Pose : [La Baguette] (Not sure which... it's in my AO!)
Once again, Go&See has produced a stunning new skin. This one will be available today at Shiny Shabby and it's named "Heidi".
There are nine (9) tones available, and here's a preview! :
Between "witchy" and "tan" is the "pale" tone, and you can find a preview of that below with the facial options.
So we all know Pickle can be a bit of a derp sometimes, and today is no exception. I forgot to whack my graphics up for these pictures, so they've all been taken on medium graphics, on CAIWL windlight... but I'm sure you can agree, despite my massive oopsie the skin shows beautifully.
Ever since I wrote about my daughter, I've been feeling kind of introspective. My moods have been slightly more unstable (lol.. shh.) and I've been thinking probably far too deeply about certain things.
I feel lucky right now - lucky because I really did have an outpouring of support, and I also was lucky enough to have some beautiful people reach out to me and tell me their stories, some so similar that my heart hurts for them, others so different that I am grateful again for the support of my extended family.
It all got me thinking about all the absolutely shitty things I have done in my life.
I don't consider myself a bad human, quite the opposite. But sometimes, sometimes, that miserable, jaded asshole comes out from inside me, and I end up striking out at people who just do not deserve the sharpness of my tongue.
I am not a violent person, but I know that I am capable of hurting people with my words, and when I am hurting the easiest thing for me to do is to lash out and hurt someone else. Misery loves company, right?
I have done some terrible, terrible mean things both in SL and out. I've hurt people on purpose because they hurt me. I've planned out horrible revenge on people and systematically broken them down, all in the name of "But it'll be funny". I can be incredibly manipulative and I'm more than capable of telling people what they want to hear in order to get what I want.. but now?
I don't want to be that person.
Whenever that part of me rears up, I become hyper aware of the fact that I am becoming what I hate. I have to sometimes start along the 'mean' track, to be able to realize what I'm doing is wrong, and reverse it. I know this is painting me in an awful light - and maybe I'm justifying wrongly, but I don't believe this makes me an awful person - it just makes me a person.
I think my moral standards are pretty high, for the most part. But as I grow, as I develop, it's important that I remember those mean things I've done in order to never put anyone through that again. It's important that I take ownership of those mistakes, apologize wherever is appropriate, and move on from them, because I don't want to continue down that same path.
It's also important that I really, truly DO grow from having made those decisions in the past, and attempt to consciously never put anyone through that kind of pain again.
Naturally, I'm going to slip sometimes... and all I can do is apologize and take ownership again when or if that happens, but as long as I continue doing my best to be the best me I can be, to be kind and patient wherever possible, to grow positively with hope and love rather than pain and hurt... I think I'll be doing okay.
I'm kind of late to the party with the Catwa eyes & tears, there's a pretty hefty price tag for eyeballs, after all. However, these eyes aren't rigged and were easy to fit, are changeable by the regular catwa appliers (I haven't investigated for omega yet), and include the add on tears and massively detailed huds for both the eyes and the tears which I haven't even begun to look at. Although this is a simple gyazo gif and the quality is reduced, I hope you can see how awesome they are, and well worth the investment!
