Did you forget?

Pose : FOXCITY. Highlights-3 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background items : 

Refuge - Selene Ottoman Cream/G 

[DDD] Twinkle Patches - Giant Patch

{anc} mist cloud [sungold] 

Skye Studio Enchanted Forest

::Static:: Grandfather Clock - Walnut @ Enchantment

Today I'm showcasing some more items from Enchantment. It might seem a little bizarre to be a nudey-pants while depicting an event aimed at fairytales, but the Grimm fairytales were never aimed at children and were in fact converted over time to appeal to kids.

Anywho, the idea behind the picture is to try and show how I feel a lot of the time as an adult. The clock represents the ticking of time, as I become older, I'm reminded that our time here is short. I don't mean that in a morbid way at all, but rather that we often spend our time focusing on the wrong things, worrying about how others are living their lives and not concentrating on doing the best for us. It's supposed represent a bit of a dream-like state, the position Pickle is in (which is almost a fetal position) signifies the fact that often, I really don't feel like I'm adulting to a respectable level. Most days, it's actually hard to even drag myself out of bed, and so I tend to celebrate the fact I managed to do just that by patting myself on the back and neglecting other things I just know I -should- do. 

Of course, there's the undertones of storybooks and fairytales, most of which I will make grabby hands at to cling to because although my body is constantly in flux and the wrinkles are getting deeper, my mind is still fixed in my twenties or even below, with some minor adjustments and understandings I wish I'd had back then.

Once more, I'm not entirely sure this description makes any sense. I just know that there are times we need to just stop and attempt to make things work, our way. 

I think that's what we all try to do daily. Be kind to each other, please. There really isn't enough love showcased in the world, and if you can't see it - be it. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Head & Eyebrows : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : {Letituier} Valen Hair @ Enchantment

Tattoo : *Queen oF Ink - Real Story Tattoo @ Enchantment

Cyber arm : [omnis] BlackWidow

Raise your spirits.

Pose : FOXCITY. Sits VOL1-2m (Alternate hand position)

Props : Refuge - Fairytale Mirror 

*HEXtraordinary* Hanging Lantern Branches (Fifty Linden Friday!)

Mutresse-Exhausted-Shortie Cats (Gacha)

+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter - Stripe - Floor Bra

tarte. enchanted slumber 

I think I need a cat.

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Skin : { Clair de Lune } Aurora (No longer available)

Head : CATWA Lona

Glasses : .tsg. Shy Megane 

Hair : *booN Lab.005 hair 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Melody Tattoo. @ Kinky Event

Piece of mind.

Pose : Le Poppycock-Swoon @ Ultra (Edited head & arm in Animare)

Background & Props : {moss&mink} Ornate divider 

Refuge - Bunbun Stool

{vespertine}- room plants 

Ever since I wrote about my daughter, I've been feeling kind of introspective. My moods have been slightly more unstable (lol.. shh.) and I've been thinking probably far too deeply about certain things.

I feel lucky right now - lucky because I really did have an outpouring of support, and I also was lucky enough to have some beautiful people reach out to me and tell me their stories, some so similar that my heart hurts for them, others so different that I am grateful again for the support of my extended family.

It all got me thinking about all the absolutely shitty things I have done in my life.

I don't consider myself a bad human, quite the opposite. But sometimes, sometimes, that miserable, jaded asshole comes out from inside me, and I end up striking out at people who just do not deserve the sharpness of my tongue.

I am not a violent person, but I know that I am capable of hurting people with my words, and when I am hurting the easiest thing for me to do is to lash out and hurt someone else. Misery loves company, right?

I have done some terrible, terrible mean things both in SL and out. I've hurt people on purpose because they hurt me. I've planned out horrible revenge on people and systematically broken them down, all in the name of "But it'll be funny". I can be incredibly manipulative and I'm more than capable of telling people what they want to hear in order to get what I want.. but now?

I don't want to be that person.

Whenever that part of me rears up, I become hyper aware of the fact that I am becoming what I hate. I have to sometimes start along the 'mean' track, to be able to realize what I'm doing is wrong, and reverse it. I know this is painting me in an awful light - and maybe I'm justifying wrongly, but I don't believe this makes me an awful person - it just makes me a person. 

