Enough love.

Pose : The Owl. Touch me

Background/Prop : Inside the Madame Vava Room's Van by Never Totally Dead @ RLD

Everyone wave at Durex again! I'm thoroughly enjoying him right now! I wanted to push myself a little today, so we're featuring a couple of skins from Go&See. I find it kind of cute when couples in SL match, but also sort of don't so I'm hoping I'm pulling that off with this photo.

One thing that means a lot to me in a picture is emotion, and another is telling a story.

The story or the emotion can differ entirely depending on perspective, but whenever I take a picture, those are the things that are important. Things like eye-contact, touch, body-language are big players in this to me, maybe because of my RL situation right now I'm kind of missing some of these things, but I like to at least attempt to portray these in SL.

It's kind of odd to me, because when you develop a relationship with someone in Secondlife, you're not really seeing any of these things from the offset. You have to express these things with your words... which I think is why I enjoy attempting to show relationships so much with the emotion we miss from our barbiedolls.

Still, they are just barbiedolls, and there's no doubt for me about the importance of connecting beyond the mind too.

Let's be good humans today, yeah? 

xoxo

All of the things, Durex :

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Go&See * Summer * Theo (See below for more info!)

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skrell

Eyes : -SU!-Delora Eyes Fatpack /ULTRARARE/ (Gacha)

Piercings : -SU!- Piercing Set 06 

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Nails in ear : [CX] Heavily Nailed (Group Gift)

Hairbase : Stealthic - Male Hairbase

Hair : { Speakeasy } Jamie Hair (Group Gift)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Sick Tattoo @ Men Only Monthly

Claws : [CX] Shredder Claws 

Pants : [ VERSOV ] STEFOV_JEANS

The  Go&See  Theo skin is available in the mainstore in Five tones. Shown here in CalWL on ultra, in firestorm viewer in the tone "Summer" which is around the mid-tone.

Along with the no beard, beard and beard & freckles version shown here with eyebrows, there is the option of no eyebrows, no eyebrows & beard too.

Theo has a catwa and omega applier for your mesh head, which means that omega capable head you own that isn't catwa will be able to support this skin. Just ensure you have the correct relay from the omega store to make it work wherever necessary.

The body is also omega - making it suitable for Signature, Adam, Belleza and any other body with omega support.

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Go&See * Emily Gacha * @ Whimsical (More info below)

Head :  CATWA HEAD Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Intuition Eyes (Gacha) @ Chapter Four

Lashes : :: SAGA :: Freja Lashes/CATWA (More info below)

Ears : .:[PUMEC] :.  - / Mesh Ears\ Bohemian 

Hair : #Foxy - Lovesick. 

Bodysuit : _CandyDoll_ Kala - Bodysuit @ Blush

Shoes : [VALE KOER] HEY TRAINERS RETRO @ N21

I wanted to give you a little more information on the  Go&See * Emily Gacha * @ Whimsical . The skin is the rare and comes available in two packs.

Pack one contains Albi, Summer, Goth and Dark tones

Pack two contains Goth, Pale, Tan and Tropic tones.

You can find more details on the tones available in this blog post >HERE<

Although shown in the photo I'm still using  LOTUS : Intuition Eyes the Go&See gacha has 10 Catwa eye appliers and 8 lipsticks as commons to pull!

Also shown here are the :: SAGA :: Freja Lashes/CATWA available at the mainstore.

There are FOUR packs, with TWO different lashes offered in each, and they all come with black and white (to tint, or not to tint!) options. They are only available for Catwa heads.

Nothing is numbing.

Pose : I'm really not sure what this pose is, because I use it in my AO. *flails wildly*

Location : Yorkshire (Have derendered some of the background!)

Firstly, I'd like to take a moment to apologize for the sheer amount of Pickle nips and foof you're seeing lately. I realize it's not been a particular 'style' of mine to run around with all my bits hanging out - but sometimes, it kind of is.. and I guess right now I'm just having a run of nips and foof. I hope you're finding more things to look at though, but as I said in a fb feed lately, there are so many beautiful lingerie items made within SL, sometimes it just feels like it's a shame not to wear them and showcase them in a way that doesn't make me feel like I'm a classless hooker *coughs* and I only hope that you do see the beauty in the details that I see too.

