My door's always open.

Pose : . Infiniti . - Snowball Fight

Car : --ANHELO-T04RD-17CGA :: christmas 2017 (red)

Meet Juniper!

You know that feeling when you meet someone who's brain works almost the same as yours, and who doesn't seem to care how bizarre and distracted by sparkles you are? That's Juni! I stole her, and now she's my new best friend!

Who knew some sarcastic gifs would be the start of a wonderful kinship!

She had a wonderful idea for us to do a post together - and it's always been something I've wanted, but being the creepy little derp I am, I've always struggled with approaching other bloggers for collaboration posts. Of course, once she'd given me her idea I ran away with it and took over because of the control freak in me. Thank you for allowing me that opportunity, Juni!

You can check out Juniper's take on our photo session >Here!!< We may be found in a slightly more silly state of undress in her photographs! *gasp!* Her credits will all be on her page, so check back regularly!!

All of the Pickle things :

Body Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : LAQ Bento - Motion Capture - Scarlet (Note : This head is on sale at 1000L for this weekend ONLY. Personally, I LOVE it. Well worth it if you want a different look, or can't afford the 5k price tag of a regularly priced mesh head. Also, she works with OMEGA!)

Skin : Insol: face Vera, ST03 'Peach' - This is an old skin, made for the LAQ Trinity Head.

Hair : little bones. Galaxy @ Collabor88

Earrings : .random.Matter. - Taeyeon Earrings - Gold

Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses

Tattoo : *Bolson / Willem @ TMD

Lingerie : erratic / cecilia - lingerie / ivory 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One

Rings : Kibitz - Catherine Ring set 

Coat : ISON - gina jacket @ Collabor88

Shoes : Phedora ~ Claudia heels (Formerly @ Rewind)

This is the why.

Pose : FOXCITY Lounge-5 (Fatpack exclusive)

Props : ionic : Rooftop Chimneys & Antennas

{anc} mist cloud&nebra beads [sungold]

Sometimes when I put an outfit together I get an "Oh no bb, what is you doing?" moment. Not gonna lie, I sorta had that with this one, but incorporating a story behind the outfit really helps for me.

See, in this picture I've been out all night. I've half undressed in a semi-drunken stupor, pulling on a comfortable pair of shorts and fallen into bed, exhausted from a night of dancing and drinking.

At some point in the early morning, I've woken up with cotton-mouth, and reached over for a glass of water. After sating my thirst, I've decided to sneak out of the window and hop up to the roof for a cheeky smoke, adorning my feet with the shoes I wore the night before in order to watch the sun rise and the stars dissipate before my eyes.

All of the things : 

Body: -Belleza- Freya 

Skin : Lara Hurley- Beth

Head : CATWA Lona

Hair : Wasabi // Foxy Mesh Hair @ FaMESHed

Glasses : Peaches. - Koni Glasses

Choker : Eclat - Choker Heart

Tattoo : DAPPA - Amphora Tattoo. @ Winter Trend (Opens 8th Dec)

Shirt : EVANI - Annie Top

Hands : Slink Hands - Dynamic

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The Bold One

Shorts : BUENO-Sweet Shorts 

Shoes : Phedora ~ Alicia heels ~ group gift

The girl I used to be

Pose (F) : *!R.O!* Present BENTO Pose w/ Mesh Present

Let's talk about chances.

I'm not talking chances of winning the lottery. I'm talking about the question, "When is it right to cut someone out of your life?" and "Is there ever a time you should allow them back?"

I gotta admit, I can be either really effin' stubborn, or really effin' stupid. 

Recently I've allowed someone back into my life, only to figure out that they're probably the same as they were last year. No growth, no change, just the exact same stalemate from this time twelve months ago. I'm frustrated, of course, but the only action I can see is to show them how little they think of others, and how much others could potentially think of them. 

I don't see myself as a mentor, but maybe I have a little bit of White Knight in me. Sometimes, I just don't want to give up on those who are lost, lonely or confused. I think this mainly stems from a understanding the pain of feeling alone.

