Check out the quick lil' video I did on the Grande Carousel!
Once again, Potato's net is being mean. I'm almost 100% certain he's wearing hair from Doux, Tattoo from Dappa, Outfit from Legal Insanity and maybeee his shoes are from Deadwool.
Hai, I totally forgot what I was doing today and didn't save credits for the pose or the background - but the background can be found at the members only area of Backdrop City under 'retro'! Sorry.
I ALWAYS get squealy when Saga pops up with a new release, and once again the quality doesn't disappoint. The earrings, bindi and nose piercings are all going to be available at the Level event opening on the 30th July.
Along with new Saga loveliness, there's also some amazing new make-ups from Go&See, the highlighter you see that sprinkles across my cheeks, chin, nose and just under my eyebrows is the new Contour Glitter for Blush Event, open on the 28th July.
Today I'm going to return to the story of the odd Spaniard chasing me along the beach, briefly mentioned in this post >Here<.
I was 17, and with my Orchestra. I know automatically you're picturing a bunch of music nerds who snort when they laugh and constantly have to hike their glasses up over their noses, but I promise you, we were more a mid-range collection of teens who just happened to play musical instruments. Pinky swear!
So we'd gone on a brief tour of Barcelona, and a group of us quickly found out that the legal drinking age in Spain (at the time, not sure about now), was 16. Along with purchasing some cheap-ass Sangria for the hotel rooms, we'd sneak out after lights out and pop into a bar where we'd chug Cerveza until kick out time and then sneak back, incredibly inebriated via the back entrance of the hotel so as not to get noticed by concierge.
This one particular night we'd drank and laughed until we could barely stand, and took our regular route along the beach back to the hotel. I'm convinced this Spaniard came out of the Sea, because one moment it was just three of us arm in arm singing pop songs (WE WERE TEENS), and the next, this rather large, hairy and very naked Spaniard was chasing us, making over-the top swimming arms and shouting... "You girls, come for swim with me, no?"
For a big dude, he ran fast... and in our drunken state, trying to get anywhere fast on the unfamiliar sand wasn't a pretty sight and he started to actually catch up with us, so one of my friends took off her flip-flops and threw them at him. Which didn't deter him.
Naturally that night was the one night we'd been at the hotel that they'd decided to lock their back doors, so we're being chased by a stranger, unable to get into the hotel and things are starting to look a little bit like a bad TV Horror Movie. I'm convinced we're going to end up in a bath tub with my body parts missing, and honestly, who knows what this naked Spaniard actually wants with us, and why the fudge he's chasing - but none of us wanted to find out!
Luckily, there was one large window open, so we managed to hoist ourselves in (with a little drama, I've never been particularly sporty or agile, despite a bit of a background in dance and of course, our obvious drunken state). We slammed the window shut and lay in a heap underneath the nearest table laughing like Hyenas and praising the fact that we were all safe and sound.
Somehow, we never got found out, either!
xoxo
Have a look at some pretty eyelashes by Go&See!
Here's a lil selection of the symbol lashes by Go&See available at SaNaRae today! Click the image to get it even bigger, and uh, sorry for the wonk, I need to work out a far better system for editing these all together haha.
Epiphany opens today at 10pm SLT, and I for one am super excited, as a few of my favourite stores will be participating!
Of course, Miss Chelsea is one of those stores, and they've provided this super cute outfit - from hairband to shoes, and a few extra pieces in between.
I paired that with this Dappa tattoo, because the delicacy appealed to me in terms of boho-ness.
As usual, there's more pictures below, along with landmarks and things!
As you may have guessed yesterday I've been feeling kinda meh for a couple of days and I decided to get that shit out of my system by taking a picture depicting it.
Little did I know that it would actually become more than I thought it could be.
Let me explain.
Along with being an anxious bunny, I struggle with depression. It's also no secret that I also have borderline personality disorder, which, like anxiety & depression, affects every sufferer differently.
This backdrop is absolutely fudging perfect to express all the feels I've been going through for the last few days. The spilling of the sink is everything I cannot deal with overflowing, my anxiety just running onto the floor as I struggle to cope with general day-to-day tasks as simple as feeding myself, or picking the phone up when it rings. The floor breaking under my feet signifies more of the falling apart I can feel, as though if I don't keep up appearances or plaster the smile on my face and act like a positive human being when I all want is to crawl into my bed, everything will crumble beneath me. Finally the door, the light at the end of the tunnel. It's not far, Pickle. All you need to do is stand the F up and walk a couple of paces and you're there. You've escaped.