I also hope that the "Adult content" page isn't causing too much of an issue, but really it's just for protection. Because I AM showing slightly more adult content lately, I just don't want my blog to go poof because I didn't do something as simple as add a warning, even though I don't class any of my pictures as porn-like, or even particularly adult themed... I rather like to consider them arty and pretty, whether or not others agree remains to be seen!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Magy

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Eyebrows : Bossie. Autumn eyebrows [catwa] 

Highlight : . MILA . Metallic Highlighter

Lipstick : Veechi - Ombre Lip Glaze for LookBook

Ears : .:[PUMEC] :.  - / Mesh Ears\ Bohemian 

Hair : Tableau Vivant // Tempest hair  @ Uber

Flowers in hair : *LODE* Head Accessory - Wild Bloom [peach]

Tattoo : DAPPA - Faye Tattoo.@ Equal10

Lingerie : [Aleutia] Jacqueline @ RLD

I do what I like.

Pose : WRONG ST4 (Edited hands/Arms with Animare)

Ball Prop : OLQINU : rich play <ball [black]> @ Sanarae

Background & Location : [Since1975] Fit Box-Gym Saloon @ Backdrop City

It's Man-Pickle Monday!

I'm not going to write a great deal now, because I've already posted once today and I think that's enough Pickle-Dribble for one day.

Instead, please enjoy a regular installment of Man-Pickle for your viewing pleasure - and remember, TMD closes soon, so this is your last chance to pick up the amazing offerings for this round, so get there quick!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Stray Dog - Liam Skin - TONE 04 @ TMD

Head :  CATWA HEAD Stanley 

Eyes :  LOTUS. Cosmic Eyes 18 (Catwa) MYSTERY RARE (Gacha)

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Hair : Dura-B&G82

Tattoo : *Bolson / Leonardo @ TMD

Outfit : COMPLEX / KEVIN SHORTS / HOODIE @ TMD

Sneakers : [VALE KOER] THE COUTURE HIGH TOPS

Piece of mind.

Pose : Le Poppycock-Swoon @ Ultra (Edited head & arm in Animare)

Background & Props : {moss&mink} Ornate divider 

Refuge - Bunbun Stool

{vespertine}- room plants 

Ever since I wrote about my daughter, I've been feeling kind of introspective. My moods have been slightly more unstable (lol.. shh.) and I've been thinking probably far too deeply about certain things.

I feel lucky right now - lucky because I really did have an outpouring of support, and I also was lucky enough to have some beautiful people reach out to me and tell me their stories, some so similar that my heart hurts for them, others so different that I am grateful again for the support of my extended family.

It all got me thinking about all the absolutely shitty things I have done in my life.

I don't consider myself a bad human, quite the opposite. But sometimes, sometimes, that miserable, jaded asshole comes out from inside me, and I end up striking out at people who just do not deserve the sharpness of my tongue.

I am not a violent person, but I know that I am capable of hurting people with my words, and when I am hurting the easiest thing for me to do is to lash out and hurt someone else. Misery loves company, right?

I have done some terrible, terrible mean things both in SL and out. I've hurt people on purpose because they hurt me. I've planned out horrible revenge on people and systematically broken them down, all in the name of "But it'll be funny". I can be incredibly manipulative and I'm more than capable of telling people what they want to hear in order to get what I want.. but now?

I don't want to be that person.

Whenever that part of me rears up, I become hyper aware of the fact that I am becoming what I hate. I have to sometimes start along the 'mean' track, to be able to realize what I'm doing is wrong, and reverse it. I know this is painting me in an awful light - and maybe I'm justifying wrongly, but I don't believe this makes me an awful person - it just makes me a person. 

I think my moral standards are pretty high, for the most part. But as I grow, as I develop, it's important that I remember those mean things I've done in order to never put anyone through that again. It's important that I take ownership of those mistakes, apologize wherever is appropriate, and move on from them, because I don't want to continue down that same path.

It's also important that I really, truly DO grow from having made those decisions in the past, and attempt to consciously never put anyone through that kind of pain again.

Naturally, I'm going to slip sometimes... and all I can do is apologize and take ownership again when or if that happens, but as long as I continue doing my best to be the best me I can be, to be kind and patient wherever possible, to grow positively with hope and love rather than pain and hurt... I think I'll be doing okay.

