It all comes to an end.

Pose : FOXCITY. Lean-1

Decor : Balderdash - Green Stardrop creeper

Refuge - Spring Gala Table White

Apple Fall Coffee & Muffin

hive // potted plants . gold dust dracaenas . pot b

 ::KKs:: lace curtain - flying 5

 Taken in the BUENO-Room at the Top -Forget- RARE

I got a lil emotional with this picture. When I took it, it looked like Pickle was super sad, and I jokingly said to my Potato that it was because she'd made plans to go on holiday with a boy, and the boy turned out to be a pooper... and now she's celebrating the new year alone. I like making stories up, but this one made me have a bit of a cry-baby moment. However, after I'd added my edits, I rather think that Pickle looks like she's kinda hopeful, and that hits the nail on the head as to how I feel right now.

This last year has been completely epic. I'd been in a rut for the longest time, unable to see a clear light at the end of the tunnel, and somehow around the May, with thanks to a post I wrote in this blog... things started to change.

I've literally shaved my head from waist length to above my fricken ears, I've started leaving the house - something I hadn't done for two years - and that's not an exaggeration, I literally hadn't felt fresh air on my skin from being outside for two flippin years. I've actually figured out how to survive outside of SL by taking responsibility and giving a shit about myself.

Don't get me wrong, I haven't done this all myself.

I have been blessed with the support of friends I have never met - some of which are still present in my life, and some of which aren't, which is sad but in some cases extremely necessary to my growth process. 

I have made some of the worst mistakes of my life, and still been forgiven, and I've finally started to forgive myself, too.

I never wanted to ramble on. I believed that I didn't have anything of worth to say, but forcing myself to sit and write has made me feel entirely differently. I have had people reach out to me, thanking me for my courage. "My courage" seems like a ridiculous statement. I did nothing brave, I just wrote. I admitted my issues and addressed them... but without sounding cliche, if that helps - i'm extremely proud of being able to contribute something positive to somebody else's life.

It's almost as though writing has given power to my thoughts, to the positivity I want to project. It's allowed me to value myself before others, to focus, and to give to people the best of me because I am aware of the right times to say Yes and No.

Next year, I won't have resolutions... but I will have a continual theme, and that will be to project the positivity, not to focus on the things I can't change, and to keep on keeping on.

You should, too, because it really does get better.

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head & Eyeliner : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Not Found - Jada Skin Toffee (Genus)

Body Skin : [theSkinnery] 

Hair :Beusy: Yayo Hair & Bandana @ Kustom9 

Dress : BUENO-NYC Dress @ Kustom9 

Cardigan : ISON - agnes cardigan

Leg warmers : Addams - Nuria LegWarmer

A matter of time.

Pose : Bossie. nyanko ecchi pose 03 (Over-ridden by the props in hands)

Props : -Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 13. Top Hat Gold @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 7. Star Glasses Gold @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 6. Lips Kiss @ LootBox

Decor : -Narcisse-  NY Photobooth - 18. Mystery Frame Memories @ LootBox

-Narcisse-  NY Photobooth - 18. Mystery Frame HNY @ LootBox

-Narcisse- NY Photobooth - 2. Rare HNY Banner Gold @ LootBox

hive // black tie balloons & Confetti For 50L Friday

{moss&mink} Bailey Bed @ Uber

{moss&mink} Heart stud table - Light

{moss&mink} Lace-up Chair w/blanket 

{moss&mink} Modern Princess - Princess Kitty RARE

{what next} Sunflowers Pitcher

[ARIA] Arlette decorative tea sandwich stand

_CandyDoll_Fancy Rug 

Taken in the BUENO-Silence Skybox- RARE

Happy new year!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi (I'm really not sure which one, but it's a liner and it's probably for LOGO head because that works with the omega system in the Genus head)

Ears : L'Etre - Pure mesh ears 

Hair : *barberyumyum*B01

Outfit : .miss chelsea. Leah Loungewear @ N21

Tell the whole world.

Pose : FOXCITY. Carefree-6m 75L fatpack for The Saturday Sale

Decor :  {moss&mink} Vintage store 

dust bunny . mini christmas tree

dust bunny . present pile

 {moss&mink} Winter Dream Sled for FaMESHed GO

I have so many THINGS to show you! I'm actually not even going to attempt to waffle today, instead I'm going to show you the things, ok? Ok!

