Nothing really matters but...

Pose : FOXCITY. Breezy-2

Before I go to sleep, I like to Youtube. I have a pretty select number of channels that I actually enjoy, from your generic make-up artists to more newsy type things, and sometimes even a good ol' conspiracy.

I was watching Philip DeFranco last night, he's a news type dude, but will give you the facts then if necessary he'll give you his opinion. I like this a lot. He seems fair, he doesn't appear to have an agenda, and I've been finding out some really cool shit about the world that I'd never have known before, because the mainstream news just makes me want to punch kittens through boredom.

Last night he mentioned how Instagram was going to start making likes on their posts less visible in order to raise the quality of content people were posting, and my dead little heart SOARED. THIS. This whole principle is exactly why I am planning a break, to distance myself from the "Likes = quality content" crap surrounding blogging and photography. I want to bring content to readers/viewers of my blog that adds something to their lives, whether that surrounds RL mental health issues and my perspectives, or something in SL that bugs me. I want to be slightly more informational, maybe more pictures indicating the quality of the product i'm blogging, maybe a feature on a sim, maybe more close ups and definitely more informational vlogs, which will hopefully increase in quality the more I practice!

My opinions will be broadcast even more. So if you don't like this part of my blogging, you can totally skip over it (probably like you already do, right?) and if you do, well you're gonna be in for a treat! 

The other advantage of me stepping away from the Likes debacle, will hopefully mean that I don't value the opinions of strangers on my work, and this external validation that I feel necessary will deplete. I know I'm decent at what I do, and if that makes me a big headed, entitled cowbag, I'll take that title. I know I 'deserve' things that other people are getting, but I also know that as much as I deserve what other people are getting, so do many many bloggers and photographers that are far better than I am, so why not just take that whole 'competition' aspect I feel from blogging away, and turn it back into what it should be, what it has been in the past, and what I love... a place I can show my style, give information and overall have some bloody fun.

Just today by taking away the "Omg I gotta" aspect from my photo, I feel like I encapsulated a side of the Pickle avatar that had been long forgotten, and it came easily. 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Original)

Skin : . MILA . Neave Skin [Honey] GENUS 

Eyes : Veechi - Foxy Eyes @ UBER

Eyeliner :  Veechi  - Basic Glossy Liner

Hair : -FABIA-<Vitalina> @ The Gacha Garden 

Necklace : MINIMAL - Camera Necklace *Gold*

Shirt : evani. Polly ribbed dress @ Collabor88

Do what you do.

Pose, Lightsaber & Debris : *!R.O!* Force BENTO Pose 

Location : Mother Road - Mirage Motel 66 - Public

So today I think I blew up the world a little bit...

I don't mean that in a bad way, but the more I blow up, the more I realize that this is what needs to be done to rebuild.

I need to be a little vague right now, until I've actually decided 100% how to approach my plans, but there's going to be a few changes to my blog, how I blog and probably the over-all look of my blog. I've spent a long time (almost 4 years) feeling like I don't belong, so rather than attempting to fit in to a community that hasn't really offered me any support other than the early access to events and the occasional promo of stores looking for bloggers, it's time for me to really, really blog for me - to practice what I preach.

I'm nearing my 1000th post. I think that'd be a great new start... there might be a short break in between there, but as I attempt to make a difference to my RL, it's time I address my SL too, especially if I want to use the platform in a far more healthy way.

xoxo

All the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Kittia

Skin : Catwa Skin applier - Peach - Snow (Enfer Sombre*)

Eyes : LOTUS. Humanity Eyes @ The Gacha Garden 

Hair : -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Passion> @ Dubai Event

Mask : CURELESS [+] Procedure Mask / VINYL WHITE CLEAR

Bodysuit : evani. Alice bow bodysuit @ Uber

Arm : [omnis]  BlackWidow/2 
Shoes : [BREATHE]-Mayuko Heels-@ Uber

Build it up, tear it down.

Uh. I forgot to note the pose again. Sorry. 

