I'm exhausted today, but that's kinda no change really, is it? :P
I think that a whole hour of actually people-ing with people in the RL where people go might have had a bigger effect on me than I first thought, because my sleep is all over the place and I just can't seem to.. well, people. *blinks*
I thought I'd try something different for a picture today. I was feeling kinda basic, and trying to be lazy but it turns out quite a lot goes into these lookbook style pictures, so kudos to those of you who do it regularly!
Generally, I try to credit people when I get inspiration, but for the life of me I can't remember who on facebook did something similar lately. I have added a lil bit of Pickle flair that may have come from other Flickr users, so thank you to everyone who already does this for giving my brain a new thing to try! ♥
I'm joined today by a super special guest, Cielo Capalini. She owns and creates for the Moss&Mink brand, but more importantly, she's one of my very best friends!
Our meeting was... awkward. Giving both of our personalities, I think that awkward was really the only way it could go... but it turned out for the best. It was a while ago now, blogging was still new to me, and Moss&Mink had only participated in one of the Fantasy Gacha events, but Cielo had made a gorgeous set revolving around faun legs, and I was so excited to blog it when I got it, it really had made me incredibly happy, and when she wandered into the sim I was standing on, said hello and I realized who she was, I'm almost ashamed to say I fan girled all over. It was NOT my finest moment. I am SO glad we met, though, and despite my literally epic squealing fit in her IMs, she saw past that, and we have grown together.
I'm always amazed at how she comes up with ideas, and how she will literally transform something into her practically trademarked style, She seems to be an unending, magical bucket of creativity, every time you reach in to take an idea, that bucket fills up again and she's off running and lightspeed with her beautiful brain exploding colours and meshes all over the place.
The thing I admire most of all about this gorgeous lady, however, is her never-ending willingness to learn. When she starts talking about what she wants to do next, where she wants her brand to be... sometimes it takes my breath away a little and I am honestly in awe.
Anyway, she's my friend and you can't have her (i'm kidding, kinda), and that's that.
I did a mix of green screen and inworld stuff, so the inworld sunflowers are from Little Branch.
I need to do a massive shout-out to Hayyz Resident today. We were discussing her recent headshots she'd taken using the pose above, and I expressed my absolute love of Sunflowers and she was so freakin' adorable and gifted me the poses to use myself... so thank you, sweetheart!
Check out Hayyz's blog >Here< and her flickr >Here< to see her gorgeous versions!
I am so grateful for Hayyz. I got her pegged entirely wrong when we met and the poor girl now has to listen to me apologizing constantly for my mistake. She's become someone who, despite my shortcomings, will reach out and poke me every now and then to make sure things are going well. Her devotion to her friends makes me want to be better to others too. Thank you for being such an inspiring woman with your actions, beautiful. You mean the world to me. ♥
I have a bunch of info for you again today, so my dear Spoonies (i'm still gonna make that a thing!), read on to find out all the fabulous I'm sporting today!
xoxo
The Xiao Catwa Skin is available at the Revoul Mainstore, and I kinda feel like I'm channeling a bit of Nikita Dragun (I might be slightly delusional here, let me have that one). I've shown the tones available above. My personal favourite for this skin is RE20 shown in the top right, but as you can see, all of the tones are stunniiiinnnnngg (more Mama Dragun?). I'm using the Magy Catwa head, but don't be afraid to give it a go on ANY of your catwa heads, just bear in mind that different heads have different shadings, and as always, your shape may need to be tweaked... be sure to demo first!
Finally I think I may have discovered the secret of showing off eyes & eyelashes! Not sure why it took me quite this long to figure out how to get them all in line, but huzzah for this small hurdle I have jumped over! Above I'm showing the Revoul "Revoulutionized Beauty" Lash styles at Shiny Shabby, and the Go&See Mystery Eyes. also at Shiny Shabby.
In case you want a closer look, click over the image and it'll poof up bigger on your screen! ♥
Hair : DOUX - Audrey hairstyle [Deluxe Pack] - (Note : It seems Doux has changed the way they sell their hair, now you can buy a 'basic pack' which will allow you all the colours in the fatpack hud. If you purchase the DELUXE hud as a add-on, you'll get extra style options along with a tint hud, which i've used here to get the blue tone and the hanging jewels from the cute lil buns.)