I think my moral standards are pretty high, for the most part. But as I grow, as I develop, it's important that I remember those mean things I've done in order to never put anyone through that again. It's important that I take ownership of those mistakes, apologize wherever is appropriate, and move on from them, because I don't want to continue down that same path.

It's also important that I really, truly DO grow from having made those decisions in the past, and attempt to consciously never put anyone through that kind of pain again.

Naturally, I'm going to slip sometimes... and all I can do is apologize and take ownership again when or if that happens, but as long as I continue doing my best to be the best me I can be, to be kind and patient wherever possible, to grow positively with hope and love rather than pain and hurt... I think I'll be doing okay.

Wishing you the best for a brand new week!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Essences - Allison Pale 01 @ Kustom9

Head :  CATWA HEAD Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers : Go&See * Sparkle * Catwa Eyes @ Anybody

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Radiant Liner @ N21

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Septum & Bindi : :: SAGA :: Venus Jewel Set @ ULTRA

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

Ear weights : HAIL Open Ring Ear Weight 

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair : *Besom~ Toltec @ N21

Necklace : e.marie // Rose Necklace @ The Galleria

Top : -Pixicat- Bohemian.Top @ Collabor88

Nails : ~GD~Doll Anthem(Long Coffin) - Belleza BENTO Hands

Rings : (Yummy) Free Spirit Rings @ Collabor88

Shorts : .miss chelsea. Cary Shorts @ Uber

Sandals : #EMPIRE - Florent  @ Access

Good reputation.

Pose : FOXCITY. Solitude-3

Background & propstuffs : DRD - evening romance
Refuge - Fairytale Mirror Silver
Refuge - Vintage Fur Chair White/Silver

Yesterday we had an erotic story time at Consent. I was a little apprehensive, because I hadn't actually spoken to the lady in world on voice, and my initial thought was "Crap, what if she sounds like she's lost all her teeth, run a marathon and smokes 90 a day?" I know. I'm awful. But in reading erotica, these things are important. Anyway, Shay showed up, and absolutely knocked me off my stool. Not only does she have a stunning voice, but she's clearly educated and her stories weren't run of the mill, "He put it in me and I orgasmed" type stories. There was also a degree of learning as I discovered Walt Whitman was in fact a bit of a literotica writer, so I'm super psyched for the next time she decides to host something!

Leading on from the erotica almost seamlessly, I want to take a moment to address RLD (Red Light District). The newest round opened on the 15th, and while you have probably seen a couple of items available already, I feel it necessary to remind you of all the details you might need to keep up to date with this wonderfully kinky event i'm lucky enough to currently blog for. The website is right >Here<  and you can find everything you need to know about the event included in the easy to peruse site, whether that's the current creators and their products available in this round, applications for designers/bloggers - and there's even a special page dedicated to their bloggers! See if you can find my ever-changing face in the sea of amazingly creative photographers!

Check out all RLD items (And more!) below!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Heroic Eyes (Gacha) @ Pocket Gacha

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Ears : .:[PUMEC] :.  - / Mesh Ears\ Bohemian  @ Cosmopolitan

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair & Face Harness : +Spellbound+ Control For Bound Box

Collar : #187# Belong Collar @ RLD

Tattoo : DAPPA - Jumeirah Tattoo.@ Dubai Event (Open today, 20th May at Midday)

Nipple Leash : ~MR~LeashChain~ @ RLD

Modesty Guard : *elise* - Isabeau @ RLD

Foot Straps : .Quirky. Runa Ankle Cuffs @ RLD

Make it all alright.

Pose : FOXCITY. Soulfood-2m

Background & Decor : 

*alirium* DownyGrass 

Refuge - Spring Gala Set White @ FaMESHed

Includes : Table, Chairs, Flags & Lights

Refuge - Spring Gala Table Light (Gift @ FaMESHed)

MONS / 3D - TenteLeaf Photoshoot Decor @ Equal10

I'm feeling like absolute BUTT again! I really think I might be doing it to myself too, so I'm kinda mad! Hopefully, this time it doesn't flare up to badly, because right now, I can just about  manage to sit at the PC... but if I suddenly disappear for a few days - I'll be back!