I was wondering today, at what point does a conversation go from being a conversation between two adults, to somehow delving into drama? 

Nothing has happened to me, so no need to be concerned or to start ruminating on who Pickle's gotten into a conflict with... calm yer loins dear Spoonies!

But literally 80% of the 'drama' I have had in Second Life has been me saying "Hey, I don't like that. It made me feel this way." and another party going "Well don't you get your drama panties in a twist drama llama, if you don't like this dramatic thing, it's all your dramatic fault."

Now this can be people I've known for years and years (but mostly not, because by that point we've gotten a rapport about accepting the other has feelings, apologizing for whatever we've said or at least discussing it so we understand where the other is coming from), or it is, more likely, someone I have known for days.

Is it really a case of "You're too sensitive, Pickle!" or is it more of a case of any time someones REAL feelings get bought into SL and it's not related to the happy endorphin filled feeling of love or lust, or want or need, it's suddenly backpedal backpedal pushaway?

I realize to some this might sound like I'm one of those people who get offended all the damn time, but I've reached a point in my life where I can accept that different people have thought processes that don't match mine. If you can provide a logical reason as to why you believe something that I find morally wrong, I'll probably come around to the fact that you have a point, but I'll still believe what I want to believe with a greater understanding of the other side. I have friends of all walks of life with very, very different beliefs, Muslims, Christians, Catholics, Trump supporters, Transgender, Gay, Straight, Male, Female, Black, White and Brown. I legitimately have no issues with -people- I have issues with their interpretations of dramatic. But ultimately, I'm responsible for my own feelings... and that too is something I need to remember.

If you're wrong, take accountability and just fess up. Hell, even if you're not wrong, if you've upset someone APOLOGIZE, meaningfully and allow the beautiful parts of that potential friendship to blossom, or walk away with a lighter heart and less of a headache.

xoxo

I thought I'd show you a back view of the pretty hair from Fabia available at the Gacha Garden.

The bow has it's very own hud and you can choose between some solid colours and a few beautiful patterns. Loving this hairstyle so hard!

The Candy Skin from Revoul is available in six tones. RE05, RE10, RE15, RE20, RE25 and RE30. I've chosen to wear RE10 in my main picture today!

It also has six candy coloured lipsticks and a shape, not blogged, so make sure you run over and go demo all the pretties! 

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Shape : Kaleidoscope : Revolution Shape.

Skin : Lefort by Revoul.Candy Catwa Applier @ Equal10

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : LOTUS. Humanity Eyes @ The Gacha Garden (Opens 1st May)

Ears : L'Etre - Pure mesh ears 

Hair : -FABIA-<Vita> @ The Gacha Garden (Opens 1st May)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Chris Tattoo.@ A+ Event

Top : +MB+ Ellie Top @ Level Event (opens 30th April)

Remember the light.

Pose : Imitation - Kitty 1 C

Things : *HEXtraordinary* Angelfish Aquarium (Gacha) @ The Gacha Garden

{anc} flower wind 

[ keke ] secrets garden flower

Hi! I'm a mermaid!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3

Skin : [Glam Affair] Maewe Applier @ Uber

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Pixie Ears 

Hair : Tableau Vivant \\ Editorial \ Bent over - Funky (Gacha)

Pasties : {LP} -  Mermaid  Top

Tattoo : MoonPhase MermaidHentai_JustScales_Blue_ 

Shorts : +MB+ MyMermaid Shorts 

Get to you.

Pose : Imitation - Kitty 2 B

Background/Props :  .:Tm:.Creation Store [The Ancient] Nature Scene @ The Secret Affair

Studio Skye Enchanted Woods v2 

The Secret Affair has opened it's doors to celebrate the festival of Lupercalia. I didn't originally know what this was, so thanks to google (again, and honestly as much as I love books I don't miss giant encyclopedias) I found out that it's basically a celebration similar to that of Valentines day, but much, much gorier. I don't really wanna go into details about what I found out, but if you're interested you should research it and relish the gory all for yourself! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : . MILA . Neave Skin 

Eyes : LOTUS. Unhappy Eyes @ The Gacha Garden

Hair ; Blues. Minky - Night (Gacha)

Headpiece : *LODE* Head Accessory - Bagatiba Crown [yellow] (Gacha)

Fur wrap : ::Static:: Body Boa @ The Secret Affair

Precious disguise.

