Super short one today because the whole vlog ordeal made me so anxious I'm kinda exhausted... plus Potato Man's internet seems to be stable atm so I'm literally making grabby hands at him!
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body
I blame Narcisse for this extremely over-the-top Harry Potter themed post today. If the gorgeous little Seeker Necklace had never been dropped, I could have avoided this nonsense, instead, I went full Potter-head and grabbed a bunch of HEXtraordinary items too, because what's better than a little bit of Potter? A LOT OF POTTER!
I also feel like I could potentially be Harry & Hermione's lovechild, thanks to the glasses and the hair... but I'll leave that for you to decide.
Taken in the DRD - Swamp Shack at my permanently unfinished home!
Lemme talk to you for a minute about Magic.
Don't you start shaking your head at me, and trying to tell me it doesn't exist... you're likely to get a whole desert spoon thrown at your face!
It's a new year. I knew that it would be when I went to bed at 9pm last night, and waking up this morning it was true, but here's where the magic starts to work.
Every single day we have is a new start. I understand how easy it is to fall into the trap of feeling like you have to wait for something big to happen before you make the changes you need, but you don't need to wait for anything. You really can start today, or yesterday, or tomorrow.
The magic I'm talking about comes from inside YOU. Honestly, I know this might sound a little trite and contrary, but I don't even care. YOU have the power to make whatever changes you want to make, right now! It doesn't have to be a giant leap - if you can leap, great! I'll applaud you. But if you can only manage babysteps, and you're making an effort, I will without a doubt applaud you just as loud.
If you go to bed believing that you're a failure because that diet you wanted to start didn't happen, or because you didn't even get dressed today and it was supposed to be the year of getting your shit together, don't worry! Don't beat yourself up or deny yourself for a whole lifetime of tomorrows, but do ONE thing for yourself today, even if it's as simple as admitting you're a human. You can do it, if not today then TOMORROW.
In the UK we call the day after Christmas "Boxing Day". I don't know why. Maybe it's because we have so many lovely new presents we spend the day smothered in boxes? Perhaps it's because we all secretly want to punch our beloved family in the face? WHO KNOWS! Let's ask google.
-wanders off-
Ok. So. Apparently I was terribly wrong, and it was either a 'Christmas Bonus' for servants who had worked Christmas day, or the distribution of 'Poor boxes' from churches. You can find a bunch more detail in this article > here <. Personally, I still kinda like the idea of a dramatic family feud based somewhere in the past when boys still wore newspaper flat hats and men were mostly found donned in suits and ties.
Whatever you're celebrating today, I hope this finds you happy and healthy, with a renewed love of your chosen tribe.
Season's Greetings Spoonies! (I've decided that I need a name for you lovely readers, you can thank my new-found adoration of Youtube and tutorials, and the fact that people like James Charles call their supporters and subscribers SISTERS and uh, things.)
Today I am actually thrilled with the way this picture came out. I love it all, so excuse me while I toot my own horn reveling in the lighting and basically everything. I really hope I'm turning a corner with my photography, sometimes I feel like I 'get it' and other times it just falls a bit short.
Durex has popped up again, so make sure you say hi! He's obviously me. So basically I'm just asking you to pay attention to me twice. *blinks*
I slept too much today which has led me to being awake at 3am, and writing this absolutely insane blog post. However, things are better than good for me right now, and I am genuinely okay. I feel like it's been a while since I could say that and mean it, so that's really, really lovely.
If you're struggling, just know you're not alone. Know that there are others who have been in similar shoes, and you are strong enough to get through whatever trials you're currently facing.
I truly believe in flipping that switch in your brain from "Oh no, I can't." to "Oh, maybe one day." to "Fuck yes, I can!", just remember, it's not gonna happen over night, and despite taking two steps forwards and one step back... you're making progress and that deserves to be celebrated.
xoxo
Let's not talk about Pickle's lazy eyes, ok? Thankyousomuch. ♥
Dress : *Tentacio* Mia's bakery dress (Gacha) - (Note : This is made for maitreya, but i managed to fit it over my belleza freya shape with minimal clipping (countered with my body hud). The bra included with the dress does NOT fit belleza freya)
I'm stealing people left and right at the moment, and I'm not even sorry! Today I'm joined by Maka, who is mostly naked around me.
OK... calm down! He started it by using a candycane for his man-bit and I just continued the theme in the name of Christmas! You're very welcome for this most recent show of his manhood!
