Super short one today because the whole vlog ordeal made me so anxious I'm kinda exhausted... plus Potato Man's internet seems to be stable atm so I'm literally making grabby hands at him!
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : [SIGNATURE] Gianni - Mesh Body
I've wanted to get into vlogs for the longest time, but my confidence was pretty much shot and I really didn't believe I could do it. Yesterday, however, I spent the entire day figuring out how to do this.
It's pretty basic, I uhm and er a lot, I need to work on the volume and there's very light editing and no music... however, I think this is a pretty decent start... the only way is up, right?
I often forget about the Lelutka heads, but then I put one on and suddenly, it brings back how much I abso-freaking-lutley adore them. Every single head I've purchased from them (and I now have at least five) has bought something new.. no matter how small, and each time they up their game I'm at a loss for words. Needless to say when I saw the new Go&See skin specifically for the new brand of Lelutka heads, I made big ol' grabby hands for it!
I also decided to do the Slink body with the petite add-on for mah bewbies. I LOVE playing with (myself? LOL) my avatar, creating shapes that I believe to be fairly realistic.. and the petite add-on for the Slink helps me achieve that as I was never keen on the way the hourglass body breasts protruded.. but I am a huge fan of this shape. It's fair to say this was inspired not only by the new Go&See skin, but also Muggleborn, who go above and beyond to rig for bodies and augments that not every creator manages to include.
I probably don't say this enough, but I am SO amazingly grateful for all the beautiful brands that trust me with their creations, without their items, I'm almost certain my creativity would have been stunted as often I need a little push!
xoxo
Oh look! TONES! \o/
Starting at the top left, there's Albi, Goth, Pale, Witchy
Bottom left, Tan, Tropic, Choco, Cola and I think a new tone (?) Dusky
All of the things :
Body : Slink Physique Hourglass Mesh Body & Petite chest augment Head : LeLutka Bento Head-PIPER 3.3 Skin : Go&See * Gwen * Lelutka ~ Powder Pack [2.19] Eyes : -SU!- Medora Eyes /Glitch Wasted/ (Gacha) Hair :tram I0210 hair @ Uber Necklace & Armbands : Avada~ Theodora Necklace & Cassia Armband @ The Secret Affair Feathers : .aisling. Velasco Nipple piercings : - Fika - Imprison Piercing Dress :+MB+ Rosalee Dress @ Whore Couture (Opens March 1st LM to follow, demo in mainstore) Nails : Ascendant - Pretentious Nails 01
I blame Narcisse for this extremely over-the-top Harry Potter themed post today. If the gorgeous little Seeker Necklace had never been dropped, I could have avoided this nonsense, instead, I went full Potter-head and grabbed a bunch of HEXtraordinary items too, because what's better than a little bit of Potter? A LOT OF POTTER!
I also feel like I could potentially be Harry & Hermione's lovechild, thanks to the glasses and the hair... but I'll leave that for you to decide.
I've got a pretty shitty track-record when it comes to walking away from people.
In the past, I have run screaming from those who thoroughly deserved my attention and into the arms of those who didn't. I've seen a side to something I can't quite compute, and walked briskly away, and there's even been a few times that I just walked away because they had told me something I wasn't ready to hear.
I make no secret of the fact I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and apparently this running screaming from the 'right' people thing is something that is quite common for people with BPD. Saying that, I'm also aware that people without the condition (?) also go through this, so then I was left with that "But when is it BPD and when it is RIGHT?" question, pretty much constantly.
Because of that question circling around in my brain, I've learned recently to just let it go. If it doesn't feel right, it doesn't matter if it's my mental illness or if it's a gut decision, after all, if i'm left with a sense of peace when the decision has been made, my life has been altered for the better.
I honestly feel like the amount of people I push from my life has altered dramatically. For a minute, I was chucking bodies left right and centre in an attempt to shovel away that bad feeling, when a lot of the bad feeling was coming from inside me. I've worked on myself (and I admit I'm a very basic work in progress, even after this last year of constant self reflection), and I'm learning my toxic traits and attempting to rectify them to the best of my ability. I will undoubtedly always have traits that certain people consider toxic and I'm never going to be able to please everyone, but for my benefit I feel like I need to leave less of a trail of destruction in my path and aim for more rainbows and butterflies.