So Moss&Mink came out with a couple of fabulous additions recently... the first is "La Piche Moussue" in collaboration with the Peaches hot chocolate set that I showed you somewhere.. maybe >Here< ? Anywho, the store is bloody gorgeous. So gorgeous that I'm keeping it full time on my homestead. Twice. Not only does it include the building which I've kinda shown in the first picture (you can unlink & remove the snowy top, so the store can be used throughout the seasons), but it also comes with matching inside pieces to mix & match too. There are three versions of the store, a white with red trim 'Nordic' version that is perfect for the Holiday season, the 'Worn' Blue shown, and a white and gold trim 'Clean' option... along with a selection of different coloured matching counters and displays.

There's also the super cute Sleigh, which has an unlinkable snow prim not shown. It has tons of animations in for both singles and couples, and I can see this being a welcome addition to any home or garden during the winter months.

In other stores, Miss Chelsea has provided this snug cardigan and tee combination in two colours (Sold separately) for 50L friday. Yah, it's Saturday, but I checked a couple of hours ago and it was still available for the special 50L price! I really love the detailing of Miss Chelsea's items, and this cardigan has such cute elbows I almost squealed!

The Native Urban Sneakers can be found at Uber, and have an insane colour hud! Well worth the price point, and definitely one to put in your shopping cart!

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi (I'm really not sure which one, but it's a liner and it's probably for LOGO head because that works with the omega system in the Genus head)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : Moon. Hair. // Consume 75L for The Saturday Sale

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Cardigan/Top : .miss chelsea. Tati Cardi For 50L Friday

Pants : Blueberry - Cake Leggings 

Sneakers : Native - MKJ Sneakers @ Uber

Poison, but tasty!

Pose : FOXCITY. Effortless V1-2 (Hand pose over-ridden by the glass)

Champagne : :::ChicChica::: Blackberry chammy 

Decor things : Apple - She's a real person but I have no idea what she's wearing. Sorry.

Madpea Bow Bells Boozer Gacha

+Half-Deer+ Twinkle Stringlights 

tarte. portland christmas tree (fir) @ N21

YO_People Talking

Not sure what's wrong with me today but I actually started setting this scene up before I went to bed last night, and now it's almost ridiculous o'clock and I've been doing this all day (I mean, I did also watch some random Ashton Kutcher film, and uh, cheese toastie my life away and stuffs, but yanno. Priorities). Also, stole Apple to be my obligatory blurred person who's really a person and not a mesh person who is also wearing a tarty dress so it doesn't look like i'm overdressed in the old persons club house pub. *breathes out*

ANYWAY, down below you can see more tones from the gorgeous new skin from Go&See called Eva, it's available at the mainstore and is exclusively for the Genus heads, howeverrrr! If you buy it at regular price, the skin costs 900L. If you're a member of the Go&See VIP group (which costs 50L to join), you get a massive discount on the skin and it'll only cost you 99L! BUT! You have to hurry, because the group is ONLY 50L until the end of the year!

Also, more specials is this absolutely stunning dress! It comes with a multitude of colours available in the hud, and it's a freaking group gift from Miss Chelsea! The Miss Chelsea group is 100L to join, and they come up with so many gifts plus leave the old ones out, it's well worth the fee.

Happy shopping, Spoonies!

xoxo

Shown are the tones Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy, Tan, Tropic and Choco!

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Go&See * Eva * ~ December Promo

Hair : VCO HAIR _  Juni 

Ears : L'Etre - basic mesh ears 

Eyes : LOTUS. ModifyMe Eyes 

Jewelry : EF: Gala @ Cosmopolitan

Dress : .miss chelsea. Nika Dress GROUP GIFT 

Pretty deep.

Pose : [ evoLove ] - Cup of Tea No3

Taken at my home, which is still unfinished!

Today I've found myself in a little bit of a spiral, and I want to address a potentially sensitive subject, after I preface with this : I use this blog as a place to vent. Rather than spreading hate and negativity across social media and in an attempt to slow down chinese whispers which seem to be so rife across SL,  I prefer to openly discuss my feelings through this space and hopefully come to a point where I reach an understanding with myself. This is never aimed specifically at one person. It's never meant to hurt, or "shade" anybody. If you feel personally attacked by anything I write, feel free to message me in world (LollipopLace) and if you can't because I've blocked you I wish you nothing but love and light but please leave me the eff alone, and find your way to understanding yourself and your relationships.

