Leave the light on.

Pose & Mug : MVT - Stay cozy 01 @ SaNaRae

Decor : {moss&mink} Bethany Sofa & {moss&mink} Bethany Chair A For FaMESHedGO

{moss&mink} Ruffle Curtains (Updated with new textures!)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Christmas Tree (classic) RARE (Gacha)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Gift Pile (classic) (Gacha)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Candle Red (Gacha)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Bauble Terrarium (classic) (Gacha)

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Deer (classic) (Gacha)

{moss&mink} Heart stud table - Dark

Kalopsia - Joy, Love, Peace & Believe Sign

dust bunny . wood stove . black (Gacha)

JIAN Countryside Collies :: Family Rug (Gacha)

In fairness, I absolutely hate festivities before Dec 1st, however, when Moss&Mink dropped this Couch & Chair set, I needed to make a warm and cosy Christmassy area that you could cuddle up in contentedly.

The beauty of the Moss&Mink brand is that no matter what your purchase, and no matter what your taste, you can make items fit with their insane colour/pattern hud, and whether you like your entire house to match or just one room, you can make that happen.

With that said, there aren't multiple options when you purchase from Moss&Mink, there's one item (two, if there are pg and adult options), one extraordinarily reasonable price and the colour hud is usually included, so you can create your pastel dream, your classic perfection, or as above, an invitingly seasonal area for a few friends to gather together and bask in stylish comfort.

Happy friday, guys! ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Babyface)

Skin : Go&See *  Aiko  * @ Harajuku

Eyes : LOTUS. Daylight Eyes @ The Arcade (Opening Dec 1st)

Hair : tram G0616 hair

Sweater :  #EMPIRE - Xmas - Sweater - Ugly @ The Arcade (Opening Dec 1st)

Shorts : BUENO-Nin Shorts

Tights : The Secret Store - Polka Tights (Applier)

Leg Warmers :: .miss chelsea. Nola Legwarmers  @ N21

Let it slip away.

Pose : W.Winx - First Snow 1

Location : Somewhere In Time

I have had a long day, in the BEST way, so there's not gonna be a bunch of ramblings here. Instead, have some actual factual information about the items i'm wearing!

xoxo

Go&See has produced this absolutely freakin' stunning Genus applier.

Above is the "Albi" and "Goth" tones.

Here's the Witchy & Tan options.

And this is the Tropic & Choco options!

All of the skin options come brows or no brows, and there's also extra buttons for Genus Eye options, Eyeliner AND the eyelashes shown are also included in the hud! Yay!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (Babyface)

Skin : Go&See *  Aiko  * @ Harajuku

Eyelashes :  Go&See *  Aiko  * @ Harajuku

Eyes : LOTUS. Daylight Eyes @ The Arcade (Opening Dec 1st)

Bindi : From the :: SAGA :: Wonderland Jewel Set 

Necklace/Choker : -Narcisse- Holly Pom Pom Choker @ Tannenbaum

Outfit : #EMPIRE - Xmas - Santa - Dress & #EMPIRE - Xmas - Santa - Hood @ The Arcade (Opening Dec 1st)

Patience.

Pose : FOXCITY. Glitz-3m (Edited v. slightly)

I know, I know, I ran away and didn't tell you!

I'm sorry!

Sometimes, mental health just creeps up on you and finally, for the first time in almost 10 years, I decided to distance myself from SL for a while.

Some of you will know that this is incredibly difficult for me. For a long time, SL has been somewhat of a crutch, but in recent months it's also become more of a beast in need of caging.

I can't help but see how SL is a boiling pot of people, all coming together to suit their own agendas, and in theory, that idea is beautiful. In reality, what seems we have discovered is that when our masks come off, humanity doesn't seem to care too much about others. We don't have the time to find ourselves, and we're all so hurt that hurting others is an easy alternative to focusing on our issues and building ourselves up. The society of validation has become ridiculous.. no one is responsible for your happiness other than yourself. I can't compete with social media likes, and I refuse to be one of the sheeples that incessantly kisses ass in order to become a someone.