Wishing you the best for a brand new week!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Essences - Allison Pale 01 @ Kustom9

Head :  CATWA HEAD Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers : Go&See * Sparkle * Catwa Eyes @ Anybody

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Radiant Liner @ N21

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Septum & Bindi : :: SAGA :: Venus Jewel Set @ ULTRA

Ears : ^^Swallow^^ Dragon Ears 

Ear weights : HAIL Open Ring Ear Weight 

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair : *Besom~ Toltec @ N21

Necklace : e.marie // Rose Necklace @ The Galleria

Top : -Pixicat- Bohemian.Top @ Collabor88

Nails : ~GD~Doll Anthem(Long Coffin) - Belleza BENTO Hands

Rings : (Yummy) Free Spirit Rings @ Collabor88

Shorts : .miss chelsea. Cary Shorts @ Uber

Sandals : #EMPIRE - Florent  @ Access

Coming around.

Pose : <K&S> Just to be together. Bento pose

Props : DRD - The Bakers Fail - Cake Counter

dust bunny . at home baking

So i'm officially introducing you all to Durex, my partner. Now, don't get too excited, he's not some brand new loverboy - but he is definitely going to get some Pickle action! He's another alt of mine. I'm sure some of you who do photographs have the same issue that I do, in finding partners who don't want to jump all over your naked pixel bits as soon as you suggest a picture, or who are available when you need them... so I figured it was about time Durex got a make over so that I could abuse his presence.

Yes yes, there's still a Man-Pickle... and he will still make appearances - but Man-Pickle is on my Girl-Pickle avatar, so taking photo's with him was almost impossible. Am I making sense? *flails*

Anywho, having the option of a delicious Man-Dolly running around in nothing but a pair of undies is never a bad thing, is it?

So I want to do a shout out to K&S poses again. They're not a "sponsor" of mine - this is legitimately from a customer standpoint.

A while back I had an issue with a couples pose. I IM'd the owner (KatyaSessions) and explained my problem, and she literally went above and beyond trying to help me, even tp'ing me to view the issue herself. Unfortunately neither of us could work out why I was struggling with said pose - and everyone else who had tried it out and used it didn't suffer the same effect I was getting, so I still firmly believe there was something I was wearing that was causing the weirdness that happened.

Anywho.. it basically renders that one pose useless to me, and as I left, thanking her profusely for her time, she was extremely kind and sent me the above pose as a gift - "To cheer me up".

I love her poses, always have... and to know that I am supporting a creator who is genuine, who will go the extra mile for their customers fills my little heart with happy, and she will always have a fan in me.

xoxo

All of the things, Durex : 

Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin (Head): Not Found - Robert Skin 

Skin (Body) : Clef de Peau.Body Tight 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skrell

Eye Bruises : Izzie's - Bruised Eyes 

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Piercings : -SU!- Piercing Set 06 

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Nails in ear : [CX] Heavily Nailed (Group Gift)

Hair : taketomi - Kris 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Sick Tattoo @ Men Only Monthly

Undies : RIOT / Richard Boxer Briefs 

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Essences - Allison Pale 01 @ Kustom9

Head :  CATWA HEAD Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Appliers : Go&See * Sparkle * Catwa Eyes @ Anybody

Septum, Bindi & Earrings : :: SAGA :: Venus Jewel Set @ ULTRA

Hair :  *barberyumyum*93

Top : Pixel Geek - Vanilla Shirt * Plastic @ RLD

Nipple Applier : :BP: Belleza Nipnops Light 

Nipple chain : Messy. Gem Barbells Nipplechain 

Nails :~GD~J Star's Ringed(Baddie Claws)

Rings : (Yummy) Free Spirit Rings @ Collabor88

Shorts & Stars :  Eliavah ~ Twinsilk Shorts [METALLIC&HOLO PACK] @ Equal10

Sneakers : [VALE KOER] HEATUP SNEAKERS 

Close up in natural lighting of the Essences Skin, Go&See Eyes & Saga Jewelry on Firestorm Viewer. (No Edit)

Piece it all together.

