would hang out more with people that are inside that community with you, and that's cool... but I think sometimes it gets forgotten that there are people outside of these groups that still have a pull or an audience just as important as the 'clique'.
c. All bloggers are snobs.
* Let's be honest, I have my moments! I will however be polite and respectful so long as I feel that is being reciprocated. I am only human and I have no doubt I have a reputation of being a bit stand-offish, but that's not a reflection of anyone else but far more because like almost everyone who has been in SL for an extended period of time, I have been bitten more times than I can count. I am far more introverted than I have ever been, and getting me to open up or to be comfortable in anyone's company is a challenge, especially when I feed off energies and again, people have perceptions of who you should be based on what they have heard.
There's probably many more assumptions I haven't addressed, but this was getting a bit long!
Anyway.
Back to my original point of being prideful... I don't think I am -currently- being proud, if constructive criticism was ever offered, I would most definitely be up for a discussion and I much prefer that to mindlessly blowing smoke up my ass!
I would rather progress frustratingly slow, than throw myself at people to be a fake version of myself simply for a broader audience and "better" content. The current sponsors I have are fantastic - and trust me, there's been a couple of nightmares, but mostly I feel like I have been extremely lucky!
I hope that I have found my moral compass in regards to the way I want to behave, be seen, and the presence I want to have in other people's lives.
Background Wolfie (on an alt) : (HYBRIDERA) - The Lunar (This is legit SO OLD it's still prims! Not sure if it's been updated, but for the sake of this picture, it worked perfectly.)
Obviously, Pickle is Little Red, running from the Big Bad Wolf hiding in the distance. Naturally, the other woodland creatures (including goats, because there has to be a woodland somewhere with them, ok?) are running like feck too! No one wants to become dinner for Wolfie!
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I'm using the facial expression hud "Axis" by LeLutka and it's AHMAYYYZING!
I tried to apologize to someone today for a misunderstanding, and rather than it making things better, I managed to make things worse.
It just reminded me that sometimes, although you're ready to say what you need, the other person may not be ready to hear it, or accept it. Sometimes, their perception of you has been so distorted from someone else's perspective, it's just not worth the hassle, and everything you do will be considered as yet another bad move, even when your intentions are good.
Therefore, I will learn to apologize and then shut up.
I can't make people like me, and those that do deserve my time more than those I need to convince.
Pose (Edited slightly) : #5 <K&S> Him & I. pose 3 (Gacha)
I'm really not in a very good place today. I'm okay. I'm just sad.
I've always had trouble making and maintaining friendships. A lot of that is due to my being a hard-headed, stubborn and opinionated Pickle, and I know I'm not for everyone... but it makes me crazy when I step back and actually figure out that a lot of the problem is that I'm just incapable of accepting people as-is, rather than looking at them in terms of potential.
Yesterday, I spoke to a woman who reminded me of a very toxic person who was in my life for 2-3 years on and off. She kind of reamed him a new asshole, but the only thing I could think of was how sad I was that I couldn't make him a better man. Trust me - he was horrible. He manipulated me on more than one occasion by pretending to be someone else, cheated on me and told me on Christmas, made me wait for him for 6 hrs on my birthday and was generally just a butthead... but there was a part of me that wanted so desperately to make him good, to have him understand that people need kindness, and I thought that by accepting him, flaws and all, I would be able to do that. I was wrong.
I know this makes me sound like a martyr, but there's been many times where I have pushed the 'right' people away because of a bad situation I was in.. I'm not perfect in the slightest.
I just feel like right now, I've gotten to the point where my little bubble is shrinking rapidly. and as much as I would love to allow every single human into it, I'm incapable. I've become more difficult to please, and while this might seem like a good thing, that i'm picking people who fit me and MY needs right now to stay, it also makes me feel incredibly sad because it's like a part of me wants to give the whole world the benefit of the doubt, and because I'm me, I can't.
Again, not sure where this is going. I suppose I'm just venting, rather than hoping any of this makes sense.
xoxo
I've been a little lapse in terms of the Photo Challenge stuffs, and I have no excuse really, except for the fact I'm a lazy bastid sometimes, and this might just be one of those times haha.