Meanwhile, have some pretties from amazing creators!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya 

Skin : Go&See * Hela * Pale @ Blush

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE

Eyes : LOTUS. Gaze Eyes (Gacha) @ Bloom

Lipstick : . MILA . Princess of Darkness Makeup

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Noldor Elf Ears 

Hairbase : .Tableau Vivant \\ Lelutka HB1 

Hair & Wreath : Tableau Vivant // April hair @ The Gacha Garden 

Lingerie : [AB] Heart Lingerie Rose

Coat : Moon Elixir - Hollyweird - Fur Robe @ Blush

Body Glitter (it really sparkles!) : [Cynful] Stripper Body Dust

Shoes : #EMPIRE - Quill @ Bloom

Figure it out.

Pose : FOXCITY. Good Morning-5 (Alternate hand position)

Decor : Refuge - Livy Chair @ Illuminate

I've been thinking for a while about this post. Mostly, thinking about the significance of the empty chairs. I think there's always a reason you do something in life, and sometimes those reasons are more obvious than others.

For me, I think the chairs signify that although I am somewhat broken, curled into a self-healing ball at the moment, there's still room at my table for good people. At least, I hope that's what it is. 

I have really been making an effort to step out of my comfort zone, and off of my platform and encounter some new people. It's just terribly unfortunate that a lot of the people I seem to meet like to place me into a box that *I* feel I don't belong.

I get told I'm too much of something. Too serious. Expecting too much of people. That while I appear 'different' at first, I end up being just the same as everyone else.

I'm not sure if that's entirely true. I certainly don't feel like everyone else, and much of the time, I don't feel like anyone is ever going to understand me, much as I try to explain who I am... and those that DO know me, do they really know ME or just the reflection of myself that I project on them?

I'm in a bit of a weird head-space at the moment, trying to sort out my thoughts from my feelings, and I suppose that's kind of being reflected in this picture, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Moccino - Catwa Skin Applier - Maria

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Lucid Eyes (ESSENTIALS) @ The Epiphany

Eyebrows : Found in the Catwa hud, recoloured using the Catwa hud.

Lipstick : Veechi - Harley Matte Lipstick @ Uber

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair :  -FABIA- Mesh Hair   < Liana> @ Tres Chic

Tattoo :  DAPPA - Yasuo Tattoo @ Hipster Men's Event

Crop top : BUENO -Cheeky Half Shirt 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The French One

Panties : Pixel Geek - Nya Panties @ RLD

Shoes : _CandyDoll_ Lacosty Heels @ N21

Here we go again.

Pose : Hello Gorgeous Guys My Age Pose 1

Background & Decor : Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround

{vespertine}- birds of paradise palm. @ Collabor88

_CandyDoll_ Dolly Mannequin Simple @ The Epiphany

Refuge - Fairytale Mirror Gold  @ The Seasons Story

Violetility - District Bed [Light] @ RLD 

I have this one friend in SL who has been with me since almost the very beginning of my journey. Almost 10 years, now.

Unfortunately for me (but luckily for her!) her RL has become far too busy to allow her to pop into SL very often. It doesn't escape me however how very lucky I am to have her in my life.

Yesterday we talked again for the first time in maybe four months, she slid easily back into my life, and I hers, and we chatted about everything, real and virtual.. then all too soon it was time for her to disappear again.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad. I mean, it would be lovely to spend much more time with her. However, I firmly believe that her time is far better spent in the real world, doing the real things. The one thing I have noticed lately is the negativity, and we briefly chatted last night about how 10 years ago we were so much more likely to befriend someone on a whim. Now, both of us question motives... and I can't help but wonder, what is it about this secondlife, a place where you can be anything, and anyone, that makes people want to be mean?

Why are people creating relationships only to abandon them without word?

What makes you cuss and swear at that stranger you approached 5 minutes ago, when all they've done is signify a slight difference of opinion?

Are we becoming a society of callous, self entitled, pseudo-humans unable to take even the slightest bit of constructive criticism, preferring to have smoke blown up our butts than to have ways to improve pointed out?

More to the point, why are we so desperate to have these mean spirited people like us?

I feel like it's so nice to be nice, why would I try to be anything but? Of course, I have my moments where I'm a right raging bitch... but usually I have been pushed to that point.

Do something nice today, if it's a positive word to a friend, or a compliment to a stranger. Be someone good, someone you'd like to meet. Just for today.

xoxo.