But then you get to the bigger picture.
You're not struggling with the environment at all, really. It's the inner you. The monster you become when you can have an episode pushing those people who care for you and you care for far away.
There's expectation, the manacles, tying you to what you think you should be doing compared to the things you need to do to save yourself. Those chains, they're also your fears, if you break them, you have LITERALLY no excuse to not behave like a functioning member of society - but if it's been a while since you functioned, that fear on it's own can keep you locked up.
The collar around your neck, that's extra weight, distraction. Like pushing food around on your plate and never lifting the fork to your mouth you're just not feeding yourself with the positivity you need... another reminder that though you're technically free and you have the key to end your own suffering, you're not yet strong enough to stand up to what is essentially your own self.
So you just sit there, and you watch things fall apart around you, feeling sorry for yourself and rubbing at your temples because of the constant headache you feel, your eyes closed and those monstrous hands wrestling to stay tender as you soothe yourself in the best way you know how - in the safest way you know how.
Alone.
I'm reminded of a situation 10 years ago that has haunted me. I went to a tarot card reader. Something that always, always interested me. I sat down and she read my cards for me, and there is ONE thing that has stuck in my head, and that was... "You'll never be happy because you don't allow yourself to be happy."
To someone like me that's not just a blanket statement. That's something that has smacked me in the face every time I think that sought after happiness is almost within my grasp. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'm miserable - the majority of the time I'm really not, but I am definitely a realist... and I can't help feeling as though that one sentence from that stranger (Who also told me I would have a lovely wedding and go on to have twins - which was actually a totes balls-up), has effectively scrubbed any hope I had for happiness from my future because of ME. Because *I* am incapable of it. Essentially, I have victimized myself.
I don't mean to appear like a victim, I'm well aware that there are many, many people who deal with far more than I ever have, who are still standing tall and adulting effectively. I would love to find out why it is certain people have that ability and why I'm not one of them, but I'm not sure it'll be seen in my lifetime.
Rest assured, despite this apparently negative post, I am not in an absolutely terrible place. I am not a danger to myself and although I may joke about going on a rampage with a machete, it's not currently on my to-do list. I'm aware this is a phase, and I actually feel a bunch better having succeeded in using this blog and picture as therapy.
I genuinely hope your friday is full of love and laughter and if it's not? There's almost always a tomorrow.
Background : MONS / 3D - Hello World Photoshoot Decor (style2)
I think I woke up okay today, and then just began to slowly deteriorate mood-wise for no apparent reason, and now I'm staring angrily at the PC as though it's my nemesis.
For that reason, I am not going to write anything more, just check the credits k? K.
Outfit : .miss chelsea. Yara Bodysuit & .miss chelsea. Yara Pants @ Uber Hands : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara (Yes you can wear your Maitreya hands! Activate SLINK FIT on the Belleza body, but be aware you WILL need omega/maitreya enabled appliers for skins & tattoos!)
I had a whole different post planned for today, but just before I turned off my PC and headed to bed yesterday, Miss Chelsea dropped this dress to their bloggers and everything changed.
I HAD to show this, because it's only 50L for 50L friday! You need to take advantage and go grab the things immediately! It's also available in a 'petrol' colour, and definitely worth a grab, because not only is the fit & quality exceptional as always, but it seems like the type of item you can dress up or down, so basically it's an inventory staple!
I'm also absolutely in love with this Dappa tattoo. You may see this several times in my blog from today, because it's SO flippin' gorgeous, and it needs to be seen in it's entirety and not just as a sticky-out arm or leg. I was a bit cautious putting it on a darker skin tone, but even using my regular "faded" version favourite, I'm swooning. It's definitely a much more feminine tattoo, which is great, but I still think guys can pull this off, so don't be shy to try it out!
Hands : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara (Yes you can wear your Maitreya hands! Activate SLINK FIT on the Belleza body, but be aware you WILL need omega/maitreya enabled appliers for skins & tattoos!)