Don't get me wrong, I have the potential to be the world's biggest butthead. I just try, super hard, to not let that bitter, angry bitch in me rear her ugly head too often, but when she does - please duck and cover because cutting words go flying, and it's really hard to take those back.

I like to think I'm growing constantly, and becoming better - so why shouldn't somebody else too?

Ultimately, this usually leads to too many chances, but I'm putting my foot down this time. If something doesn't give, I'm gone.

All of the things : 

Body: -Belleza- Freya 

Skin : Essences - Luz @ Shiny Shabby

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo - Mikhail

Shorts : SPIRIT - Forest shorts

Boots : Phedora ~ Sterla boots RARE Gacha @ The Arcade

Only in my dreams.

Pose : *CS* Mad X'mas 02 

Background & Props : RAMA - #selfie_RAMA Gallery Setout (Gacha)

[we're CLOSED] fur carpet cream

{moss&mink} All that Glitters @ The Arcade

Includes : {moss&mink} All that Glitters - Ruffle Wreath (classic)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Bauble Terrarium (classic)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Boxed Ornaments (classic)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Deer (classic)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Candle Red

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Gift Pile (classic)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Candle Purple

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Christmas Tree (classic) RARE

{moss&mink} Sweet Treasure - Walnut Formerly @ The Candy Fair

Dogs : Cheekily unlinked from the ::GR::Pose -Christmas with my Dogs

I'm never sure when it's too early to start celebrating Christmas.

For Americans, it seems that as soon as Thanksgiving is over, the decorations for Christmas come out, but in England, we don't do Thanksgiving.

As a child I remember being super excited to come home from school and find that Mum had pulled the big boxes down from the loft. There were always several items that became expected to be out come mid-December. Mostly things that lit up and annoyed my Dad!

I always thought Mum went a little too far, she'd change the cushions, tinsel would hang from the ceiling and surround the lamps. my brothers and I would be goaded into licking the ends of foul tasting strips of paper in order to make garlands that adorned the hallway, and there was always a battered paper Santa & Reindeer blu-tacked to our stair railings.

The thing I remember most though, is decorating the tree. Ornaments from years back would make their appearance, and with words of warning from my Mum we'd carefully slip them onto the tree, under her guidance. And then when we went to bed, she'd re-arrange them and hide all the bare spots!! I think, even now, she's one of the few people who still enjoy putting candy canes and chocolate foiled treats on the tree... And I'm certain she gets some sadistic pleasure in telling us (even as adults) not to touch the sweeties!

Decorating this post bought back a lot of memories. Even those scents you get when you pull out the Christmas decorations for real, and the utter excitement that you experience as a child, or when you're including your own children in the whole scene. They're some of my favourite family memories.

Moss&Mink have done a fabulous job of grabbing at those memories and it's worth mentioning that the set shown also comes in a pastel version, which is JUST as adorable as the classic version shown in my post.

Big thanks to Adrian for helping and being my man-Dolly today. I've included some of his items, but bear in mind I only blog ALL of the items I'm wearing.

Some of the things, Adrian :

Body & Hands : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Daniel

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ears 

Sweater : AITUI - Christmas Sweater

Pants ; AITUI - Indie Joggers

Boots :  [ VERSOV ] BLENDOV Boots

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : ItGirls - Catwa Skin Applier - Lore Pale

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS. Moonlight Eyes  @ The Toddleedoo Fair

Eyeshadow :Veechi - She Chic Shadow [Catwa]

Lipstick : Veechi - Velvet Creme Lipstick [Catwa]

Hair : Magika - Sparkle

Earrings : Izzie's - Gingerbread Man Earring 

Choker :  Amala - The Kylie Choker - Thick -  Birthstone Version 

Dress : {moss&mink} All that Glitters - Mistletoe dress RARE @ The Arcade

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

NailPolish : alme.   Fall Palette II - Shiny 

Rings : Amala - The Lumi Stacking Rings 

Shoes : Phedora ~Elvin the unicorn @ Kinky Event

{moss&mink} Sweet Treasure - Walnut, {moss&mink} All that Glitters @ The Arcade

&  Phedora ~Elvin the unicorn @ Kinky Event

Ghost Town.