This isn't linked JUST to SL and the internet, but the whole world is in a really crazy state of turmoil, and if you can't see it - I pity you the most.

I am tired.

We are ALL tired.

Plans for the future? Well, I'm going to continue to work on myself. I really do have everything I could possibly need in terms of material items and emotional support. I have a good group of friends that understand me and can kick my ass if needed, but will also lift me up and be legitimately proud of my accomplishments.

The whole idea of someone blowing smoke up my arse in order to make themselves feel better fills me with horror, and I can no longer be a party to allowing those people in my life.

I hope to continue to take a step back away from SL. I think it's going to be a very slow process, but I can see what a negative distraction it can become, and while I'm involved, I'd like my experiences to be filled with positivity, beauty and creativity.

Have a fantastic Wednesday, guys... and rest assured, although this may have been a bit of a downer to read, this is positive for me, and I hope it stirs something within you, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (Babyface)

Skin : [theSkinnery] Nadine (Genus Applier)

Eyes : [theSkinnery] Autumn Eerie Eyes 4

Glasses : VCO . Zion glasses [Gold]

Hairbase : Just Magnetized - Essential Hairbase - set 05 

Hair : DOUX - Ryan hairstyle @ Dubai

Earrings : Messy. Hoop Earrings Bear 

Bear ears & Tail : +Half-Deer+ Little Lights - Bear Ears + Tail 

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Nola Set  @ N21

Bear Bag : =Zenith= Babo Bear Bag 

Boots : #EMPIRE - Moonstone @ Tannenbaum

Move it.

Pose : <K&S> Loveliness pose 3

Background : anxiety %f25 @ Backdrop City

I think I've touched briefly on how difficult it can be as a blogger to 'compete' with the other talent out there at the moment, and sometimes while I'm busy complaining and feeling sorry for myself over another rejection, I forget how extraordinarily lucky I am, and how grateful I should be for the creations my 'sponsors' are generous enough to gift me - and all to allow me to continue taking some photographs of myself.

I'm a bit of a stubborn and proud person. Daily, I try and work on that but old habits die hard. I don't apply to stores just because I want free things. I apply to stores because their creativity inspires mine. The "free" things are nice, but in the grand scheme of things, I'm probably only going to wear them/use them once or twice because being a blogger means that at least every day (usually more, because I have far too much free time!) I change my outfit.

This is massive for me, because for the last three years, blogging has been my hobby and that turned into a passion. I absolutely love taking someone else's creative work (with their permission of course!) and twisting that into a story that - although I may be the only one to see it - makes sense to me and despite not being successful with every new application I make, my aspirations for my blog and photography are bigger than they have ever been, and I will continue to strive for better photography, better commentary and a better Pickle to bring them all together.

Thank you to all my beautiful "sponsors" (I really do hate that term!) for coming along with me on my journey... and thank you to everyone who peeks in occasionally reading my dribble. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : LeLutka Bento Head-MAY 

Skin : . MILA . Alice Skin [Honey] LELUTKA 

Eyes : Go&See * Enchanted * Mesh Eyes

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Vixen Shadow

Earrings : :: SAGA :: Vegvisir Earrings @ Kustom9

Hair : *barberyumyum*B01 & *barberyumyum*(+bangs) (C)

Dress : -Narcisse- Mila Laced Mini Dress for Bound Box

You can't forget.

Pose : FOXCITY. Portrait-6m

Taken on my platform with a random-faffed-with windlight, so no other info!

I may have had a slight rant on facebook yesterday because my brain just wouldn't compute as I was constructing the blog. 

If you missed it.. here it is!

"I was gonna post this on my blog, but I just couldn't find the words earlier, but I'm struggling pretty hard today, and not in the regular "Omg my anxiety is ridiculous and I want to sleep 5ever" kinda way (although that too). 