All of the things : 

Body Hands & feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Moccino - Catwa Skin Applier - Maria

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Lucid Eyes (ESSENTIALS) @ The Epiphany

Ears : random.Matter - Haruhi Ears 

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair : DOUX - Grande Hairstyle 

Collar & Cuffs : Dahlia - fleur de lis @ RLD 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Paradise Tattoo. @ Equal10

Lingerie : :::insanya::: Lingerie Chloe @ RLD 

Lose myself.

Pose : FOXCITY. Ballet Minx-2 (Slightly edited head-tilt with Animare)

Background & Decor : 

Refuge - Spark Lamp Shimmer Gold 

FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Show Time- Lights @ Limit8

When I was younger, I did a BUNCH of activities. My parents were the pushy type, but honestly, none of us kids really had a talent for anything they pushed us into. My days were filled with school, and my evenings would consist of Girls Brigade (similar to girl scouts), Viola lessons, Orchestra, Ballet, Tap, Band, etc etc. This was pretty normal for us, and I never really appreciated it - probably still don't fully appreciate the effort my parents went to now, but at the time, all I wanted to do was go out and spend time with my friends, like the normal kids did.

Instead, I would be in a stuffy room, full of sweaty nerdy kids, struggling to par le' somethingorother or arpeggio badly on the viola.

One memory I will always treasure however, is being Frosty the Snowman for a dance show.

I know, it sounds dumb. It WAS dumb. It was SO dumb that my mum made my costume, out of pillow cases.

But no matter how dumb it was, I was motherfucking Frosty. I mean, how many Frosty's are there in the Frosty the snowman song? ONE. And I was it. That meant I was important. I had a freakin' solo. 

I think I must have been like 13. Still petite then, because let's face it, doing all the things ALL the time keeps you fit and trim. I still remember opening night of that show, there I am, doused in the frumpy pillowcases of my rather creative, pushy mother, waiting for that opening of the curtain, the younger children running and screaming in the background, getting into position waiting for the music to start too... and then the curtains actually open.

I don't have a horror story for you. 

It actually went really well, and the kids popped that hat on my head and I tap-danced my way across the stage with step-ballchanges and shuffles like a pro.

There's probably a VHS tape of it somewhere in my parents collection, shamefully.

This photo, despite being far more elegant than a frumpy Frosty, reminds me of the feeling I got at the end of that performance. The feeling of "Hey, I did it. All that work, all that effort, all that practice and it happened!"

I also just found out I have a niece. I've never been an Aunty before. Welcome to the world, little Harper. I can't wait to meet you!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin : Moccino - Catwa Skin Applier - Maria

Head : CATWA Lona

Eyes : [ Conviction ] Lucid Eyes (ESSENTIALS) @ The Epiphany

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair : [LeLutka]-SALOME hair (Note: This is an older hair, found upstairs in the lelutka store)

Ears : random.Matter - Haruhi Ears 

Outfit : 27.EVANI - Sommer bodysuit PASTEL RARE @ The Epiphany

Shoes : Astralia - Half Pointe 

Imaginable things.

Pose : FOXCITY. Lounge-5 (Fatpack exclusive)

Props & background items : 

{moss&mink} @ Bloom

includes : {moss&mink} Front Counter

{moss&mink} Bottled Flowers - White

{moss&mink} Heart Drop Lights

Refuge - Fairytale Mirror Gold  @ The Seasons Story

*:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic Gacha @ The Seasons Story

includes : *:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic(Chair_White.)14

*:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic(Gypsophila in pitcher)17

*:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic(Pendant_Pink)9

*:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic(Pendant_White)8

*:..Silvery K..:*Shabby Chic(Torso_B)6

*alirium* PuffyGrass [Pink] & [Green]

uK - Mystic Dew Drops Pink

HPMD* Garden Tree04 - brown 1A

I think I've squee'd plenty of times at Moss&Mink, and will continue to for all time, because the items are so stinking cute. These amazing offerings available at this round of Bloom are no different to usual. I absolutely adore the delicacy of the vases/bottled flowers and the heart drop lights, and almost immediately I knew I wanted to put the items in an outside scene, because it's just not normal. And Pickle (as you should know) is anything but normal.

The refuge mirror comes with silver and gold options. As is becoming a bit of an adorable trademark of the Refuge brand, these mirrors come with sparkles embedded in. I meant to grab a gyazo gif, but ofc, I'm a derpface and totes forgot, so I'm hoping that my awful description pokes you toward having a peek in world for yourself.