Ok. 

It's so easy to see something on flickr, on facebook, or on any other social media and be like "Hey, that's super amazing. I want that." and part of my "job" as a blogger is to try and evoke that kind of a reaction in people. Also, with SL being so fast to move with new trends, the level of events and the commitment we make as bloggers to showcase all these beautiful items that creators painstakingly make, it becomes difficult to know when something is inspired by, and when something is a direct copy.

More than a few times there have been other bloggers who use the same pose, or put an outfit from an event together the same way as me. I'm not upset over this... it's going to happen. I remember one time, about two years ago, a blogger left a really nasty comment on my flickr in regards to an outfit I'd put together. It hurt me so bad, because I wasn't even following this other person, so I literally had no idea we'd done things similarly and it took a little investigating to figure out they did in fact blog the same event. I deleted the comment, reached out in world and explained the situation and received silence as a response, which I guess is an response in of itself!

However, there have also been times that I have spent hours and hours making a scene, selecting the perfect pose, creating the lighting and editing a photograph I am incredibly proud of... only to have someone - sometimes someone I have helped in some way while creating my scene - use the same background I set up with very minor differences, without me even knowing and tbh, usually they do it better!

The constant influx of items and the demand to blog the most recent items, it can be really, really difficult to get inspiration. It's understandable that there will be occasions where pictures from multiple people will overlap. I try my hardest to reach out to people who have inspired me, to let them know and to make sure it's okay if I credit them on my silly little blog, firstly because I feel like it's the "right thing" to do, and secondly because it's so beautiful to receive a compliment, even if the compliment comes from a stranger - I want to be that stranger!

Still, it seems that while this is something I attempt to do, very few people will give credit where credit is due. It's beautiful that so many people will credit their items to the creators, to give love and appreciation to those who make virtual items... but what about those who make ideas? Who set a wheel in motion in your brain? Don't they deserve credit, too?

It's all love here, seriously. I'm often floored by the work that SL residents can create, and I will always stand by that ideal. There's no doubt that there have been moments where something has sparked an idea in my head and I have not credited them because we scroll so fast through our social media we don't even recognize where the idea came from. 

Anywho, that's my rant/vent/nonsense for today.

Enjoy! 

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Festive Shadow @ N21

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : tram H1219 hair @ Uber

Hair piece : tram -Star Accessory

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Outfit & Boots : .miss chelsea. Juni Set @ Uber

Romance isn't dead.

Pose : Amitie Comfy 01m @ Vanity Event

Decor : junk. hester's attic couch. antique.

Mutresse-Peeking-Shortie Cats (Gacha)

-tres blah- Hodgepodge - Wine Duet (gacha)

DRD - Boho Princess - Carpet - A

Merry Christmasthings!

In the UK we call the day after Christmas "Boxing Day". I don't know why. Maybe it's because we have so many lovely new presents we spend the day smothered in boxes? Perhaps it's because we all secretly want to punch our beloved family in the face? WHO KNOWS! Let's ask google.

-wanders off-

Ok. So. Apparently I was terribly wrong, and it was either a 'Christmas Bonus' for servants who had worked Christmas day, or the distribution of 'Poor boxes' from churches. You can find a bunch more detail in this article > here <. Personally, I still kinda like the idea of a dramatic family feud based somewhere in the past when boys still wore newspaper flat hats and men were mostly found donned in suits and ties. 

Whatever you're celebrating today, I hope this finds you happy and healthy, with a renewed love of your chosen tribe. 

xoxo

All of the things! :

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Eyeshadow : Veechi - Festive Shadow @ N21

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Hair : *Besom~ Wok Bun

Top : -Narcisse- Eve Bralette (Previously at the Seduction Event)

Tattoo : DAPPA - Pleasures Tattoo. @ Kinky Event (28th Dec)

Panties : From the erratic / diana - lingerie Set

Where my home is.

Pose : Tifa Poses : it's beginning to look alot like christmas 

Decor : hive // christmas tree farm

Mesh peoples : YO_V.boy-004

YO_V.Winter_People

YO_People Talking

HPMD* Dirt Road - snowy

Various Pine Trees from : .:Bee Designs:.  

tarte. @ N21

3DTrees

--ANHELO-T04RD-17CGA :: christmas 2017 (red)

I've had this idea in my head for so ages, but finding a pose was exceptionally difficult... and then when i found the pose, the tree that came with it was all sorts of weird, and i had to resize a massive landscaping tree and OMG all the random oddness. Haha.