Hurt people hurt people, and I don't want to hurt anymore, and I definitely never mean to hurt anyone else.
On that note, have a great weekend, and go grab some quality gear from our favourite SL creators!
xoxo
Revoul have come out with the beautiful Chun Skin. My favourite tone is the RE10, which is the second on the left, but all of these are beautiful! \o/
I'm boy-Pickle today. I'm not sure if you're aware, but Muggleborn adds the option of 'pouches' to most of their clothing so that it can be worn realistically by femboys and ladies with penises. I'm all for diversity in SL, so this makes my heart very happy.
xoxo
All of the things :
Body, Hands & Feet : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara & [V-Tech]Boi Chest Mod For Maitreya
Background : FOXCITY. #MOOD Gacha - 5 - Staged (Common) @ Backdrop City
As I was editing this last night I was talking to two of my friends in SL that I consider family.
For me, family in SL has always been a difficult label to achieve. I've had families in the past and it's caused nothing but trouble - in fact, I'm still healing from one of my SL families, and that sounds insane to say for something that is supposed to be a game. However, these two friends of mine are my Glam-ma (Memaw) and Grandpa (Pepaw). I had a bit of a mental health revelation last night and just needed to talk, and luckily, these two beautiful souls were right there and listened.
Not only did they listen to me, but they also shared their own journeys, and they made me feel like I wasn't alone, as though I truly belonged around them, and like I could turn to them, no matter what.
I jokingly said that the photo above got all those feels edited into it, and the more I think about it, the better I feel like there couldn't be a more true statement. I feel like the Pickle shown in the picture is confident, loves and accepts herself, and those are feels that my 'family' confirmed. My grandpa actually asked me "What is your worth, Pickle?" and I answered "Well, I'm getting there, but I'm still working that out." and he said "No. You're priceless. That's how I see you, and that's how I want you to see yourself."
And now I'm gratefully sobbing into my keyboard at the unselfish show of love both of these beautiful humans managed to share with me last night and every time we speak.
I hope you find your tribe, Spoonies. They're out there, sometimes it just takes a minute to find them.
Hey, have you seen how interactive the Evani Skirt is? Ok, so it's also a reason to stare at my butt, but hello! How cool is this? It comes with a hud so you can black/whitelist the avatars you actually want to be able to use your skirt, or you can keep it public and let anyone lift the skirt. Kinda love it!
I'm super sleepy in the face today, I think maybe the weekend is catching up with me.. so maybe it's early nights for Pickle for a while? I mean, probably not, but I'll lay it out there and pretend like I'm sensible.
Information that goes here is not here, cus of reasons. -blinks-
So yesterday, my rl daughter turned 16. I officially am OLD. I mean, I'm okay with that, but I'm definitely not okay with the fact that my only baby is now half an adult and legally allowed to do a lot of things I'm not sure I even understand yet... but I'm learning to deal with that! Anyways, that's kinda why you missed a post from me yesterday. We had a delicious meal at a lovely restaurant with the rest of the family, and there were no melt downs (even from my 10 month old niece, yay Harper!), and everyone came home sleepy happy with the fooditis.
In SL news, Essences has completely redone their skin tones, which means you lucky Spoonies get a look at the entire new range, I know, I know... Pickle, you're always making us read, whyyy? Because I know that you secretly want all of the information, right? Maybe not, but if that's the case just look at the pretties and scroll down for all the details!
xoxo
These are the new tones from Essences! Starting top left, there's E1, E2, E3, E4 and on the lower row, E5, E6, E7, E8. I've also chosen to show you all the Lotus eye options too, because that worked so well in the last skin tone thing I did and hey, might as well carry on with being pretend organized, right? (Not like i've been writing this since 10am this morning or anything *cough*)
Anywho, tap the picture to make the picture bigger, or scroll down even moaarrrr to find out where all this stuff is at so you can be adorable, too!
I am so freakin' proud of this picture. Once I found out that the theme behind this lingerie set was Burlesque, I immediately knew I wanted to do something fun and feisty, and stumbling across this pose just made me squeal with all the happy.