Today I'm struggling to keep my fucking mouth shut. It's never been a thing I've been good at honestly, and I'm more likely to shout from the rooftops about how shitty a situation is than shut my trap and let people see it for themselves, but that has never done me any good, and although I'd love to keep keeping shtum I am TIRED. I am tired of watching these people who constantly take and take and take, and then take credit being shown as people worthy of some kind of SL fame, or infamy. I'm tired of being one of those people who have given more than my due, and have been left by the wayside or being painted as the villain in removing these vile people from my SL and my life in general. I know more than people know I know, and although I may say a lot to a select few, it's never the entire story. For fucks sake, be good to each other. I can't keep making excuses for my silence if you're continually being a fucktard."

See, I think it might have gotten a bit of a reaction, not because anyone actually knows what I was talking about (it wasn't one person, nor was it a collective of peoples. There were multiple reasons for me feeling like I needed to rant and most of them are selfish), but because so many of us humans feel so completely taken advantage of by others. 

Now don't get me wrong, I'm well aware that everyone has toxic traits, myself included. I'm not perfect, I don't claim to be, but I do try extremely hard every day to remain a pleasant person to be around, but situations like the ones I have been forced into recently make that extremely difficult to maintain, as that stubborn angry bitch in me just wants to rear it's ugly head and snap at the stupid.

Continually I have to remind myself that my idea of a terrible person isn't my next door neighbours idea of a terrible person, and everyone is entitled to their opinions. However, when I see the same people pulling the same stunts over and over again, the angry in me bubbles over, and you get a Pickle Rant.

Today's mission is to calm the fuck down. I'm going to attempt (again) to accept the fact I cannot change people to suit MY agenda. Control isn't love, and more than anything I really DO want to shower kindness over people, no matter how successful I am in this. If I fail today, I'll get up and try and be a better version of myself tomorrow... yet, in being what I consider to be a decent person, I will also be taking care of myself and that means putting me first. I'm a very loud, very opinionated introvert, and sometimes people miss the introversion because of the noise I am capable of making, but I need to take care of myself and ensure my energy is good so I'll be collecting my spoons and distributing them far more wisely. 

xoxo

Essences - Luisa for Genus in tones Pale 01 & Pale 02

Essences - Luisa for Genus in tones Medium 01 and Medium 02

Essences - Luisa for Genus in tones Dark 01 and Dark 02

As usual, the Essences skin comes with 6 eyebrow options (actually i think the "no brow" option might be new, but yay! New!), black, brown, ginger, blonde, red and no brows, not shown here today because I derped out!

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project

Skin : Essences - Luisa (Genus) @ Kustom9

Eyes : Go&See * Enchanted * Mesh Eyes

Hair : tram H0928 hair 

Earrings : :: SAGA :: Spiked Earrings @ Kustom9

Necklace : #SHOOK - Leo Necklace

Jacket : *COCO*_FurBolero_LightGrey

Bra : From the Vague Candid Bra & Panty Set @ Anybody

Tattoo : DAPPA - Bijou Tattoo. @ Access

Jeans : Blueberry - Melanie 

Boots : REIGN.- ROME LACE UP HEELS

Spite me.

Pose & Spraycan : Ana Poses - Putian 1 @ TMD

Background & Props : VARONIS - (No) Way Out Background (Free!) @ Access
Scooter : Culprit ModSquad Scooter Mirrors @ Tannenbaum

I cannot brain today, so have some things!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : STRAY DOG - UREI @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Ears : L'Etre - Basic mesh ears 

Hairbase : Stealthic Male Hairbase

Hair : Modulus - Joe Hair @ TMD

Mask : *lunacy* // Hollow Mask

Tattoo : DAPPA - Gods Tattoo. @ TMD

Pants : COMPLEX / C-WAY JOGGERS @ TMD

Sneakers SEMLLER SKATE SNEAKERS @ TMD

The long way.

Pose : Go&See * Evoca * 1

Background : CMYK// baby Pink subway @ Access

There's not gonna be much yapping from me today, purely because there's quite a bit of information that I neeeeed to show you!

Onwards!

xoxo

 Go&See * Evoca * Poses available at the mainstore.