Pose : PM . Ayana 2M

Background/Location : [BH9] Underground Fashion V2] @ Backdrop City

Apparently in this photograph, I'm smoking a joint. Don't get me wrong, I'm not anti-weed.. I hear a bunch of stories every day about how it helps settle people's moods and yanno, other things... and if that's the case, even if it's just a fancy placebo effect then I'm all for it.

In SL, I find cigarettes and joints can make fun RP attachments. However, in RL I haven't touched a cigarette for three years, and there hasn't been a trace of weed for a REALLY long time.

When I was about 18-19, I had a really cute boyfriend. I guess he was my first love, and we went through a lot of things together over the year we were together - as you do when you're 18-19. I mean, you're still growing, everything is dramatic. You have a small argument and it feels like the world is ending and your soul is splitting. 

The reason I bring him up is because he and I experimented with weed together. A mutual friend of ours used to "deliver" weed, and occasionally, he would drop by my boyfriends house and we'd smoke some 'left overs' with him. Some of my best memories with that first love of mine include sitting on his mothers couch (she was super liberal and would often join us for a smoke), sharing some weed, giggling ridiculously together and then taking crazy road trips to find snacks.

Most of the time, however, I would be asleep for the field trips... I had the habit of being a giggler and then falling asleep because I just can't hold anything - weed or alcohol. Both make me super emotional in some way and then I just pass out. On the couch. Which meant I would wake up with the English equivalent of cheeto's stuffed in my shirt, or bacon strips on my face - and one time - half an eyebrow....

but that's another story!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Heroic Eyes (Gacha) @ Pocket Gacha

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Radiant Liner @ N21

Ears : .:[PUMEC] :.  - / Mesh Ears\ Bohemian 

Hair : Moon. Hair // Buffy @ N21

Choker : Kibitz - Bling choker - savage white (Gacha)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Hustle Tattoo. 

Outfit : EVANI - MADISON SKIRT & TOP @ Kustom9

Claws & Rings : [CX] Shredder Claws 

Boots : #EMPIRE - Saffron @ Collabor88

Speak my mind.

Pose : KwK. poses dance-03-

Background : anxiety %eleven

I'm still reeling from the post I made about my daughter. It's been an emotional couple of days for me, but I feel oddly stronger because of it. I'm hoping that maybe having experienced an absolutely stunning amount of support that it might have changed something in my head. I always thought that if I told my story people wouldn't get it. That i'd be subjected to more abusive behaviour. I can't tell you how grateful I am for the outpouring of positivity you have all shown me. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I can't think of anything I want to say more than thank you today, instead... keep scrolling down to find out where all the items in this picture are from. This is my celebratory dance btw. I'm not proud of my behaviour - don't get me wrong. I still wish my little' un was with me... but I am feeling good about the future and I hope you are, too.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya 

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : CATWA Mesh Eyes 

Eye Applier : LOTUS : Heroic Eyes (Gacha) @ Pocket Gacha

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Hair : Exile::Memory Bliss

Necklace : Kibitz - Mega lock necklace (Gacha)

Shirt : .miss chelsea. Jule Top @ N21

Nails : ~GD~Doll Anthem(Long Coffin) - Belleza BENTO Hands

Rings : Rings : (Yummy) Free Spirit Rings @ Collabor88

Watch : MINIMAL - FitWatch @ TMD

Pants :  .miss chelsea. Jule Sweats @ N21

Shoes : SHADOW [SEMLLER moon landers] @ TMD

Please click the song today... I think it might be my new anthem, and it may have inspired another rant from me at some point! :P

The balance of time.

Pose : *!R.O!* Attack BENTO Pose (Comes with Mesh Bats that I removed in favour of the potions)

Props : 

[V/W] Flamel's Potions @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Violetility - Magic Clans Gacha @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

So after the big emotional rant from yesterday, let's dial it back with a little fantasy, yah?

Fantasy Gacha Carnival is still on! If you haven't been yet, you absolutely HAVE to go. Why? Because I'm being a bossy boots, and telling you to!

Even if you're not really about the RP and fantasy life, there are some wonderful "statement" pieces from the creators that you can incorporate into every-day looks to give them that little slice of glam.

I think my intention with this look was to try and pull off "Slightly Crazed Shaman."

Generally speaking, I feel I pull off slightly crazed without too much trouble. The Shaman part was the difficult bit! I've included a little video of the hand sparkles underneath, too. Although I've just shown one version, there are of course several options and the corset/modesty pad set comes in various colours too.