Face made using the Lelutka Axis hud!

Once again today, I'm feeling a little weird, so take a look at the pretties on offer from Dappa, Lotus and Muggleborn!

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : . MILA . Neave Skin 

Eyes : LOTUS. Unhappy Eyes @ The Gacha Garden

Face Tattoo : DAPPA - Brute Marks. @ Unik Event (Opens Feb 7th)

Ears : :Lg: - :Mesh Ears: - 

Earrings : Peaches.- Lunar Hang Tag Earring 

Hair : tram H0414 hair

Horns : Lovely Disarray - Sketched Hellion Horns

Choker : +MB+ Teeny Choker 

Body Tattoo : DAPPA - Daddy's Scars

Legends and myths.

Pose : FOXCITY Play Ball-4

I was so excited about these fairies from HEXtraordinary that I absolutely had to grab them immediately. 

There are a few different colours and options - shoulder sitters, companions, rezzables and the cute lil fae's that are 'trapped' in the bottles. I like to think these are naughty fairies, and they deserve to be there, because why would anyone want to trap such an adorable fantastical fairy.

So, in other news, last night I may have had a small glass of wine or uh, maybe an entire bottle.

I'm not a big drinker, and after one glass (diluted, too, because I'm a complete lightweight), I was definitely feeling the effects.

One of the reasons I dislike drinking is because secretly I might be a bit of a control freak. I don't want to fall into the trap of feeling as though the person I am is dependent on something as fickle as alcohol. It IS a depressant, and I know from experience of working in pubs and of course drinking in my youth (shh, most of us did that), that alcohol has a different way of altering your personality depending on the way you're feeling at the time. I've also been privy to a couple of people who have over-used alcohol as an escape.

Like everything, I suppose it's best used in moderation, and although I had a lovely time with some SL friends, I don't want to repeat the experience too often.

Have a beautiful weekend!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin (Head) : Not Found - Sophie Skin @ Cosmopolitan

Skin (Body) : [theSkinnery] Body Applier

Eyes : Go&See* Babe * Genus Project Eyes

Hair : [monso] My Hair - Shiranui @ FaMESHed

Headpiece : *LODE* Head Accessory - Kiku Big Crown [tuscan] RARE Not sure where this is from as it was a gift!

Fairies : *HEXtraordinary* Faerie Maidens Gacha @ Gacha Garden

Shirt : Jeune by Rowne.Candice Crop Top (50% off sale!!)

Skirt : *{Junbug}* Olenna Skirt 

Daydreaming.

Pose : FOXCITY. Portrait-5

Enchantment is still going strong, and the talented creators are continuing to astound me with the ways they bring to life the story of the Frog Prince.

Today I'm featuring some beautiful hair (with crown included) from Love, an absolutely gorgeous tattoo from Ivory & Rose, and of course the stunning bento rings rigged for Maitreya, Belleza and Slink from Elle Boutique.

I've paired these up with the halter from Narcisse that is available at August's Vanity Event, check the pics below to see how pretty it is from the back, too!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : L'Etre Skin Shop - Isabela Skin 

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY @ Mesh Body Addicts

Eyes : LeLutka Eyes.May 3.0

Eye Applier : Lotus. Mushy Eyes @ Gacha Garden

Hair : Love [Crown] @ Enchantment

Tattoo : I&R just one kiss @ Enchantment

Halter : -Narcisse- Beaumont Halter @ Vanity

Rings : Elle Boutique - Spell On You Bento Rings @ Enchantment

Panties : Blueberry - Tinker Panties