Ok, so this vid is a little weird and I think in an attempt to be edgy they might have cut corners.. but I actually kinda like the song, and the vid was just kinda.. unironically ironic and almost cool. *blinks*.
I retreat quite a lot, but today I'm having an SL get-together with some of my inworld family.
I'm kinda nervous about this. I've been with this particular family for almost a year now, but because I am quite an anxious Pickle, I've kept myself back from actually getting to know anyone outside of my "Mum & Dad". That means that I'm now over-thinking meeting all the people I haven't yet met.
I was introduced to my mothers parents yesterday, and that went surprisingly well!
I used to think SL families were a really weird concept, and then I was persuaded to make a child avatar by one of my besties and wham... I was convinced they were awesome.
I think they're basically like everything, RL or SL. They're your own little community.
I've been through a fair amount of drama within the families I've been associated... Narcissistic mothers, Flirty fathers, Jealous siblings and a bunch of other unrelated nonsense... but let's be fair, everywhere you go there's that risk, and the only choice you have to make is whether or not the people you surround yourself with are people who make you happy, feed your spoon consumption and don't take more than they're willing to give.
So sure, I'm nervous as fudge... but I'm also excited.
Excited because these people are potentially new friends, and despite my difficulties in interacting I'm lucky to have been given the opportunity to meet people that mean something to my existing SL family. We have games and maybe a movie, and some gift exchanges planned, so yeah, I'm anxious... but it's pushing me to open up, and that's gotta be good.
{anc} in the rain drop lamp Former Deco{Crate} item
Bear with me peoples, this is gonna be a big one!
Firstly, the skin I'm wearing right now is a brand new one from Lotus, by the name of Fiona. It's available at the Seasons Story and you can find it in four tones. As usual, the following photo's are taken in CaIWL, on Ultra, in Firestorm. There's no filter.
Left to right : Tone 01, Tone 02, Tone 03, and Tone 04
Here I'm showing you the Tone 04 with eyebrows, a possible customization in the middle, and the no eyebrow version.
Middle version Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa]
Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK - Pure Matte (Reds)
As if that isn't enough fabulousness, we also have a pretty stunning gacha available by Dappa with Medley Tattoo's, over at OMG! Oh My Gacha!
I returned back to the Lotus Fiona 02 tone for these. On either side you can see the Ariel face tattoo, which gives me boho vibes, and the middle is the Swallow face tattoo. Both of these are commons in the machine. I've changed my hair here too, this is the booN Lab.005 hair, purely to showcase the sides of the tattoo with less stray hairs :P
Left to right : Oni (Rare), Coral (Common), Christ (Common) Native (Rare)
Rares are set at a 15% chance!
Finally, the ultra-rare - Blessed.
Ultra rare is set to 8% chance!
For more details on the main picture along with landmarks, here's all the things :
I'm not talking chances of winning the lottery. I'm talking about the question, "When is it right to cut someone out of your life?" and "Is there ever a time you should allow them back?"
I gotta admit, I can be either really effin' stubborn, or really effin' stupid.
Recently I've allowed someone back into my life, only to figure out that they're probably the same as they were last year. No growth, no change, just the exact same stalemate from this time twelve months ago. I'm frustrated, of course, but the only action I can see is to show them how little they think of others, and how much others could potentially think of them.
I don't see myself as a mentor, but maybe I have a little bit of White Knight in me. Sometimes, I just don't want to give up on those who are lost, lonely or confused. I think this mainly stems from a understanding the pain of feeling alone.
Don't get me wrong, I have the potential to be the world's biggest butthead. I just try, super hard, to not let that bitter, angry bitch in me rear her ugly head too often, but when she does - please duck and cover because cutting words go flying, and it's really hard to take those back.
I like to think I'm growing constantly, and becoming better - so why shouldn't somebody else too?
Ultimately, this usually leads to too many chances, but I'm putting my foot down this time. If something doesn't give, I'm gone.
Bagels : *SL* Charlotte Bagels - Sweet Lies Box 1 COMMON (Gacha)
Today my eyeballs just won't stay open, I'm sure we've all been there!
One of the things I love about blogging is the fact that it pushes me into wandering around SL to find new places. I stumbled upon today's location simply by searching "autumn", and boy am I glad I did.
Like many of you, I'm a bit of a (woefully awful) gacha gobbler, and will happily throw bunches of L's into a machine in an attempt to get a bargain. A lot of the time I will curse myself for putting my pennies into the machine and not just checking marketplace, but the temptation is just too much for me. Anyhow, when I saw this bagel cart, I automatically associated it with coffee (which is a necessity) and breakfast, and with hopeful excitement, the thought of waking up. Pairing it with this gacha treasure of bagel bag and bagel, it made the perfect scene.
I wanted to go for a casual look today. I know it's coming up to Halloween (how could I miss that??), but autumn/fall is my favourite season, and reminds me of one of my favourite people now missing from SL.
I'm sure we all have someone we miss, and a memory of them we'll never forget, in SL and otherwise. Mine will always centre around her love of cats (fence sitter), anything remotely sparkly or with chimes, and the autumn and winter seasons. I remember laughing a lot, crying a lot, venting a TON and generally sitting and enjoying her company. We became terrible people together, and embraced that until we felt good again. Pulled together by a negative entity, and pushed away in a similar fashion. She was there for some of my lowest points, and losing her was definitely THE lowest point in my entire SL.
Wherever you are, old friend, I hope you're well.
Again I am reminded of how incredibly lucky I am to be surrounded by such bright beacons of light.
There's a party later and I'm actually looking forward to it.