Anywho, Durex is back... HURRAY!! I gotta admit I really love how he looks in this! I have no idea why he's shirtless in the cold - some people are just bonkers, and as he's technically me I feel like this goes without saying. 

I've used some mesh peoples in this picture, and the inspiration behind that comes from someone who's pictures I often admire from afar. Geena Carminucci can be found on flickr and on her blog. I thoroughly believe in giving credit where it's due, and if you don't know this amazingly talented lady's work, where the fuck have you been and what are you doing with your life?

I loveeee my facebook at the moment. So much absolute positivity, amazingly talented people sharing their artwork and general a feeling of love and community, and even though I'll always be a bit of a weird loner, I will ALWAYS long for more of these feels. 

Merry Christmas, ya filthy Spoonies (make this a thing, love it, pls).

xoxo

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin & Eyelashes : [okkbye] bunnie tone001 

Blush : TS Omega Cold Days Heart Blush Applier @ The Arcade

Blush 2 : Avoixs - Winter Blushes @ B U S A N

Hair & Hat : #Foxy - Teddy. @ Kustom9 

Jacket : Native - Drift Jacket @ TMD

Pants : Native - Groove Pants All Colors

Sneakers : FLITE. Retro Gliders V2 

All of the things, Durex : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Cap : 10_BlankLine Killer Gacha [Cap] white @ TMD

Ears : [MANDALA]STRETCHED_Ears_Season2 HUMAN

Nails in ear : [CX] Heavily Nailed (Group Gift)

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Tattoo : DAPPA -  Shiryo V2 Tattoo. @ Limit8

Jacket : 05_BlankLine Killer Gacha [Hoodie] black @ TMD

Sweatpants : CHUCK'S RENAN PANTS @ TMD

Sneakers : [ VERSOV ] MOUNTOV_BOOTS_@ TMD

A better time.

Pose, bowl & whisk : FOXCITY. Breakfast Bento Pose (Previously at Uber)

Decor (Hold on to your hats!) : {moss&mink} Christmas Cookie Mix for LTD Christmas, available @ the mainstore.

Sari-Sari - Gingerbread Men

dust bunny . at home baking . bag of sugar

DRD - The Bakers Fail - Cake Counter (Note : Sim Sale! Up to 75% off!)

Apple Fall Pan Rack

Apple Fall Handbag & Scarf

Mutresse-Fascinated-Witty Cats

Bazar - Torronto-Slippers

*Tentacio* Mia's bakery pet 1 (Gacha)

Taken in the Scarlet Creative Magicae House

Season's Greetings Spoonies! (I've decided that I need a name for you lovely readers, you can thank my new-found adoration of Youtube and tutorials, and the fact that people like James Charles call their supporters and subscribers SISTERS and uh, things.)

Today I am actually thrilled with the way this picture came out. I love it all, so excuse me while I toot my own horn reveling in the lighting and basically everything. I really hope I'm turning a corner with my photography, sometimes I feel like I 'get it' and other times it just falls a bit short. 

Durex has popped up again, so make sure you say hi! He's obviously me. So basically I'm just asking you to pay attention to me twice. *blinks*

I slept too much today which has led me to being awake at 3am, and writing this absolutely insane blog post. However, things are better than good for me right now, and I am genuinely okay. I feel like it's been a while since I could say that and mean it, so that's really, really lovely.

If you're struggling, just know you're not alone. Know that there are others who have been in similar shoes, and you are strong enough to get through whatever trials you're currently facing.

I truly believe in flipping that switch in your brain from "Oh no, I can't." to "Oh, maybe one day." to "Fuck yes, I can!", just remember, it's not gonna happen over night, and despite taking two steps forwards and one step back... you're making progress and that deserves to be celebrated.

xoxo

Let's not talk about Pickle's lazy eyes, ok? Thankyousomuch. ♥

All of the things, Durex : 

Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body

Skin : Not Found - Robert Skin 

Head :  CATWA HEAD Skell

Hair : [INK] Hair_TAIT @ TMD

Beard & Scar : IDTTY Faces - Sharp Beard [CUT]

Tattoo : DAPPA - Descend Tattoo. @ ManCave

Sweatpants : Lenox Arctic Pants @ TMD

All of the things, Pickle : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Head : GENUS Project (babyface)

Skin : Insol: Nina applier @ Kustom9 

Hair : bonbon - vina hair - (FREE GIFT!)