Also, it's worth noting that there's two versions of the tattoo I'm showcasing today from Dappa. The one shown is a LIMITED option, and there's also a sleeves-only option that doesn't include the chest piece shown on the one below. Both are amazingly delicate and I highly recommend them!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : TRUTH HAIR Jayla [Old Group Gift]

Earphones/Headband : S e a r e n - Cat Headphones (1L Gift!)

Choker : #SHOOK - Identity Choker {DOLL}

Tattoo : DAPPA - Belvoir V2 Tattoo.@ Limit8

Top & Skirt : evani. - Nicole @ Kustom9

Backpack : {CowTea} #1 [Black]SweetAngel BackPack (Gacha)

Socks & Shoes : :Moon Amore: Sunset / flats & socks

MiniKini (Right) : Luder! Miyu Microkini 

This time.

Pose : It's from LaBaguette, but I'm not sure which exactly as it's in one of my AO's

Location : Malal Autumn Fall

I netflix a LOT. Since it came out, I've been watching a show called "Crazy Ex Girlfriend", which pretty much summarizes how I see myself. The main character is a chick called Rebecca, and for the first two or three seasons of the show, she was just absolutely bonkers and although I've never plotted to kill someones parents or moved across country for a guy I knew when I was 12, I have definitely made some irrational decisions and for that reason, I feel a sort of kinship with her.

The program is utterly ridiculous, and I'm completely aware of how ridiculous it is, which only makes me love it even more! Last season, Rebecca was diagnosed with having a personality disorder similar to mine. All the symptoms and even some fixes were mentioned, and it happened at a time that my self awareness hit it's peak. Now we're following her hit her stride and really take care of her mental health. Today's episode had me in my feels. For the entire duration of the show she's fallen for inappropriate guys who made her even more insane than she already was - not because they're terrible people, but because they were somehow broken too and their broken didn't gel together well. This episode, she almost kissed one of her male friends, but stopped... realizing it wouldn't end positively. I absolutely fucking bawled, not even gonna lie. 

It's difficult to explain, but the growth in her character resonated so strongly with me, that I just wanted to reach out and hug her, and tell her how completely proud of her I was, and I think that's partially because I really do see a lot of myself in her, and deep down I'm proud of me, too.

I know, I know... Pickle, you're a freakin' weirdo!

Still, today is a good day to reflect, and to see how far I've come - even if there's still a long way ahead of me. 

I hope today is positive for you, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : *ARGRACE* KOHAKU 

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Holi @ Tannenbaum

I think I've used this song before, but hi. I'm Pickle, and this is my blog - so listen to it again, k? ♥

Did you forget?

Pose : FOXCITY. Highlights-3 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background items : 

Refuge - Selene Ottoman Cream/G 

[DDD] Twinkle Patches - Giant Patch

{anc} mist cloud [sungold] 

Skye Studio Enchanted Forest

::Static:: Grandfather Clock - Walnut @ Enchantment

Today I'm showcasing some more items from Enchantment. It might seem a little bizarre to be a nudey-pants while depicting an event aimed at fairytales, but the Grimm fairytales were never aimed at children and were in fact converted over time to appeal to kids.

Anywho, the idea behind the picture is to try and show how I feel a lot of the time as an adult. The clock represents the ticking of time, as I become older, I'm reminded that our time here is short. I don't mean that in a morbid way at all, but rather that we often spend our time focusing on the wrong things, worrying about how others are living their lives and not concentrating on doing the best for us. It's supposed represent a bit of a dream-like state, the position Pickle is in (which is almost a fetal position) signifies the fact that often, I really don't feel like I'm adulting to a respectable level. Most days, it's actually hard to even drag myself out of bed, and so I tend to celebrate the fact I managed to do just that by patting myself on the back and neglecting other things I just know I -should- do. 

Of course, there's the undertones of storybooks and fairytales, most of which I will make grabby hands at to cling to because although my body is constantly in flux and the wrinkles are getting deeper, my mind is still fixed in my twenties or even below, with some minor adjustments and understandings I wish I'd had back then.