I hope you enjoy this look, as usual it's a fantastic honor for me to be a Fantasy Gacha Carnival blogger, and I adore the push it gives me to try things out of my comfort zone.

What new things are you going to try today?

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Skin (Head) : Not Found - Piper Skin Toffee (CATWA)

Skin (Body) : [theSkinnery] Belleza Body Applier (toffee)

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyes : [JOE SL] GIGI MESH EYE

Hair : .Shi : Pixie Boy

Headpiece : [NC] - ULTRARARE AmazonQ - Head Crown @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Necklace : [NC] - AmazonQ - Necklace @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Tattoo : GHOST'Ink :: ATHYSS TATTOO :: Body Wild Blue @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Corset & modesty cover : !dM Cassia - LARA leaveBody, !dM Cassia - LARA bodyTies, !dM Cassia - LARA modestyCover @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival 

Nails : Astralia - Compatible mesh nails system

Hand Sparkles : d.Thicket - Forest Spirit Particles @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Nail Polish : Hello Dave - Nail Appliers - Astralia - The Bold One

Leg Wraps : #Empire - Ren @ We <3 RP

Hand Sparkles : d.Thicket - Forest Spirit Particles @ The Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Dance : Jana_14_Bento_Dance_MOVE!

Hold tight.

Pose : Animosity - Kiss Me ( Mommy/Baby) @ The Galleria

Background & Propstuffs : 

{moss&mink} Chloe crib @ Color me cute (Child event! Please go appropriately dressed!)

{moss&mink} Unicorn Party - Hanging Stars 1 GIFT

{moss&mink} Floor Cushion GIFT
Note : Moss&Mink are giving away TWO GUEST PASSES for the arcade early access, and also THREE MONTHS of access to the blogotex (that means all the releases during that time will be given away free!). All you need to do is join the group in world - you can do so at the landmark provided or click >Here< ... and don't forget to pick up the group gifts! There are more that aren't shown!

Items from *AR* - Shabby Princess Bedroom Set

Includes : *AR* - Dossel - Shabby Princess (Canopy - note, Moss&Mink will be releasing TWO canopy options that perfectly match the Chloe Crib @ the mainstore soon!)

*AR* - Shabby Friends' Bench (Small) - Shabby Princess

*AR* - Pegasus - Shabby Princess

*AR* - Crown - Shabby Princess

_CandyDoll_ Dolly Heart Rose Rug - Rezz

Set up inside the Trompe Loeil - Margaux Photo Backdrop + Surround

Today's post is going to get a bit real, and I'm already having a slight amount of anxiety about it, but I think it might lead to a greater understanding for people of me - and maybe other people out there like me. It's also going to pave the way for bitches to be petty, but you know what? Bring that shit on, because NOTHING can make me feel worse than what I'm going to explain.

I've briefly grazed over some of the issues I face daily, just with the way my brain works. These issues haven't just affected my life, my also the life of my daughter. 

While I took this picture I was absolutely overcome with emotion, my daughter doesn't live with me. She lives with my parents. She's not neglected - quite the opposite, but when she was eight years old I had to make a decision. It was the hardest decision I have ever made, but one that I would make over again for her benefit.

So, I have agoraphobia, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety. Where none of these 'issues' leave me wanting to do harm to myself, or others, it does mean there are days or weeks where I do feel unable to take care of myself. These issues began to heighten around the time my daughter started Primary School (around 5-6) and though she was always clean, fed, clothed, loved etc etc... she did start to miss School and other important appointments because I as a mother, couldn't give her what she needed. Help stepped in, and around the age of eight, I allowed her to go and live permanently with her Grandparents.

Part of me has always felt like I'd never be a good enough mother for her. When she was a baby that feeling was easy to ignore - everyone is overwhelmed when they have a baby, because all of a sudden you realize that baby is going to grow up into a person, and you're almost solely responsible for everything it takes to get them to be functional as a human. Once that thought has sunken in, there are trials that arise.. she needs a patch to correct a lazy eye (Thanks babydaddy), so you have to think up ways to make "being a pirate" cool, you spend weeks showing her a potty and getting her to do poopoo's and peepee's there, cleaning up when she has an accident in the bed at 3am. There's dentist appointments, doctors, and then playschools and nurserys, and mothers groups and filling their days with activities - along with all the things you both need to survive. Cleaning the house, making sure there's food in the cupboard, general Adulting that comes so easy to most.