Ears : L'Etre - Crystal mesh ears 

Bra top : BUENO-Crochet Bikini 

Dress : *Tentacio* Mia's bakery dress (Gacha) - (Note : This is made for maitreya, but i managed to fit it over my belleza freya shape with minimal clipping (countered with my body hud). The bra included with the dress does NOT fit belleza freya)

We fly.

Poses (Left to right) : Ima - FOXCITY. Glitz-4

Pickle - .HG. Daisy 6 (Stockings not included!)

Nana - FOXCITY.  Dolls-3m  (Fatpack exclusive)

Props & Decor : The SandMan Pirate & The SandMan in California by Antreas Alter

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Christmas Tree (pastel) RARE

Boudoir Merry Christmas Road Sign (Gacha)

{what next} Holiday Wreath

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Gift Pile (classic AND pastel)

{what next} Nordic Stockings

{what next} Nordic Lantern (small)

*insert squealing sounds right here*

Yaaaasssss! 

Meet some of the ladies from my little SL Family!

Ima is my Memaw! She's a super cute neko lady with a big heart. I only met her recently and I already feel a genuine kinship with her! She's kinda loud, but not (remind you of anyone?) and she dances to the beat of her own drum. I adore her muchly and I'm excited to find out where our newfound friendship will lead.

Nana is my SL MamaBear, which is kind of odd, because in RL I could actually be HER Mama. Still, despite the age gap, she really does provide some of the best advice I've ever had. She's definitely wise beyond her years, with a self awareness that makes me envious - how dare you be so smart and savvy when it's taken me this long, woman! Nana and I have been family for almost a whole year, but it's really only been recent that we've actually become friends, and I legit could not be happier that she is in my life. Her sunny disposition is without doubt catching, and she inspires me to be a better version of myself. Love you both, you crazy, wonderful, amazing ladies!

You can find Ima as Imajica Vemo in world, on Flickr and at her Blog.

And Nana as iNaomiBubbles in world, on Flickr and her Blog.

We're having a bit of a tropical Christmas in this picture, which was a bit of a challenge! I literally had so much fun taking this, with Nana's afking and a long talk with Ima, getting to know her more. This is one of my favourite pictures because of the memories that have been forged and the strength in the relationships that is coming my way with these beautiful women.

Also, AHHH  it's nearly Christmas!

xoxo

All of the things : 

Body Hands & Feet: -Belleza- Freya

Skin : Insol: Seo applier, tone 'Tanned' 

Head : CATWA Catya

Eyes : Hayaru - Jung mesh eyes

Eyeliner : -SU!- [HUD] Essential Eyeliners (Gacha)

Ears : Mug - Santa Ears @ Limit8

Glasses : *PKC* Nerdy Christmas Glasses- Christmas Tree

Hair : DOUX - Samantha Hairstyle 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Lame Tattoo. @ SaNaRae (Open on the 26th Dec)

Necklace : ROSSI. Lock Pendant Necklace Set

Bikini : Xxxtasi Krissy Bikini

Shoes : #EMPIRE - Alexandrite 

On my feed.

Pose : MVT - Handmade Christmas 05 @ Ebento

Decor : {moss&mink} Snugglebed Adult

{moss&mink} All that Glitters - Christmas Tree (classic) RARE

{moss&mink} Joy Wall art (classic) - VIP Gift

THINGS!

Today I remind myself of the phrase "Those who mind, don't matter and those who matter, don't mind."

Have a beautiful day.

xoxo

I took an extra picture with no edits to the avatar, in CAIWL.

All of the things : 

Body : -Belleza- Freya

Head :  CATWA HEAD Catya

Skin : Go&See * lily * For Powder Pack

Eyes :   LOTUS. Motion Eyes

Ears : Mug - Santa Ears @ Limit8

Hair : Sintiklia  -Hair Eliza  @ Tres Chic

Necklace : (Yummy) Jingle Bell Necklace 

Tattoo : DAPPA - Bad Girl @ Seduction

Shirt : Pseudo- Eve Cardigan @ Collabor88