Epiphany opens today at 10pm SLT, and I for one am super excited, as a few of my favourite stores will be participating!
Of course, Miss Chelsea is one of those stores, and they've provided this super cute outfit - from hairband to shoes, and a few extra pieces in between.
I paired that with this Dappa tattoo, because the delicacy appealed to me in terms of boho-ness.
As usual, there's more pictures below, along with landmarks and things!
Let's talk for a minute about proportions, because I struggle SO hard with the way my hand looks here - maybe it's because I really like having a big ol' SL bootay, but my hand looks teeny tiny in comparison and that annoys me!
I swear I even made my hands bigger for this, but any more and it just seemed too much. I know t-rex arms are one of my personal pet peeves, but so are baby hands. I mean you want to be able to wipe your butt effectively, right?
The inspiration for this post is obviously a bit of a tongue-in-cheek robbery type dealio with Pickle showing another type of cheek before she steals away with some of those money packets and gold bars. I hope you enjoy - and be sure to check out the gorgeous bikini/underwear set available at RLD - open today at midday!
All of the things :
Body Hands & Feet: Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya
I suppose I was feeling some type of Hugh Hefner (RIP), Playboy bunny vibe for this post, and I'm not 100% sure why, but like most things, I just went with it and I'm well happy with how this turned out!
I'm still not at 100% Pickle Power yet, but I did manage to eat something today so that's nice. Sitting up is still uncomfortable, but it's far better than lying in bed feeling sorry for myself, especially since my laptop went fffffff and I now can't even netflix in bed! *Flails dramatically*
Still, have some fabulous news from Kauna, CandyDoll & Dappa, and know that at some point, Hugh Hefner said "Life is too short to live someone else's dream."
Which is very similar to a Steve Jobs quote, but you know what? They're both awesome. (Quotes, I never met the people. They might have been secretly terrible. Or amazing. Shuttup Pickle!)
xoxo
Durex is wearing :
Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body
Jacket : Kauna - Smoking Jacket (Note : Kauna is currently giving away their entire inventory for 0Ls. This makes ALL their suits FREE at the mainstore. I believe the majority are Standard Size only, but I had no problem fitting that to my Signature Body, and Kauna has always been my go-to for smart mens-wear as a Deadwool-quality alternative)
As I had feared, that awful tummy-thing I had a few weeks back has reared it's ugly head again, which may make my blogging slightly erratic for a while. Fingers crossed it passes quickly, because I really do hate being unable to be creative and vent here!
Meanwhile, the weather in England is definitely becoming hotter, and what better way to celebrate than to take a picture of Pickle's butt-cleavage while showing off some amazing creations furniture by Moss&Mink for the Arcade? Also shown are the gorgeous CandyDoll shorts, Miss Chelsea crop and Tableau Vivant hair (also at the Arcade).
Pose : I'm really not sure what this pose is, because I use it in my AO. *flails wildly*
Location : Yorkshire (Have derendered some of the background!)
Firstly, I'd like to take a moment to apologize for the sheer amount of Pickle nips and foof you're seeing lately. I realize it's not been a particular 'style' of mine to run around with all my bits hanging out - but sometimes, it kind of is.. and I guess right now I'm just having a run of nips and foof. I hope you're finding more things to look at though, but as I said in a fb feed lately, there are so many beautiful lingerie items made within SL, sometimes it just feels like it's a shame not to wear them and showcase them in a way that doesn't make me feel like I'm a classless hooker *coughs* and I only hope that you do see the beauty in the details that I see too.
I also hope that the "Adult content" page isn't causing too much of an issue, but really it's just for protection. Because I AM showing slightly more adult content lately, I just don't want my blog to go poof because I didn't do something as simple as add a warning, even though I don't class any of my pictures as porn-like, or even particularly adult themed... I rather like to consider them arty and pretty, whether or not others agree remains to be seen!
Apparently in this photograph, I'm smoking a joint. Don't get me wrong, I'm not anti-weed.. I hear a bunch of stories every day about how it helps settle people's moods and yanno, other things... and if that's the case, even if it's just a fancy placebo effect then I'm all for it.
In SL, I find cigarettes and joints can make fun RP attachments. However, in RL I haven't touched a cigarette for three years, and there hasn't been a trace of weed for a REALLY long time.
When I was about 18-19, I had a really cute boyfriend. I guess he was my first love, and we went through a lot of things together over the year we were together - as you do when you're 18-19. I mean, you're still growing, everything is dramatic. You have a small argument and it feels like the world is ending and your soul is splitting.
The reason I bring him up is because he and I experimented with weed together. A mutual friend of ours used to "deliver" weed, and occasionally, he would drop by my boyfriends house and we'd smoke some 'left overs' with him. Some of my best memories with that first love of mine include sitting on his mothers couch (she was super liberal and would often join us for a smoke), sharing some weed, giggling ridiculously together and then taking crazy road trips to find snacks.
Most of the time, however, I would be asleep for the field trips... I had the habit of being a giggler and then falling asleep because I just can't hold anything - weed or alcohol. Both make me super emotional in some way and then I just pass out. On the couch. Which meant I would wake up with the English equivalent of cheeto's stuffed in my shirt, or bacon strips on my face - and one time - half an eyebrow....
{moss&mink} Floor Cushion GIFT Note : Moss&Mink are giving away TWO GUEST PASSES for the arcade early access, and also THREE MONTHS of access to the blogotex (that means all the releases during that time will be given away free!). All you need to do is join the group in world - you can do so at the landmark provided or click >Here< ... and don't forget to pick up the group gifts! There are more that aren't shown!