When I made the decision to allow my parents to take over, I thought it would be temporary. After a few months, it became obvious that my issues weren't going to just go away... and surprise! I'm still stuck in the same rut - probably worse if I'm being honest with myself - and she's just turned 15. My parents have all the rights I have as a mother, they make her decisions (of course, I'm included. There are still meetings and phone calls and appointments I can sit in on). It's since been discovered that she has autism, and because of that her behaviour can be challenging. Sometimes, I don't see her as much as I should because I am unable to leave the house - and that's NOT OKAY... but we speak often over the phone, and although I don't have the normal "Mother/Daughter" relationship with her, I think she knows without a doubt that she is loved.

When she was 14, just before her 15th birthday, she called me, her voice was excited as she walked home from the local park.

"Mum, mum! I kissed a boy today."

I don't know if I ever told my mother that. 

Every day I wake up to the fact that I am not a good enough mother to be a Mum to my own child.

Every time the phone rings, I am scared that it is my daughter or my parents, that something bad has happened and I'm unable to be there directly.

There have been times within SL where I have mentioned my situation to people, and as soon as their loyalties have switched, or I am no longer of use to them, they have thrown the fact that my daughter doesn't live with me in my face, that's nothing compared to the reality of that cold, hard fact. Let me just tell you, for many people who willingly "give their child up" to put in someone else's care, it's not about the adult. It's about the child. I could not care for her the way she deserved. Now she is with my parents an entire world of opportunity has opened up for her... She can play instruments. She goes to multiple out-of school activities that I would never be able to keep up with. She is getting the help and support she needs to be able to deal with her Autism. Her prescription glasses are always up to date, because she's being taken to all the appointments on time, etc etc. She is loved. She is cared for. She is her own person. The only... ONLY regret I have is that I am not there for it all, but I am watching. I am cheering her on, and I will never, ever stop being the person who carried her for 9 months in my belly, she will ALWAYS be my baby, and I will ALWAYS be available to her, just not in the conventional way.

I'm not sure if there's a point here, other than to keep on keeping on, the best way you know how.

xoxo

Most of the things, Little Pickle : 

*Note : this is an alternate avatar, some appliers, including skin, are lost forever in her inventory because it is not at all organized!

Body : Bad Seed Bebe Body 

Head : *TD* Bento Mesh Head #Alice

Eyes : Muriel. Expressive Eyes

Ears : random.Matter. - Haruhi Ears

Birthmark : [okkbye] bold birthmarks 

Pacifier/Dummy :{WF} Jorie Paci - Pink (Gacha)

Head Bear : <:*BoOgErS*:> Wear-A-Bear Head Brown (Gacha) (not sure if these are available anymore, check marketplace)

Hair : #Foxy - Mai. (Unrigged, for littles)

Scarf : {Little Miss} Scarf

Shirt : {Little Miss}  Muscle Tee

Pocket-Bunny : .Birdy. Pocket pet {Bunny} (Gacha) (not sure if these are available anymore, check marketplace)

Rings : paper Damsels Ella Bento rings 

Sweater : {Little Miss}  Tied Bomber 

Pants : {Little Miss}  Cargo Pants

Shoes : {Little Miss}  Baby Keds

All of the things, Pickle :

Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : CATWA Magy

Eyelids : L'Etre - Natural mesh eyelids

Skin : Insol: Lona applier  A-Gacha @ Kustom9

Eyebrows : Bossie. sarah eyebrows [catwa] 

Freckles : Bossie. freckles & beauty marks [catwa] 

Ears : .:[PUMEC] :.  - / Mesh Ears\ Bohemian 

Hair base : Just Magnetized - Basic Hairbase - set 03 for CATWA

Hair :#Foxy  - Kels.

Necklace : e.marie // Rose Necklace @ The Galleria

Shirt : _CandyDoll_ Yuki Top (Mainstore Release)

Pants : +MB+ Lola Leggings 

Shoes : _CandyDoll_ Yuki Heels (Mainstore Release)