I know there'd usually be a man-Pickle or at least a Durex in this post, but obviously today they're both missing, and you're left with some nude Pickle butt. Not sorry!
I think I may have discussed this previously, but I have -diagnosed by a therapist- Borderline Personality Disorder and lately, I've been watching some online videos regarding this uh.. condition? Personality? I don't even know what to call it because "Mental Issue" just sounds eeky and like I'm ready to stab someone with a machete at any moment, which really isn't the case... (mostly).
I'm not sure how many of you will identify with this disorder, but I'm sure there will be a few of you that even though you don't have this condition, you may relate on some level, because let's face it, you don't have to be bonkers to feel some type of way sometimes. Anywho, specifically referring to the issues I've always experienced with maintaining healthy friendships and relationships, I've learned that the a lot of the traits I have there are actually borderline traits, and I'd like to talk about that a little. Now, don't for a moment think that just because I'm talking about this, and you potentially identify with something similar that you have Borderline, but if you do your own research and feel like you might, I highly recommend talking to your doctor or therapist and finding out for certain. don't diagnose yourself for lawds sake!
So according to my research, as a person with Borderline, I'm unable to stay in a grey area when it comes to people and their actions... and this has proven to be true a LOT recently. I have a tendency to be either "Yep, they're awesome" or "Nope, avoid", and people that sit within that grey area for me are kinda irrelevant and I am unable to focus on.. but honestly, that grey area is TEENY TINY in the grand scheme of things, I'll either decide immediately that I like or dislike you, or I'll fold you into the grey area of "I don't mind you.. BUT."
There's also the huge issue of being unable to see past black and white, like "Hey I like you today" but when your actions don't match your words, I can't quite compute that, and suddenly you're a terrible person and now I'm ranting and trying to understand why it is I think you're a terrible person when actually, you've only done one minor thing that isn't -perfect- but I can't unsee it and now I'm spiraling and OMG!
So I knew I did these things. More recently, I have been desperately trying to understand why I have always felt like this, and it was only thanks to the accidental youtube binge I went on that I discovered it was most definitely a borderline trait.
Now, I'm not saying that because it's a part of my 'mental illness' it's something that I (or you by proxy) should just deal with - I really don't feel that way at all. However, it does allow me to forgive myself for the past issues I've had with friendships and relationships, and now I'm fully aware that it is part of my brain malfunctioning, I will hopefully be in a position to correct it as it happens.
That being said, it does leave me in a bit of a tizz when I think about it, because now I really do second guess myself, but as I said to Potato a couple of days ago, "When I get that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach about a person, does it really matter if it's just my borderline?" I guess I'll keep you updated!
I may refer to my "Midlife Crisis" fairly often, but it really is a journey of self-discovery, and of self acceptance and improvement. I am not perfect. I will never BE perfect... but I can be better and I really feel like the greater the understanding I have of my mental illness, the more facets of it I can work on, and ANYONE who is mad at personal improvement is just not worth worrying about.
Once again, there's no information about the pose or background because you can barely see the pose, and the background was totes greenscreened.
Hi!
Today is a purple kind of day. I'm not entirely sure what that means.. let's google!
-wanders back-
According to this one site "Bourne Creative" the colour purple has a strong connection to Royalty and wealth, along with mystery and magic. So far, I'm kinda loving this. As you read on a little, it does say that too much purple can make you irritable, and too little can lead to apathy... not sure what quantities of either equate to too much or too little, though! Let's hope I'm not becoming arrogant and impatient though!
It seems there are some soothing qualities to the colour purple too, with gemstones in the tone apparently accentuating imagination, and learning new things - both of which I'm always keen to do more of... so that's a plus!
I didn't expect to write about purple, and it's almost become a self-fullfilling prophecy in that I DID learn something new today, just by having a peek at what the colour could mean. How fun!
In other news, have a peek at this gorgeous Go&See skin & shape combo that is currently on promotion at the mainstore. If you're a group member you can get the skin for just 99L, which is an 89% discount, by Kristyna's (of go&see) calculations. The group does cost 150L to join, but with regular promotions such as this, it's well worth the investment.