Yesterday I wrote a bit that lead to a whole different wave of thinking, because hi, I'm Pickle, and my brain never stops.
For a long, long time I've felt absolutely fucking exhausted. I've spoken many times about my spoons, (original post >Here<) and how sometimes I just don't have the energy to deal with people, but recently I've made some changes in my life which has enabled me to spend more time with people who don't take from my cutlery drawer and who enrich my life... and I've also noticed that I've been more open to meeting and spending time with people who aren't directly "in my circle".
I really feel as though this is a direct result of cutting loose those who take. Granted, just because I feel drained by someone, doesn't mean everyone is going to be drained by them. Still, because I'm no longer hiding from those who constantly demand my attention and 'services', I have more space in my life to do things I actually want to do.
I'm not saying this is entirely the fault of other people, either. It's taken me a while to figure out that just because you CAN do something for someone else, doesn't mean you should.. and you should never feel like you have to agree or disagree with something, just because you feel like it's the right thing to do for them. Selfish is something I have always struggled with, and in an attempt to be selfLESS, I was giving too much through fear of not being accepted by others... and the real acceptance had to come from me.
Lawd.
Am I on my soapbox again?
I use this blog sometimes as an outlet, and I know that a lot of this won't make sense to everyone, but it helps me to figure out what's going on with the changes I'm making for me.. and if anyone relates then that's a bonus.
I know, Pickle looks super sad in this picture, but there's a theory behind my emotional turmoil here.. and it's that although Christmas and the Christmas Season is supposed to be filled with joy and happiness, for some people, it's just not possible.
I think it's an important reminder too, that not everyone celebrates Christmas, whether that's down to religion or personal reasons.. I know that as I grew up the idea of someone doing something differently to me at Christmas time was completely foreign, why would ANYONE want to give up all those lovely presents??
Anywayyyy... Sometimes we all lose track of what Christmas is supposed to be about. It's the season of giving, and for me that doesn't necessarily mean monetary or material items, but it's a time to reflect and actually spend time with those we care about. Everything we think of at this time of year in terms of giving to other people should be continuous themes in our lives, no matter what the season or date, and I for one am grateful that regardless of how successful I am in being decent at reminding people I care, this time of year pokes me in the face and gives a massive hint that I can, and should, be better.
On another note... I did a little research into Krampus (super quick, because I'm old, and learning is bleh.) it seems he's the evil to Santa's good.. instead of rewarding children with presents, he'd kidnap them, drown them and sometimes eat them.
Kinda gross, but thanks Wikipedia for being the reason i'm not gonna sleep tonight.
Pose : FOXCITY. GSits VOL1-4 (Alternate hand position)
Facial expression achieved by using the Lelutka Axis Hud
Background & Propthings : BUENO-Fight Club deBasement @ Uber {anc} mist cloud [sungold]
Various items from the DRD ShadowBox series 01 DRD - fleamarket 1 - antique clock [The Emporium] Conjuring Salt Circle - Natural brocante. ye olde clock Kalopsia - Flying Paper
Pickle, what is you thinking??
Yesterday marked the end of the Halloween month, and here I am casting spells the day after.. and why? Well, quite simply, I'm wanting all those evil spirits to disperse, maybe I need some sage...
Onwards and upwards!
xoxo
Yesterday we had an erotic story time at Consent. I was a little apprehensive, because I hadn't actually spoken to the lady in world on voice, and my initial thought was "Crap, what if she sounds like she's lost all her teeth, run a marathon and smokes 90 a day?" I know. I'm awful. But in reading erotica, these things are important. Anyway, Shay showed up, and absolutely knocked me off my stool. Not only does she have a stunning voice, but she's clearly educated and her stories weren't run of the mill, "He put it in me and I orgasmed" type stories. There was also a degree of learning as I discovered Walt Whitman was in fact a bit of a literotica writer, so I'm super psyched for the next time she decides to host something!
Leading on from the erotica almost seamlessly, I want to take a moment to address RLD (Red Light District). The newest round opened on the 15th, and while you have probably seen a couple of items available already, I feel it necessary to remind you of all the details you might need to keep up to date with this wonderfully kinky event i'm lucky enough to currently blog for. The website is right >Here< and you can find everything you need to know about the event included in the easy to peruse site, whether that's the current creators and their products available in this round, applications for designers/bloggers - and there's even a special page dedicated to their bloggers! See if you can find my ever-changing face in the sea of amazingly creative photographers!