Pose : Left - *!R.O!* Dark Magic (includes book prop.)

Right - [The Emporium] A. Conjure Static Pose (Included with Candles, info below.)

Location : Daddy's Secret Garden (Haunted Maze area.)

Added Props : [The Emporium] Floating Candle - Natural

Birdy - Altar set - Cauldron (Gacha)

Today I'm going to show a few hunt gifts and freebies. 

I may have been a little slow when it comes to taking part in the hunts, so if they no longer exist I apologize, it just seems like their aren't enough hours in the day sometimes. Perhaps that's what Pickle & Paloma are making a potion for above? 

Most Monday's I will do a Man-Pickle post, I have no excuse today, other than I seem to get wrapped up in Halloween far too late, and then have all these ideas buzzing around, so I'm sorry if a Man-Pickle post was expected! He'll be back next week though!

I think it's absolutely amazing that some of our talented SL creators are still willing to give out hunt gifts/group gifts and freebies. When I first started SL I would spend hours trailing the grid for some quality freebies, and with the introduction of the MadPea hunts & puzzles, Secondlife is becoming a far more immersive place to spend time as the users create these experiences for us. If you like MadPea, you could also check out the Bubble Productions Ride of Doom which is a bit similar, but more 'family friendly', so you can take your littles & teens along without worrying about scaring them silly. It's possible to do the ride within 1-2 hours, including the quest afterwards and it's all been lovingly created by family friendly creators, too!

I'm sure there are many, many more rides and haunted houses, and interactive areas available, but these two are definitely my favourites this year. Feel free to comment below with yours! <3

All the Pickle things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin & Eye Appliers: Insol: Lily skin GIFT 

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Lipstick : #adored - widow walk lips - night terror edition (Former Gift @ Nightmare Event)

Ears :  ^^Swallow^^  Pixie Ears 

Earrings : KOKORO{<3}PEACHES - Nightmare Earring (Former Gift @ Nightmare Event)

Hat & Hair : /Wasabi Pills/ Malin 

Dress : EVANI - Halloween GIFT

Nails (Maitreya Only) : Go&See * Bloody * Nails @ Season of the witch

Hand Spider : * Stelloane Arachnophobia on your hand (Former Gift @ Nightmare Event)

Boots & Garters : Phedora ~ Harley Boots @ Kinky Event

All of the Paloma things : 

Left : Body & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Glam Affair - Maya - Catwa Mesh Head Applier (Gacha)

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : Left - -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE (Gacha) @ N21

Right (including Spiders) - NOX. Arachnophobia (Former Gift @ Nightmare Event)

Eyeshadow : Bossie. glossy eyeshadows 

Mouth tattoo : [theSkinnery] Stitched Mouth (Hunt Gift For Once Upon a Nightmare)

Eyeball : [Cubic Cherry] {Nommy bulbs} (Former Gift @ Nightmare Event)

Ears : L'Etre Horn mesh ears

Hair : *barberyumyum*S07ghost

Collar : [sYs] GRIMM collar

Dress :  [sYs]  GRIMM dress 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The Bold One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Rings : Kibitz -- Widow rings @ Kustom9

Scarification Tattoo : part of the CURELESS [+] Little Red Wolf / RARE LOOTBOX 

Shoes : Phedora ~ Spectra heels @ Once Upon A Time 

All in good time.