The skin is for catwa, and available in the tones Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy, Tan, Tropic, Cola & Choco I haven't done a full review today because Hi, it's Saturday and Pickle is lazy (shh), but you can find a tone comparison for another Go&See skin in this post >Here<
You can grab a fatpack of all skins for 720Ls if you're part of the group, and that'll include the shape shown... if you'd like just the shape, it's sold separately for at a bargain 90L (for group members)!
The skin comes with optional freckles (which I'm sporting!) and a no brow option. Also included is a catwa eye colour too, again, not shown today... sorry!
I know. For most of you, that'll consist of a regular day, but for me... well some of you will know that I didn't leave the house for a pretty long period of time and have only recently started dipping my toe back into the outside world... so it has challenges.
I slept the night before, which is a giant leap forward. Recently, I've been worrying about my forays into the real word to the point where I couldn't sleep. This time however, I woke up at a reasonable hour and then realized I had two hours before I left the house.
Those two hours mainly consisted of me over thinking every possible scenario in my head. and instead of this occurring in an overtired, sleepy Pickle brain, it was now occurring in an incredibly well rested Pickle brain, so therefore the scenarios were slightly more elaborate. I had to get cash out. What if the cash machine were broken? What if I saw someone I know, and had to explain where i've been for the past 400 years? What if I had to ask someone for help, what if I couldn't reach the ketchup, what if they were out of butter, what if what if what if???
Not only was I incredibly well rested, but I also only had two hours to panic, so for two hours, poor Potato sat on Discord with me while I made stupid noises, spoke out loud in half formed sentences because I often talk to him in my head, and made flapping noises by covering my hands with my giant sweater and for whatever reason pretended I was a bird (Not literally, but that was the action).
Whenever I'm anxious, my leg always twitches too, so I had that going ten to the dozen too.
Anyway.. I managed to go. I left the house, I got my groceries, and I came home and locked the door and haven't actually left the house again yet - but tomorrow, tomorrow I will...
The only reason I write all this is because that's MY battle, and everyone has at least one going on in their lives.
Please, remember to be kind. That crazy lady that needs a little extra help to reach the eggs might just be trying to sort her shit out. That screaming child in aisle four might be autistic and completely out of their comfort zone. All manner of ailments both mental and physical affect people, and sometimes you just can't see them by looking.
I have a big ol' project starting soon, so please excuse me if I don't write as much as usual in the interim! There's still a bunch of information for you to find here, and I hope to pick up my nonsense narrative shortly!
Bag : [VALE KOER] KEEPALL BAG @ N21 (Note : This bag comes with an animation, but is MODIFY. I took the animation out and re-edited the bag to fit with this pose)
The Chanel skin from Revoul is available at the brand new A+ event, and the pretty eyeballs are at Shiny Shabby!
I'm wearing the 'new' Lelutka head Piper, but the skin also comes available for Catwa, Genus and Omega, but as usual, DEMO FIRST because shading and results will vary depending on the head you're using!
Shown above are the tones RE05, RE10, RE15, RE20, RE25, RE30, RE35 and RE40
The skin comes in a no brow option too.. but I neglected to take a picture on that. I'll take my wrist slaps like a champ though!
I don't know where this murderous rampage idea came from, I swear I'm in a pretty good head space at the moment, and I don't feel like I need to be a violent lil shite... but when I saw how elegant and flow-y this gorgeous Narcisse dress is, I automatically saw this entire set up in my head.
I rather think of Pickle as the angel of death. Kinda beautiful and kinda scary, she'll hunt you down and tear you apart with her bare hands, without getting a drop of your blood on her dress.
Ok. I might have said too much, but still... I'm loving it!
xoxo
Also shown above is the gorgeous new Go&See Skin available in the January Powder Pack and these are the tones! Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy, Tan, Tropic, Cola and Choco!
Taken in the Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround
AHHHHHH
I might be a little excited about these Moss&Mink Computers!! HOLD ME DOWN WHILE I SQUEAL.
ok i'm done.
So i'm sure you've probably seen the inspiration behind this pic before, and if you haven't there's a little gyazo of it right >Here<
I searched for a couple of hours for a pose of it on marketplace last night, and then potatoman decided he'd do it.. and when I woke up this morning the sneaky little bugger was online and had completed half of it! How awesome is this!!?
Seriously, I am SO grateful for the beautiful people I am surrounded with at the moment, and often get a little teary eyed just thinking about how wonderful they are!