Includes : *AR* - Dossel - Shabby Princess (Canopy - note, Moss&Mink will be releasing TWO canopy options that perfectly match the Chloe Crib @ the mainstore soon!)
Set up inside the Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround
Today's post is going to get a bit real, and I'm already having a slight amount of anxiety about it, but I think it might lead to a greater understanding for people of me - and maybe other people out there like me. It's also going to pave the way for bitches to be petty, but you know what? Bring that shit on, because NOTHING can make me feel worse than what I'm going to explain.
I've briefly grazed over some of the issues I face daily, just with the way my brain works. These issues haven't just affected my life, my also the life of my daughter.
While I took this picture I was absolutely overcome with emotion, my daughter doesn't live with me. She lives with my parents. She's not neglected - quite the opposite, but when she was eight years old I had to make a decision. It was the hardest decision I have ever made, but one that I would make over again for her benefit.
So, I have agoraphobia, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety. Where none of these 'issues' leave me wanting to do harm to myself, or others, it does mean there are days or weeks where I do feel unable to take care of myself. These issues began to heighten around the time my daughter started Primary School (around 5-6) and though she was always clean, fed, clothed, loved etc etc... she did start to miss School and other important appointments because I as a mother, couldn't give her what she needed. Help stepped in, and around the age of eight, I allowed her to go and live permanently with her Grandparents.
Part of me has always felt like I'd never be a good enough mother for her. When she was a baby that feeling was easy to ignore - everyone is overwhelmed when they have a baby, because all of a sudden you realize that baby is going to grow up into a person, and you're almost solely responsible for everything it takes to get them to be functional as a human. Once that thought has sunken in, there are trials that arise.. she needs a patch to correct a lazy eye (Thanks babydaddy), so you have to think up ways to make "being a pirate" cool, you spend weeks showing her a potty and getting her to do poopoo's and peepee's there, cleaning up when she has an accident in the bed at 3am. There's dentist appointments, doctors, and then playschools and nurserys, and mothers groups and filling their days with activities - along with all the things you both need to survive. Cleaning the house, making sure there's food in the cupboard, general Adulting that comes so easy to most.
When I made the decision to allow my parents to take over, I thought it would be temporary. After a few months, it became obvious that my issues weren't going to just go away... and surprise! I'm still stuck in the same rut - probably worse if I'm being honest with myself - and she's just turned 15. My parents have all the rights I have as a mother, they make her decisions (of course, I'm included. There are still meetings and phone calls and appointments I can sit in on). It's since been discovered that she has autism, and because of that her behaviour can be challenging. Sometimes, I don't see her as much as I should because I am unable to leave the house - and that's NOT OKAY... but we speak often over the phone, and although I don't have the normal "Mother/Daughter" relationship with her, I think she knows without a doubt that she is loved.
When she was 14, just before her 15th birthday, she called me, her voice was excited as she walked home from the local park.
"Mum, mum! I kissed a boy today."
I don't know if I ever told my mother that.
Every day I wake up to the fact that I am not a good enough mother to be a Mum to my own child.
Every time the phone rings, I am scared that it is my daughter or my parents, that something bad has happened and I'm unable to be there directly.
There have been times within SL where I have mentioned my situation to people, and as soon as their loyalties have switched, or I am no longer of use to them, they have thrown the fact that my daughter doesn't live with me in my face, that's nothing compared to the reality of that cold, hard fact. Let me just tell you, for many people who willingly "give their child up" to put in someone else's care, it's not about the adult. It's about the child. I could not care for her the way she deserved. Now she is with my parents an entire world of opportunity has opened up for her... She can play instruments. She goes to multiple out-of school activities that I would never be able to keep up with. She is getting the help and support she needs to be able to deal with her Autism. Her prescription glasses are always up to date, because she's being taken to all the appointments on time, etc etc. She is loved. She is cared for. She is her own person. The only... ONLY regret I have is that I am not there for it all, but I am watching. I am cheering her on, and I will never, ever stop being the person who carried her for 9 months in my belly, she will ALWAYS be my baby, and I will ALWAYS be available to her, just not in the conventional way.
I'm not sure if there's a point here, other than to keep on keeping on, the best way you know how.
xoxo
Most of the things, Little Pickle :
*Note : this is an alternate avatar, some appliers, including skin, are lost forever in her inventory because it is not at all organized!
Yesterday we had an erotic story time at Consent. I was a little apprehensive, because I hadn't actually spoken to the lady in world on voice, and my initial thought was "Crap, what if she sounds like she's lost all her teeth, run a marathon and smokes 90 a day?" I know. I'm awful. But in reading erotica, these things are important. Anyway, Shay showed up, and absolutely knocked me off my stool. Not only does she have a stunning voice, but she's clearly educated and her stories weren't run of the mill, "He put it in me and I orgasmed" type stories. There was also a degree of learning as I discovered Walt Whitman was in fact a bit of a literotica writer, so I'm super psyched for the next time she decides to host something!
Leading on from the erotica almost seamlessly, I want to take a moment to address RLD (Red Light District). The newest round opened on the 15th, and while you have probably seen a couple of items available already, I feel it necessary to remind you of all the details you might need to keep up to date with this wonderfully kinky event i'm lucky enough to currently blog for. The website is right >Here< and you can find everything you need to know about the event included in the easy to peruse site, whether that's the current creators and their products available in this round, applications for designers/bloggers - and there's even a special page dedicated to their bloggers! See if you can find my ever-changing face in the sea of amazingly creative photographers!