I find it can be quite difficult sometimes to merge both decor and fashion, but for whatever reason I struggle more not having a 'presence' in a photograph and thoroughly applaud those who can take amazing decor only shots. I will probably never be that person, although I have attempted it a couple of times, and chose to rep Miss Chelsea and Empire in my attire today. I fudging love this hat. Seriously. I don't really do the hat thing, but I do like headpieces and such. I think part of that is because you can show so much emotion in a picture when you show eyes, but if you take the eyes away you're sort of left with not much that is going to give you that same amount of emotion... anywho...  this hat gave me life and made me feel like a lady who lunches, maybe in the middle of an enchanted woods. Alone. With no food. *shrugs*

I hope this post reaches you in good health, I personally feel at least 85% Pickle today, here's to feeling back at 100% shortly!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body & Hands: -Belleza- Freya

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Go&See * Momo * Pale  The Seasons Story You can find more detail about tones in this post >Here<

Hair : #Foxy - Kali Hair 

Hat : .miss chelsea. Iris Sunhat White (Gacha) @ Bloom

Necklace :  .miss chelsea.  Iris Bee Necklace Gold (Gacha) @ Bloom

Shirt : .miss chelsea.   Faya Top @ Bloom

Skirt : Bossie. daisy skirt - white @ The Epiphany

Shoes : #EMPIRE - Fiorella @ Equal10

I gotta be 100% honest right now and say I've actually used the "Slink fit" option on the belleza body, and whacked my maitreya feet on. The reason for this is because the go&See skin, while beautiful and perfect and flawless in every other way... does not work for bare belleza feet. I am going to let Kristyna know, and hopefully she can make some adjustments - but if there are no alternatives with the belleza feet, there are definitely alternatives you can use with the feet themselves. I'm pretty sure the reason for the dodgy feet is mapping, btw. Not that I actually know what that means, but it sounds fancy and I know that all the SL feet are created slightly differently, which is why we get all those shoes rigged differently in packs. That's all. I'll stop rambling now. 

Maybe.

UPDATE! I talked with Kristyna, and she has the textures, because ofc, she's all knowing and they simply weren't in the body hud! That means there should be a perfect belleza foot coming soon from Go&See! <3 <3 <3

Torn and thrown.

Pose : .HG. Rapt 6

Props : Refuge - Whimsy Lighting Sky @ The Secret Hideout

{anc} in the rain drop lamp Former Deco{Crate} item

Bear with me peoples, this is gonna be a big one!

Firstly, the skin I'm wearing right now is a brand new one from Lotus, by the name of Fiona. It's available at the Seasons Story and you can find it in four tones. As usual, the following photo's are taken in CaIWL, on Ultra, in Firestorm. There's no filter.

Left to right : Tone 01, Tone 02, Tone 03, and Tone 04

Here I'm showing you the Tone 04 with eyebrows, a possible customization in the middle, and the no eyebrow version.

Middle version Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa]

Eye Liner : . MILA . Princess of Darkness Makeup

Eyebrows : Bossie. Annie eyebrows [catwa] 

Lipstick : [PF] CATWA LIPSTICK - Pure Matte (Reds)

As if that isn't enough fabulousness, we also have a pretty stunning gacha available by Dappa with Medley Tattoo's, over at OMG! Oh My Gacha!

I returned back to the  Lotus Fiona 02 tone for these. On either side you can see the Ariel face tattoo, which gives me boho vibes, and the middle is the Swallow face tattoo. Both of these are commons in the machine. I've changed my hair here too, this is the booN Lab.005 hair, purely to showcase the sides of the tattoo with less stray hairs :P

Left to right : Oni (Rare), Coral (Common), Christ (Common) Native (Rare)

Rares are set at a 15% chance!

Finally, the ultra-rare - Blessed.

Ultra rare is set to 8% chance!

For more details on the main picture along with landmarks, here's all the things :

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : LOTUS. Fiona Skin Applier 02 (Catwa) @ The Seasons Story

Eyes : -SU!- Ophelia Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair : #Besom~Beautiful Maids @ collabor88

Shirt :SPIRIT - Mina top @ collabor88

Tattoo : DAPPA - Coral Tattoo. From the Medley Tattoo Gacha @ Oh My Gacha!

Panties : Blueberry - Tinker Panties