Location (& Pose) : Fall Trace

I've been thinking about the word "Fall" a lot lately. Being English, I tend to mostly use the term "Autumn" in relation to the season, and it always amuses me that Americans tend to use the word "Fall". For me, when you fall it's probably bad. Falling equates to pain, as you can't really fall over without smacking something. I vividly remember the last time I fell over as a fully grown adult; I woke up desperately needing to pee (like you do), hopped fairly eagerly out of bed and promptly got a foot twisted in the opposite leg of my pajama bottoms. I'm sure I slow-mo'd all the way to the floor, arms whirling comically as I attempted to right myself before hitting my knee and forehead on the floor with what must have been a fairly resounding thud. I also whacked my elbow so badly I took a visit to the emergency room only to find out it was a simple sprain. It took weeks for me to get the full movement back in that arm. 

It leads me to ponder the term "Fall in love" too. I'm not sure I want to 'Fall' into love. I'd like to be fully aware i'm doing it. I want to relish every moment, to run headfirst, kicking and screaming into that feeling, not just trip and find myself there. Maybe I'm finally growing up.

Being the curious kitty I am, I ended up Googling the term "Fall" in relation to autumn, and found out this fun fact :

"city dwellers began to use the phrase “fall of the leaf” to refer to the third season of the year when trees lose their leaves. The word fall comes from the Old English word feallan which means “to fall or to die.” Over time, the phrase was shortened to fall."

I've never heard of the term "feallan" either. Thank you, Google.

All of the things :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Essences - Rachel @ Shiny Shabby

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier :  Go & See * Hole * Catwa Eyes @ The Dark Style Fair

Hair & Scarf : /Wasabi Pills/ Aspen Mesh Hair

Sweater : .miss chelsea. Brea Sweater  @ Uber

Skirt : .miss chelsea. Brea Skirt @ Uber

Socks (Applier) : fri. - Cozy.Socks 

Shoes : Phedora ~ Sorcha Flats @ Uber

Wake me up.

Location : Malal's Autumn

Bagels : *SL* Charlotte Bagels - Sweet Lies Box 1 COMMON (Gacha)

Today my eyeballs just won't stay open, I'm sure we've all been there!

One of the things I love about blogging is the fact that it pushes me into wandering around SL to find new places. I stumbled upon today's location simply by searching "autumn", and boy am I glad I did.

Like many of you, I'm a bit of a (woefully awful) gacha gobbler, and will happily throw bunches of L's into a machine in an attempt to get a bargain. A lot of the time I will curse myself for putting my pennies into the machine and not just checking marketplace, but the temptation is just too much for me. Anyhow, when I saw this bagel cart, I automatically associated it with coffee (which is a necessity) and breakfast, and with hopeful excitement, the thought of waking up. Pairing it with this gacha treasure of bagel bag and bagel, it made the perfect scene.

I wanted to go for a casual look today. I know it's coming up to Halloween (how could I miss that??), but autumn/fall is my favourite season, and reminds me of one of my favourite people now missing from SL.

I'm sure we all have someone we miss, and a memory of them we'll never forget, in SL and otherwise. Mine will always centre around her love of cats (fence sitter), anything remotely sparkly or with chimes, and the autumn and winter seasons. I remember laughing a lot, crying a lot, venting a TON and generally sitting and enjoying her company. We became terrible people together, and embraced that until we felt good again. Pulled together by a negative entity, and pushed away in a similar fashion. She was there for some of my lowest points, and losing her was definitely THE lowest point in my entire SL.

Wherever you are, old friend, I hope you're well.

Again I am reminded of how incredibly lucky I am to be surrounded by such bright beacons of light. 

There's a party later and I'm actually looking forward to it. 

Until then, here's some fashion stuff I like:

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Essences - Rachel @ Shiny Shabby

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier :  Go & See * Hole * Catwa Eyes @ The Dark Style Fair

Eyeshadow :  Veechi - Distress Shadow  @ N21

Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK - Pure Matte (Nudes)

Ears :  ^^Swallow^^  Pixie Ears 

Hair : .Entwined. Rose  @ Uber

Tattoo : *Bolson / Tattoo Mr. Hyde  @ The Mens Dept.