Once more, I'm not entirely sure this description makes any sense. I just know that there are times we need to just stop and attempt to make things work, our way. 

I think that's what we all try to do daily. Be kind to each other, please. There really isn't enough love showcased in the world, and if you can't see it - be it. ♥

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body  

Head & Eyebrows : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : {Letituier} Valen Hair @ Enchantment

Tattoo : *Queen oF Ink - Real Story Tattoo @ Enchantment

Cyber arm : [omnis] BlackWidow

Hustle.

Pose : FOXCITY. Steamy-1 (Fatpack exclusive)

Background things : [we're CLOSED] shed light

63' BAR Counter + Kanpai Red >Landmark<

LORIEN Lobby (gacha)  @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Includes : LORIEN FGC LOBBY Coat Rack

LORIEN FGC LOBBY Side Table

LORIEN FGC LOBBY Armchair

LORIEN FGC LOBBY Lamp

LORIEN FGC LOBBY Hat

[Copper Mill] Beer Batch Set

Includes : [Copper Mill] Beer Batch Set - End Table

[Copper Mill] Beer Batch Set - Beer Flight

[Copper Mill] Beer Batch Set - Keg

[Copper Mill] Beer Batch Set - Beer Case REZZ

.:revival:. beer crates

RA YA Drunk Girl 6

*alirium* PuffyGrass

Lookie lookie!  More beautiful items from FGC, the theme of this round is "Wild West, Cowboys and Native Americans, West world & Firefly inspired." You can find more information on the website >Here< 

Not gonna lie, I feel totally cute in this outfit!

I don't have any words of wisdom, or even any words today. I'm pretty exhausted, so have some credits and here's hoping my brain kicks in shortly and I'm back to writing so much stuff your eyes cross!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyebrows : GENUS Project - Genus  Bento head  - Mocap (BETA!)

Skin : [okkbye] bunnie 

Eyes : HERMONY / EYES OF THE BEHOLDER @ TMD

Hair : Exile - Break the Rules

Hat : From the E-Clipse -Wanted-Portola outfit

Necklace : Bliensen - Bolo Ties - Fantasy Gacha Carnival @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Outfit : FDD *Cowgirl* @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Shoes : [ hoorenbeek ] Biker Boots 

Big bad.

Pose & Basket : Fashiowl - Dangerous Path - 5 @ Enchantment

Background Wolfie (on an alt) : (HYBRIDERA) - The Lunar (This is legit SO OLD it's still prims! Not sure if it's been updated, but for the sake of this picture, it worked perfectly.)

Wolf's pose : Imitation - Miguel 2

Propstuffs : Skye Studio Enchanted Forest 

HPMD* Dirt Road

{anc} mist cloud 

[DDD] Swaying Leafy Bush 

Jian :: Fox's Fallen Tree (Former Freebie!)

Jian :: Bunny 

Jian Goat

HPMD* Little Birds

Enchantment is breathing life into meeee!

Obviously, Pickle is Little Red, running from the Big Bad Wolf hiding in the distance. Naturally, the other woodland creatures (including goats, because there has to be a woodland somewhere with them, ok?) are running like feck too! No one wants to become dinner for Wolfie!

You can find more information on all things Enchantment at their website >Here<

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin (Head) : Not Found - Lia Skin Toffee (Catwa)

Skin (Body) : [TheSkinnery] Toffee

Head :  CATWA HEAD Catya

Eyes & Face Slash : *Rainbow Sundae* Wolf Eyes & Scratches @ Enchantment

Lips, Eyeshadow & Lashes : ~Shiny Stuffs~ CATWA SnowWhite @ Enchantment

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : #Foxy - Lovesick. 

Headpiece & Bracelet : *N*SnowWhite & RedRose's accessories @ Enchantment

Outfit : [eVe] - Valerie @ Enchantment

Shoes & Socks : Eudora3D Belle Heels&Socks @ Enchantment