Choker : NS::  Halloween Necklace (Group Gift - Group is 100L to join)

Backpack : PHEDORA / Twinkle Bat Backpack (Group Gift for FMD - Group is 800L to join)

Sweater Dress : SPIRIT - Aqua sweater @ Uber

Socks & Boots : #EMPIRE - Edelweiss @ Uber

The madness I like.

Poses : Left : BellePoses - Soha - Bento 

Right - [La baguette] Busty 9 (non bento)

Background :   BUENO -Night Life-Beams 80s (Gacha) @ Kustom9

 {anc} mist cloud & nebra beads

All of the things : 

Left : Body Hands & Feet : -Belleza- Freya 

Skin : Essences - Tawny Group Gift (Note : There is a 100L fee to join the group. There's also a 100L SALE going on in store right now. You do NOT have to be in the group to take advantage of the sale, so head over and throw your money in that direction, skin whores!)

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers : : LOTUS. Soleil Eyes 16 (Catwa) RARE (Gacha) @ Kawaii Project

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa]

Eyeliner : Veechi - Reflection Liner

Mask : BTTB ros mask @ Kustom9 (9L GIFT)

Hair : Stealthic - Fatal 

Choker : .random.Matter. - Hwasa Choker 

Bodysuit : e.marie // Bodysuit Boss Light {freya}(Gacha) @ Epiphany (Note : Wear your boobies on "Perky"!)

Boots : Phedora ~ Ginger Boots @ Tres Chic (Note : Mainstore relocating, new info soon!)

Right : Body Hands & Feet : -Belleza- Freya 

Skin : (Enfer Sombre*) Catwa Skin applier - Porcelain -  Izumi (1) (Gacha)  @ The Secret Hideout 

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes

Elf Ears : BentBox Sylvan Ears 

Hair & Visor : little bones. Syrah 

Choker : #Foxy - Thin Velvet Choker 'Catchin Feels' @ Kustom9 (9L GIFT)

Tattoo : { Speakeasy } Valiant Tattoo 

Bodysuit & Cardigan : e.marie // Bodysuit+Cardi Bold {freya}(Gacha) @ Epiphany (Note : Wear your boobies on "Perky"!)

Boots : Phedora ~ Draney Boots @ Kustom9 (Note : Mainstore relocating, new info soon!)

Like I love myself.

Pose - Left : .HG. Shaka 1

Right : FOXCITY. Show Off-4

Props : {moss&mink} Classic Sofa @ Sanarae

{moss&mink} Double Coffee table @ Sanarae

{moss&mink} Deadly Sweet Gacha - Includes : coffin RARE, Sparkle leaf garland, Bat planter, Blushing candycorn, Pumpkin ombre centrepiece,  Bat malt, Spider cupcakes, Candyfloss apples.

{moss&mink} Bubbly cauldron - Cutie @ Salem

All of the things : 

Left : Body & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : (Enfer Sombre*) Catwa Skin applier - Porcelain - Broken (9) (Gacha)  @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Flower in Mouth : The Golden Fleece - Chamomile 

Hair : nani // miwako hair @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Dress : ::C'est la vie !:: Loes Dress (ribbon pink) (Gacha) @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Shoes : Phedora ~ klementin heels @ The Black Fair 

Right : Body & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : (Enfer Sombre*) Catwa Skin applier -  Mocha - Oh Alice! (11) (Gacha)  @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Head : CATWA Lona 

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : (Enfer Sombre*)  Catwa Eye Applier {Albino/Demon} (15) Gacha)  @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Busted lip : WarPaint* Busted lip set @ Bodyfy (Opens Later Today)

Hair : Tableau vivant \\ Corvina hair @ Collabor88

Neck Tattoo : *Queen oF Ink - Black Widow Tattoo @ Bodyfy (Opens Later Today)

Shirt : #EMPIRE - Crop Top @ Collabor88

Backpack & Hair bow : NS:: Bat Backbag @ The Secret Hideout (Open later today)

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One (Free Gift @ Astralia)

Skirt : {le fil casse} Lulu Skirt for Luxe Box September

Boots : #EMPIRE - Allium Roseum @ The Black Fair